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Which you haven't experienced yet, right?

I ve done two retreats in Madrid and one in Italy. In Madrid the premises are pretty good, you get your own bed in 4-6 person rooms, good meals, they even have a pool. There is a separate space for the ceremonies that is clean, has good mattresses and generally a very good vibe. There is music played during the ceremonies and the sound quality is very good. In Italy the vibe is different and I didn't really like it. The ceremonies are held in the main hall but when I was there me and most of the people didn't have a process for two days in a row. The group therapy sessions and integration are pretty powerful and unique. You won't find it anywhere else. I 've seen people being transformed during them. About the guy who runs the organization, he was mainly absent but I met him once. Yes he has a strange vibe, couldn't say i liked him, but i didn't care. He had nothing to do with the retreat and the other guys were very ok. Some of the retreats are done by real shamans from south America, you could ask about that and choose the ones with shamans, that's what I did. Overall the experience was good in Madrid and somehow negative in Italy. I wouldn't recommend against it, especially for the great group therapy sessions. Finally, for European ceremony prices I would say that they are somewhat expensive. P.S. Find a ceremony conducted by the Palchukan brothers. Thank me eternally ;-)

No. The ayahuasca trips continue to be typical ayahuasca trips, with each one having its unique characteristics of course. With Bufo Alvarius I had my first ego-death, but my first ayahuasca ego-death came after many sessions, so I don't consider it as an after-effect of Bufo Alvarius. I 've read stories about people who had their trips changed or intensified after 5-MeO-DMT but that was not my case.

In my experiecne, 5-MeO-DMT in the form of Bufo Alvarius did not have an impact on my later trips with ayahuasca and shrooms. Bufo alvarius for me was like a psychedelic nuclear bomb compared to ayahuasca. I don't see how ayahuasca could give that kind of experience.

Check how he handles it when you imply that he hasn't understand something or he is not developed enough.

What is the highest dose of shrooms you 've tried?

You see one or two persons there? If you had a discussion with them, you would discuss with one or two persons? Needs more than a second to answer "two" ?

Obviously? Having no experience of them and you think you know? Your current narrative seems judgmental and ego driven. "I know better than those people". I smell a trap there... Contemplate on what your ego is afraid of losing. ------------------------- Tip: Have Ayahuasca a few times and let's talk.

A riddle that can be answered in one second doesn't serve its purpose

Probably not, but you can escape Plato's cave. When your eyes open, life will be a new experience.

An interesting theory to entertain on this matter is the Hindu concept of Avatars. Below I am quoting passages I found online. --------------- Avatar literally means "descent" in sanskrit and it refers to the descent of divinity from heaven to earth, and is typically used to describe an incarnation of God. An Avatar is a special emissary of Light and Love that incarnates for the benefit of humanity, having technically no karmic obligation to incarnate. Paramhansa Yogananda explained that the term avatar refers to a soul who has been freed from maya (delusion) and is sent by the will of God back into manifested existence to help others. Examples include the founders of major world religions, such as Jesus Christ, Buddha, and Krishna. Yogananda said that an avatar “is born not to show us how great he was, but to give us hope that the state of consciousness he had attained, we too can attain. -------------------- The point is that in certain eras, very high level souls are "sent" to earth to help people realize their path. Avatars are divided in levels with some being sent to establish civilizations, like Moses, and others to establish religions like Buddha or Jesus. In any case, as per the principal in our work here, these should not taken in faith but being put in contemplation among others, in order to give a broader understanding without clinging to the explanation or having the need for it to be in a certain way.

You couldn't expect less from a guy with that taste in armchairs

Rule: If one hasn't tried psychedelics a few times, he is not qualified to talk about them. Only assumptions and blablabla.

Exactly. And then you have this testimony

If you had a huge library, would you read only one of the books?

