Wisebaxter

Damn that sounds nightmarish. Shame your ex partner had to say that. I'm sure it was exactly what you didn't need to hear at that point. There's nothing worse in this world than when you're freaking out already and someone throws fuel on the fire like that. Weed is nasty shit indeed when you're hooked on it. I had a 20 year chronic habit that I've only kicked recently since watching Leo's videos, starting meditation and having a clear vision for who I want to be. The panic attacks were a great motivator there too. Did this happen to you recently then, with the CBD oil? Jeez....that sounds intense. When you say retrained...you mean they retrained him to take mushrooms without freaking out?

@Charlotte Sorry to hear about the panic attacks. They're awful things. I started to get them really badly when smoking skunk, which is why I stopped smoking it a short time ago. It sounds like that mushroom trip might have given you what you needed anyway. It opened the door for you so to speak and now you can get there again through spiritual practices, cool That's interesting though isn't it, that you had the same experience through self inquiry. It definitely proves that mushrooms are a short cut to a non-dual experience. Can't wait to try them myself.

Sounds like you a spiritual mentor to guide you, that's awesome. When I imagine a 15 year old taking mushrooms I imagine them screwing around with their mates in the park or something, so that wasn't what I was expecting. Sounds like you had a non-dual experience. How come it was your last full trip? Don't feel obliged to answer if it's personal.

@TheAvatarState So you must have been very happy to find Actualized.org then. Like you were coming home to your family @Charlotte At 15? Wow. you started early! What insights did you get? Care to share?

@TheAvatarState I'd never really considered psychedelics before finding Actualized.org as I've never been much of a party animal and didn't know they could be used for personal development and enlightenment work. Did your consciousness still get raised though, despite the ego you mentioned and lack of Leo in your life?

@Rilles Yeah the universe will guide you and you'll know when the time is right. The intention is already alive in you. God wants to awaken fully...

@Rilles Yeah damn good point. In a way I'm looking forward to my second trip more than my first as I'll know what to expect, y'know? It really is like losing your virginity lol. Let's just hope it's not over as quickly Haha. When do you think you'll be doing your first trip?

@peanutspathtotruth Excited to share it with you buddy. Yeah I'm feeling the love big time. If this is what LSD does to people then I'm pumped for this shit! lol. Although I'm sure you guys were super awesome even before you started tripping, of course

@SgtPepper Cool man, thanks for the heads-up. I'm noting all this stuff down

Just to re-iterate guys the date of my voyage will be around mid January. I'll post a definite date as soon as I have one. You guys are the best, so helpful. Love this community

Thanks for the words of encouragement. I really feel like I'm stepping into the unknown and there's a sense of nervous trepidation mixed with intense excitement at this new phase of my journey. That music's awesome dude, just having a listen now. I'll follow your advice for sure and work that into my trip when the time is right. Thanks Charlotte, that's a really kind gesture. If shits gets crazy I'll definitely PM you nice to know I have you in my corner if needed

@Sockrattes Haha yeah man, I'm not gonna be taking the trip until after Christmas, mid-January time. I have a bit more prep to do, some research to undertake, getting my self-enquiry and contemplation habit fully underway, setting my intention, writing down the questions I want to ask. Plus I a bit more money for the hotel, which I'll get at the end of the month. I'm also reading a great work of fiction from Leo's booklist about a guy who hangs out with this mecixan dude and smokes a load of Datura. It has loads of great tips in it for tripping. Don't know if I can mention the name of the book though as can't remember if Leo's mentioned it in his videos, or just on his book list. I'll use this thread to let you guys know the exact date and then I'll post to let you know I'm good and include a trip report. Thanks for checking up on me.

Man that sounds incredible. I love those huskies. That sounds like a truly divine experience. I'm very happy to be guided by people like yourself with so much experience. Yeah I'm making my tripping playlist as we speak. Fluid, ethereal music - hell yeah! I did find some Norse folk music I liked - but do you think this is too heavy?

