Javfly33

That's such a good insight.

I have healed a lot the past several months and in consecuence I no longer felt excited for this fetishes. At this point is obivous that it was a confidence/self-esteem issue. BUT it seems my brain basically has the same wiring still sometimes (although this might be a excuse because brains are imaginary) so once in a while I still feel the "urge". So I spent 50 quid in the last weeks in a matter of minutes. Probably not much for most people but for me is a lot. It´s the most stupid drug I´ve ever tried. Basically I feel a 2 minute crack-euphoria like when I am sending a girl some money, and then I masturbate. After I masturbate I COMPLETELY get back my frontal cortex and I realize, "well, I just threw away [x] money for absolutely nothing". I probably have to try some psychedelic to reset my brain chemistry, right?. Shadow work has helped but still I feel like a meth-head that can´t control my impulses sometimes.

@Nahm But it's because my imagination is the only mind here. How good is it that you imagined all of this as I imagined all of you. Kind of crazy to know that 'we' have the Same imagination.

@student still very useful post btw. Just wanted to say I was referring to other kind of bliss.

@Nahm Couldn't done it without you ?? @DevOcean ??It's amazing ? happy for you man.

YES!! I was just going to open a topic about this. Recently I've gotten into scary moments while talking where I almost lost the sense of where I am LOL. I used to be a very shy introverted person and since my Awakening my conversations are being like being a whole different person. The "I" who liked to be in control of the conversations fades away and when it does it completely I feel like I'm nowhere. Don't know if I am in my body or in the body I am talking to. Talking with self-love and confidence, a great "non-duality practice".

@student No, you haven't understood the bliss I'm talking about. It's an euphoric bliss. It's a rush. It came out of a state of consciousness where I realized only the Present was real/existed.

No, it's just that "sober reality" gets imagined again after you end the trip. But Leo's head was actually cut in half. It's just that conscioussness imagined again a Leo with a head again. I expect that in very high levels of consciousness one can annihilate the universe for good. I guess this is what he calls merge with infinite love

@VeganAwake That's a nice analogy for the ego ??

@Leo Gura Why is valid in your opinion to want to end one's life for chronic disease, and not because of depression? Can't see the difference. Not that I agree with the terms "valid" anyway btw. Everything is "valid" to be.

@Someone here I wouldn't say that. There's plenty of people that suffering has been a catalyzer for enlightenment . I had an Awakening after a deep suffering situation which forced me to focus on my breath. Eckhart Tolle reached enlightenment in almost suicidal moment of his life.

@nowimhere If I'm going to add coconut milk it goes after the vinegar right? Btw If I add coconut milk I don't have to add water right?

@Shiva99 @EnlightenmentBlog I know yet it feels the compulsion runs deep from things I haven't healed yet. @Shiva99 Maybe 2-3times a week. Too much I know but I use it as an anxiety relief is kind of a bad habit

@dimitri Oh man Neil Young too much ❣️

Cool, I'll inform myself but the info in the internet seems quite diverse and somewhat contradictory. Feels like listening to the body is the best guide. Because so far I'm feeling even better since I eat zero meat and way less eggs . Thanks for the sources mate @LfcCharlie4 I'll look into it . Gotta try the celery juice hack too btw !!

I think he's into something real

@student Sure, but knowing if Eckhart Tolle is in this state most of the time gives me an idea of what is possible, as I said. You seem you know about this stuff. Are you in this "full intensity" most of the time?

Don't worry 99% population don't know who he is at that age . What you're doing in your life is good to know it but that time because USUALLY life purposes/career passions take a hell lot of time and energy. But at whatever time you are in your life, that's where from you need to start. 26 is a still a young age for sure, are you kidding?

It's not the same. Notice that with suicide you are escaping from some place to go somewhere else. But enlightenment is being Here. Here's a guarantee for enlightenment: Let go of your survival. Then if the body wants to do this or that, it's his problem. The body probably will keep surviving. It's just that "You" will be gone.

Yeah ALD-52 has much more mellow effect that 1P imo. Such a pity I could only try one tiny dose of that one.

@WaveInTheOcean omg that is amazing dude! Are you conscious right now that we are One??? @SoonHei ?

@dimitri He does seem happy. Do you live conscious that only the Now exists? I can't believe it's so simple Lol it's only the thoughts that create the illusion of time ??

No, I just like to think sometimes if that happens to me if I would be able to remain conscious of my true nature. Makes me think for me my true nature is still a belief, not an actuality. But thanks ?

Can you be aware of being aware when thoughts of fear arise when you are jobless in the top of a mountain with no savings left in your account?

Let´s you don´t have savings and lose your job, you can´t find another job and end up homeless in the street. Hating the life on the city, kind of tired of the struggle until now in your life surviving, you say "fuck it I can´t do this anymore" and you go to the outskirts of the city to try to get in maybe some abandoned house. After a few days with no luck you go even go far away and you end up in nature, suddenly you find yourself with no food, little energy, maybe some water that runs from a river, you sit up exhausted at the top of a mountain. You are in shock. And a thought of fear creeps in that says... "This is dangerous, what do I do!, this is the worst situation possible! I don´t have anything, I can´t die this young! What this would mean for my family if they find me dead?" In that moment, do you know who you are? If you are fully enlightened in that moment you will be sitting peacefully letting go of those thoughts of fear, if you are not you will start panicking, will run down the mountain, and go back to the city to struggle to survive.