From Martin Ball's book "The Entheological Paradigm"

The whole scene, from the moment Dr. Strange enters the room till his awakening experience, is what would happen in an encounter of Leo and Sam Harris. Plot twist: there would be something in that tea, except honey

I was in a similar position some months ago, feeling emptier every day. Nothing had a meaning any more, and days were passing functioning in auto-pilot. I had depression before, but boy, that was on another level. Alongside the sense of spiraling down the abyss though, I was feeling a kindle smoldering deep inside telling me that's not all. I had a feeling that there is something wrong and I have to do something. One day I got it. I managed to saw myself driven by the lowest parts of my ego more and more. I was losing the battle of the selves. The self (ego) was conquering the Self more and more. Then one day I had an epiphany: "I m tired of Adam. I have to defeat him" (let's say Adam is my real name). I realized that the ego I ve been constructing for decades became too much of a burden, paralyzing and catastrophic for my life. I saw myself standing opposite of Adam. But I didn't feel strong enough at the point to fight. So, I called upon the BIG gun. A month later, during and incredible and unforgettable night, the BIG gun shred my ego to pieces. I went through hell, felt my ego resisting, surrendering and dying. My Self arose and for the first time and I felt totally liberated. Despite the ego back lashed hard the next day, it lost some of its power. Everything had a meaning again. The feeling of void was diminished and during the last months big changes have happened to my life and I now can see my ego in a way I never was able before. I still have a lot of battles to win, but I learned some of its weak points. I started meditating daily and consistently and started Kriya Yoga all over from the start. With my story I d like to point out that it may be your ego that has taken all the teachings and Leo's paradigm and created a distorted view, that serve a dark side of it. Elaborate this possibility, think about if something is getting "joy" from this despair. See if it's lower consciousness disguised as higher consciousness that has taken you in these muddy roads. As for the BIG gun, you may have already guessed what it is: Ayahuasca

It gives you this (0:40): Open your eye

From my experience, to get guidance and answers to such questions, Ayahuasca works better than mushrooms. If your only option is mushrooms, try the McKenaii variety in a dark room alone. The experience on them has similarities to Ayahuasca. Trip safely, consciously and responsibly.

Being able to feel how some people close to me generally feel, what life tastes like for them. It helped me understand them better. I thought it could be just my projections on them but then it was no just thoughts, it was so real like for a moment I literally got in their shoes. I felt like I was hacking the infinite existence web.

Jim123, Leo is right. It's not that you are wrong, it is that you just haven't got it yet. . . ...give it a minute . . . . . . If the above statement makes you angry or creates any negative reaction in you, it means that is true.

Let's say that the SD was not corrupt/lost and you now decided to create all the music that was in it and publish it. You would like to create more music, right? Where would that music come from? You are sill there so the divine state of creativity is still there. You have blocked yourself. You conceptualized that SD card as being your whole inspiration. The muse is always there to bring you the best ideas. Now you believe that you can't and it is manifested that way. Can't be otherwise Let the loss back, believe that you have it, and it ll come again. Here 's a little story to cheer you up: Jesus and Satan have an argument as to who is the better programmer. This goes on for a few hours until they agree to hold a contest with God as the judge. They set themselves in a room before their computers and begin. They type furiously for several hours, thousands lines of code streaming up the screen. Seconds before the end, a bolt of lightning struck taking out the electricity. Moments later, the power is restored, and God announces that the contest is over. He asks Satan to show what he has come up with. Satan is visibly upset and cries to his screen that has only the cursor blinking, "I have nothing! I lost it all when the power went out." "Very well, then," says God, "let us see if Jesus fared any better." Jesus enters a command, and the screen comes to life in vivid display, images of unimaginable beauty unfold, the voices of an angelic choir pour forth from the speakers. Satan is astonished. He stutters, "But how?! I lost everything, yet Jesus' program is intact! How did he do it?!" God chuckles, "Jesus saves." (in your case, backs up)

If you can't convince your family and cannot be away from distractions for 10 days, then don't go. There is no point on being in the retreat and thinking of how to secretly check the phone and sending an sms to the family. You will be cheating yourself and missing the point. Prepare the family for the 10 day radio silence and then go experience it. Being 10 days in isolation is a big part of the experience

I have been puzzled from this. What do you think?