Wisebaxter

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  1. Hi guys, the date for my first LSD trip (150ug) will be Christmas Eve, late afternoon. This will see me tripping into the early hours of Christmas Day, which I feel is a perfect tribute to the sage Jesus Christ. I will have Christmas Day to integrate before I travel on shadowfax to my family for boxing day as Wisebaxter the White. The door will swing open upon their festivities and a blinding light will fill the room.
  2. Anyone messed around with Chat GPT-4's image creator? There's something deeply satisfying about having a mental image then seeing it come to life. Here are some of my favourites. See if you can guess anything about me from them Here's one for free - I love Ninjas! Would love to see what you guys can come up with in this thread!
  3. Ok here's me without weed, on day one: Very focused on anxious thoughts, pretty much constantly Lack of concentration on Uni work, keep needing some kind of dopamine fix from somewhere else, like dating apps or Instagram. Bored Irritated Kind of empty, like nothing is that stimulating, Lonely Sad Uninspired. It's like nothing really matters me. Chatting on dating apps was still fun though and stimulating to a degree. Purely stimulating things like instagram still did their job. Don't give a fuck about making music. Almost yearning for Bumble messages, like I needed them like a drug. Everything feels like a chore, more motivation needed. Couldn't be fucked to clean my room. Bare scowl Didn't exercise Even writing this is infinitely more dull than the list from yesterday above. Look at the difference in the two posts in terms of detail No drive, no ambition, no juice, like a lemon that's been run over by a tank (that made me smile) This is what I'm noticing as the main difference now, the lack of drive, passion and motivation. it's pulpable Writing this list is cheering me up a bit. It's helping to shine a light on it all. Weed = magical world. No weed = mundane world. Lack of excitement. Really I'm just writing the opposite of the last list. Missing Lucie, whereas if I had weed I'd forget about her. I could distract myself from these thoughts a lot easier. It might be bollocks but I feel might be a bit more grounded. Also more caring of other people's feelings and less likely to waste my time and get drawn down rabbit holes of stimulation. Could it be that the intensity of the weed creates more opportunities for procrastination? Right now I'm wondering if I feel a bit...'fresher,' also a bit more...levelled. I'm enjoying the break from the intoxication. I applied for a job as I was so fucking bored anyway as I may as well. I'd be bored doing anything so many as well chose the most productive task to be bored with
  4. @Adrian colby That's bloody brilliant. Can I ask how you achieved that? Was is a specific program?
  5. @BojackHorseman Trying to understand their genesis sounds like a worthwhile endeavour. Ultimately a therapist would be able to help, surely? Also I'm wondering what chat GPT would throw up. Let's have a look: ChatGPT "It's important to recognize that human sexuality is complex and multifaceted, and there isn't always a single, clear-cut explanation for why someone develops particular sexual preferences or kinks. While some people may be able to trace aspects of their sexuality back to specific experiences or relationships in their past, for many others, the reasons may be more elusive or multifactorial. It's also worth noting that sexual preferences and kinks can be influenced by a wide range of factors, including biology, culture, personal experiences, and individual psychology. While some individuals may find that certain experiences or relationships from their past contribute to their sexual preferences, others may not find any direct correlation. In terms of the relationship between sexual preferences and broader aspects of one's life, it's possible that there may be some connections or overlaps, but again, these relationships can be complex and highly individualized. For some people, aspects of their sexuality may play a role in shaping their identity or relationships, while for others, their sexuality may be more compartmentalized from other areas of their life. Regarding your experience of enjoying both feminine traits and femdom, it's not uncommon for individuals to have diverse or seemingly contradictory sexual interests. Human sexuality is incredibly diverse, and there's no one "right" way to experience it. Many people find that their sexual preferences evolve and change over time, and it's perfectly normal to have a range of interests and desires. If you're struggling to remember significant aspects of your childhood or parents, it may be helpful to explore this further with a therapist or counselor who can provide support and guidance. While childhood experiences can certainly influence aspects of our adult lives, it's also important to remember that our identities and experiences are constantly evolving, and it's never too late to explore and understand ourselves better"
  6. @BojackHorseman good question, I have kinks related to buttholes and toilet stuff The interesting thing is they were with me very early on, before I had any actual experiences. I remember trying to sniff my cat's butt when I was very very young and I had a dream that Teela from he-man peed on my face. What I'm saying is, I think they've always been with me. I was born with them. I like what @Yimpasaid about being shamless. It's very hard for though as my kink is so out there. Anyway my point was that you may have been born with your kinks and there's no psychological reason as such Her lack of leg-wear was essential for manoeuvrability
  7. I was making an image showing an orchestrator working with players and it seems that AI has no conception of people's personal boundaries although saying that, she does look uncomfortable. Maybe he thinks he has personal space 'chad' allowances. Also, look at the length of his finger. This dude has had finger extensions to give himself a competitive advantage with women
  8. @Yimpa As the old adage goes, ask a man about something he's passionate about and he'll talk your ear off, you've found my sweet spot friend. Here then is a video I've made for you on the topic, to honour your curiosity. If you would like the short version and don't have time for such things - you can use certain VR apps as power tools to create environments for strategic thinking and conceptualising. In the video I show you Noda and Horizon Workspaces. Noda is basically mind mapping in VR and it's the 'shit.' You will be Tom Cruise in Minority Report. Watch the video though G
  9. Someone recommended increasing my musical 'palette' as a composer. I made this to upload to my VR workroom and inspire me
  10. Nice channel, enjoying working my way through your videos You have a very nice voice to listen to and you're easy on the eye too!
