Im aware that there is this apparent moment. And I have these memories of supposed "other moments" that I cannot confirm happened because im not directly experiencing them. 
So here I am, it feels like every moment is fresh and memories are imported on the spot. The "past" for the most part feels unreal. It feels like theres nowhere else i could possibly be other than this moment and I have no idea how I even got here. 
My intuition or belief is that there are infinitely many moments that im not conscious of, each of them with different imported memories (multiverse).
But how can a particular moment such as watching a car go by be an infinite moment if it appears to be a changing moment. How could I be watching it go by forever if theres apparent change happening?
 

It doesn't much matter if your goal is feeling comfortable. But there is another pursuit at play here which is truth and pure understanding. If you are trying to understand reality it matters very much that you recognize all of your biases as biases and don't confuse them with something fundamental.
The issue you're having is that you're not appreciating how much bias distorts your whole understanding of reality, and then how much that distorts how you live life.
Self-deception matters in the long-run.

Whether it's worth it very much depends on the individual and what you want out of life.
It was worth it for me. But my values are quite different from most humans. It's a matter of values and personality type.

Pickup is not easy. In fact I believe its way harder than spirituality, lol. 
I'm 25. I've already spent 10k in coaching (including 2 RSD bootcamps), done 400 cold approaches in 2 years (with 300 of them being in the last 5 months), and gotten laid 0 times. 
Between July 2021 and now, my fear around going out and approaching was reducing, but shot back up in the past month (not sure why). My skill was plateauing and after just working with Jeffy infield, my game got worse. (Part of the natural progression??) 
For the typical person, this would be sufficient grounds for quitting. 400 approaches, no intimacy, and now getting worse? Hell, I'm almost reluctant to post this as it might deter newbies. But proper expectations go a long way. 
But here's the thing: I am not giving up, I'm only going to go harder. I've made it my goal to go out EVERY night and walk around the club area just to get in the habit of being out there without necessarily approaching. Then on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday try and get together with wings to go ham. 
This is the only way. I'm scared at the soul level, but I've got to do it. It's the fight of my life. Who can relate?
 

Yes, self-help can turn into a trap of sorts where you feel like you need to constantly be working on yourself to be happy. This of course ensures misery.

Example: You can get used to 5-MeO-DMT consciousness, even very high doses. They will cease terrifying you. But then you do salvia or DPT and you will shit bricks.
5-MeO-DMT never terrifies me anymore. But other chemicals do.

Confidence simply comes from massive experience.
You can develop confidence in all those areas by gaining a lot of experience working on them.
Move to a big city, talk to 5000 girls, and you will have confidence in dating.
Go to the gym every day for 5 years and you will have confidence in the gym.
Etc.
You can consistently work on these areas to develop mastery. Daily, consistent practice is the key.

Was reading someone on the seduction sub on reddit who claims to be nearly 40, not good looking, but pulls insta models and F1 grid girls and stuff every night.
 
He advocates 'john anthony' in terms of game who I have looked at briefly. But I fail to really see any 'game' there. (although he claims that's because game isn't about lines and techniques but about 'operant conditioning' and believing you are a 10/10)
 
So the guy on reddit for example answered my question about how to hit on girls who are working and how to attract them, but he said 'you're job isn't to 'attract' them. You're job is to arrange a time to have sex with them''.
 
He then gave me his script, which is: You need to ask for small steps in compliance not just hit her with it like a club, "you're hot! lets go out!!" One of my fav. lines to open service workers is, "You seem like the lazy one... do they just let you keep your job cuz you look like that??" And then the next sentence is "So what've you got going on today after this?" And you proceed to find out her logistics - what time she gets off work and if she's busy later. Once you figure that you, you can go into the date invite in the form of: "Do you like X activity?" -> yes -> "okay cool, we should do X activity [after work or sometime soon], sound good?" then once she agrees to that you can nail down the specifics.
So I see very little in the way of  'game' there (e.g if you are not her type I don't see how that would 'work') but he said i'm wrong and that it works if you believe you are a 10/10. He said he believes he can bang ANY girl if she is straight.
 
