David Turcot

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  1. Hi, David 37 years old, searching for enlightened for 20 years now. I had a few glimpse with self inquiry and some spychadealics (not the top one I don't where to find them). But I'm TTTTTTTTTTTTTTiiiiiiiiiired, I need a master who will guide me, en enlightened master. Were can I find one? Thanks Leo.
  2. Hi, I realized I few years ago that I have a lot of fears in the domain of relationships with women. The way I deal with it is that I don't face my fears and with avoidance. Intimate relationships I mean, with friendship I'm ok. I know now that this fear comes from the fact that I derive my value from what women thinks of me. So I know a rejection will hurt me a lot, so I avoid the chance of being rejected at all cost, I don't want to be vulnerable. Of course that doesn't attract any woman! Since I've been single all of my 37 years life, except for a month, I can tell you that I've got a few self-esteem issues. This one month I felt like another human being, I was totally different and felt very good, even if I didn't even loved this girl other than as a friend. I know I should not base my personal value based on the fact that a woman loves me or not, but I still do after all those years and I'm tired of it. Anyone having the same kind of issues? Did you fix this issue and how? Thanks!
  3. Take a deep breath. Humans don't get how valuable this is. I am an ant.
  4. I'm pissed how we humans are so stupid, me included. If I'm able to see how violent I am. I am the most violent human being there is. Can I look at this thought? Yes, this thought is violence! The problem is there. Nowhere else. That's why humans are lost, we are violent, me first! I am an ungrateful violent ant, a human.
  5. I define beauty as what makes you feel joy with direct experience. Beautiful simple things: Hearing: - The birds signing - Sounds of the leaves at the top of the trees. - Pouring a drop of sugar into hot water. Add... Feeling: - Having a girls hand in your hand - Having sex - The wind in my face Add... Seeing: - An ant building his house - The clouds in the sky - Digital lines in my hand Smelling: - Leaves in the autumn - Grass having just been cut - Perfume of a woman Add… The person who is more enlightened have an infinite exemple of those, cause he lives eternally in the beauty of the present moment, as simple as it is...
  6. Having read a few posts, I saw some people which seems to have some brain. If U are one of those brain understanding more things than the average. What to U think about connecting with "normal brains"? Are U less prone to be enlightened? Thanks you big brains! Leo Gura doesn't have this high QI I'm talking about, I don't see it. David, Low QI
  7. David, high QI, would be more accurate. Doing nothing with it I'm stupid. Not as big as Mr. Trump tough No politics sorry...
  8. The present moment is always true. You may also keep your mind open.
  9. The true nature of reality, which is "I" is a paradox like this: INFINITY is NECESSARY, but it's IMPOSSIBLE at the same time. I think that "I" is the only thing that exists. Anyone has ever experienced something else than that? When I look at myself and at the physical world around, I see that I am this paradox. Repulsion and attraction at the same time, FEAR and LOVE at the same time. Just like the two poles of a magnet. Those are just thoughts...
  10. Haha I thought maybe you would Say this:)
  11. I've never experienced what Leo calls this "God-Mode". But to me, God experiences all the perspective at the same time. So, if I was truly experiencing a "God-Mode", I would not have any limited experience at all. That would be Nothingness without space and time. Maybe there is something I don't get here? when I get to this "God-Mode" I'll get it, but I don't think I'll be god. Otherwise, if I were truly god, I would not be aware of anything because I would be aware of everything at the same time. Any thoughts?
  12. I don't know if you have ever had a blackout when drinking too much? I did too many times! It felt weird, it's like I never lived those moments. Or Did I? What about those people remembering past lives they say? Why some do while most people don't? I think it is a very important thing to think about and understand more for oneself. I also think this question is linked to another very important question: What is DEATH? Ok, a lot of contemplating to do on this!
  13. Stage Coral: Stay a bit yellow while you are enlightened gurus. Jiddhu Krishnamurti is the only human stage coral I know. That's my perception just a guess that this guy is Stage Coral, which I have no clue what it is, but I feel he his, whatever it means. The only human I know I think was Coral in the 20th century. From Wikipedia: Ex-girlfriend Helen Nearing, who had known Krishnamurti in the 1920s, said that Krishnamurti's attitudes were conditioned by privilege, because he had been supported, even pampered, by devoted followers from the time of his "discovery" by the theosophists. She also said that he was at such an "elevated" level that he was incapable of forming "normal personal relationships".[90] Ok, then a coral guy doesn't know how to deal with humans…:) Krisnamurti dropped Theosophists saying they didn't understand a Think following him… He said he was not to be followed, that's the first thing he says all the time: I am not a guru! Was his most important message I think he was insisting on this all the time. He was the guru of gurus as far as I'm concerned although he despised this word. I remember in one of his talks he said that he never compared himself to anybody, NEVER in his life since he was a kid, he just never did it cause it seemed stupid for him to do this. Which if true is truly remarkable and I believe him. Not common I guess being naturally not born to compare. He rarely talks about himself, but he did there.