  11. I've been hopelessly addicted to weed for about 25 years. I'm trying to understand the addiction to help myself quit. Here's a a reflection on how I feel when high: Calm, easier to focus, especially on activities that are usually challenging or mundane Happier More Excited. Everything around me seems cooler, more colourful. I marvel at life more. I feel more of a sense of fight, like I want to fight, am fighting, can achieve what I want. I seem my dreams and visions more clearly. Even now I feel inspired on it, more inspired to give up weed. It’s like I can envisage the story of my triumph. The anxiety feels more intense, or differently intense at the very least. Less pleasant. Feel more ‘myself’ on it, Like more of a hippy, more chilled man. Everything is chill, mellow, no need to stress Beauty feels more prevalent and envelops my senses more. Able to focus more on tasks Feel like more of a badass. I like myself more. I’m on a mission, growing rising, expanding. My body feels nicer, more relaxed, like it’s wrapped cotton wool. It’s like I’m getting a hug from the universe I tend to stay focused on the present moment more and working towards the future. More action taking My environment or life situation feels less oppressive. My room feels cosy instead of depressing. It’s like it changes the lens I see through, alters my perception of it, or just makes it more inconsequential as I’m doing stuff. I’m less reflective and I don’t turn inwards as much. Life feels more transcendent and less common place and mundane. When I’m sober it’s drudgery, boring old ‘life,’ with it’s challenges, trying to motivate myself to do work, feel good, control my experience. It’s easy, just get high, I’m good. I feel life’s comforts more, baths, food, presence, sounds. I enjoy them more, I’m more intimate with them, so my life feels more enriched and enjoyable, rather than not stimulating me. Music works with the weed to completely relax and uplift me. Everything is less effort. Even getting out of bed. There’s just no inspiration there without it. Why would I want to create now, it doesn’t stimulate me, it’s just boring. I chose a boring career than I can only do when I’m high? Or it could be an exciting career but now it feels boring as there’s a tangible drop in enjoyment. Now it’s a chore, like everything else. Work. My creativity doesn’t please or excite me. I don’t listen back to music and think ‘I’m doing it, I’m winning, this is so cool.’ More optimistic. Life is more magical and divine. There is no sober God, there is just a hard world. There are so many fun things I could do. VR, go for a walk, write a book, do some work. It’s hard to choose. Sober, they all require effort. There are few balms for sobriety, other than weed. Everything is brighter, prettier, cooler, more magnificent. My apple keyboard, my Eiffel towel. Objects have more beauty and wonder. So does the world, a tree, something in the gutter. I’m more grateful and happy to be alive. It’s all such a marvel. I’m more playful. Linked to creativity? Now isn't this a great list to persuade myself to buy weed? What I'm wondering is, how much of that could I experience sober, if I knew how or gave up for long enough? How much of it is purely attributable to the drugs? What I'm worried about is life being boring if I give it up. What's the point? I've given it up for 7-8 months max from time to time and things might get a little better but when I smoke again, man, I remember how good it feels. I'm Back home. Right now a lack of creativity would really be an issue for me as I'm doing a creative MA. But what the hell is the point of doing a career I constantly need to be high for anyway? Maybe I should get through the course first at least. But I'm low on money and rent is due. It's not a logical, rational move to buy drugs. This time I can make the decision to stop and be sensible, rather than having it forced upon me. that should be empowering.
