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I know but is hard to do that. I wrote the OP of this topic after several days like in an existencial crisis. I can not be in that state all the time because if not I can't even hold a job.

@aclokay thanks for sharing. Good luck to your future. In My next project I will be doing devops mainly so I guess is good news is less code

I know, definitely next time I won't make the same mistake ?

Damn just give me one solution ?? I guess there's no substitute for going out more and meeting more receptive women ?

It's obvious. Psychedelics are chemicals and they twist something in your brain/consciousness in order for you to tap into those states. The fact that one can not get into those states naturally, is debatable, but I would say yes, is not possible. But in the other hand, by the same "logic", psychedelics are limited precisely because they put your chemistry in a certain state/way. If they wouldn't fix in a certain way your inner chemistry, then you yes, you *could tap into every state unimaginable, but since they have a certain chemistry design, they are limited to that design or certain way they twist your chemistry. When you have no chemical influence under, the inner chemistry is free and can be tweaked in any way. Also I do believe is possible to tweak your state of consciousness naturally as a psychedelic does, the only reason monks or yoguis or mystics don't do it is because psychedelic states have a certain anxiety and lack of energetic control that no one would produce if they had at one point the panel of control of their chemistry. Someone that can produce a high state of consciousness will produce the clarity, blissfulness and intensity, but will not produce any kind of negative effect such as over stimulation, energetic imbalances or twists in consciousness. Something that psychedelic do as a side effect of putting you in mystical states. Overall, when you taste explosive blissful and clear states of consciousness "naturally", you will see the psychedelic states as not so good and not so "perfect". Most people haven't touch this unfortunately so they think the psychedelic states are the peak of the peak. No, no. This is like all your life what most you have driven is a BMW and you think BMW is the best. Until you try a Maserati or a Ferrari. Then you'll realize how naive you were you thought you've seen it all.

@Schizophonia You tried it? Nah I was just kidding I guess. But I'm going to start hitting the gym hard. I probably just lack masculine raw power

I think I'm going to start injecting me testosterone, see if thay way this Latin bitches can wet their panties for me then

I just look and what I see is a belief or feeling that I am not worthy of existing. The mind, energy, karma or whatever is producing this, it will end up killing me if I don't find a way to eliminate it.

Take magnesium citrate. You are not taking opiates right? They cause constipation.

Fear, pain, Shame, dark energies, etc... That thing is the demon, it will ruin your life if you don't win it over. Either get high to numb ir or surrender /open yourself to it completely you don't perceive it as a negative thing. I recommend the second option. But either way, the point is don't let it dominate you.

Drink SPRITE. Tastes good and it looks as a Gin Tonic ?

Right? Like you can not say anything nowdays about women unless is about they are always right and perfect. Ok, fair enough. But understand that when I write all of this my point is not to feel victim out of it, is more kind of to be prepared when next time it happens, I'll just tell the girl to fuck off and leave her to pay the bill, instead of eating his bull shit laughing it off as she just always mean good and everything is just my imagination, as I've done in the past. I mean...you can't deny the reality that people do love to project their insecurities and judge people as a mechanism defense, to then when being called out, gaslight the other one saying is all their imagination. ( I wonder why I've never felt like that when my dearest friends. It might be because they actually don't have subconscious painful emotions they want to project to me like this women I've encountered) @Bazooka Jesus

Well indirectly thanks to this deeply suffering experience I ended up having sex with other girl lmao I love how weird life is ?

I met this woman I thought we had good chemistry for once, but the next day I found out she doesn't find me attractive and she doesn't give a shit about me. I can't get to feel myself love from women, desire from women. Whatever I fucking do is never enough, whatever good seems to be happening (apparent attraction, kisses, laughs), only ends up to be all fake, it turns out she doesn't like me. It hurts so much, I don't care about anything else in the world but to feel desired and valued as a men in a sexual manner for once. This crap crushed me to the bottom again. This one was particularly painful because I really thought the date was smooth as fuck, I enjoyed myself, she enjoyed herself, etc...but nothing. Again I get beaten, demolished, destructed, treated as the apparent shit I am. What the fuck did I do wrong to deserve this.

