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@The Don aye similar thing happened with me. Except I wasn't depressed I was just psychotic. It's an incredibly strong motivator to continue the path for me. If I stop, I suffer

I don't have a personal experiential realisation of any of this yet but I have a feeling everything happens for a reason. During peek awareness, everything is perfect I find. So I think everything happens for a reason. Duno tho

@zeroISinfinity defo

I'm speaking a lot less, thinking a lot less. It feels as though there is nothing to say, only that there is my self to realise. I've been so quiet on the form here I didn't even realise I hadn't posted in 3 or 4 months. Every now and again my consciousness shifts and I feel everything in my perception bow down to me. In these moments all I can describe it is like a "deepening". Starting DMT retreats soon (Sunday). I'm also noticing all of my evil side. It isint the nicest thing to have to see but I feel as though it's necessary. One other report; I'm becoming very knowledgeable and far wiser than I was before. It feels like I have childlike wisdom growing inside me. And my presence is becoming..."heavier". For some reason I seem to dominate social groups without even saying much. It's like when I walk in, something about my presence makes other people want to impress me for some reason hahaha. I'm a little bit scared of not being a person for much longer. The longer I practise, the more I want to practise. **I have a question as well... (Context; I was a completely psychotic person and still notice my tendencies to become psychotic and flip out at people. Over very little. Attention seeking, inappropriate, crazy head kinda guy.) My question is this, if I go to the doctors to get antipsychotic medication, will this in any way affect my path? Thanks guys, love you all

For me, the best way to do it is start by using shrooms. Increase the dose gradually then hit the DMT. (Darknet is the safest way to get pure DMT. I'm pretty sure my stuff is like 95% pure at least. It's a £100 a gram though. Worth it. DMT is my favorite because it's not too strong for anyone to not be able to handle it. It's fast, extremely powerful and smells like metaphysics lol. It's nickname is the spirit molecule

Hey, good to meet you I'm aaron. I've been on the path for about a year now. Self enquiry, kryia yoga, psychedelic retreats etc. One thing I'd say to you straight away is this, the very fact that you've found your way to this website shows that you're path has started. Those experiences are very good your having. You'll learn to hear the voice of the creator more and more. Try not to focus on intellectual question and answer based thinking. Try to sort of feel what it feels like...this "thing" that you felt. It's kinda like falling in love, the more you think about it the more you interrupt it. Your thinking mind will not be able to progress in this work very far at all. You have to go with the feeling. But it's strange, counterintuitively...when you surrender the thinking mind, the thinking mind becomes more powerful! And dynamic. Yeah my recommendation is to listen to the voice and start your hardcore practice today. I'd start by establishing a concrete conceptual understanding of what self enquiry is meant to look like. Look at Leo's videos on self enquiry. Self enquiry and "neti neti" are the same thing. Different names. I recommend getting the kryia yoga book (private message me for info on how to get it). Then just do like 5-10 mins self enquiry, sat on a chair with your back straight and not leaning against the back of the chair. Followed by some kryia yoga. The yoga can be hard to make sure your doing it right. Just give it a shot and let it fall into place. My personal report on the path so far; My favorite part of the change so far is, I am far less psychotic, I am more intelligent, wiser, more powerful, more fulfilled. And at times during peak consciousness I feel what your describing. For me it's just a sense of everything bows to me it's quite interesting. The most important thing is finding out what you are. I recommend safe and moderate use of psychedelics for a starter. It'll peak your interest, and you'll probably have a fun time on the way. Your eventually to a have to completely surrender logic and just *fall*, in *love*. There is nothing logical about love. It just Is. So....fall

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@Bittu mate that's mad. It's such a torture isint it. I've definitely noticed a considerable change in my mind. I knew that if I didn't take up the path I would literally end up some kind of twisted guy. Like, legit twisted...things that I'd rather not say here. Being psychotic is literally shit in and of itself...but I wouldn't have found the path if I wasnt so I duno, I defo wouldn't change how I've lived up until now. 2 things I've realised are; 1 - Psychotic people are absolutely fucked without spirituality...very very little can help. Trying to stop thinking, by thinking...never works. 2 - Only those who suffer more than anyone else, are attracted to the most powerful healing teachers. Leo is the most powerful teacher in my opinion, my low latent inhibitive opinion. These two truths I had to face. I find bring my awareness to the palms of my hands helps when I feel my mind becoming psychotic. It's scary to think that this is literally related to being psycho...literally. I'm just fucken glad I found leos teachings for God sake. Fucking close one

@phllip103 yo, I'm really sorry bro but I didn't understand a single fucken thing you just said hahah?

Also I think there's a chance its fatal to smoke 5meoDMT if you take antidepressant medication. Or maybe that's Ayahuasca (DMT). Do your research

I'm starting with DMT first. For me, it took me a while before I stopped just getting so confused while on psychedelics. I was like "what am I actually trying to find here?" 5meo will tare through your reality like a hot knife through butter. I've been too scared to try the stuff. But by all means, take a tiny dose and work up. Be careful, you'll probably be sick. Don't eat before you take it lol. I always say, sometimes the best way to learn to swim is by jumping in lol

@Ingit @Ingit if you exist, what are you? Don't leave your direct experience, if you exist then you exist in your direct experience right now. Are you the skull? Are you the heart? Are you the thoughts? Or are all of these replaceable? And what is not being replaced? Are you a collection of bones? Or are these bones also surgically replaceable? And what is not replaced? If you say "I am the brain", what would happen if a doctor successfully transplanted one half of your brain into one person, and the other half into someone elses brain. Which one would be you?