  12. @DefinitelyNotARobot Well I usually just project all of my past pain onto the other person and self sabotage until it's ruined, so you could do the opposite of that, which would look like examining every trigger and realising where the projection comes from. Compassion will be key, as sometimes they'll project onto you and you'll feel pain that might make you want to lash out. When emotions get hot, mistakes happen. Allow each other space to process feelings and don't keep poking the bear. Work through 'Shadow Dance' by David Rico together. New events will be perceived through the lens of past pain, fears and assumptions. Unconditional love and authentic communication will be key. Acknowledging judgements, knowing when to acknowledge them out loud and when to just work on yourself. Sometimes we get unconsciously frustrated with someone and passively aggressively give them little bits of advice, masked as loving gestures or 'care.' Really we just want them to change as it suits our survival needs more. Pre-empt conflict flashpoints and proactively take action so they don't take you by surprise. The less conflicts that arise through simple day to day issues that may cause tension, the less opportunity there is for our inner child or pain body to get triggered. This could be something like her standards for tidiness vs yours. I swear to God this pretty much killed my last relationship and was a constant source of tension, that she didn't think I pulled my weight with chores. It could also be making sure deep values you both have aren't taken for granted. Like, is she driven by travel and new experiences whereas you like the comfort of familiar surroundings? Is she fundamentally very sociable whereas you're more introverted? Contemplation and what I call 'future mindedness' will help. I like your garden analogy. There's a certain pleasure in removing weeds and it can be productive, but you have to know when it's overkill and it's time to stop, like @universe said, be present and have fun together.
  13. @Yimpa Sick bro, I Love that! Like a meta-image that explains the concept of using images. Thanks for the effort, definitely keeping that one. Here's one inspired by 80's horror films. Best thing about these images is you can use them commercially
  14. @Rafael Thundercat Amazing how an image can solidify a concept in your head so much more. Could be a good personal development tool that serves as a visual aid or a cue to cultivate something else, or more preferable etc
  15. Is this too much to ask? Most women seem to hate both weed and games. My fantasy is to be able to sit with them, get blazed, play some games and fool around. Anyone ever met any girls like this?
  16. @Rafael Thundercat What a beautiful couple. This one warms my heart. I don't know what they're doing exactly but I like it as it involves gardening and some kind of digital technology. Are they building a plant somehow?
  17. @Yimpa that made me happy, thanks. That's how I'm hoping things will go for me if I keep working hard on my studies and not having a life.
  18. @meta_maleThanks buddy, I appreciate you taking the time to give me that advice. I need to do a Joe Dispenza special and change who I am somehow, rewire myself to enjoy socialising. Quality time with women and people in general. Yeah I like the sound of that. My relationships have been shit because they haven't been formed on any foundation. I've also be focused mainly focused on sex and just too driven by that aspect of things and not on who that person actually is. I was just trying to get laid and happened to get stuck with them as it's easy to form a quick connection with sex and fool yourself. It would be nice to just put all of that to one side and form some deeper connections based on more. I bet the love I could experience would be so much more profound.
  19. @meta_male Encouraging then I really need to get myself out there more. If I really wanted to find a girl like that I could be strategic about it. I'm thinking the Metaverse might be a good place. If they're on VR they're probably gamers. I could see if there's a stoner hang out.
  20. @Noahsteelers34 Tried visualisations for what you want or see happening? Play it out in your mind first and create plans for different scenarios you see playing out. You can even create some nervousness or awkwardness.
  21. Your masterpiece, at least my favourite of yours so far. @Rafael Thundercat
  22. @Yimpa Thanks for taking the to help. I'll see if anything like that exists.
  23. Oh man this made me smile. Gotta love Leo
  24. @Noahsteelers34 Can you play the guitar or sing at all? If not might be worth learning some basic chords and practicing. You could be the musician walking around campus with a guitar on this shoulder. The guitar will shape your identity as a cool, aloof type, or a tortured soul they have to win over so you can show your sensitive side. Women go wild for musicians. Learn to freestyle on the guitar so you can sing them funny songs about themselves and make them laugh. I did this with a girl once who played guitar too and it worked a charm. You might need something to set you apart like that. Arrange an open mic night in the student union and have it be like that scene from back to the future. Or just wow them with an easy cover and they'll think you're a genius. If you're out hunting poon, they'll sniff you out. You have a cool look about you as well. Some good style. You already look like a musician so maybe you are. Cultivate a cool hobby and play a strategic game, don't be like the other dudes trying the direct approach. Softly softly catchy monkey
  25. @Emotionalmosquito Yes that's right Lot's of fun to be had with that.