On the topic of attraction, he says:
What you need to understand is that attraction is basically an irrelevant footnote. Like I'm not trying to be mean, but if you're still thinking about attraction, you're at a beginner/low-intermediate level. That's not the difficulty of pickup at all. It's very easy to get with basically every straight woman who is open to being attracted by anybody. I've never had a hard blowout in which my wing was able to open the set.
Step 1 is assuming attraction (so here's probably where you're defeating yourself - if you don't believe every girl is already into you, then she likely won't be). I'm a 10, and the only reason I'm talking to her is to find out when she's free to hook up. Everything I say and do comes from that frame, and many girls will just immediately pick up that frame and accept it.
The only thing you need to consider from there is compliance or non-compliance. If the girl complies, then she's rewarded (with physical/verbal/logistical escalation). If she doesn't comply, then she's punished (with an IoD - Mystery would've called this a neg), and you vibe/keep talking. I use a basic structure of question -> she answers -> I tell a DHV story feeding off her answer which hopefully hooks her into the conversation. The most important part (which most guys don't do) is to sexualize the conversation frequently. That creates the right emotional energy to make her want to continue the interaction. So then the next time you go for a compliance move, she's more likely to comply.
He was then asked:
''Is your theory that if you are ugly and she's not attracted (assuming you believe it's posisble that a girl can find a guy ugly or maybe you're from the school of thought that girls don't even know or care what good looking is) you just need to act/believe (assume) that she IS attracted and then she will be?''
It isn't my theory. It's what I experience everyday of my life, but yes. Most women will just fall into your frame if it's strong enough. I've had women I cold approached turn red and apologize for not remembering my name because she thinks I'm a guy she must've slept with and forgot based on the way I'm treating her.
 
Does anyone here run the same 'game'? (if you can call it that)
 
I've tried his script a few times recently on girls in restaurants, but they just say i'm not her type, although he tells me girls do't have a type and arent' attracted by looks etc. And that attraction doesn't matter anyway. Only compliance (which is why he uses his 'compliance method' based on 'operant conditioning') in order to bang any girl he wants
 
 

This week I went to my ashram to practice yoga quite hard and friday in the last poses I had this moment of undertstading that "It's time". I didn't understand what that was, but the next day I understood what that meant.
So yesterday tripped on 3.5g mushrooms. Albino Penis Envy. I was about 2hours in the trip and I started yawning like crazy. My jaw sort of wanted to stretch. Then I just noticed that my body wants to stretch out. In my mind I though "ok lemme take a piss and I can go lay on my yoga matt and stretch out like a SNAKE. Notice the word - SNAKE. I was super wobly and not coordinated walking to the toilet, I swayed left to right like I was drunk, but after my piss I just dropped on the ground and started to stretch on my own. And then it hit me that this is something significant. I started to laugh like crazy and stretch out my body on my own and I started to repeat "Oh mommy heal me from my ignorace" and my body turned so hot and I intuitively knew this was the  Kundalini Shakti. So the next hour I just went into sort of a "exorcism" mode. Have you seen any videos where people have a kundalini awakening, twitching like crazy, crying, laughing and speaking jibberish all at once? That was the same for me. Moments of laughter, moments of tears, moments of anger, moments of almost puking almost the the level of just spitting on the floor. (I even managed to film the whole experience, but I will never post it anywhere or show it to anyone because it was such a private experience and people will find this negative to look at considering how beautiful they imagine this experience to be.) I was doing all kinds of asanas and stretches because the Kundalini needed it. Twitching myself like nut, shivering, twisting my neck etc. Immense sounds roared through my head with moments of complete deafening silence. It was so bizzare. The whole experience took over an hour. And I can explain the whole experience as if the kundalini was destroying the Memory/Karma that was locked inside the body, this destruction was meant in order to "kill" off the "Ego" in order for God to live through this body. It felt like I was being BORN. In those moments it felt like I need to surrender this body to its max. It felt like God was piercing through all of the shit that this body acumulated in so many years. And the internal ressistance was so low in that moment that God knew that this is the opportunity to go in and actually take ownership. After all of it I just sat in my bed, with complete silence in my mind, just observing the room I was in. And the trip ended there, ate a bit, drank tea and went to sleep.
If you ever saw any videos of random people looking like they are going through an "exorcism" kind of experience, know that that's kundalini awakening and that shit ir real.
Today I just feel quite tired and can't comment on any significant changes in my consciousness or any changes in activity. Just that I came to realize that I need to Love and care for my body WAY WAY WAY more. But I definitely feel different. I will post in the future if I notice any significant changes in my lifestyle.
 
