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  1. (im talking about the latest blogpost) @Leo Gura i can firsthand tell you how much it fucks with your brain when you have a bad diet and try to do shit, like you literally cant. Its hard to even properly meditate when you eat even subpar. I had a horrible lesson taught about 2 years ago when i had a terrible sleep cycle (going to sleep at 2 am and waking up at noon) and diet (i ate ramen 3-4 times a week, underate some days, overate others, binged on cookies and potato chips. this went on for about 6 months all while doing crossfit at th same time) until my system couldnt take it anylonger and everything tipped over. My hands and feet started getting numb, insomnia, dizziness, crying for no reason, depression, memory issues, major weakness (i had trouble getting out of a chair). I was convinced i had MS or lyme disease. But the doctors found nothing on mri's. It went away slowllyy after fixing my diet and sleep pattern but im still repairing. I still cant sleep yet like how i did before, im still trying to eat healthy but its soo freakin hard to stay discipled enough to restrict things like pasta/bread/cheese and sweets. I know when i meditate too, i make the fastest progress when i eat clean even for only a few days. SO stay healthy lol and that goes for myself too
  2. @Moreira oof, did you get tests done for heavymetals? also yea he didnt do a video just talked about it in a blogpost, and in one recentish youtube video (maybe the nootropics one?),mentioned that he visited a naturopath and was put on a detox plan for heavy metals and felt much better since, so its workin. Not exactly heavy metal but related per se is a liver and gallbladder cleanse by Andreas Moritz, if your exposed ot aluminium everyday for years you need to heal your liver as well
  3. @Harikrishnan Me waiting for that shadow work video:
  4. if you want real anti-aging power, look up professor David Sinclair. Basically: NMN powder (nicotineamid mononucleotide) & Resveratrol Supplements
  5. this makes mee soo happaaaayyy lol, funny thing i got the email notification this morning but just swiped it away because i didnt think i would be interested in a diwali gift and then see on here that hes giving the program for FREEEEE yaas. In the intro video he said the price is 150$ and das alot lol
  6. i am not sure, i would say the spiritual advancement first most
  7. I found an article about a woman who went through the dark night aka spiritual emergency that lasted 4 years after a spiritual awakening and her analysis of the process and tips to how to survive it: Hope this helps anyone
  8. its natural to oppose things your mind is not used too., which in this situation is not-thinking, being still
  9. yoo this being present in the moment all day is hard WHy is it that when i do it i become dizzy and start forgeting things? lol when im present i kinda space out and my family is like "are you ok...?" lol but i do find that im much more productive. Also, the internet is starting to disgust me. Like when i scroll on youtube, i can different, i feel how it all is just brainwash, time wasting. Never have i get this feeling before. Surrendering and letting go of resistance helps so muchh. I start having more motivation to help people for the sake of helping people. To change subject, my house has a fly infestation, and no matter how many i chase out, they keep coming , so i starting wapping them with that bug killer slap stick, and my mom asked me worridly if we are going to incarnate into flies in our next life as a punishment for killing so many XD..i hope not haha 25 min meditation done, but around 15 mark mind, it was so hard to focus, even if i try my hardest, i started pain in my neck, like some weird tightness, so i decided to melt into that
  10. This is my second journal. My last one started with lots of expectation, excitement, and a bit too much hope for overachievement with no structured organization. My biggest weakness is not sticking to plans by overstuffing my list of goals. I become too hopeful with trying to change my outlook overnight, but then as soon as i start breaking one habit im trying to build, then im less motivated to continue, when im less motivated putting things off become so easy of course, and then i forget about the habit. I was very weary to start another one because im scared of failure and not living up to the goals i want to achieve but that means i wont go anywhere. I read a passage in eckart tolle's New EArth where he describes an old Sufi's tale. A King who got pissed very easily sought out the help of a wise man. The wise man said his advice will be completely priceless but will give it too him as a gift. In the next few days, the king got a beautiful box that contained a golden ring. On this golden ring was inscripted the words "This too, shall pass". The wise man told the king that in every situation, good or bad, too look at the ring and remind himself that this too, shall pass. This will make the king wary of the fleetingness of life and every moment, and he will learn to detach from events, good and bad. This detachment paradoxically makes him cherish and appreciate life much more. Once i read that i started repeated to myself, almost as a mantra, as frequently as my mind can remind myself, that this too, shall pass. Strange-ly, when i said this, i got a feeling in my heart, something warm, and my mood truly did lift up and i was more motivated to do work and not complain. My motivation toward life in general, as well as my goal of Awakening, strengthened. I am restarted my meditation habit. This time, i will be using the guidance of the book "The Mind Illuminated". what i learned from my previous events of meditation and its failures is exactly what the book describes in reasons why people dont make advancements. I was trying to carry more eggs than my basket could hold. I focused on acheiveing too many goals, (getting still focus, distractions disappearing, peacefulness, etc). What i didnt know is that i need to structure my plan out, tackling one issue at a time, which is what book mentioned above exactly does. It has good reviews, so i hope it works lol. In regards to the whole domain of spirituality, and what this forum is about, ive come to find out that for ME, its most important to be able to meditate SUCCESSFULLY before i can branch out into other fields (self-inquiry/yoga/psychedelics/etc) i need to get basic skills out of the way in order to have a firm foundation for harder skills. I admit that would watch actualized later videos (2017ish and beyond) which are very advanced material, whereas i havent had a nondual experience yet, meaning all being said in the videos really doesnt make sense haha nor other videos such as Advaita. Journey sounds cheesy but its the name of my favorite video game (which is about the the journey of life) that i just replayed. And i think its the simplist way of describing what i am doing. ---- So for the time being, my current goals are: -> Learning how to meditate: by going through the stages of meditation listed out in "The mind Illuminated" ->fix sleep cycle I am very tempted to add more, but if i do, i know already that i am putting myself up for failure, which means i broke another promise i made to myself. Breaking promises to self is hurting your relationship with yourself meaning my self-esteem will get hurt even more. This time im taking it in piece by piece, brick by brick im building the castle. Everything else i do thats beneficial will just be bonus And the Journey starts
