purerogue

Any tips on how to deal with not wanting to sleep, or rather not being able to sleep .

Isn't complete peace wonderful , not a thing bothers you , not a sound, not a movement, to a single thing disturbs you in any way or shape.

Yes, it is like meditating , and takes less effort when you do not know how to guide you in meditation state, only thing you have to know is how to not fall asleep , but be asleep at the same time.

I want to try this too someday, so much to explore.

You probably hurt your ego and he went to cry in some corner!

Exclusive, but it does not mean that you will continue to create anything, who knows what you will decide to do by then , you will be completely different from how you are now,question is why it bothers you, what are you afraid of?

Pff, I am already at stage 87.

Bauer1977 Again , my comment answers your question, it just takes some thought process to understand it, it is very difficult thing to comprehend , because you have to look from few points at the same time . Your question itself is pointless to you, simply you finding answer for this question serves no meaning to you, it has 0 meaning for you . It does not matter which answer you chose , both serve nothing. If you would ask how one , or other side works without you being attached to question, then it makes sense, but as soon as you attach you , it loses all its meaning.

I seriously do not understand how to get to you so you understand that this question is pointless, Scripted-Does not matter if you know about it, it is already decided Not scripted-Does not matter because if it would be decided, it would not matter.

But what has Enlightenment have to do with being saint, it is about realization.

Sorry , I just can't explain you why it is meaningless, it question that is to hard to explain to you . You still do not understand why coin with to sides becomes coin with no sides, as second answer is no answer and first answer is just meaningless and serves no purpose after you take second answer out of equation.

If you find out that it is , or all world finds out is meaningless , as it was already in script , that means everything always goes by script, so you personal development will only go as far as it is intended to go by script. If you find out that it is not scripted then sure, maybe you can do something with that information, but I am not sure what exactly you can do with it , if one outcome is predetermined, another is not, I do not see how exactly it will help you with anything, in predetermined you knowing does not matter, no matter how you look at it, so you can just throw it out of equation, now question what can you do with not predetermined answer, if other answer is just meaningless as answer. I cant explain with words why your question is meaningless , it just is , second answer is not answer, you are left with only 1 answer.

I have come up with fact that it is meaningless , if it is scripted then it is scripted and nothing will change outcome, you knowing , or not knowing can not change something that is scripted.

What true nature you want to find if you are just idea, information, what you are looking for is beyond YOU, what if you get your answer with yes, what now?, will you know how your life will end?

But it is pointless question all together, I am already tired of this pointless debate, it is meaningless, go sit on a rock for rest of your life if you think you have no free will, I will on other hand do what is best , be it scripted or not is not of my concern. It is like asking why you should live if it is all just illusion, or why to live if you will die in the end. Is life scripted to some extend, yes, I think it is, I am quite sure it is , is it fully scripted , idk, it does not matter.

Dons't it make you feel awkward to fuck yourself, imagine you walk on a street and there is this hot you you want so bad?

I was afraid of them until I found out they are more afraid of me, then I am of them!

Will you answer to next question I will ask? Will you reply to my first question again?

Consciousness is not brains , body, mind and Consciousness, body operates on its own principles, mind on its own and Consciousness, well it is everything you could say.

Does religion teach you how to live life where you are not in control of your own emotions, does it teach you have to understand other people better, how to actually be more happy in daily bases , less stress, that is what you learn very early , seems useful for me, to go , or not to go deeper in this path is up to you, but you can get benefits no matter how much skepticism you have , or from which way of life you are.

It is like huge adrenaline rush, like pulsation and enormous energy that seems will make you explode if you go deeper ? Confusion, your mind bounces around not sure what is happening, seems very dangerous if you let it continue, hands shaking.

You have to work out of mediation too, sitting mediation alone is useless in my opinion. It relatively easy to get clam mind by sitting mediation, now try to meditate every day every moment in your life, it is different kind of meditation. Also it is normal to have your bad periods.

Are you sure it was panic attack?Or maybe that was extreme joyfulness that was trying to emerge, but you suppressed it.

I will put this simple, you have experience where you understand that life has no meaning, you do not exist, all is illusion etc, now you have this realization , but your state of consciousness will not help you against ego fears, it is not even that state of consciousness will not help you ,you can not keep one state of consciousness at all times probably until very advanced levels, which makes it decrease and increase based on your determination so to say.

I think it is irrelevant what you will do, some might decide to bring some awareness to world, some might just do nothing, as it is irrelevant in my opinion, that is why so many of them do nothing .