Try to allow the mind to slow down when enquiring into what you are. Is it not only reasonable that I ask what you mean when you say the word "me"? If I was telling you a story about a "holopromo" and how a holopromo is the best thing ever and how it's amazing. You would need to slow me down and ask me "wait wait wait Aaron, what is a holopromo?" Before we move on to talking *about* it. You need to know what something is before you can talk about it. If you are confused about what you are, then do not talk about it. Find out what you are.

When you say "ingit" what are you pointing to? Because I'm assuming you don't mean that you are literally the word "ingit". What makes up ingit? Notice, you will probably say "thoughts" "body" "brain". And yet is there multiple "you's"? If there is one thing that exists, that is ingit...tell me what that one thing is @Ingit

All of those bullet points are ramifications of awakening. When you awaken, everything becomes perfect. But you don't have to fully awaken to improve those points. I've definitely heard that psycs can be extremely cathartic and advantageous if one is seeking to develop himself and his self image. Psychedelics do something very interesting to consciousness and it definitely makes you stronger...but know this, psycs aren't like drugs like mdma, or coke, or ket. It's not guaranteed that will have a *good* time. But it is guaranteed that you will witness what your mind is capable of . The thing about truth is, if you truly seek it...then you should be able to not turn your head away from anything. See everything that is possible, with no bias. If something is happening, watch it. It is truth. Also, just be mindful that LSD lasts up to 12 hours. Also be mindful of your current state of mind, and how much LSD your actually taken. It is measures in "ug". I would always recommend mushrooms for a first serious trip, only lasts up to 6 hours and shrooms also has the tendency to make you laugh etc. But, do not be scared. And don't overthink. Overthinking is what will cause a bad trip, just keep reassuring yourself, try to be childlike and just enjoy it

@Ingit what are you?

There was once a large lake in between two gigantic mountains and a village of people who lived beside the lake. In the past the lake was small and it grew and grew over the years. It got to the point where the villagers feared that the lake would begin to grow too large and wash over their land and village. So the strongest military commander arranged for there to be a constant team of healthy and fit young men who's job it was to constantly be using buckets of water to reduce the amount of water in the lake. This was a very constant job. Then one day, one young child wondered off up one side of one of the mountains further than he should have and stumbled upon a tiny little river source. He didn't really think much of it, he moved one small rock in front of the opening where the water was coming from. Turned out, that was the source for the entire lake downstream. And within a matter of weeks, the lake was considerably reduced in size and the entire village was saved by the one child. Moral of the story is, don't underestimate the power of reaching the source. There is no ladder to climb to move towards enlightenment. A bum of the street can become enlightened while you are busy making $100,000 and fixing the holes in your trousers. That bum will become God, and you wont. Reaching the source is the most powerful thing.

Is spirituality legit? Is leo right?

Nah mate it's a proper condition. I find it extremely difficult to even socialise a lot of the time because of the mad shit my mind starts thinking. It has it's benefits (low latent inhibition for example makes one extremely creative) Low latent inhibition is a condition where the person can't stop analysing everything, makes for an incredible detective...but crap for being a social being. Having moments of authentic laughter followed by thoughts then forcing myself to continue smiling so it doesn't look weird me stopping smiling of a sudden. It's a proper genetic condition. However, I dont mind one aspect of it. Because I'm psychotic I have an easy time finding truth. Very easy actually. A psychotic person will typically resonate deeply with religious concepts. Someone who is psychotic and very clever/wise/intellectual will discover spirituality. I actually feel quite lucky, I am absolutely perfectly fitted for spiritual enlightenment. Because my mind constantly tortures me, I have nothing to lose. And everything to gain.

The mind always seems to want an answer, its tiring. It is the mind that speaks and Even that writes this comment. It is my desire to become desireless <3

What are you that had that experience?

@The Don i would say a few things. First of all, there is a high possibility that the reason your experiencing this is because you have a genetic predisposition towards mental health issues. It's important to become conscious that literally everyone experiences mental health problems. Sadness is a a mental health issue. It is simply when the mind becomes "sick". When your body adopts even the smallest sickness, you say "I am sick". Similarly, I feel as though even the smallest sickness of the mind is to be considered "mental sickness" or "a mental health issue" no matter the size. Something I've become aware of, is that people who are attracted to this work (especially Leo's team) have deep mental sufferings. It's only logical to assume that those who have the deepest psychological pain, seek out the most effective method of healing (which is definitely leos). Consider this...is it possible that you just have a genetic and biological predisposition towards depression, anxiety or psychotic thought patterns...all of which cause tremendous psychology pain? This was the case for myself. And if so, why not reach out to a doctor? Any medicine that calms the mind can surely only improve that which the seeker seeks (stillness of the mind). Counterintuitively, it is the ego that refuses the natural instinct to reach out to the likes of a doctor for help regarding reducing the suffering of the mind. Your not alone. If your depressed, go get antidepressants. Just be sure not the mix DMT and antidepressants. That's deadly, literally. Please dont. There might be a simple fix to your suffering, not everything has to be mysterious and mystical. You might just be depressed... (However its defo true that spiritual development brings about suffering of it's own.) I am not enlightened, I do not know everything...however these are my observations. God bless.

Lovely advice gentlemen, thank you. God bless <3

@SriBhagwanYogi kryia yoga, self enquiry