Javfly33

What to do when this type of thought arises? "This is amazing, but, if i let go completely, then how i am going to control my plans for the future, I need to get a job, self-actualize this and that ...etc" If i let go, then fear arises. I want the fear to be gone, so I start believing my "story" again. Maybe i should wait to "mature" my life more before enlightment? It seems I have more or less a good tune with what to do to become effortless, but there´s doubt in this effortless into what to do once I am there (or more precisely, when i´m "nowhere")

Can a high state of consciousness answer the question of why, at least, it seems that existence is localized somewhere? I´ve heard the analogy of Leo saying consciousness is divided into "virtual partitions" like a hard drive. Ok, make sense to me, but two questions regarding this: Is a virtual partition the result of a low state of consciousness? With a high state of consciousness, awareness would become all there is, therefore it wouldn´t be anymore a virtual partition but just One absolute? If the second point is true, could we say that awareness is not being fully itself right now in this experience (because i´m at a low state of consciousness right now) therefore i´m maintaining the "virtual partition"?

If not it can´t be enlightment. Don´t say that "even you become enlightened" your ego might still victim of emotional triggers and similar traps of the mind. Isn´t enlightment actually trascending the traps of the mind? Because today I got emotionally triggered and I realized wow, I´ve been doing this all my life. Creating thought stories. Then I got the opportunity to actually drop them. I could have done it today. Today could have been the end of stories within stories within stories. Ha. I could have just bite the bullet and accept that I projected Everything of what i´ve lived. But i couldn´t. It´s so radical. It implies such a step into absolute loneliness of your decision. Again back into the delusion. It´s really dishearting that in this forum you guys said enlightment doesn´t deconstruct all the stories of the mind. Because if it doesn´t then there is no much difference between this and enlightment.

@universe I agree although the counselor just ask the right questions. He has to be the one who answers.

Funny how this "social anxiety" works, and what proves this "illnesses" are just relative labels and it's CRUCIAL that you do your own instrospective work on your own. I consider myself I would match many of the social anxiety symptoms, however I am totally fine with being in crowd places, but for example I wouldn't go to a counselor (even if I know it could be beneficial to me) because I judge myself if I would go it. See? There's a hint. Maybe for you social anxiety comes from other place, but for me it's all about JUDGEMENT. If I don't judge myself I have 0 social anxiety. Self inquiry about that.

Most of the people end up doing self-inquiry too just a result of any of other practices lol. (I did at least, and I was never interested in doing self-inquiry) You'll also trascend self-inquiry at one point it will become useless after it was useful to get you to the next stage

Make sense, but if you are consciousness, why can't you explain to me why , for example, did you veil yourself to experience a mind? And still this doesn't answer the why of why consciousness right now is veiled under my mind and not yours. Because as far as I'm concerned you are only a concept. I can believe you as a person exist, but I can't never have direct experience of you having consciousness too. I can only attest that consciousness is here. So my question is, why consciousness is here.

That's a dangerous game, isn't it ? It's paradise when the mind creates "beauty" (what you project as good) but it can become hell if the mind creates horrror and suffering. If you engage and enjoy your mind creations you are for a rude awakening. When you trascend the mind there's little difference between a 'positive' thought and a negative one. If you are trapped in duality, well, that's basically it, you are trapped in duality.

@Serotoninluv that's nice to hear. Make sense! Haha

I want to try Vegan diet but my problema is I really don´t like how Legumes impact my stomach. Rice and bread I can tolerate them although I´d be way more happy withouth them, problema is I feel I can never eat enough veggies / fruits so i always end up eating fu**** bread or pasta. For the vegans out there, do you think the body adapts and can give you the same energy with way less calories? I don´t like either almonds and nuts how they impact my stomach, although Macadamia Nuts I do think I digest them very nicely so I could get some calories from that

Has anyone thought of this? I know it sounds stupid, but I've been very intrigued since a weird experience I had a couple of weeks ago, about why consciousness is focusing in this body/mind and not in other. Then I thought, maybe it's because I'm the only one who is not Awake yet. After all how do you really really know somebody is not Awake? Because ego can still behave like a process, ego can delude himself in that he has to "awake" but God/consciousness might be very conscious about what it's happening. After all, a lot of people have said that they are awake however ego as a process can continue behaving like stupid. Could it be that I'm the only one not awake ? Leo said you have to be extremely skeptical so I am being like that right now. I want to go to the root of what is happening in this experience (isness is happening, but why I keep taking ownership of this isness)

I imagine that not because usually they say enlightenement is a very very radical thing. What about a very conscious person that for example, you could say he hasn't transcended survival conditioning? Today I saw my father. He is quite sad/depressed now. He had been sober for 4-5 months off heroin, I say this because like 6-7 years ago my father got clean for over a year almost two, and it was the year that he discovered Yoga (kundalini) and I remember he was CRAZY about it. Like I imagine he had to really experienced some crazy things at Yoga because he didn't have an spiritual background at all and I remember in the span of a year he talk a lot of similar things that Leo or in this forum talk about regarding spirituality. I remember my mother and father having discussions about materialistic/pro science (my mother) and my spiritual/non materialistic approach (my father) Lol It didn't seem he was talking from belief, but rather than he got to experience some interesting high consciousness state during long-term and he was able to actually imagine a life without drugs. However he went back to heroin and afterwards came 6-7 years again of hell from him. Anyway, I know my father was far from being really awake in order to transcend the identification with the mind therefore he was still vulnerable to emotions/trigger therefore he went back to the old life. But could this happen to anyone??? I don't mean doing drugs but if you develop a conscious life but who knows why (idk, because the mind is too strong still) and you GO BACK to delusion, neurosis etc...? . I guess in the long term you are always growing, but ego-backlashes (i guess you could call it that, or maybe that this a path is a mountain and not just an upwards straight line) are scary.

