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I duno but DMT freaks me the balls out. I like to retain a certain sense of direction when im tripping i hate confusion like this. I believe there are different levels of confusion...i dont mind understanding that im confused.....but its when i FORGET that im being confused and i forget that i've forgotten and im just floating having no idea what the fuck is going on. I know this is exactly WHY psychedelics are effective...but the way i see it, im gona wait, do DMT a couple more times, do shrooms and LSD a pile more times and then hit up the big boy 5-Methoxy-Dimethyltryptamine. but yeah, i think i like my egoic *foundation* in reality more than i realise. I guess i've been fine with having some crazy shit happen within reality for me...but its different when reality itself is whats fucked with. Im gona need to get used to it theres no way im not taking advantage of something as powerful (or so i've heard) as 5meodmt

@Identity ive been on the seekers path for 5 months now...meditating, with much success (especially lately). I ABSOLUTELY resonate with your words. I feel as though there are a lot of similarities between us from what your saying. You said, "maybe I shouldn’t do it as blindly, I have quite some trust in the material presented here." I COMPLETELY trust in the techniques i have found here. I believe i have "low latent inhibition" which is where a person is a lot more prone to analyse each and every situation differently to the past instead of relying on memory. This brings about MUCH higher levels of creativity and a much more accurate sense of intuition. I would have no doubt that most of the authentic people within the sphere of actualized.org have a lower level of latent inhibition. I DO place my trust in the teachings i receive from Leo, but only because of moments of E.M.E.N.S.E clarity. The experience of seeing SO MUCH clarity, mixed with my low latent inhibition...provides me with an incredibly strong sense of faith in these practices. I place ALL of my trust in leo, but only because of how powerful his teachings are and how transparent and authentic he clearly it. I am UTTERLY dependent upon this website and Leo's guidance. I would be completely lost if it wernt for leo....i might as well call a spade a spade. I'd be fucked without leo's outreach which is a bit of a crap concept since, i could have easily missed it....i mean, damn and so many people are. they are literally staring it in the face and they're depressed. (im not there yet so i cant speak) How large has the influence been on me? It has not only, literally, changed my life...it has changed the trajectory of my ENTIRE life. I will find the truth one day, and its because of Leo. This man, is a man i am eternally thankful for. I only hope i can effectively transmit the same message anywhere near as effectively someday when i am nothing. "finding the balance between sharing content and making sure your viewers don’t become overdependent and ideological about the perspectives you share." It is from my perspective that i see that we should not believe anything Leo says is true. of course there is an element of trust in that, if we did not think Leo's *pointings* were accurate at all, we would not do the practices. However, avoiding ideological traps that stem from Leo's teachings, can be easily avoided by assuming that Leo is talking straight out of his ass. The emphasis must be placed upon the *listener* to *prove* Leo is wrong by doing the practices. At the end of the day, im in the same spot as you. Im not enlightened, ive only had a number of glimpses and deep conceptualized understandings of the truth. We trust that we are doing the practices correctly and look at the results. I've noticed my ability to get things done in my life has dramatically increased, i've started a teaching business for beginners piano tuition (i play). Lots of things. All i know is, this is the path of the chosen, the path of salvation, of perfection, heaven, eternal life. I would literally give left arm and my left leg than stop being able to meditate. This is the only true path....and we must have faith until the end. We must remain determined, what a shame to live and yet NEVER HAVE LIVED. ONE CHANGE, O.N.E CHANGE. The very fact that we are AWARE of this stuff is a fucking MIRACLE! even 50 years ago this stuff wouldnt be available for us. Anyone who doesn't chase enlightenment down...is deluded as fuck. a spade is still a spade. This is INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOLY FUCKIN SHIT. I need to get enlightened mannnnnnnnn. I need to get the confidence to smoke 5-MeO ? maybe that'll do the trick.

HOLY FUCKIN SHIT. I need to get enlightened mannnnnnnnn. I need to get the confidence to smoke 5-MeO ? maybe that'll do the trick.

Jesus... That's freaky man

@TheAvatarState Genesis 2:16-17 NIV "And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die."

@TheAvatarState for me, all of this will end up being an illusion. At the end of the day, when you look at someone and think "they are like me they must have consciousness" this is still only a concept, within *your* consciousness. We believe the earth to exist, it feels like a solid belief...but it is a belief nontheless...existing within your consciousness. All concepts or images within a person's mind about "other humans have consciousness to" is still just their own conceptions. All beliefs aren't, themselves reality. And I think most of this stuff is beliefs isint it?

@EvilAngel spiritually is not the *repression* of human categorical and ideological thinking...it is only the understanding of it (which then removes the ideological thinking naturally and healthily). There's nothing wrong with categorising people, whats important is the understanding that the categorisation is not real, and discovering this authentically through meditative practises.