P.S. I only recorded it to actually see and maybe show someone in the future of how dirty all of this work actually is. It's not just rainbows and angels with lights all around. It's a shit-show.

One of the best ways to learn is to befriend a "natural" and closely watch him work girls over. It's amazing.
Naturals are better than professional PUA coaches.
I have a natural friend in Vegas who's so good at talking with girls it's just unfair. I learned a lot from just observing his attitude and vibe. Getting girls boils down to vibing. It's not even about approaching or talking, it's about vibing.

It takes a lot of skill to vibe right off the bat with a total stranger. And some settings are harder to vibe in.
The biggest obstacles to vibing are 1) fear and 2) being stuck in your logical mind. If you can work those two out of your mind then vibing becomes easy.
Yes, of course. Mostly that's an inner game issue. Of course it's easier to vibe in a place where it feels socially acceptable.
The whole point of a bar or nightclub is to make it socially acceptable and easy to vibe (by being drunk).
Nothing is wrong with you. Being able to vibe on command in any environment is a highly specialized skill. Few people are naturals at it. Realistically it takes years of practice to develop. It's much easier if you're an extreme extrovert and much harder if you're an extreme introvert like me.
Go out, have 1-2 drinks, and try vibing with a girl. You'll see.
A good exercise for you is to go out for a week and just keep asking yourself "What is vibing?" Look for it and contemplate it until your mind groks what it is.

There are many women mystical people but female spirituality is different in style. They are more like witches, fortune tellers, Reiki people. Example: Teal Swan.
Strict nonduality/awakening has a masculine bias baked into it. Most women will not find it appealing. However they will find stuff like yoga or witchcraft appealing.

Very successful people like celebrities and CEOs are insanely ambitious workaholics, so by the time they acheive their success they are usually so wrapped up and addicted to it that they have no time for serious spiritual work. They have chosen success over God. Elon Musk is the perfect example. He will never awaken because he's too busy working. Of course there are exceptions, but it's rare.
But on the other hand, poor people are usually struggling so much just to survive and pay their bills that they also have no time for serious spiritual work.
This explains why so few ever realized God. Ta-daaa!
In general, having wealth gives you more freedom to take time off from work. This is a huge advantage. However, you have to actually dare to exercise it in the right way, which most wealthy people never do. Wealth, fame, power, and sex are very addictive and corrupting. Most people in life are chasing after wealth, fame, power, sex, or love. Or they are barely able to feed themselves. And so they never realize God.

Most women who do that are really young, immature, inexperienced, drunk, and stupid.
They haven't yet figured out how guys use them.

That's a nonsense strategy. Most women will not give you any IOIs. You should not wait for IOIs to approach.
However, what is a good strategy is to approach a lot and quickly screen her for receptivity. Once you gain a few years of experience, you will be able to tell if a girl is receptive to you within 10-20 seconds. This is a very efficient strategy.
You should not care at all whether a woman rejects you.

