SoonHei

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  1. @Nahm Thank you for the elaboration. appreciate it xoxo much love
  2. Was having a chat with a friend and he asked something... Posted below. im at a point trying to figure out how to overcome "laziness" and lack of "self-discipline". as they are the reasons I do not strive to complete the "goals" and "tasks" i set for myself to create a better life. the problem I have found is that passion (the fuel that drives the sudden energy to achieve such goals) is temporary. Usually originating from a place of anger and love, it fades quickly. Then I realize I need a new motivation every moment to keep striving. It seems inefficient. So i realize perhaps motivation is not what we need. As it is draining to find a new source in such short intervals where the self discipline fades, and the laziness persists. So i am looking for something to replace motivation. I way to practice smiling on the inside at every moment, and not falling victim to "laziness". Would appreciate any suggestions any of you can offer and would also be nice if you can suggest any of Leo's videos which I can send to him related to this... Xoxo.
  3. @Nahm the cause of it? the underlying root cause? any suggestions as to how? method/video? thanks.
  4. you're having a mystical experience 24/7 you're just used to the it and call it "normal"
  5. @lmfao it can also be like something that finally *clicks* Mini insight... Or something obvious you're not getting and then suddenly you get it and go.. oooooHh
  6. enlightenment is simply knowing that YOU are the Dreamer, dreaming your entire experience. and YOU are not located no-where and are NOTHING which can be experienced. you are the meta to experience you are the tool of experience the tool cannot apply its function to itself a scale cannot weigh itself eyes cannot see themselves yet you're a little more than that. you're like a sun that lights up itself as well as other things. self-knowing nothing which knows all experience which can be known is what YOU are.
  7. hey all tried wim hof breathing yesterday... did a few rounds of it... felt pretty relaxed... kinda like a body high with tingling in places and snoozed during that time too at the end also, was surpprised to discover that at the part where one's required to hold the breath, i was able to do so without much effort at all upto 2 minutes... could have gone longer but decided to breathe... it was incredible though anyone here experimented / tried this? any tips? also is this similar to some kriya yoga or indian breathing meditations as well? i haven't looked up much of that, can someone advise lastly. the cold showers combo is stated to go well with this. i haven't looked into that or done it yet... but are you supposed to do the breathing and then get up and go get a cold shower? or during the cold shower, one is supposed to do that deep breathing to clam the body down? also, what are some of the benefits if you have tried. want to get some personal experience info before i try that. thanks <3
  8. touche. that would be helpful i like epic music sound tracks should crank that up and vibe to it when i do it
  9. @MiracleMan lol wow. sweet. thank you for that and yes. i haven't done a full on cold shower. the gasping for air is automatic indeed, when ending my normal warm/shower... at the end, i often turn the tap slowly off letting the cold water hit for a few seconds before finally turning it off this shower deal is gonna be a good challenge. let's see
  10. @SunnyNewDay yes. agreed. breathing is a wonderful tool to keep the thoughts out
  11. Why is illusion necessary for God? your question assumes a necessity for it it's just a question out of the blue. you easily also could have been asking: Why is reality necessary for God? or Why is illusion not-necessary for God? ask any number of WHY questions... the answer given to your WHY question can also be questioned with yet another WHY
  12. @theking00 yes. your body + thoughts/feelings are one. when you're happy, you have an expansive jolly feel... body starts to vibrate when you're sad, it is a contraction feeling... your thoughts certainly effect your body. indeed. think happy thoughts stay happy and be happy and overcome things quicker in knowing that thinking about the "what if..." or "if only..." situations does nothing to change the current situation other than make you feel sad - which again effects your body like children, they are sad... the saddest they have been in life in the morning and next couple of hours if not minutes, they have got the biggest smile on their face that's truly living in the now... how quick you forgive and forget
  13. All labels. Indeed ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️☯️☯️☯️☯️
  14. Enlightenment in a nutshell... A shift of perspective. Re-contextualization. Going from the Dreamed character to the Dreamer OF the DREAM WORLD - all the while still living and functioning through the Dreamed character. Love. Love. Love Love is the answer!