@SQAAD another example of how expectations can misdirect and limit you is taken from the passage of Luke chapter 4 in the Bible. Jesus' disciples are struggling to catch any kind of fish at all and (with having no luck at all), in verse 4, Jesus tells them to let their *nets* on the other side of the boat. (Going by the 'King James' version of the Bible) then in verse 5 one of Jesus' disciples (Simon) said that he will let down his *net* and in verse 6 it says that Simon's *net* broke. This is subtle. Notice how (in this translation) Jesus is seen to have instructed his disciples to cast out their *nets* (plural) in verse 4, but in verse 5 and 6 it says that Simon cast out a *net* (non plural) and then the net broke in verse 6. Because Simon was having no luck with catching fish, when this miraculous opportunity came to him he did not *expect* there to be any great amount of fish...and therefore did NOT cast out the nets, but instead...cast out *a* net. And because his expectations were too small...his net broke and he lost some of his "divine catch." If you do not expect to get enlightened...then I don't think it's possible...maybe just a hell of a lot harder. It's like the energy you carry into the start of the trip determines what the trip is like. These are good little pointings and examples of how to use (or let go of) your power of expectation... understanding what it means

@SQAAD there was once a man who was discussing his next life decision with god... The mam said "okay god, I have a choice...either I go to Cambridge University or Oxford University. Which one should I attend?" God replied with "Oxford University will be best". The man spent six months at Oxford University and absolutely detested every second of it. After 6 months he decided to leave and he asked God, "God, why did you tell me to go to Oxford University if you knew I was going to hate it?" God replied by saying, "i didn't want you to go to either, I wanted you somewhere completely different...but you gave me to choices and I gave you the best between the two...there was no other option." Moral of the story is, sometimes having expectations in advance can be a bad thing, they can misdirect you and limit you.

@SQAAD oh damn...this is a good question. I know within meditation and self enquiry, to hold any kind of expectation or prediction or projection of what you are (as opposed to direct experience) isint good for practise. See honestly mate...I don't plan much in advance at all. I live very VERY passively regarding what happens to me. I believe part of this might stem from a little laziness ?. I do have small expectations and future plans, but most of it is just feeling the energy of the present and literally not thinking about anything. A bit thing to remember is the only thing you need to remember (other than do spiritual practises) is remember the more you let go and allow yourself to discover the truth...you shall know the truth and the *truth* shall set you free. Do not lean heavily on questions like this. Matthew 11:28-30 “Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” - The Bible One thing I will say is, do not try to control the mind this is a trap. Since, to "try" to do anything...*requires* the use of your mind, when you *try* to do anything you instantly let go of your special nature and become a human mind again. While I acknowledge that I'm a be wrong, the best advice I would give to you would be: neither try to have expectations, or not to have expectations. Only observe the one who fabricated the question, and also who the one is here is observing the question right now.

Ok so how is it possible that I can now tell exactly when I need to phone someone...or know exactly what I need to do to obtain a certain outcome in my life *fast*. How is it possible that when I really need something, it arrives hand delivered to me on a platter? I can get a lot of this spiritual stuff, but how the hell does the synchronicity work? It feels like someone is walking around taking notes on me and leaving things for me. Its got to a point where I notice it quite obviously...how is that possible? How is synchronicity at this level possible at all? I mean actually... Genuine question seeking genuine answer..

@Shin do you think it would be fair to say that to have any kind of knowledge whatsoever would be ignorance? I have gained insight and understanding about how it should not be seen as a task to eliminate new conceptual ideas that arise from the mind and that in fact it should not be seen as a task to remove any concepts at all And yet I can't help agree with you

@Aakash ignorance is the belief that you are not ignorant

@Mikael89 you do dream you just can't remember it. When you wake up, instantly remember this instruction...don't move a muscle, go over the dream that you've just had multiple times then speak it outloud, then sit up and speak it out loud again. And you'll remember your dream. You dream every night ...and every day ...but technically, "you" don't. Lol

"collective consciousness" is not something I understand. So far all I've seen is that my consciousness is the only consciousness that exists

@Wisebaxter i do 1 hour sit every day. 40mins self enquiry followed immediately by breath focus meditation. Try not to confuse yourself with too much knowledge, especially correct knowledge. Just make sure your doing the techniques correctly.

@Paul92 Leo said one time, "the problem with being unaware is, you are unaware that you are unaware." This means that you think you know what you desire, when in actual fact you do not. This is why I think spiritual work and religious work tend to attract very very weak minded, or mentally "strange" people. It's harder to let go of reality when the goings good. (No offence my peeps) In short, there's nothing wrong with doing any of that stuff...but if a person feels like they are uninterested in consciousness that's fine, however because of the nature of unconsciousness they do not realise what their desires truly are. Nobody has any other desire other than awakening, it's just some people are in the right vibrational state at the right time, being exposed to the truth in the right way...that they break their unconsciousness for a moment and see the truth. Transcension is an interesting thing...

@now is forever @Truth Addict am I missing something here?

