Javfly33

Woah. Do they accept Bitcoin?

Doubting between 4 or 5 days. Will it be enough for my first solo retreat?

Let's not even talk about that some months ago he said reincarnation and last lives were imaginary... Now they actually happen? Cmon

I know man, I did 'remember' last Sunday (it that even makes sense Lol). It wasn't "me" who remembered, but this whole thing i call life ?

Lol Who are you? I actually become consciouss of this in a Trip. I hit my foot with the table and I saw how the internal dialogue complained, but meanwhile i was able to "separate" the physical sensation and the complaining! I saw that it was just a physical sensation!

If that's true then WHERE is that suffering you are talking about? Maybe you are confusing thoughts with suffering. Suffering is not possible because IT IS a thought. Yet suffering seems to imply it is something different than a thought, when it fact it can't. It's a thought. In high level of consciousness when the ego complains you see that IT is actually not suffering, it is just a thought. But you buy the ILLUSION that you are suffering (you think you are real). So don't try to be smart here. You suffer because you are indetified with an individual entity which it's false. If you would stop believing yourself to be the body and the guy who opens the mouth, you would see that when *he complains *he is not suffering, there are just words coming out of *his mouth. You create the suffering because you imagine it.

Yeah. You pretty much described my thoughts exactly, in a way I wasn't able to do in the OP haha

Please explain more @Scholar I don't think I really get it.

?You must be kidding me?

The cost is brutal. Too much to be worth it

I'll suggest you start with lsd and start very , very low dose. I think it's more easy to handle and to start in low doses is great to catalyze instropection and healing

Smoked 5-meo this morning. I don't know what dose it was because it was in a retreat and the "chaman" prepared to me, but I imagine it was low, next time I'll ask for a bit more. I can't remember how much the peak lasted since I lost track of time but I wouldn't say more than 5 minutes, which made it a little bit sad because I wanted a little.bit more but then I thought maybe not next time because I had a difficult time surrendering. I don't know exactly what happened. After smoking it I closed my eyes and everything started to dissappear, including the meaning of the world until know. I don't remember having much fear but rather my heart beating like crazy and just a while light of pure nothing and trying to surrendering to this nothing. I felt the surrender was too much for my ego. Because what I experienced meant this was all real. And I might be God after all. When I came down I had a kind of meditation "high" in which I experienced typical meditation awareness but nothing too crazy. In summary, I would score the experience as positive because I got a taste of the substance withouth a lot of mental taxing. But in other hand I couldn't surrender to it and I'm not sure if I should do a bit more next time or not so I can go to breakthrough and not in that "waiting zone" where you still haven't died and you are trying to make sense of stuff. Also, it Seems in comparison with lsd or mushrooms trips I haven't retained much from the trip. I feel totally at baseline and I don't feel much difference in regards to identification with the mind. However in lsd trips even I'm very low doses I would feel a lot of mindfulness now. Maybe smoking is not the best ROA to go. Seems brutally fucking intense for some minutes and then instantly at basine. Might have to experiment once and for all with plugging

Thanks, that was a delightful read

Lol. It's literal..it's not a word game. I have never lived life as a human. Just had 4 seconds of awesomeness Joy. How do you can in 4 seconds realize all of your life was an Imagination and you actually never had a human life? Well, you can. It is that crazy this life. And Just in an instant you remember who you been the whole time!

What is love exactly?

You might have done a lot of trips but it's obvious you haven't surrendered yet. Maybe you are kind of insensitive to psychedelics. Try other things. I would bet a long term retreat would be what it would work for you.

Very nice post I agree a lot with what you wrote and I think you hit the nail that wasn't being talked in the thread yet

Hahahaha What is REALITY you say? It's not a question of figuring it out. It's a question so obvious it's painful to see that you are not seeing it Reality is whatever is happening right now. In other words, and exactly as you said, the only true thing is that YOU are the common denominator of reality. Wherever you go, there is reality, along with you. Do you still think that is a coincidence? Or maybe You and Reality is just a duality you made ? You = Reality Self deception is impossible because self deception is still REALITY. ???

It is limitless. How can anything be perceived withouth a mind? The ultimate answer is that there is no mind. No perception. God is directly experiencing itself.

Haha... Man YOU are God Ask yourself how could you be so stupid to not create something that is not Love.

Exactly. Psychedelics come or doesn't come from YOU in the same way meditation does or doesn't. Ridiculous point he put .

Horseshit

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Nice. That seem like a life-changing experience. but I can I imagine it can be too much if you have 0 Psychedelic experience before hand. I'll smoke some tomorrow . Wish me luck ?. If only I get 10% of your experience I'll consider myself blessed!

What happened? Did you write a trip report I can read on the forum?