It's important to distingush between knowledge vs understanding/comprehension.
Knowledge is conceptual and thought-based. Understanding is something deeper and more fundamental. Consciousness has the capacity to comprehend situations, which is a pre-linguistic thing. Comprehension tends to come naturally after a certain amount of experience. However, you can still strip the comprehension away and just have direct experience without any comprehension.

There is no soul. There is only Consciousness. The body is inside of Consciousness, Consciousness is not inside a body.
Another way to frame it is that everything is soul/spirit. In this sense the soul is not in the body, the body is part of soul.

That's not correct. Millionaires and billions use capital to build businesses, make investments, and create jobs. You're thinking in term of only consumer goods which is very limited.
The point of having millions and billions is to use it to do projects that could not be done any other way, not to buy cars and yachts. And this is very important for the advancement of the economy and technology.

I get it. It went through it. You just gotta focus on the growth and the adventure of it rather than the rejection. I stopped caring about rejection at all at some point. It doesn't even register in my mind if some girl ignores or rejects me. I will laugh at her.
It was extremely difficult for me too. But that challenge is what makes it so rewarding once you conquer it. So just learn to be more optimistic.
You must drop that competiton framing. I never think about flirting with girls as a competition. Rather it's about molding yourself into a more extroverted, humorous, fun guy. You're not in a battle with other men, you're in a battle with yourself to build social skill.
Also, social status and value can be built. For example, you can build a cool circle of friends. Or you can build up a career that also gives you some social status. You can design these things. For example, you can host parties. You can become a leader of your social circle. These things are within your control.
You gotta stop fixating on getting the girl and focus more on building skill and enjoying your time out. If you go out and have 3hrs of fun and you improve your skill by 1% that's a win. The girl is truly irrelevant in this.

Yes, the dangers are real and I have incurred costs doing what I do. It ain't all positive. But in the end it comes down to your values. My top value was understanding consciousness, so it wasn't even something I had to make a hard decision on. The more psychedelics you plan to do the more careful you gotta be.
Most reseach chems in the 4-HO, 4-AcO, 5-MeO, and LSD classes are pretty safe.

It's not a problem. Focus instead on the fact that you found a great wife.
You can appreciate a church without having to follow any of its dogma.
Look at it this way: You are God so that church was built to honor you  Stop worrying and enjoy the show. It's not like you lose anything by being in a church for a few hours. A church is a fine place for a ceremony like a wedding. Having a wedding in a courtroom is pretty lame.

4-AcO-DMT is superior IMO.

Often the hardest part of pickup is just motivating yourself to go out consistently and to approach consistently.
On the one hand it's easy, on then other hand that can be very challenging, especially for a very introverted person with social anxiety and zero friends or support group.
Many hard things in life are mechanically easy but emotionally very challenging.

I am not 100% authentic either. It is difficult to share all my vulnerabilities, weaknesses, and mistakes publicly. What you see of me is often me at my best, not me at my worst. This is gonna be the case for any public figure. They will not show themselves to you at their lowest.

This may be technically true but it's way too reductionistic because most of your life is wrapped up in meaning you create.
For example, if your business collapses you will not feel any physical pain, however the mental suffering can be immense as you have to face serious loss and you have to reflect on things you did which caused its collapse. You cannot just take the position that "oh, well, it's just a story in my mind". No, it's much more serious than that because the stories in your mind determine whether you live or die.
There is much suffering to be had simply from reflecting on your on inadequecies. So what are you gonna do, not reflect on your own inadequcies and mistakes? You gonna ignore them in order to feel at peace? That's not gonna go so well. Imagine how you'd feel if you were pulling out of your driveway and accidentally ran over someone's child. Are you gonna sit down and silence your mind to meditate your way out of that?
And what about all stuff in your life that you could lose? Are you just gonna act like nothing happened if your house burns down? If your child or dog is run over by a car? If your health is ruined by poison? If your spouse dumps you? If your best friend steals from you?
There is endless suffering waiting for you behind every corner. You just aren't aware of it yet.