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@Someone here Contemplate the difference between "physical" and "not physical". It's physical for you that which have an appearance and non-physical that which doesn't? If then, what about seeing a person in a dream? It has an appearance, is the person's dreamed body physical? What about hallucinations? If someone on a psychotic state hears an helicopter pursuing her, is that sound "real"? I mean it sounds just as fine, so I guess it is? So what is "not real"? Consensus of the human? But how do we know that consensus is correct? After all the consensus in the past were that the earth was flat. And that God , something that we have never seen, existed.

@Someone here That's the same as saying " Sadness is caused because of low energy and low mood". instead of actually looking deeper than that an observe that sadness was just the result of maybe your family member dying. AND after the sadness builds up there's low energy and low mood. In the same way the neurotransmitters levels are just "representations" of a type of life and personality and habits. Answering your question: No, it doesn't seem we are biological robots. We can change stuff in our body and mind, and THEN the neurotransmitters levels will change. Understand the chemical levels of your brain as the representation that can change anytime depending how you use your mind. Not the other way around.

On one level it´s more peaceful in the sense you don´t have to sell , and interact with people much. On the other delivery driving usually usually demands some stress management skills and driving has on it´s own his level of anxiety... which is minimal, but doing it daily for hours it ends up builing up as an another level stressor to the job.

I recently got a relocation that I asked in my job, from a very little town to a big city, with the intention of making here possible my LP and also some other self development tasks I have yet to master the next years. But the problem is, life in this city is much more expensive than where I was living before. I don't know what to do. I feel so poor. I've been staying in a friend's house so far.. The room is so small, I have no natural light inside and the bed is also so small and crappy tbh. Lucky that the rest of the house is nice and comfortable and I have a great friendship with my friend. See my idea was to have this job while I work on my LP in this city, but I am beggining to stress the fuck out because just imagining the idea that I'll have to live like this for maybe 5-10 years it's crazy. I shared flat everytime I've lived outside my parents house. I thought now with a steady job at least I could have the luxury of living alone. But no. I have to share flat and even that is ludicrous expensive. Fuck this economy man!! W I mean I could but maybe rent some verhy crappy apartment on my own but if I do that I won't have any savings left at all at the end of the month Lol. No possibility of retreats or maybe even buying clothes lmao. So I have to share flat if I want to have some money left to have proper nutrition and do retreats and work on my LP. Yeah sharing flat is the only option being this poor. Jesus. I feel frustrated because I want to make money NOW. I dont want to be this fucking poor for the next 5-10 years until the LP makes me money (if ever does)

@Leo Gura If inside the "main experience" (God) I start to make disntinctions between forms ad colours, thoughts and feelings, yeah, I am having new experiences. However the main experience is always the same. ? @Forestluv ?. Yeah, the other perspective makes life more fun, opening the possibility to experience all kind of experiences (once you tell yourself there are "new" experiences). Of course both perspectives are valid to take into account ?

@Forestluv Another perspective could be: there can't be new experiences since the experience is always the same. Unless we make endless categories of course, which is exactly what language does

Yeah it's only you man wtf you talking about lool Also, i don't think this subforum is the right place to post this.

@James123 ??

