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Not much because I got high before the interaction. Big fucking mistake... I´m so clear right now im going to be completely sober in each interaction. (Although at the end of the date I wasn't that high anymore and I started again to feel this humiliation and inferiority shit, although I wasn't conscious about ---> the issue about of drugs). @Thought Art Anyways, after this horrific couple of days I´m pretty clear at this point that all it boils down is a pain in the stomach/third charka. Yesterday I went out socialising to a bar completely sober and for the first time I did not feel shame or fear, I just surrendered the pain of not being loved that I have in the stomach, and it seems I didn't have a lot of fear anymore. I think I have broken through. I think I just have to surrender to that pain, become conformable with it, express me through it, so I can release it slowly.

@Something Funny Good observation. ??

And that is, when I see a girl with an exceptionally pretty shoes and especially a perfect done pedicure. Some days It gives me such a frustration seeing such perfection that it ruins my day. Well not the whole day but at least 30min after seeing it I feel so frustrated, incredibly frustrated. Like I don't care about other parts of women in that way, of course I can feel very sexusally aroused looking at a good ass too, and yeah sure it can frustrate me to but definitely not in such tremendous level as seeing perfect painted pedicures. I would sell everything to be able to near or put in my mouth some of this MILFs perfect pedicures. Is insane. Is close to God what I experience with the desire they trigger me How can I avoid feeling this energetic frustration? I guess it happens on days I do not do spiritual practices. Please don't close this topic is totally serious, just because you haven't experienced this pain/desire/frustration doesn't mean is not very real to some of us.

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Are you that fucking sad to be insulting someone that is going through a bad moment? Really dude? Christ, you do need even more help than me. @Schizophonia

Thanks all of you for your messages. @StarStruck @Thought Art @Sincerity @Bazooka Jesus I didn't felt it was a normal interaction. It had sensual elements attached to it. The fact that he was receptive to my kisses and physical contact made me thought she was attracted to me. She even asked me to kiss her several times, I guess she was just playing with me. I know, is a mistake. It always happens to me because I start to have hopes a women will finally love me/be interested in me.

??will read it later thanks

Everyone with a penis. But if we talk about an attractive man that women desire, then is another story. I can not say anything in that regard because I'm still learning.

+1000. Dig enough and he will find a mountain of pain behind it

@Chives99 hard truths

It still blows my mind that in the first date I was touching her and saying her dirty shit and she was super stimulated and receptive, never had such a sensual interaction so fast so easy, but the second date something gone bad, I really had to do a bad fucking job on the second date to fuck it all up.

Right, that makes sense. She definetely sensed that. Damn women won't buy any doubt uh, lol. You have a point, but I think also that personally I might be denying my true wishes and desires and if I had allowed myself to fully be me things would have ended up differently. Looking back at the interaction I can definitely see i didn't do a lot of things I wanted to do. Cheers, that makes sense to me, contemplating now I can definetely see I lacked true confidence and leadership.

@Basman Thanks! That motivates me to quit that crap for good. Today I was going to buy a Coke but I controlled myself and bought carbonated water instead lol

Maybe is not the best word, you are right.

When you have options you don't need to play those dumb games of psychopathic women.

JulienHimself YouTube channel. The guy that used to do stuff with Owen (Tyler RSD). I watched some of his recent videos and at first I thought "Ok, this guy might have something interesting" but then I got the sense he's just selling empty smoke, just like Owen, he just have this potent effervescent energy in his talks and teaching that initially makes you think he's teaching something powerful. But then it goes anywhere. I don't get the sense he understand what trauma is. It feels he is just trying to heal his clients through brute force on live events in front of 80 people I don't think that's how it works. He might be doing even things worse for this people. Not out of bad intention but out of ignorance. I might be wrong though...has anyone benefit from him? If yes that would change my mind.

Unity is not a state of consciousness. Previously I thought so, I thought there were separation state of consciousness and unity state of consciousness. Now my opinion has changed in regards to it. I would say that there are state of consciousness where the Truth of Unity is revealed, and state of consciousness where the truth can't be experienced, (falsehood is experienced, the feeling of separation is experienced). So basically, Unity is always here and now, but sometimes humans lack the right state of being, their energies are not tuned up/open properly, to perceive it. Today I blessed my whole city and surroundings around my home. I clearly again entered pure samadhi, pure truth, I sent love and wellbeing and consciousness to everything around me. If you dissolve the imaginary boundary between you and 'external world' you can do miraculous healing in the planet.

@Princess Arabia @Bazooka Jesus Hahahah the classic games of the bullies. I´ve seen it all my fucking life. First they try to break you, when you fight back and try to put their shitty behaviour to Light, is when they say 'oh nooo! but I didn't mean that! (Gaslighting in action by the way)'. etc. Used to happen alll the time. This kind of shitty bullshit you are doing I´ve seen it so many times. NO, YOU GUYS DO NOT FUCK ME. GO FUCK SOMEONE ELSE AND TRY PUT THEM DOWN. You just have fucking envy and can't hold even 10% of the light and love I hold and instead you try with VIOLENCE and BULLY-like behaviour to destroy me. If you were SMART and you actually KNEW LOVE, you would benefit from my topics, you would think 'Oh, that such an amazing light! Let me see how can I integrate this. Oh, I want that, im going to get that too'. But no, instead you go try to BEAT me to the ground out of...who knows? envy? frustration? The FUCK who knows that darkness you guys have. I didn't read even your post, you don't even believe your own bullshit. I NEVER will bow down in reading your post AFTER you have TRIED to FUCK ME. NOBODY FUCKS ME no more. Go break and beat someone else that you find 'vulnerable'. hahahaha. The bully can't even hold the LIES for minutes!! 'It was a joke', but she can't help to try to BEAT ME some more at the end. Can't you see it? So full of darkness YOU ARE. Trying to make me think as I´m the one who did something wrong here. HA HA HA, YOU fucking WISH you had my light. YOU FUCKING WISH. Go check yourself to a doctor BEFORE you BEAT and RAPE more people dangerous person.

@Bazooka Jesus @Princess Arabia you two have been reported for the posts. Im tired of eating your crap in my topics. If you have envy issues inside go to fucking therapy instead.

No, life is not about trying to bully your way with me on my topic to feel superior, and then playing that game of 'oh no hard feelings brUh'. Cut that 'no hard feelings' game, I´m not so fucking dumb. So you were the one that was all about accepting others fetishes but do not hesitate to use it in your advantage now to fuck me in a public-humiliation way? Honestly, how disappointing. The bully inside you here is seen so fucking easily. Look how good you felt trying to put me into the ground with the help of the other one. Jesus Christ, so sad. When you do this kind of shit you are only damaging yourself dummy. You think your words can hurt me? I spit on them, and eat them like dessert innocent. I´ve eaten dozens like you. Been brutally beaten so many times, I can't help to laugh that you think you could hurt me in a real way with that comment.

@Someone heree

I knew you were going to enter this topic just to fuck with me you little devil ? Pity you, you could use this topic for inspiration though....?

Good insight. I would go even further and ask myself "What If the answer can never come from a thought?"

Yes, is definitely an enchanting place...as long as you have the right chemistry inside you appreciate it... if not, you already know even billionaires in yatchs can get depressed

@Sidra khan For sure, If it werent because of sex/women I would already be in an ashram