  15. There is no other "real" than the real you think exists... But that very real, is actually unreal. Really. ♥
  16. Team 444 / 4:44 Anyone seeing that? ♥️♥️♥️♥️ ♥️♥️♥️♥️ ♥️♥️♥️♥️
  17. @Chives99 except that which was never alive can never die It's essentially getting rid of what you're not. Once you're fully naked - you have finally died and can start truly living as a result
  18. Shared on a Facebook group. Some guy killed himself as he was unable to awaken... STAYING ALIVE I’m going to try and lay this down as simply as I can: That spiritual “enlightenment” you’re searching for? Not gonna happen. No matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, no matter what you are willing to endure, no matter how much you sacrifice yourself in the hopes of one day “waking up” – every ounce of that effort is literally what is preventing you from seeing what is right in front of your eyes. This ideal of the “awakened being”, the enlightened one, is an ideological poison that has infected so many brains and completely hijacked their functioning. Now, I get why it’s so appealing. Society has done us no favors. Its excessive focus on wealth over wisdom, on progress over presence, on consumption over compassion, on “success” over self-knowledge has led to a horrid state of affairs in which we are all alienated from one another and especially from ourselves. We find ourselves in a dull, grey haze of meaninglessness that immediately wilts every form of life it comes upon. Then, in the midst of such desolation, along comes a spiritual teaching that promises the exact opposite. It promises ecstatic bliss, boundless love for one another and ourselves, a feeling of oneness with all that exists, no more fear of the narrow self-interested ego. We begin to greet others with heartfelt hugs and namastes rather than rough handshakes. We begin to lose ourselves in songs of devotion and rhythmic drum circles under starlit skies and to the sounds of the waves lapping on the shore. We feel effusive love for everyone we meet and see the same reflected back in their eyes. And it seems we have finally found our home and our kin. We have left that grey miserable world behind and emerged into a parallel universe bursting with color, love and truth. For a time. Yet, unexpectedly, the old feelings of greyness begin seeping back in. At first we try and rationalize them away as just “having a bad day”. But then it happens more often. Our interactions begin to lack the luster they had before. We continue participating in the devotional songs, the drum circles yet it feels a bit contrived. We continue to greet one another with hugs and namastes but we also see how these shows of affection are somewhat superficial. We begin to see through others and the facades they are projecting because it is similar to the one we are projecting. We begin to see the greyness lurking behind their eyes, the fear behind their smiles, the quiet desperation with which they sing their songs of devotion, the anxiety concealed in every beat of the drum. Spirituality is the art of pretending things are okay when they are not. The more tormented a person is, the more complex the cover up. We will do everything in our power to surround ourselves with the things, the people, the teachings and the rituals that allow us to maintain that active state of denial in the most comprehensive manner possible. And when we ourselves ARE the problem then we will seek to deny our SELVES altogether. THAT’S what the appeal of non-duality is. Escape from the self. TOTAL ESCAPE. Spiritual seekers are some of the most emotionally damaged and psychologically wounded people one will ever meet. And there is a reason why such an incredibly lofty goal such as “enlightenment” appeals to such a person. The solution is in proportion to the problem perceived. And nothing short of a complete overhaul of who we are will suffice to solve it. This was the rationale feeding the mind of one of the readers of this page before he shot himself a couple of days ago. I had never had the opportunity to interact with him directly but I noticed he liked a few of my posts. I was informed of his death by his best friend who is also an active reader and with whom I have had a fair amount of interaction. He messaged me with the news because this is exactly the sort of thinking I have been criticizing through my writings on this page. What I felt last night when I heard what had happened was a mixture of deep sadness and rage. I barely slept because the image of this boy, who felt compelled to throw his life away because he couldn’t “awaken”, kept haunting my thoughts. Believing himself to be a failure in life, that sense of failure was further compounded by his “spiritual failure” to awaken. He had been an avid follower of a certain fraudster in Portugal as well as a few others in the non-duality scene. As a result of all the “enlightenment” propaganda he’d come to believe in, he became convinced that if he could only become awakened, like all his teachers seemed to be, his life would become radically different. That all his problems would go away. He suffered long