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I guess it all depends on how you define word client , but they all need people to buy your product which is client to me, I guess you could say that stocks do not require clients , kinda , but your whole stock prices are based on how company is doing with clients, well you are not so much involved in it yourself , so I guess last is fair point, but risky one.

Nice video Reminds me of my awaking and laughing about my mind getting angry at someone, so funny from such POV.

Which business model does not require clients are you planting trees that have money on them?

I am actually happy that you finally saw more positive side of you.

Stop it!

I find this video way more entertaining Also I think it pretty much answers your concerns about Ralston.

I am no expert in martial arts, but I would not say that it is completely useless, it is just that it only focuses on taking person out of balance, but lacks in offense and seems way to situational to work against people who know what they are doing.

You can strive for whatever you want, as long as you are fine with it and any consequence that comes with it, just want you to understand striving does not = success in doing so, you might find yourself in same problems, or worse then before, because it all is relative to what you make out of it

You are talking as if having, building business does not require you to bend your time in order for it to work, or often take way more time and stress then regular job. I think you live in pipe dream, either you find job that you are k with , or find something that you like to do for income , all of them require time and almost always time that you can just pick as you please, it is just matter of if you are k with it , or no. Ofc you can go for your plans of getting your perfect settings, but do not forget that life can go any direction, your business can fail, your business might never grow enough and you are stuck in endless problems of keeping it afloat, your profession is not as needed as it used to be, you can't find clients , anything can happen, or it all might as well go just fine.

What you say would be all good if you would actually be able to let go of I and accept everything as it is, have complete fate in life itself, then I would say you truly came into being your true self and everything aligned, but it clearly is not your case, as you are still in the mind.

Exactly , ups and downs are part of process, when you have thous downs you actually get to engrave some good lessons in your empty skull.

No it was more of an existential crisis, life is meaningless and stuff like that.

How would you feel when all your world shatters and you have no clue what you got yourself into. I want to add that I did not fell much when it happened, my non-dual experience itself was not that bad, but when I got pulled back was when it started to go crazy, mind starts to play with your experiences.

It did not take me that long,about 2 years, but I was completely green(not in spiral dynamic sense), it was rather heavy experience that I was not ready for, so I took different approach from there, I guess it took me about one and a half year after that to get to next one. I have always put effort to bring meditation,self inquiry,just observing and lots of experimental stuff to daily life, sitting mediation was more of a side thing, There are quite few topics already about how to get there in forum, if you think that you are ready I would suggest too look them up and try in practice, it is really not hard, just need correct approach that suits you and you have to be able to let go of "I" resistance that will hold you away from it.

Take some time to appreciate this video This is good way to show some common traps in perspectives, mind,thoughts.

Good luck to you! I think some break is exactly what you need now to balance things out.

If you pay enough attention you can see lot of things, I for example can see millions of small "energy particles " that fall to certain angle quite fast, but when I did my research about visual snow it did not seem quite it, so I am not sure what it is, anyway I do not think that they are signs of awakening, but it might be showing that you are good on "concentrating" on present moment, being in awareness, but that is just guess.

Can you name few questions, things that bother you , so we can work trough them, there is nothing really difficult to your concerns, just needs time to be worked out!

I do not want you to misunderstand me, but I will try anyway , your goal is not to push your ego away, it is to accept it for what it is just as you have to accept life and whatever it brings to you, until now you were making separation, but it must all come together to become one. It is not so simple, maybe someone can make better pointers, have been long day and I must go get some sleep will be back later! ^.^

Maybe this will help you to clear your mind a bit http://www.buddhanet.net/oxherd1.htm .

You don't have to, I believe @Serotoninluv can help you.

haha, this hit you harder then I expected.

It works, but heard it does have its flaws of not having as good memory of what was written as you would reading it normally and I see how it could be very bad for educational books, or learning some stuff that requires time to process idea behind text.

You are already experiencing LOA, so you might just start by noticing how it works. Or you can read some books, watch videos where they do not promise getting everything you want by imagining it, or wishing for it, or that it is something you can do in your current state of mind. What I mean is you want it to work for you, it's there anyway.