Javfly33

I am feeling like everything lacks meaning. How can you have joy if there is no meaning? Every difference I made in reality has been reveiled to be an total illusion, since everything is love. Everything is fundamentally the same. Also the fact that I am alone forever in my own godhood for eternity. And "everyone else" it's alone too. Forever. Additionally nobody I know friends or family understands me and they don't know I am them.

They can think they can, but in reality is you who cause you emotional suffering and THEN project that she/he hurt you. Of course emotional suffering is of your creation and responsability. Physical suffering is more difficult to trascend. It requires insane mystic levels of controlling the body and mind. I am not advocating for that kind of control as a goal for people.

Thats a very victim mentality of the mind. How could anyone cause you suffering? You are the one projecting that other people can make you suffer, particularly emotional suffering, which is the one we are talking here.

Yes, of course.

No, the essential ingredients are surrender and expansion. My best trips has been in difficult moments in my life, but willing to surrender and learn.

Right. They should have lived my life to experience first hand how that idelogy is so not accurate with reality ?

You guys are making a fuss out of something is not such a big deal. Most Guys who don't get laid, with the exception of maybe guys which are unfortunately very very ugly or weird, it's simply a lack of confidence/self love which stems from childhood trauma/conditioning or self hate karmic herency from parents. This guys don't have the masculine side developed correctly so they are not attractive and they don't behave in an attractive manner to the opposite sex chronically. The solution is simply mental health awareness . Dating advice and so on is a good thing for development but we should know what the basic root problem is. From that point Dating courses and social hacks and bootcamps are the "excuse" the guy will do and accomplish to finally realize there was nothing wrong with him. And of course long before that point the "incel" will stop being such since he will stop projecting any type of fault to women . Of course women are selective and like attractive guys, just as guys. It's such a duh. Unfortunately the sneaky projection of the mind makes the incel movement possible

Well the same idea that gives you that if you put a large knife on to your throat you are going to have a problem. The whole thing is an idea, and imagination and a concept, yet you act like it's useful for your life and somewhat accurate in reality and you do not do such a thing. But yeah I get your point, let go, flow with life, accept the new understanding, etc. I will do that thanks ?

I used to get veery stupid and horny when seeing girls attractive feet, even hough culturally it's a more or less widely accepted fetish, sometimes I thought that shit couldn't be normal. However today I went out to party scene where girls wear heels and all sort of that and I couldn't get excited at all. I haven't done nofap or anything like that. I do have way less interest in porn (close to none) but I still do it due to habit. Something has rewired in my brain and is not because of nofap or noporn, which just makes it even more curious. It seems there was a psychological trauma factor in relationship with foot fetish. Kind of fucked up since it seems its a pretty popular fetish. But anyway, at least I know it now and I healed a lot.

Any word you use to describe anything will be a concept.

I mean you are alone in your own perceptions and you will always be "there". Nobody will never be able to enter your own godhood.

I will start a meditation routine, yes. I just laugh because I could never realize what I realized only with meditation.

??Thank u

Hahahaha meditation they say

What works best for me Low/moderate dose of LSD (100-150ug) going the deepest you can into your feelings. High doses might be too trascendental to being enough practical for the material/low vibration world. That's why 5-MeO-DMT is not very practical for lots of people, for example. Too "out of the illusion". After the trip integrate for at least 2-3 months working with a therapist. Although ANYBODY or ANYTHING can be "your therapist". The therapist is an excuse you play to yourself as God to heal yourself. You imagine your therapist ? But yeah, whatever works for you man.

I just hope reality is truly love and we will reunite with each other in one single singularity for eternity. Oh wait...that's already the case. Yeah man but anyway there's always the doubt of "what if I'm wrong"? What if I'm not really Infinity?

Yeah plugging it instead of inssuflated might have made a significant difference in effects.