  11. yoo i take a 10 day break from here and come back to see two new subforums what uppp anyway this is an AMAZING non-dogma, no bullshit approach to buddhism, by Daniel Ingram, who kindly offered his updated book for free online. I dont this this is talked enough on here, enjoy
  12. omg i love this, she understands it, she gets it :D, thank you im saving this article <3 Especially this part: "There’s Nothing Wrong Here. Except that We Think There’s Something Wrong. I stopped wanting to interfere with the beauty of our journeys. I stopped feeling like something was wrong. I stopped believing in the boogeyman. I stopped knowing how to combat the darkness because I realized that darkness is there to teach us our lessons. Yes, it fucking sucks to have illness and disease and paralyzing fears. Pain and loss and separation and drama and OMG there’s so much suffering in this world! But none of this is an accident. These are gifts that we must own, integrate, understand, and love before we can transcend them. The only way out is through. To sum it up, I learned to accept everything as perfect. And since I saw someone’s (and my own) dis-ease as an aspect of the soul; as an opportunity to heal and expand and grow, I no longer felt being a healer was my calling. Outside of duality, there is nothing to heal."
  13. @khalifa i understand, take your time and goodluck friend
  14. @khalifa i really wish you a safe journey, this agony will end on its own, and youll be back as before <3. I read an article on spiritual emergnecies and it said that its vital to stay as present as possible and fully feel all the emotions and sensations youre experiencing every given moment. Im not versed in 5meo doses as much, is 15-25mg a high dose? Also, how was your envirnoment like, did you have a clear intention during the trip? was it your first time. Did you take it again? I havent tried any yet, but i keep getting signs over and over to try shrooms. (777 appears on shroom growing websites, when i was traveling on a bus it was raining outside and the humidity fogged the window, except for one see-through area that was shaped EXACTLY like a group of psilocybin mushrooms, and i have already 2 dreams about them at least). Edit: found the article about the Dark Night, i hope this helps you
  15. yep, basically they have huge different opinions on the Dark Night of the soul. And daniel took it all a bit too seriously
  16. the message i got from the video was that to cut through my own bullshit, i need to put myself in anothers shoes, i feel like that is oversimplifying complex assumptions i have
  17. how does the "walk a mile in someone else's shoes" message of the video help? I have been told this from my school teachers, tv shows,and books from the moment i could read and talk. As have others, including stage blue and red people. But they still act this way.. I still act selfishly in ways. I think its an important message but its hard to think that people who need to realize this message the most will ever. TO add to the bugs thing, my bf knows a girl who went to several psychiatrists for hearing noises no else heard, they diagnosed her with schizophrenia, then one doc wanted her to go to an audiologist just in case to make sure her ear is ok. They found a fly inside. After it was removed everything was normal again
  18. really? i read that they had beef with each other, he held a retreat at culadasa center last year and it didnt go too swell
  19. holyy crapp, i just watched that and it terrifies me :(((, i feel so bad for her, i hope she's ok now. Now this makes me scared to try mushrooms
  20. what a simple yet profound answer
  21. meditation: going lovely, i have begun to reach the territory where i manage to stay focused majority of time, and i get so bored from focusing on the breath that the mind wanders. Before it was too hard to focus on breath because the mind wandering was non stop. Now im inching toward access concentration as my "default" setting. I still have much to get there, but the progress is night and day between what i used to do. My new goal is being present throughout the day. Yesterday for the first time i focused on being as present as much as possible. It wonderful. As ive mentioned earlier, the bucket analogy is what motivated me the most to adopt this. That when you meditate but not present throughout your daily life, its like pouring water into a bucket that has numerous holes at the bottom. It just wont stick. Youll feel better, but that "better" will soon slip away, and that will repeat in an endless cycle of adding in beautiful present only to lose it just as quickly. Being present is hard, but no surprise, i spent nearly 2 decades lost in my thoughts on a 24/7 basis. It entered overthinking mode as i became a teenager. Much to make up for. My biggest thoughts that intrude are fantasies, ive noticed their the hardest to crack away at, because once they pop up, i just get lost in the whole story. Im finishing the power of Now, the bible of presence. Also when im present theres a verrrrryyy fine line between True Presence and fake presence. Fake presence is when i become more aware of my surroundings but start letting my emotions tangle up, instead of just watching everything occur, and saying things in my mind like "okay now feel your inner body, okay now focus on the sounds....just enjoy the present moment" these thoughts are trickery because it seems like its helping me to become more present when in actuality they are just more thoughts that get in the way.
  22. you say that one must suffer to realize ultimate Love, i guess the unconditional Universal Love with a capital L. What about the whole realm of spirituality? Does that mean that people who suffer deeply will realize Love even more deeply than people who have a hardcore spiritual practice that they do daily, even every minute of the waking day?
  23. nouu. May the Force be with you happy Journey