Javfly33

That is SO TRUE. With that approach, you are in for life of constantly maintaining a belief. Not only I think that is non-viable in the long term, but rather I think it sad because your should be confident just because [YOU... ARE!!!]. Being confident is not about believing what you are saying is true, good, cool, or the right thing. Is seeing that just because of the fact that you are alive and YOU are the one who is playing your life, just because whatever is being born within you at any moment, how could that be less valuable than other´s people opinion or agenda?

Tell me, what can of things you do try to solve that? (consciousness practices, medications...etc) Or you are just trying to solve it through thought?

Has happened to me some times (and still does depending on the situation) in a sort of OCD style before taking psychedelics. My mind start telling: "what If during tripping you let go as strong as you have been able during meditation, and decides to jump out of the window"? "Like, there´s if it happens you can´t do anything to stop jumping out of the window because in that you time because you are letting go to what it is...." Then strangely enough when I trip all of this thoughts seems totally ridiculous and sometimes I don´t even remeber at all. But sometimes I wonder if it´s safe tripping with this kind of thoughts before hand or at the contrary it´s the actual therapy to trascend them.

I have some important questions and I hope i hope somebody can give me some direction. Recently I have been discovering some things: 1- It seems I have no aparent control about my future. I am yet not 100% sure what "free will" means, but what I know I am sure is that the feeling of "security" of controlling things is totally a lie (and a dangerous one). This is not to be confused with planning long-term. You can of course strategize and plan about the future. 2. Since the point 1 seems true, then comes the realization that my life (and the 99% of human beings) it´s chained of being happy if you state of mind in that moment is good (happines,pleasure, etc), or being miserable if your state of mind in that moment is bad (depression, anxiety, fear, etc). There fore, the strategy of most humans is trying to control the future and themselves in order to strategize a future where good state of minds are more present through their lifes and the least of bad states of mind are present. However, since you really can´t have control overyourself nor the rest of the people, situations, etc in that way, (see point 1) the only WAY I see to a human to live in peace the rest of it´s life is to do SOMETHING so it can be free from being chained about states of mind. Is this enlightment? Can you be "enlightned" and still be dependent on what your mind/body responses to pleasure? If enlightment doesn´t provide this liberation which seems so brutal and radical, what can? I can´t see other solution.

Whoa, your message seems authentic. I feel I already have some observations which are in the direction of what you are talking about, but I see it (also like you before you experienced joy) terrifying. The fact of submission to isness doesn´t feel right from a perspective which still feels it needs to control something.

This is not a nofap forum lol But coming from a 105 streak nofapper in the past, I´ll reply you. ----By the way, I am always surprised when people ask "does x count" . 99% it feels right what does count and what it does not bro. Also, depending on WHY you are doing nofap, you should now if "x thing" counts or not! Anyway, if you are doing NoFap for quitting porn, for energy, for anxiety, or etc, Wet Dreams don´t count. BUT, they are usually a good indicator of how you are doing NoFap. If they keep happening very usually, that usually means that you are still in some way consuming porn. The fact of HOW you do NoFap is very important. I did 105 days but I let NoFap convert into an 3-month exercise of self-delusion and hypomania. Sure, the "mania" feels amazing at the beggining, but in the end you´ll see it will get you nowhere. After all of this time I can see the increase confidence of NoFap primarly comes from abstaining to watch porn, not from jerking. Both give you confidence but the first seems grounded, the second feels fake and drug-induced. (if you don´t channel it correctly) This is not to say that abstaining from jerking off can be great, but usually it requires a lot of mistake and error to know how to channel the energy right and by the way a lot of Yoga exercises are destined to this, if you are not doing crazy workouts, you need some Yoga exercises to channel the energy correctly into more consciousness and self-awareness way and less brutal mania confidence that the testosterone provides.

Start by not having at home any food that is processed/sugar. Start from there

Don´t worry, if "you" had a panic attack, you just got lost (again) in your ego delusion mechanism. Ego loves reality too much, of course. That´s why the knowledge of the truth must be gradual. That´s why instant enlightment from psychedelics never happen. Forcing the ego to die, when its not ready, will mean that once you come down from the experience, ego will be back to be the one who wants to be in control.

Microdosing for productivity tends to get distrated. I would reduce microdosing to self-personal development purposes, and for that I think its just best to dose normally. Nootropics tend to work better to just productivity, although you have to find one that works for you.