@Nahm lol, good. It freaks me out a bit so most of the time I ignore it

@isabel actually I have yes. I'm starting teaching piano soon, hopefully I'll have business cards and a full 6 week program for beginners. I need to research a little more. Also, I don't really want to say too much, but I'm selling some other stuff that will double my money lol. And in general, when I take the time aside to allow God to mould my consciousness concerning that which I wish to develop...I find these kinds of things really easy now. It's like they come to me. My practise is this; sit, become aware of what I want to happen (the next step in what I want to happen), visualise it and feel I to it's energy (it'll feel quite, wishful and imaginative), then I completely let go of it and everything else for 30 seconds and then listen to God. For me, an important part of this is not having any sort of expectation regarding what kind of answer I will get...for example, instead of asking "can I have a yellow car or a a blue car" and waiting for either yellow or blue...I completely open myself to abstract answers like "take the bus" haha. The way I know the answer is truly God is because the answer typically feels very solid and as if I was blind and now I can see it clearly. It feels right, and concrete. Like today I was communicating to the energy source that I would like to start having a daily 15 minute kryia yoga sit on top of my hour of 'self enquiry/vepaasana" sit. I presented what I wanted, let go of reality for 30 seconds, i returned and listened and he said..."you are kryia." Also learning how to recognise the voice of the energy source needs to be experiential. It's got to the point, for me, where I just know what it sounds like and I can trust it. That's how I do it

It seems as though you cannot test psilocybin with standard reagents like you can with lsd and dmt. How might one test psilocybin powder?

Anything that uses the word "Christian" usually carries Christian religion in with it. I was originally a Christian until I realised that I was not a christian, but Christ himself. I have had incredible insight into the Bible and it's true meaning. Christianity a riddle! It's a reflection to try to humanise the truth. But human knowledge is dangerous...very ideological. I can tell the woman in this video is speaking a hell of a lot from human-created ideas. Jesus did not exist 2000 years ago, he exists right now in the room your in right now, looking at this screen...Jesus is the one who is reading these words right now. You. And you but die and be ressurected, born again...a second time. The Vail of [your/jesus'] flesh must be torn in half to release the pressure of God's Spirit from one confined space, into the whole world. You must tear your flesh away. In the end days I will your my spirit out upon ALL flesh saith the Lord. His presence will no longer be within one location, his spirit will be everywhere. This world will be destroyed when the ressurected Christ (you) comes back to be seated as the king of the entire universe for ever. To reign over the earth for a thousand years. He will roll this universe up like an old garment and burn it. And create the new universe, without Satan...heaven on Earth. Beware Christian ideology, you must become aware of what it represents. Even Jesus said himself...there is no salvation in the Biblical scriptures...not a drop. "You search the Scriptures because you think they give you eternal life. But the Scriptures point to Me!" - John 5:39 Do not focus on the scriptures, focus on the one whom the scriptures point to. Isint it suspicious that *you* have the mind of christ (1 Corinthians 2:16), you are the body of Christ (1 Corinthians 12:27), and "during our time in this world, we are *just like Jesus*" (1 John 4:17 ISV). "...he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of *his Spirit who lives in you*." You have his mind, his body, his spirit...what part of you *isint* Jesus? Look to the living God...not false ideological replicant gods of human imagination.

My dad nearly accidentally placed a curse on me one time... He said "aaron, some people just get away with things and others just don't. You dont." I instantly recognised that I could either receive it or challenge it as a belief. Of course I challenged it and now I'm a person who gets away with EVERYTHING. You can place blessings upon yourself though. Create a concentrated beam of consciousness onto a picture of yourself succeeding in a certain area of life that you wish to Excell in. It works for me, I'm going to start teaching piano soon...and I fabricated it from my consciousness. Every time I lose something, no matter how lost it is... I remember the blessing that I have placed upon myself, that I am a "master finder" haha ?. I find everything when I remember the blessing. 1 time in particular I lost £20 worth of marijuana, I remembered the blessing and remembered that I am a master finder of lost objects... I followed my intuition, drove back to the car park I was in earlier that day, and found the grass sitting on the ground right beside where I parked up. Be aware of what you allow into your heart. "Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life." Proverbs 4:23 - The Bible

How can i remain within the parameters of direct experience when enquiring into things like my heart, or lungs, or kidneys...when they themselves are not within my direct experience. The confusion (for me) is amplified further when enquiring into things like my happiness or anxiety. These things are not present within my direct experience during my self enquiry practises, so how can i analyse whether or not i would still be there if they were removed...they arent there to begin with, not at that present moment. Also, things like my 'knowledge' or 'memory'...i do not know what it would be like to have lost my memory, since if i did lose my memory i would not remember what it was like to have *not* lost my memory. This disables me from concluding whether or not i would still exist if my memory ceased to exist. I find it incredibly hard to answer the question "if my knowledge was removed, would i be removed" because i do not know how it feels to exist without knowledge. Answers?