@Name Probably this is not what you want to hear, but I'll tell it to you anyway because it's coming from love: Why do you want to quit porn? With this question I don't intent to actually say that porn can not be prejudicial, I'm just saying the most accurate can you answer this question, the more close you will be to actually transcending your porn addiction. Be very cautious how you are answering this question. Seriously question yourself your beliefs and what porn means to you in your life. This is not philosophy, I have been trying to quit porn until I recently realized I was bullshitting myself. Is only by this that I've actually started to free myself with porn. Not with force hardmode abstaining s with 0 retrospection and total projection of "porn is the thing to eliminate in my life and the rest is fine". If you want to success in this you need to be smart.

If THIS is all there is, where I am?

@7thero I'm telling you that way that I have transcended my "porn addiction" is mainly through questioning my beliefs about porn addiction, my relationship life, social life, and etc. By not isolating the concept 'porn addiction' into the thing that I have to eliminate completely to my life, but rather observing what really porn addiction can tell me about my life, I've started discovering things I didn't know about me, between others lack of self love and a disfunctional perspective of seeing other people and socializing. By fixing this, "porn addiction" have started to erode effortlessly. Contrary to the 2 years before which was just "abstaining from it". Now, of course in your case could be different, im just telling for the sake of your good being that you should consider taking a lot at this approach. This doesn't mean that you stop using porn blockers if you consider you need them now, but rather that you take into account other perspectives to this problem (like mine) which maybe could be beneficial to you. Good luck.

You sure? Ok going to check it out, thanks!!

I remember in one not very old video he says something like this: "...How could it be otherwise? Haven't you found weird that you are you and not other (person) .... ? " But I want to know the context in which this was being explained. Of course anybody could explain it to me too, but I am asking for the video because before saying that there were a context that probably would make understand that quote (paraphrased) more easy. I just can't wrap my head around why I am this person and not other person. Why I am living the experience through this person called @Javfly33 and not other? LOL.

@7thLetter By the way, If i tell you all of this is for a simple reason. I´ve been trying to quit porn for 2 years now. I used to think like you. Let me tell you (and this is my experience, I don´t want to determine you into something because maybe you can really just quit porn by abstaining it from it) that the solution has not been what i thought it was.

I TOTALLY get what you are saying bro, but let me tell you something. 'Spirituality' (although I wouldn't categorize what I told you as something spiritual but rather an interesting observation) is understood as something outside of reality. Mistake. Spirituality is just a path that lets you see things from other perspective. For example, if I might have a porn addiction, someone might recommend me something but because I see that 'real world problems' is one thing, and the 'spiritual' approach is another thing, I sense that the spritual approach CAN'T impact the material / real problem I have therefore I categorize that advice as "impractical". Do you see where I'm going? A lot of the spiritual advices (although, again, I wouldn't categorize the thing I told you as spritual) are indeed tremendously practical, precisely because spiritual perspective is not some other world or galaxy, is this right this one! But you keep drawing a line, therefore for you they can't be practical, because you think there is indeed a difference between reality material problems and spirituality, therefore whatever I tell you from this approach will not impact / solve anything in the practical sense because you really think spiritual advice is another galaxy outside the "material world"

I recently i discovered the spiritual talker 'Sergi Torres', I don´t know how awakened he is but it surprised me how profounds his talks are. He still needs to get better at trying to talk more simple to audiences, sometimes it´s explanations end up in a "strange loop" as Leo used to say LOL But to be honest yeah I think he way more profound that Mooji´s talk for example (which I still love by the way but sometimes he can get some times too tiring on the "nothingness" and you can´t get from him other teaching that that one) Here´s a talk I was watching tonight: SERGI TORRES - TEATRE GOYA - "La libertad de pensamiento" Anyone has listened to him? Do you think this kind of videos are actuallly practical or are actually just losing your time? 99% i think its just wasting time but I have to say sometimes with this guy somethings resonate with me in a more profound level and actually will make me start self-inquiry seriously about some topic

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You are aware that the type of tool that you are looking for is the same that the tool you are looking to abstain from, right?

With 'approach' you mean picking up girls? Well I can only say even if it's sounds cliché that you should work on yourself. Not just "approach X girls and you're good to go" It's important to be a person of "action" but both sides should be work for success.

Lol i´ll take your job you can go work at the market selling panties and socks with the gypsies to enjoy your "social job" :facepalm:

Something that would be obvious to question I only recently have become intrigued by. Even if this is not a subjective experience because really there's no subject who is having an experience right now but just there's only experience... How come there's a consistent physical object with consistent image? (Which in my belief system I've called "person") Who is this "person" that seems to take all of the space of experience? And why it's there?