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@Charlotte ive been doing alright, going through stuff but working through it Had my first psychedelic experience too and i already cant wait to do it again haha. WHat about you ?

mayybee you put a subconscious pressure on yourself that you must orgasm? Like when you try to orgasm one way and its not working as quickly as it did before you start to internally freak out a bit and put pressure that you need to orgasm like you did last time, because that will just build frustration and ruin it even more and make it virtually impossible to orgasm, if that makes any sense haha. I think it would be good during next few sex sessions to forget about the need/pressure to orgasm and just have fun for the sake of pleasure. I really hope it helps. Also the sexual repression as adolescent is huuugee issue (i was too). I think psychedelics will help here a lot.

this is what i need right now so much welcome back girll

30 done. Was distracted first half, second half nice half-clean focus had an ok day. However its amazing how beautiful the world looks after you have a good hard cry. I started feeling down after being scared of the future. I have this impending doom feeling that im going to be stuck doing what i dont love for the rest of my life. And not only doing somehting that i dont love, but living somewhere that i dont love. I feel overall pretty lonely here in eastern europe. I never quite acclimated to being here. I adapted and improved ALOOTT compared to by beginning here (like people dont recognize me) but still. And so im scared of being stuck here forever. TOo afraid to disappoint people by going my own way, and afraid that their "i told you so" stories will fufill and disappoint them even more. I read 5 chapters in conversations with god. Its sooo good. I read how much living in Truth is important. Living YOUR TRUTH. Speaking truth to yourself (#1!!!) (how can you tell truth to others when you cant even do it to yourself?????) then speaking truth to others. Then speaking truth from another to other. And so on. The most important habit is to get into the practice of honesty. Because when you start living out truth, you will attract the Truth much easier. (the capital T truth with a tm lol) Also having a different persons persepective really helps you see through your bullshit. I had a person over at my place, and they saw how i was on my computer slouched on youtube and jokingly said "so thats it, just the internet, youtube and facebook, nothing else heh" and i thought to myself like ahemm you know nothing blah blah i meditate!! i read philosophy books!! im such a busy person. But then i stepped into their perspective and i really am the majority on the laptop. I really do automatically refresh youtube a million times. Yes i meditate and i read books but when that is done i start refreshign youtube again. Its time to really rewrite my daily story. My daily abouts. ALso another insight i read in the conversation with god is how Jesus's greatest gift was that he saw everyone as who they truly are. He refused to accept appearances, and he refused to believe what others thought about themselves, he always had higher thought. This got me thinking how when i interact with people, my judgement of them always jumps to the forefront, and this literally happens in a millisecond. I judge them by what clothing their wearing, what age they are, how their face looks, how they talk, i dictate how likely it is that their judging me etc. Instead i practiced today looking at a person not for their appearance, but just that, that that person is a person. Nothing less, nothing more, nothing else. Just a human being. Woop-di-do. I really have to push my mind to think in this new perspective, but i felt i was more confident, not that scared anymore if they stare back, instead i was more curious. I felt i had more power, more assertive to be who i want to be. This is something ill practice more of. Everytime i see a person, instead of analyzing their looks, i see them as just another human being. But i can feel my body using every fiber to push against this. I can feel my anxious ticks returning, like looking down, and fidgeting with my hands, and the fear of awkwardness arising in my belly. Sit with it, sit with it.

I was thinking about how good it would be for him to go on the "buddha at the gas pump" show, but after i suggested leo to rick, Rick (the interviewer) messaged me saying --is he the guy who does psychedelics-- i affirmed and he never messaged back. I think that channel avoids people who have enlightening experiences or advocate use of psychedelics for spiritual advancement, which is a major bummer.

thank you for the rec, i have watched now a few of his lectures, amazing stuff

I have just started the psychedelic path and i'm immensely grateful for the newest video How do Psychedelics work., i mean its so inspiring. I realize just how much more these substances can offer, i feel like my trip wasnt even 0.1% of it all. I feel like i need to watch it 2 more times to fully grasp how the reality now is just another hallucination like on trips. Like changing TV channels. And once again thank you for introducing me to psychedelics in the first place. After my first trip a month ago, i have quit cold turkey a self harm habit that i have had done near daily for over 2 decades. I discovered a major shadow aspect i had since childhood that affects how i interact with everyone. To Everyone, have amazing trips..& Peace <3

past 2 weeks were super duper busy and stressful. I managed to fit in some 20-30 minute sessions here and there but picked up the intensity a few days ago. I even did a whole hour Saturday. From now on, my goal is to start getting retreat-ready and will start to do once once weekly "light retreats" Ideally done on a weekend where i will meditate 4-5 hours back to back. Meditation is progress slow but steady. I can immediately tell when my mind starts doing its stories and thought circles and now im able to bring my attention back to breath fairly quickly. Also my focus on the breath is getting slowly better. Throughout the day, i find myself checking in automatically to see if im being aware, present Now. Currently reading Conversations with God book 2

