Javfly33

@The0Self That's right, I'm not sure I understand you...

Because its death. Reality stops being real. Who would want to accept such a thing? At least the ego doesnt.

I've started meditating again after so much time. Not because of spiritual purposes But for relaxing/letting go. I've already noticed a subtle overall positive effect on my calmness and ability to let go through the day. However I've also noticed something concerning. I wake Up each day with my mind Racing. First thing that i do i find scrolling through social media and emails, But once I've finished, Im left with this overall sensation of "edgyness".

Entertainment for monkey mind

What you mean when you say "everything is imaginary" or "you are imagining everything, including, people, tress, sounds, etc". I can see that as possible, when i am meditating and i become conscious everything is happening in my Consciousness. For example i hear the lift sound because somebody clicked the Button, and i can become aware What IS true IS the Sound + the thought "that sound IS coming from outside my experience where exists a physical lift". So i can become aware of that difference and open my mind to the fact that i might be imagining the lift, (and the Sound) However What about when i walk around budy downtown. My city has a very busy downtown, lots of Cars, peoples, stores. On a saturday night its really nuts . This is when i find VERY DIFFICULT to accept that God COULD BE SO TWISTED to try to deceive me by creating SO MANY TYPE OF SOUNDS, COLOURS, PEOPLE MOVING AROUND, DIRT, CLOTHING, CITY LIGHTS, ETC !!! WTF? That would be such a ridiculously complex imagination. Cmon. This have to be Real. I can accept i am imagining my whole room, the lift, the chair, and my body. Ok. But not the REAL CITY, with REAL PEOPLE.

Not this complex. They are way more simpler.

The phrase itself already caused dumb laughter here ??

I might try this weird shit soon. Discovered a dominatrix which some years ago switched to doing tantra and Consciousness perspectives. Lets remember than bdsm and fetishes are darkness and ego shadows, and tantra IS the supposedly the higuest kind of sex (purest/healthiest) energy a human can develop. Apparently are two opposites sides of the Coin according to the current literature. This woman says can play between the two to provide the healing/release experience you need. (Obviously in a person which has bdsm tendendies/fetishes. If you Dont have then theres no point. Just go to a classical tantra massager i Guess) It might waste a money too But i am def intrigued how the experience can be. Does anyone here tried something similar?

I think Im gonna pass btw, she charges a lot and honestly Im going to pay to feel bad about myself meh Dont think It Will be Smart

I find It just find that there are people that confess having no link between bdsm and trauma, But i just find suspicious that a lot of people I've talked to about this, get very triggered when i say my opinion. Like, yo, honestly i just Care about my relationship with bdsm, But why you guys get so triggered when i say bdsm IS indicator of low Consciousness if you guys feel so good and healthy with It? ?

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oh that's very good sir

Fair enough, But take a look at my last reply to the user @Elisabeth

I might be weird, But hate-kind of thoughts have always felt terribly bad 'round here. Now this progressive kinky culture here trying to tell you that you might be anything else less that Love and you should accetp It? now they normalize hate as something you have to accept ? Hace we gone crazy @Nahm ?

@Elisabeth I am defintely surrendering to them to feel them as accepting them as full as posible. However, its also true that some bdsm inclinations go Hand in Hand with self-hate and harmful beliefs. For example as a man inclined to femdom and last year to findom, I've find that when i have unveiled false harmful beliefs about women and myself (like a weekend socializing for example and discovering Im not "Broken" or "wrong" or "bad") i felt more inclined to being turn on by normal sex. Yet in moments of isolation, social anxiety, beliefs about myself+women ...etc have been always a trigger for seeking femdom, findom, etc and all kind of sense of "being abused" and feeling "hated" by the opposite sex and enjoy It. I'm not saying the fetish are bad, i think they are there to BE FELT, yet one cant avoid to think that if the triggers are mental health problems and harmful beliefs, they are a representation of the low state of Consciousness of the person. I Guess that better than saying that bdsm IS bad, is better to say that bdsm inclinations are INDICATORS of trauma, self harmful beliefs, mental health problems, ego...etc. In the same sense that a stomach Pain IS not really bad, is just an indicator you have been poisoned. The Pain have a purpose, i Guess in the same way bdsm does ?

Its good fake It until you make It But keep working on yourself to truly become non attached on validation. This is basically self love and unveiling false beliefs about women being this lights of being and so on.

At least the concept of "Love". Usually in spiritual literature they say about Love: "Love is the absence of separation between subject and object". Taking this definition from my perspective, i could say that my body IS the subject and the other person IS the object. If i stop believing that Objects are part of an outside material reality, and instead i realize objects appear in my Consciousness always, i can derive there is no separation. Would this be Love? Ok But now i wonder, God is imagining this whole concept of Love to not feel Alone. Because in the first place God is imagining that object too. There is no Love you are "united with" other persons. Because other persons is something God is dreaming Up. So Love IS not even real. Only imagination. Isnt love a part of Gods imagination and NOT something fundamental to reality, Leo? @Leo Gura In other words, Love IS as fundamental to reality as Fox news. Neither of both concepts are the "substance" of reality. Both are imaginations of the dream. Only Gods mind is fundamental.

Dense? Why not call It unicorn instead of Love?

Unfortunately no, that would be ideal, indeed.

Contemplating quitting my actual job because its very stressing for me and if i quit It i would have lots of free time to Focus 100% in finding a Job in software development. I am getting interviews already from time to time But im having a hard time in passing the Next application process. I have savings for 1 year aprox to live well I know rationality says keeep the job until you find the other one, But i also think that if i quit this current job i Will be - crazy more motivated to find this one - more free time to polish my portfolio/adding another Big project maybe. What you think? Im not sure if i can do a lot to increase my employability just working on coding 2 hours a day at most (i cant get more free time than that, i have others things to do too). If i quit Job ill be Able to maybe put 5-6 hours a day on It.

5-br-dmt?

I agree with most part of your post. But def not the last paragraph. I wouldnt say that "Love to be had", rather Love is unveiled between the two when they forget themselves on the other one or actions they do together, But that is just because sex and emotional attachment releases a lot of juicy chemicals which triggers this Union. What i mean the LOVE IS of reality, IS not of the humans. The women chosed the men selfishly as the man did. You guys keep thinking love. IS something humans do. They Dont. They cant. Because its not humans property. Thank God on that.

What the fuck. Im so tired of this jerofliphics zen stories. I know you mean well and all of that, just like nahm, sometimes you guys are imposible to understand (i know its tough since spiritual shit is difficult to communicate) you particularly lately with that "apparent" Word are getting more misterious, and frustrating too

So in YouTube there are a bunch of video recordings of people inhaling bufo alvarius/5-meo in ceremonies and in A LOT of them the people just go crazy/start shouting a lot, etc. Is this because they are having a God Realization and his reaction is a consecuence of their ego not being prepared for that radical Truth, or IS It more a "release of energy"? I just find It curious because I've done 5-meo 1 time inhaled and several times plugged and i NEVER had reactions of shouting, going crazy with my hands, etc. I've had experiences of crying and being in awe with my hands on the mouth for several minutes, But Nothing like those videos.

I vaped one time, But It was so intense Lost contact with sight a d closed my eyes then It was over. I didnt made any sound But my Heartbeat was fast AF. Unless vaped Bufo its as strong and at the same time It lets you keep your eyes closed