Sorry for the title, I really don´t know how to explain this: Recently I´ve been having a lot of progress in my spiritual practice. In the last month, there have been days that I have been able to be consciouss of something bigger than me during the whole day. This days, although not totally effortless, they have been very freeing, although also scary and a lot of doubts arise about free will that it seem my ego can´t seem to let go. Any way, I´m not giving too much importance to this. The fact is, I pursue sprituality to avoid suffering, and hopefully to my ego escape from its own traps! (quite a mindfuck). The problem is, while I have been developing my consciousness, my habits don´t seem to change. I still get emotional or angry etc at certain people or cetain triggers, I still some addictions that doesn´t seem to get better despite something in me feeling more lighter and free than ever. Something I have experienced during my two awakening self-inquiry experiences it´s that once the "something-bigger" doesn´t attach anymore to the person, the person tries to make movement, or shouting, or whatever, in order to the "being" to attach again to the person. But if the presence keep remaining in its place, then the person stops and just give up. That have made me think that, since I can´t seem to break an addiction, maybe just not attaching to myself in thoughts that are related to addiction, fear of losing control etc...would EVENTUALLY make the habit/addiction of the person ALSO TO STOP. But this is tremendously risky and scary, and I don´t know if this bullshit or could be the light to keep going. I hope i have explained myself well. In a nutshell: Should I step back from sprituality and acceptance, and try again self-improving from ego perspective (things that I haven´t been able to improve from the ego, so why no would be different i think) or I should just "go all the way". The first seem responsible, the latter risky.

That´s quite brilliant. But let me turn it inside out a little bit that phrase to get deep: If I remember correctly, my transition from obssevie-maniatic-delusion thinking to a healthy sexuality and interaction with women (which I am still completing) was characterized by constant self-sabotages of myself denying some truh my mind was clearly discovering. For example, I would have a cristalline insight of how delusional is sexual objetification, I would want to grasp it, but my mind would not want to accept it, even though that would mean healing, becase for my mind accepting that would mean letting go of attached sexual fantasies and perspectives that mind is terrifying of letting go because it means that in part of me is fake, it means accepting the mind created all to fill the emptyness the mind is so afraid of, just like any addiction.

In case you haven´t put to it already, stop your porn use if you have any. Depending (because there are people that are fine watching porn) on your history, there´s already plenty of evidence that cronic use of pornography can cause some serious delusionary thinking patterns and anxiety disorders, towards women and by the way, just towards social interacion in general. Then you can "come back" if you stop seeing women as sexualized as you probably do. But for now I would suggest quitting porn will deliver the most short-term benefits.

Just tell her: console.log("Hello Girl!") Now seriously, people probably will tell you "just tell them whatever nonsense" and they are right, but you won´t because usually people need confidence that has to be "trained" to approach just purely a in cold style like that. I suggest you that try to observe her in a non sexual way and try to find interesting things about her style/attitude. Then if you have found any, tell her: -"Hey, I just observed you one day and {insert here interesting thing you observed about her} and that picked up my curiosity, {insert here question about the thing you are interested}? -Wait for his answer. Continue conversation.

Of course, but I would be more concerned about why are you not sleeping in 48 hours. If you keep extending the time, shadow people will come to visit to you...

I have found that due to my schedule my best time, by far, to do Yoga-consciouss breathing and meditation, it´s in the morning just before putting myself to do anything else. (of course I wait some time to "warm up" the body, or I shower etc) The problem is, I don´t what is the reason but a lot of mornings I get terrible fatigue that makes me so difficult putmyself to do breathing exercises or yoga exercises that might be energy demanding and which I love because I´m having such progress thanks to them. This fatigue usually fades once I pass around 11am, and the rest of the day I just feel pretty nice. I´ve tried: - Quitting coffee (this has been an improvement, since when I used to drink daily, my body absolutely would wake up dead until I drink coffee) - I do exercise 1 hour a day, but sometimes I skip it if feel I am pushing it too much (anyway the fatigue has been there before I started to exercise daily) - I improved a lot my DIET. I´m having lots of vegetables, better sources of meat and fish, and cutting back carbs although now because I am running 1 hour daily I had to up the carbs a little bit but still. - And of course, I sleep more than enough. (sometimes I just wake up earlier than the alarm clock with no wanting to sleep more whatsover) I really don´t know why the fuck is wrong with my body that from 8-am to 11-am is so fatigued, I have been feeling this all my life but until now I didn´t care because I hadn´t to do anything concentration-energy demanding in those hours but now that I am progressing a lot in yoga and consciousness I really could use an aid here.