  14. If I manage in my life to feel joy most of the time. If I manage at the same time to share this joy and help others feel it most of the time like I do. Then I can say I did my job as a Humain. I cannot do more than that, but it's a lot. When I can feel joy looking at the way plants move over time, even if they move so slow, then I'm a real humain and I know where I come from. I'm a humain, I love everything around me and I'll try to lessen the suffering of others, humans or not. If I can do that, with pure joy and with the purest of energy, then I would be happy about how I lived my life. I will someday feel this pure joy and share it...I will! Enlightenment is not about me!!!!!
  15. I'm an not ENLIGHTENMENT and I will NEVER be. Because it's just another human concept, just like DEATH is. OR we could say: I reach ENLIGHTENMENT every second, just like I DIE every second.
  16. My job as a human is to understand, then to love, to be joyful. And feel this joy with others and help then understand with empathy. If I don't do that, then I've not done my job as a human and spirituality I've lost the real important meaning of life. Spirituality has an objective, I've got to remember what this objective is. Otherwise I'm wasting my time.
  17. @Gligorije @Gligorije @HamilcarI understand this is a very tough to break apart. For me, Lucid Dreaming was the key to break this paradigm. www.world-of-lucid-dreaming.com if you dont already know how to lucid dream and want to know how. I am a bad lucid dreaming myself, I had just one complete Lucid Dream. It was enough to help me break the paradigm. Good luck man!
  18. @isabel Careful to say a desk has no mind! Every point in this universe you see has a "mind". The desk is made if the same atoms as you. Every atoms has his own "mind". So no the body doesnt "die". There is still an infinite amont of minds within it. Except the one you call "yours". There is an infinite amount of "minds" in a table. They dont as you Do, but its a "form of conscience" Thanks.
  19. @isabel Thans for this a very good reflexion you have. I was actually asking myself this question Against, as I dis for the past décade: What Isabelle death? The way you see it is very interesting it Will help me on my own inquiry. Thanks I will follow you from now on!
  20. @Leo Gura Sorry Leo but I dont get it. I thing "god-mode" cannot ne "experienced". Cause an experience implies duality, someone who expériences something. Time and space both imply duality. I'm in "god-mode" when I sleep without a dream. No experience. No conscience, no duality. After watching all of your videos thats the only thing you said I think you're wrong. When you Say Non-Duality can be experienced by a subject. I dont think it can be. Non-Duality is out of Time and Space. They both must disappear for Non-Duality. So you must also disappear. Your conscience must disappear, like when you are in the deep phase of sleep. Closer to god as ever every night! We go closer to who we truly are every night to recharge our batteries, go back to "the source" Cheers!
  21. @Leo Gura@Leo Gura I thought that everythingness = Nothingness. But something is just one perspective out of an infinity of perspectives right? I don't see God, I see a part of god. I see a part of who I am when I see a personal universe. If I would see god, I would see everything at the same time, which is the same as seing nothing at all. So if I experience something, I see only a part of the whole (I see something which is not nothing, which is not everything, which is not god) and I don't see how I could become Everything or "seeing" everything other than if my conscience disappears. From what I believe right now is that the only time I'm NON-DUAL is when I sleep without a dream. I will never be able to attain non-duality as a conscious human being, there will always be some sort of division, that's the job of my conscience to create division. I'll meditate on this and try 5-MEO-DMT if I manage to find some, not this easy to find! Have a good night man.
  22. @Faceless "My mind" would certainly answer you NO, but what does it knows this mind of mine
  23. @Faceless I just think about this, the expression "I'm gonna lose my mind" would actually be a good thing, not a bad one hehe:) I truly think there is a danger with spirituality to try to become "god" without accepting our human nature. I think "god" is the ultimate goal of evolution, but we will never reach it and it's perfect like this! What I mean is that "Complete illumination", truly becoming absolute infinity in space. But infinity in time also, that's a long time! I wish my head would go off sometimes!!! Man I think too much:) I'm soooooooo far from "Not identifying" and following the stream of life, following the stream of the eternal present. The eternal present, it surely seems very paradoxal to me, the mind is a paradoxal thing and it's perfect like this!
  24. @CreamCat Of course Hell is subjective. It does not exists, I just decide what hell is for me. For me, when I use it when I talk, it's just as a figure of speech to mean something very unpleasant.