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  1. If everything is love there is nothing to maximize, it's already maxed out.
  2. Maybe you can become friend with her boyfriend and help them heal their relationship ?
  3. If you experienced being god and already vanquished death how come that from this place of omniscience and omnipotence you couldn't find a way to sustain this state and never fall back from that state ?
  4. @Hello from Russia How disdainful are you about the people that brought about your existence. If you're so much better than them then why do you need advice on how to handle them, just let them make noise and go about your conscious life.
  5. What do you mean by self esteem ? Sadhguru says you don't need self esteem but clarity of vision. If you know clearly that you're going to underperform then why still go through with the action that you know will only yield ugliness ?
  6. @traveler well said, what you experienced as this gate from which there is no comeback maybe it was just part of the experience and even if you went through your trip would have showed you new things but maybe you would still be back to your old good self after the trip end. A bit like Leo says he physically died during some of his trips yet he always came back to the good old Leo.
  7. @traveler it's good if you have that knowledge then you don't need the excuses cited above anymore
  8. @traveler You say that's an excuse but how do you know that you're not going to damn yourself if you make the jump ?
  9. Maybe you're right, instead of getting free you are walking towards eternal damnation.
  10. Check the trip reports on erowid, some people can't recover their psychee, their vision become durably impaired etc. It's a poison so it is strange to qualify it as a psychedelic. If this is a psychedelic then cyanide is a most powerful psychedelic, permanent ego death guaranteed.
  11. @OBElerdamn thanks for posting that. I am in the same spot the way you describe your workflow. I myself wasn't fired but quit because I had to work over time on my own time to try to ship on time, often late and it was becoming too stressful. I did yoga and meditation but it didn't help and on some level I lost a lot of respect for those practices because their selling point is that it works but after months of striving it doesn't get better. And even Leo agrees with this because he himself quite those practices. In fact those practices can even hurt you in the regard of your workflow because if you work all days long on the same problem and you live only for that then you hit the flow at a certain moment and for a little period you don't have this ADD-like behavior but if you have practices on the side to do then you always have thoughts that are going in a different direction and you can't even hit the flow, you are always in a state of tension.
  12. What you articulate about what you like in men is rather irrelevant. If a poor guy approaches you and seduces you then you will fall for him, you're not going to refer to that framework that he's poor so you're cancelling you falling for him, you already fell. What you're speaking about is what you like in men but in your head, if you go outside this framework doesn't mean that there are no circumstances under which a poor guy can seduces you.
  13. Because you think that society at large is not a cult.
  14. Jesus is like Buddha or Krishna, by becoming conscious of those beings it is possible to taste their qualities. They are devas (or gods) of the astral realm, that is in the eastern framework of understanding. Shiva also but apparently there is a reason why hindus are all about Shiva, the destroyer, the mahadeva (greater god). Indeed the crushing majority of temples in India are dedicated to Shiva. Destroying everything within the field of consciousness would be a way to go back to the ultimate nature, that which engendered the cosmos in the first place.
  15. This god mind is expressing itself suspiciously similarly to Leo but I'm sure it's a nice experience to have for someone who thinks it's existentially significant.
  16. @Cykaaaa to me it seems that leo conditioned you with the belief that your perspective and themes that fall under the category of 'green' are superior to the perspective of your friend that you put in the category of 'blue'. Seeing that you're unable to easily come out on top in your talks with your friend your are now posting in this forum about the dissonance you're experiencing because if you really knew your perspective is superior then your friend shouldn't be able to get to you.
  17. @khalifa my bad it wasn't my intent to introduce negativity in your process I just wanted to share my experience so you may enlarge your perspective of the situation but maybe it's not how it works. You feel you're going to be fine so stay with it and heal nicely <3 @Leo Gura i'm not sure how it works, does taking medication really slow down anything, what spiritual progress would temporary medication take away from you ?
  18. I had a similar symptom 2 years ago when I did some cannabis oil (+ I was tripping on lsd on a weekly basis). I could barely sleep and when I managed to sleep it felt as if I was awake all the time. After some time asleep I would suddenly wake up in a burst because my consciousness was hitting a point that felt like I could go mad and not be able to come back. I couldn't stay in place or anxiety would start to snowball I felt like being on a slippery slop so I kept walking all day long to try to stay grounded. Seeing that my condition wouldn't improve after 3 days I could see that it would only get worse as the more tired I would be the worse it would get with hallucinations, even harder time to sleep etc. So I went to medical emergency the 4th day, they gave me one Xanax which helped me with the anxiety instantly but for a short time, they gave me anti psychotic I took it for 3 days and it slowly got better. Now maybe your condition is not so bad so you can keep trying their kundalini and spiritual emergency stuff, but see Martin Ball, when shit really hit the fan he went for medical care and science and stabilized him.
  19. It's unclear what makes the individuality in the cycle of reincarnations. For instance Buddha is said to have reached nirvana but is said to still coming back whereas someone like Sadhguru says that after 80years after his death his presence will disappear completely. But how could that be if the rest of existence didn't attain to absolute stillness ? Basically the question is how the self emerges from absolute stillness.
  20. What I mean is that this conscious death, although not ultimate, was great to the point I still remember it and even things that happened after such as the unhinged energy being or eternal bliss. Some alternatives is that you die in suffering or in panic which will make you lose awareness. Imagine next time that you take a dip in water that you will drown right here, would you be able to let go of your breath blissfully ? If not you may panic and lose awareness which may lead to a different after death experience.
  21. Unfortunately that's not it. I remember leaving my body consciously in a previous life and I'm still around. After leaving my body around a firecamp in a tremendous surge of energy I remember hanging above the body as pure consciousness but I didn't know what to do next and waited for the existence to carry me away which eventually happened. I then traveled through existence as energy and eventually became an unhinged energy being. I also remember passing through the phase of eternal bliss at some point which is eternal in experience but not in actuality hence here I am. So leaving the body consciously is not the ultimate answer. But it is still preferable than an unconscious death for sure.