The thing is that today something happened. It was just 10 seconds, but I think it was intense enough to take it into consideration, (more even if I imagine it will happen again if I continue to do such practices as Yoga or consciouss breathing from now on at the intensity I´m doing them, since i quit coffee and working on my addiction and taking my manias, phobias, identity serious since im discovering im the one who is creating all this problems I have in my life) THE EXPERIENCE: Anyway, today I went out running, then at the 30minute mark I started thinking about how a run can make you feel good and "be more consciouss about things". Then I thought , well ego is never consciouss so what I am even saying. This "spirtual debate" went on a few minutes, adn then, I just stopped running and I felt a crazy dissasociationg and I felt that I couldn´t associate myself with anything. Including..."Me". Well this looks too much to happen in 10 seconds right but I am just trying to explain what it felt a dissociated state, (or whatever you can call it). I felt panic of losing control, very real. It felt like a drug induced state for a moment. I tried to move, a punch lightly in my chest to swtch "the headspace" started running and then the sensation dissapeared and it was just me. But it really FELT like my consciousness HAD the moment to see that it was not me, but got scared and fast (in about 10 seconds after i did the chest thing) went back to identifing with my self. OR it could have been just the mix of exercising + placebo effect of being meditating so much lately? (since i was pretty tired, maybe I had low blood sugar because I do a low-carb diet) Can sober spiritual experience happen like this? (like 10 seconds, and its gone lol) Or is more like, "if you really had a spiritual thing, you would know it, you wouldn´t be asking"

110ug is completely fine if you have any past drug experience, if you have done mushrooms 3 times before is fine. Even more, I would say taking less sometimes can make a trip that would be just fine, a little messy, since you are not truly high and you are partially sober, so you are in a somewhat state of confusion. Regarding anxiety I would say Lsd is pretty more edged pushy stimulation, in comparison to shrooms that are more relaxing, but this doens´t mean Lsd is going to give you anxiety, you will feel energised but you shouldn´t feel anxiety once you are fully tripping regardless of you having anxiety on your life or not. (I have moderate anxiety in my life and Lsd has never given me anxiety, except when I have done the stupid thing of eating before tripping) Make sure you dose in a total empty stomach, this will make the come-up a lot more easier, and less anxious. Also try drinking some Ginger Tea in the come-up, the time I did shooms I drank it and i had almost none nausea.

For things like this I aprecciate this forum!

How are you sleeping? Force yourself in this days to socialize or o sport, it automatically make your mind less maniatic and maybe will get something positive out of it.

What a title, for a moment I thought J.Peterson was an enthusiast of Jerry Lorenzo´s Fear of God slim denim jeans

If you have a 8 hour job that demands a lot of thought/monkey mind active? Until recently I was used to have a very calm-boring day to day job, so I could be almost for the whole day totally aware, wheter i was working or not. But now , I have another job which, even if I like, i can see how its impossible for me to remain aware while I work, because I have to get lost into monkey mind in order to comeup with solutions or achieve other things...etc. Now, i am not saying that if you are very experienced, you still can remain aware even if you have to think a lot, (particularly because guess what, you are not your thoughts, you dont need to be identified with them to get your mind to work, it can work by itself!) but, at the level of consciousness/practice I have, when mental activity gets intense, I get lost and become my mind again... If you sleep 8 hours, and you work another 8, you only have left 8 hours to practice awareness, which it seems not enough since 2/3 of the day you are being unconsciouss. You can always take retreats, but in my experience I can only reach high levels of awareness with constant absolute focus, if get back to monkey mind I just loose it again.

I don´t think drug interaction might be a problem, but be sure to have a trip sitter if its the first time you are doing 5-Meo

Just a note regarding Hatha Yoga, just because it´s usually the most common teaching choosed by Western yoga culture, doesn´t mean there is not going to be non-dual people who its primary Yoga of choose is Hatha. (I say this because people in the forum might get the wrong idea and think that doing Hatha will only deliver them physical benefits and they must practice other type of yoga if their primary objetive its consciousness) since I´ve noticed quite a few times that you tend to generalize Hatha Yoga into just being Gimnastics. This is simply not true. I´ve tried Kriya, Kundalini, and Hatha Yoga, and the latter is the one who has given me until now more results in terms of increased awareness, whereas Kundalini or Kriya was really frustrating and I found myself getting in lost in monkey mind or getting distracted by so many concepts and instructions. Of course, this doesn´t mean that part of its complication its justified, but that the simplicity and apparent not so mystic character of Hatha Yoga, can also deliver powerful experiences as the most simple meditation technique can deliver vs a complicated one can.

Pychedelics can be used to avoid "reality" too but trust me that the one responsible who avoids most of reality is your ego and your mental patterns, precisely psychedelics can erase for some hours this patterns, that´s why they can help. Although of course in the process of this, one can misuse psychedelics too and dont achieve nothing from them, but in general, they are far from being a common substance of abuse.

Any of the 15-40$ miligram scales are more or less the same. I have had the gemini20 which is the most common one in the "research" scene and right now I use the cheapest one I´ve found (15$) and I found it is the same accurate as the other ones. (All are made in Shenzen lol) The most important thing you have to do is make sure you calibrate it well, and each time you are going to research substances, calibrate it again just in case. If you want total accuracy in miligram scales you would need to go into the laboratoy/proffesional stuff and those ones are ridiculously expensive. You´ll be allright with a cheap one if you remember about calibrating it, and of course do several allergy tests beforehand (doesn´t matter even if you have researched the substance beforehand, if its a new batch, always do allergy test)