MxiPr is NOT warm hahaha. I almost lose my mind on that one. Completely insane trip I had. In other psychedelics I might suffer but at least I know more or less what is happening. That chem was like triggering schizophrenia for me for a couple of hours. Then I couldn't understand anything or integrate anything after the trip. No thanks. But hey if It works for you...we are all different in that regard. Thanks for sharing

So it seems my social anxiety and fear of being less/inferior stems from some kind of mental illness, or maybe a trauma, or conditioning, or both. Now I know it's not real. It's not the truth. I am creating it with my constant thoughts about reality. Leo says one should research his problem until it finds a solution. So I am interested in knowing about good resources to let me understand what is wrong with my thoughts and how can I solve it. I would prefer serious books on the matter instead of the typical 10min video from teal swan Lol Thank u very much

Its unbeareble to feel this. To hate yourself. I want to love myself But i Dont have good reasons to. Im trying to get to an honest description of myself. I need to know, why i feel impairing feelings of unworthiness after years of self development and spirituality. Hahaha its fucking crazy that i haven't done anything in terms of actual growth. Im truly have a devil inside me. This devil is me Because i'm me. And me doesnt deserve love and worthiness. No. Because there is something utterly wrong with me. I Dont know What it is. But there must be something. Because i feel bad and when i feel bad is because that is Who i am. Feeling is telling the truth. If i am feeling bad its because i'm bad! Thats why i Dont deserve GODs love. Everybody else does. But not me. Im utterly the worst person on the universe. My only hope is a psychedelic breakthrough. Infinite love. Nothing less. I cant and i Dont want to live like this insane act of unworthiness , hate and fear. My Life is all the time like this. Nooooo! Fuck this. PLEASE save me and made this bulllshit stop. I want to live properly!! Fuck this bullshit ! I seriously pray you God for fucks SAKES kill the devil. I cant bear being myself. Its hell. PLEASE. LOVE. PLEASE .

For example, In my last 5-meo-dmt "trip" I started releasing tension in my back and crying of joy Because I realized (as Consciousness) that I have lived my crushe's Life. That made me joyful and releasing tension Because...that means I'm her, I'm not below her, which erased a little bit of the lack of self love shadow than my ego has. However now thinking about it, I question the validity of the insight. 1. How do I know it's true? 2. Isn't just another belief now? 3. Even in the experience, could as well be a delusion. I've read about non duality, so the trip shows and projects already my beliefs. See this is the problem. Supposedly 5-meo-dmt state of awareness is such a high state. Yet I feel as lost and deluded as always. Unfortunately I don't seem to gain any lasting insights of truth from the trips. I do get very lasting ego-reduction effects, letting go, and openmindness from trips. But insights of truth? They seem as deluded as sober.

Is this an allowed topic to post about in the forum? Maybe one of the moderators can let me know and then I'll edit the topic and explain my idea of retreat. Thank you

Is there any good high Conscious resources (don't want to fall into red pill/stage red ideology) when starting the path to go from being insecure and not confident to secure and confident? Music to listen, books to read, activities to do, meditations/mantras to repeat, actions to do. By now I'm planning; 1. - eat more and build muscle (habits) 2. - start doing pick up and dating seriously (actions) 3 - be less in my head and feel more and be honest when I feeling I'm being dominated like a beta instead of projecting guilt to other people (meditations)

So...Covid has stop taking its toll on my country. People are relaxing now. It's time for me to take action. I'm sick of feeling frustrated, a loser around girls and a victim. I am going to change this. How much approaches is REALISTIC to accomplish if I want to skyrocket my development as fast as I can just going out once a week. Since My current job doesn't allow me to go out every day, and i work Sunday to Thursday, I need to take a whole day off of everything at Friday, and Sunday I have to go to work already. So this leaves me Saturday solely for practicing my dating skills. Just give me the highest realitic possible number for this Saturday and I will do that. I want to push my self. Let's go!

Right ? so I should welcome them. I should take a deep dive to them and open myself with love to them