The taste is not very pronounced, they just feel like smoke lol I like them because they burn way slower than the Marlboros or camel, so they last longer Yeah definitely cigars is a step up. Not such a compulsive habit as cigarettes and just make you look cool lol

haha lol https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/West_(cigarette)

@Carl-Richard Those are just two examples. But the flatmate that also used to do this was constant persecution to almost anything I've said. You guys are fucking great at gaslighting, Jesus.

Yes, I know what you mean. Obviously she can could do that because I was in a certain low energetic consciousness that allow it/would receive it But that doesn't make suddenly me guilty and she completely excused. That's like saying a woman that was raped it was his fault because she was in a "receptive" state for a predatory rapist. Or that a bully is excused also because the other person was in a vulnerable or weak state. Imagine saying: Fucking kiddo! How dare you are in a weak state to be receiving the punches and manipulation of the bully! Is all your fault!" @Bazooka Jesus If you guys feel good just assuming that the girl does not have dark energies that might be projecting to, and I'm the "bad one" go ahead. But is clearly not fair. @Princess Arabia The other person do his part to. If you want to deny that, ok go ahead. Sure, she is perfect, fucking Buddha, Dalai Lama. I'm the bad one. Yaiii! I hope you guys are proud of what you are constantly doing with me. Holy shit I might have said something really bad to you in other past lives because the amount of lack of any compassion or understanding to my part is really shocking LOL. I'm the bad one cool. The others are perfect and the good ones. Gotcha. Thank you.

I don't think that is the question. The question is more will the guy that is not bulked but has fighting skills win over the gym bro bulked but has no fighting skills and doesn't know how to hold his nerves/tension on a fight. A big factor when fighting is psychological preparation and intelligence. But of course if you are the skin guy and he grabs you unless you know ji jitsu or some shit like that you are probably fucked yeah

Don't start! Don't be dumb. Once you get physically dependent to it Your receptors will be kidnapped by the caffeine, you will be slave to it and your productivity won't neccesarry will be better. If your job is very mechanical and dumb, caffeine might help to be more productive, but if your work is somewhat intellectual (like software engineer or similar), it might be even a bad choice. @flowboy can tell you more about it.

I agree but partially. I wonder sometimes when I'm at the gym, there are some people lifting weights less heavy than me yet their muscles are bigger Lmao. I'm not Hypertrophy means you have more strength to overpower move someone on a fight. (Saying this with caution because I'm still a beginner at the gym)

Have you ever contemplated the possibility that a woman that is "shit testing" doesn't deserve in the first place the effort? Why you want to have something with a person that you are going to be in fight mode all the time? I don't know about you but when I go out with a woman is to have a fun and try to connect, if is going to be about fighting games, then what is the point. Can we have some maturity as humans?

sure. The thing is, women don't know shit about this. They just see big muscles and automatically assume strength and power. In a sense is good they are ignorant to how nuanced fighting and physically overpowering someone is.

Would you say masculine attractive energy boils down to taking initiative with self confidence/acceptance? I recently had a very interesting interaction with a girl. I started making moves on her, touching her hands, kissing her, touching their legs...etc. while doing all of this, I was doing it in a doubtful/testing the waters, kind of way. For me this was normal, since I just had met her 15-20 minutes ago, but she seemed kind of annoyed with it (not in angry of course but in an attitude of "meh, in disappointed with you, I was expecting you to be more direct), because she recriminated me several times by saying things like "you don't have to ask me for everything that you do, you can just do it" ...etc. I do appreciate this honesty of women lol, is quite amazing to receive that direct honest feedback, but I found myself surprised by it. After that day we exchanged numbers, then we had another date and I did kind of the same, playing with her, kissing her, touching her, ( but of course I could have done this in a more secure/direct way?), Because the following day, she wrote me saying she enjoyed my company but only wants to be friends. I was really surprised by this. Now you have to fuck the girl on the second date or if not they just lose interest? Wtf lol.

@The0Self hahaha nice one man, I definetely fell to that ?? Wow, im surprised by that ratio, that definetely does make me feel not so bad about myself lol