Abeo Maria

I'm definitely interested! I am looking to join the program as well @Sarah_Flagg. This would be such an awesome opportunity to help you grow as a life coach and for me as well to gain insight. I work from home so my I have quite open availability. I'm in Eastern Time Zone. Morning, afternoon, nights all work well for me.

@Damien thank you so much. this does truly help. I'm 24, so I'm right in that bracket. and know that if I do go it'd be best to go with the next year or two. @vizual I can agree with this. That is what I'm up against constantly...the constant expectation of college and the fear that i will need succeed if I don't have it. What's crazy is I don't have these own fears about my life, and think it's a waste to merely invest in something for pure expectation. So it's really encouraging that you've said this thank you kindly. @ZenBlue I agree. most of what i want to do isn't relative to a specific profession and I a lot of people out or normalcy, expectation and tradition assume it's only right to attend school and get a "business" degree or something to that liking. which i cannot justify the expense and debt of college for an area of interest i am actually not interested in. Thank you for your response/feedback

@Kevin Dunlop thank you so much for responding! This was what I needed to hear. I'm not currently in a rush (I'm 24) and am well aware of the benefits of college, if it's within my life purpose. Most people encourage me to go to college with the sole purpose of making money and I can't see the complete, sole logic in thinking that way. Sure, you want your livelihood to be taken care of through education, but for me it has to be a degree i am interested in obtaining because it matches my personal development. Thank you, thank you

How necessary does one find college? I'm afraid of entering for the "wrong" thing, and ending up in debt. Does anyone including @Leo Gura have an opinion on this based on experience?

@Sarah_Flagg I feel as though it's in the addiction phase. I never minded porn before, but we can be intimate the night before and in the morning he will sneak off to go watch it. So it's not as if he's not receiving intimacy or that it's been a busy week or something. He just watches a lot of porn in addition to our intimate life, which is where the intuitive uncomfortable feeling comes from. We've talked about it before, but nothing has changed.

Does anyone have any opinions about a loved one or spouse watching excessive amounts of porn? I am currently dealing with this. I personally don't prefer it, especially when I'm in the house and it's not as my partner and I are long distance or something. I know this is Ego coming out and that I should just detach from the situation, but I just wanted to know what other people's opinion on the subject were. Sometimes if I'm searching something on the computer and he hasn't thoroughly deleted the history it'll pop up on the browser if I'm typing in something else. It affects my intimacy, knowing that he watches it. Any thoughts on this? Please... I want to try to detach from the situation while still respecting my "egoic concerncs"

My breakfast is either steel cut oatmeal with baked bananas, cinnamon and pomegranate seeds sprinkled on top, or scrambled curry eggs (with sauteed garilc, onion and mushroom) or a smoothie. I make a lot of stir fry's and baked sweet potatoes for lunch and dinner. Organic Spinach Organic Kale Organic Spring Mix Mushrooms Garlic Onions Organic Cauliflower Beets Zucchini Yellow Squash Sweet Potatoes Bananas Frozen Organic Cherries Frozen Organic Strawberries Grapefruit Avocados Pineapple Quinoa Organic Brown Rice Steel Cut Oatmeal Coconut Oil Organic Eggs (1 dozen) Peanut Butter (no salt, no sugar) Green Tea/Mint Tea

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@JevinR thank you

@T1r1on I'm wondering if maybe the sitting is easier for some and more difficult for others, if our state of consciousness is triggered by various forms of awareness. My egoic self is a busy body, constantly moving, touching, walking around. I do this without thinking, as it's become like an addiction or a severely engrained habit, to just do something. When "I" feel the urge to do something, like spring my body upwards off the couch and go for a walk, I usually submit myself to that urge, but it feels like I'm watching the body of myself going through the motions. I even notice "my" desire to want to walk...and I give it what it wants, but at the same time I'm aware of the urge or sensation in my body to move around. When I'm outside walking around, I actively listen for sounds, or notice the movement of plants and seem to feel most calm/meditative in this state.

@Leo Gura the latter is how i naturally find myself meditating. the do nothing meditation is what I haven't really tried before. i suppose i'm wondering if you find it's better to start with the do nothing meditation then the latter. I typically observe myself doing the things, whether playing the guitar, walking the dog or doing the dishes. I find it easy for me. But I've yet to try the do nothing meditation for longer then a few minutes. I find it more difficult, but don't think I've given it a fair shot.

@Abeo Maria the latter is how i naturally find myself meditating. the do nothing meditation is what I haven't really tried before. i suppose i'm wondering if you find it's better to start with the do nothing meditation then the latter. I typically observe myself doing the things, whether playing the guitar, walking the dog or doing the dishes. I find it easy for me. But I've yet to try the do nothing meditation for longer then a few minutes. I find it more difficult, but don't think I've given it a fair shot.

@Leo Gura would you recommend sitting meditation or the do nothing meditation? i lately have found it easier to meditate sort of in the moment. i just watch everything as i'm in a fly on the wall. when i'm walking my dog, i just look at everything and notice things i've never seen before, but don't give it a definition in my mind. the moment my mind tries to define, it's replaced by further focus of the "object itself" but i'm not sure if this is a good starting point.

@Phrae i like that suggestion as far as not really connecting to what i'm saying and just saying. If I let my ego have it's way, sometimes i get frustrated that i can't really articulate that i'm ok. because "i am" different in the sense of i'm not trying to make sense of anything around me. i literally am watching life as if i'm sitting in a movie theatre. just observing, and not really labeling it as anything. this is a new phase i've hit after meditation where i don't feel attached to anything. i suppose that detached sense, may come across as aloof to those who don't really understand. i do a lot of in the moment meditation. i can usually find myself meditating even in a crowded room.