There's something "fucked up" that happens in my experience when sometimes I see a couple of cute girls doing a selfie and they upload it to Instagram. I never gave it too much importance, but lately I am getting more close towards they call in spiritual practices: "feeling". And therefore and I am becoming conscious I am having some weird fucking thoughts sometimes when I see this pictures. Before getting close to "feeling" and Actually recognizing that I feel bad when I do, I didn't even want to recognize the thoughts, it's like feeling was protecting me with the thoughts. By basically not even sending me the message that I am feeling bad (this doesn't make any sense sorry) It would be great if nahm give me his output here) When I see this kind of pictures, I feel bad s lot of times. I just realize it more clearly. So I look at thoughts. They say something like "Look how they smile. They are so happy because they are better than you .They are so superior. You can't never have them. They humiliate you. They think you are an inferior, beta, weak scum bag that shouldn't even talk to them". Now that's some weird thoughts. Because I dont remember ever being bullied or humiliated and definitely not by cute girls Lol. Yeah sure I was s little bit special and shy on school but honestly not so much. Like I wasn't any weirdo who would have trauma of being so different or ugly to others that they would get trauma from it. And I have even done some pick up here and there and I have gotten positive feedback from it so I have a *rational understating that I can be attractive to girls if I make the effort and work on myself. So basically what you think this weird perspective of reality is coming from and how you think I can heal (if this is the correct word, because I don't remember being hurt). I feel this perspective is what is causing me some residual anxiety/thought stories and perpetuates the false story of the self, so any advice to clear this out to have a white canvas to work on the rest of my life would be great ? thanks for reading.

I think they are notoriously known by rejecting psychedelics. However this shouldn't mean much to you talking into account that most Enlightments nowdays happen through psychedelics and not because of the methods of this traditional teachers.

No way David Hawkins is this stupid. Sorry if it comes too harsh but come on, categorising the consciousness state of people who lived thousand years ago it's laughable.

@Nahm ?? I would say the only 'issue' here (not even an issue, just something to be aware of to make the process faster ) is that sometimes (hell, most of the time except this week, or after retreats, yoga, or tripping) , it feels like they aren't thoughts about myself, but rather they are about reality. In that case I am left powerless just feeling bad not even knowing WHY . When I am aware enough to go deep into feeling and unveil the thoughts, then is when I discover they are about myself and I can change them. For example in what sense "they think I am a loser" is a thought about me? It's something that they They think. Therefore it's about reality itself . It can't be changed. (I don't actually belief this. Just playing the devil's advocate here)

@EmptyVase That sounds very coherent. And definitely "feels good" because it's about being good NOW. The belief that I need to heal something about the past seems that is more BS from the false self. Nice. Thanks all for the juicy and very insightful answers.

@Loba yeah you are the old user Keyhole. Why you changed your username?

Do you think that every Ego's dream in which God is incarnating, has the same 'purpose' or it varies ? For example in my latest deepest trip I got the sense my whole life story as an ego was meticulously imagined to teach myself about love. My lack of self esteem, 'social anxiety', constant judgements, etc, this that my ego has had and done for all of his life it's not a coincidence. You could say "no, it was because genetics , or because having this parents or having this friends or having this face (I'm not even ugly but just to make a point lol) " blabla... But you are missing that my friends, parents, childhood and genetics are not absolutes. I have imagined them too. To create the perfect Illusion so the dream was coherent and believable. As I said. For what purpose? I as God have imagined this particular dream to teach myself about how immensely perfect and love I am and to remember this. Because you know, it's amazing to remember this. It's the pinnacle of life. But maybe it's because I was just high and I have read too much actualized.org and my mind is making fantasies about it ? I definitely need to go deeper. Now that I now that I am not real and I am God hahaha Blessings ??

@James123 literally ??

Non duality is definitely not the truth. It's a model to understand the interconnectedness of reality. But yeah, it could be flawed. In a lot of ways . The truth can't be a model or theory or ideology as you said.

I think you should go to a doctor. Don't know how doctors are in your country, maybe try different type of doctors.

Seems like a good first time overall ? thanks for sharing

You think there's Truth over here, and that which is going to be found or is aligned with over there. Non duality Not found 404 ☹️

? That went straight to my heart Sorry but that is exactly what doesn't make sense and started me into the spirituality stuff in the first place. The story of being a precise "you" and not another "you" sounded like Catholic animalistic magical thinking..it just makes zero sense. Therefore looking for actual truth about what I am.

Dunt know. It's just a weird intuition I keep getting in deep psychedelic trips.

What is wrong with being alone? You are just thinking that that is bad. But it's actually amazing because it also means you are so United with yourself.

I found out. I'm just talking to myself ?

You sure ?