@Serotoninluv My heart is telling me to stay inside as I'm really wanting inner growth from this trip, but I'll just go with what comes up on the day. This will be the beginning of a long and prosperous career in psychedelics as I work my way up to 5-MeO DMT so I'll have a nice day out at some point in the countryside tripping. Ah bless you dude! I'll be sure to remember all you guys in my non-dual state

Well that's that then. I won't focus on what might go wrong and create a self fulfilling prophecy. I'll nurture the excitement I'm feeling and petition the universe to give me a glimpse of the Ox

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@isabel @outlandish That's interesting, both you guys have suggested I might want to get out of the hotel room for a breather. I hadn't really considered that as I read that being outside can make it a less introspective experience as you become distracted with what's going on around you. I kind of wanted to just focus on contemplating, meditation and throwing questions at the universe etc, but 12 hours is a long time to be stuck in doors...so I'll try and make sure the hotel is near somewhere nice. I was going to stay at Travel Lodge as they're cheap but they're really the lowest of the low and maybe too cramped. I might try and stretch to something a bit nicer. @John Lula Thanks for the tip John. I don't have the funds to attend a Vipassana retreat right now and I really want to crack on with taking this stuff so I guess I'll be taking the plunge. I'm going to make sure I set my intention properly, go into it with a clear head, confident and relaxed and like Isabel said, just expect things to go well. The outer world is a reflection of my mind anyway so if I'm confident and do some visualisations of how I want it to go down, I have a feeling it'll be cool

@Serotoninluv Thanks for the practical advice. All noted. Nice to know about the stages thing. Will help me through any tougher periods. @Sven I'll be tripping alone as there's nobody I can think of to sit with me. Also I'm not sure I'd want anyone there as they would probably distract me from going deep inside myself. But I can only surmise with this @ajasatya Awesome trip report. That's the kind of trip I'd want to experience. Sounds like it was life changing for him. Best line is 'I saw so much beauty in a vagabond's eyes.'

Yeah I did consider taking a smaller dose, but I feel I'll be diaaspointed if it turns out to be less than mind blowing. There's nobody I can call to talk me down. My girlfriend will freak out if I call her as she's already worried about me doing it. I'll be on my own so I'll just focus on my breath and take some chilled music with me. Is this what hapenned to you? Your skin melted off?

@peanutspathtotruth hey thanks for the advice, really appreciated. I think I'll spend every day from now until I trip just being as mindful as possible and in touch with the moment. I'll be sure to remember your advice concerning my breath as well. Great to have that to fall back on

@Strikr Thanks Strikr, see you on the other side

@Serotoninluv Sounds great. I've just started a thread on preparing for this experience and asking whether I've done enough, so any hope over on that thread would be appreciated

I'm not sure what led you to believe I'm anxious. I'm very excited. Maybe a little anxious perhaps, but only a natural amount considering I'm taking a new substance. I've only been meditating seriously for about 3 months but I've spent years doing personal development. Oh well, into the fray as they say. Thanks for the cautious note. Taking the substance with someone else is out of the question as I've taken the path of the hermit and don't have anyone I can use for such a task. I've smoked large amounts of weed and had plenty of panic attacks and white outs from doing that so I think can handle it. You guys are making me a little nervous though, lol

Thanks man. How can I prepare myself for not attaching to beliefs? Just do plenty of meditation leading up to it?

@Hellspeed Yeah Sadhguru does mention this, that you need less sleep when your consciousness raises. That's so cool. Just something else for me to look forward to then. @ZZZZ Thanks buddy! Yeah it's so exciting. My LSD arrived in the post today, 4 neat little squares I'm gonna book a hotel room for next month and go for it. I'm hoping to see a psychedelic coloured Ox with a naked Emma Watson riding on it's back, but I won't get my hopes up 'Jump on Wisebaxter! Let's go for a ride.' Haha na Just a glimpse of something Ox-like would be fine. Throw all theory out - good tip. I'll prepare by getting in touch with 'being' more. Have you done many psychedelics?