with depression, headaches, insomnia and ringing in his ears. But when his friend counselled him to seek help he refused. He chose instead to believe what the brainwashed neophytes of the New Age were echoing around him: that all these were signs of “awakening”… What a fucking tragedy. … Spiritual propaganda is just another ideological poison, just another narcotic which may help you wean off the drug of materialism that most other people are hooked on to, but in the end will consume you from the inside and leave you a specter of your former self. “Waking up” has nothing to do with any of this non-dual garbage about transcending the self that people are being fed, these idiotic songs of devotion people are singing to some invisible entity who doesn’t give a fuck about them. It is simply taking a look at what’s around right now and choosing to take responsibility of THAT over anything else the mind can envision as a “better” reality. And “what’s around” INCLUDES the soaring debt, the relationship woes, the conflict with family, the crippling self-doubt, the uncertainty about the future – all those things that we are attempting to escape using our convoluted spiritual practices. It also means that we are not seeking to define ourselves in either material or spiritual terms. There is no “success” and “failure”, no “loser” or “winner” in anything we choose to do in our lives. Some things we choose will hurt more than others. But that is all part of the learning process by which we calibrate our own responses. Nature has programmed us with one job: STAYING ALIVE. Even the lowly amoeba understands this. The only failure is the premature ending of that process. I’m fed up of this fucking bullshittery. This spiritual circus act with these larger-than-life troupes of performers led by greedy, disingenuous ring masters fleecing their audiences for every ounce of material and spiritual wealth they possess. And the gullible sheep who will willingly swallow whatever shit they are being fed because they are so used to being led out to pasture. So, I’m going to lay down some truths right now that I am willing defend until the grave so that anyone who is thinking of walking down that road may have a moment to pause. 1. There is no such thing as an “awakened” or “enlightened” person. No such permanent state of consciousness exists. Everyone who has ever existed including the Buddha, Ramana, Nisargadatta and all the other “enlightened” peeps inhabit the same everyday ordinary kind of consciousness as you and I and all the other “average joes” do. 2. Some people have “awakening” or satori experiences which are TEMPORARY spiritual epiphanies. Sudden moments of clarity in which things appear to come together in a way that they previously hadn’t. NOBODY lives in a state of constant epiphany. Every epiphany, every insight, every heightened state of consciousness must eventually subside and give way to ordinary consciousness. 3. There is absolutely NO WAY to intentionally and accurately orchestrate such an awakening experience. Trying to do so is an effort in futility and a surefire recipe for great suffering. 4. Rarely, an awakening experience MAY follow a catastrophic nervous breakdown or a period of intense depression. But depression is NOT a symptom of awakening. It is a symptom that you need to seek professional help! (Just because some people emerge from car crashes with a new zest for life doesn’t mean car crashes are events one must glorify or aspire to experience). 5. Ordinary consciousness IS where the marrow of life exists. 6. No matter how many epiphanies one has had, one’s problems CANNOT simply vanish. They must be FACED. They must be taken RESPONSIBILITY for. They must be SOLVED by oneself and no one else. Otherwise, they simply remain and magnify over time. 7. Whatever you resist, persists. Whatever you suppress, festers. Whatever you deny, grows in the darkness of your ignorance. 8. If you truly are willing to take full responsibility for life AS IT IS, rather than as you wish it to be, you will find that all the tools you need to fulfill that responsibility are at your disposal. 9. NOTHING is worth ending one’s own life over. No suffering is too great. No hardship too difficult to endure. The human spirit is equipped with a power and an endurance that is truly supernatural. There is only ONE thing that can subvert it: IDEOLOGY. That is our kryptonite. 10. A single ordinary moment of being ALIVE is the highest spiritual achievement anyone can aspire to. Allow all of this to really sink in. Forget what you’ve been taught by society. Forget all the dreams and promises you’ve been fed by your gurus. Watch the twin towers of materialism and spirituality crumble before your eyes. Plant your feet firmly on GROUND ZERO. Take your stand there. And say: NEVER AGAIN. If you find yourself overwhelmed by life, by feelings of depression, by thoughts of suicidal ideation don’t glorify it as a sign of your spiritual transcendence. Speak to someone. A friend, a family member, a therapist, a counsellor, a physician.
  19. it implodes each night you go to sleep and explodes when you wake up