Goodluck Kieran!! your posts always inspired me so much

@Leo Gura to add onto this, my pathology professor told us she knew of a person who healed their lymphoma by imagining healing immunity cells everyday. And that she could tell us more about it but only after work hours because its too risky to speak of such things in a clinical environment

you should create a blog where all this info is in one place, thank you for the post insightful as always

@MrDmitriiV off topic but your avatar pic is awesome

Meditated 30 minutes, zazen style, like no movement whatsoever, pretty good session. Felt like eternity passed by. Towards the end, there was a good minute where i completely lost the sensation of my body so to speak. Like i knew it was there and i could move in an instant but i just became this weird observing orb, not sure how to describe it. I was trying not to panic, because if i panic, i snap out of that state, so i tried to observe as best as i could. My heart rate went up super superrr fast but i still stayed still and just observed it all. All i can say is that it was crazy. Concentration came and went.

This question is especially for @Emerald and @mandyjw, i feel like you two are good in this area do you have any tips on how to integrate the feminine in a healthy manner? How do i start loving my feminine side? I ordered the book "Women Who run with the Wolves" i heard its really good for fem aspect. Any other book recs? The booklist has only books good for male side haha

yesterday 25 minutes, today 20. Today i was too tired to finish the the last 10 minutes. Instead of being your thoughts and emotions, be the awareness behind them- E. Tolle Need to up my mindfulness in daily life game. Making every single moment count makes each moment feel like a lifetime. Living in eternity in the now. I ordered a gratitude journal and i cannot wait for it to get in the mail. Gratitude is the BEST prayer. Thats all for now.

@fridjonk yes i would love to know too

15 min morning meditation +30 minutes midday meditation. Good Good, i always feel much more centered after them. I am thinking whether i should start doing the 30 min session right when i wake up but that means getting up even earlir than i do, and i barely get up now. WIll see. Had SUCH a CATHARTIC cry today. Wow. And i uncovered conditioning i had never fully seen in myself before. Life iss gooodd.

This is an amazing new show on Netflix!!! Its about a mysterious guy who shows up who performs miracles and how the world today, the information/social media era, would react to such a thing. Many many themes talked about on here are shown throughout the show, cults, some wisdom of god, spirituality, exposing our BS. It also shows a lot about the minds of Stage Blue. if you open the trailer link below, look at the dislike/like bar, and that will tell you how stage blue reacts to such things

ive been following your journal, its very inspiring. I see youve been doing the hour a day for almost 4 months now? thats awesome. How different do you feel versus the beginning. How different are your meditations sessions then vs now and how you feel when your not meditating?

Meditated 30 min. Mind didnt interrupt that much but was very drowsy. Like i had to battle sleepiness for the last 10 minutes of meditation. I would dose off for 30 seconds, then jolt back "awake" on the sensations of the breath. Then dose off, then jolt back. Yesterday meditated only for a few minutes because school was very, very taxing. Started readin Conversations with God Book 2, i finished 1 in January. Such a good book, like damn. Its intense. I just read how God was basically calling the author out for lying about being a "seeker" for 35 years. A better way to put it was an on and off seeker for 35 years. How to truly be a seeker, one must seek every hour, every minute, every moment of the day. Not just in a meditation session then plug your mind back in. But to remain mind-less as much as you can.(or as the buddhists say mindful hehe) As moment-to-moment as you can. This is a true seeker. A seeker that will find. This inspired me to "Be" harder. To take this whole Sage thing more seriously. Need to update my Dreamboard. Looking at it, almost everything has manifested. And i only started my mood board like 2 months ago. Thankful. I am so thankful.

Lovely post as usual I always try to remember over and over In TMI the importance of being mindful during the day and to do it from the start of your meditation journey. I like the bucket analogy. If you dont stay mindful when your not meditating, its like pouring water into a bucket that has holes on the bottom

Day 5 of no picking lips. Today i had almost no urge too, only once, and i overcame it so easily. Yesterday was day before exam. Before exam days=worst trigger, super stressed/pick till blood, like few hours of picking lips.......Yesterday? Nothing. Didnt touch my lips at all. Becoming more conscious of how sugar is bad for me.

@zeroISinfinity and worry. No worry no chronic illnesses

everyones commenting on the Amazon dude but when i saw the new logo i thought DAYUUMMM its gettin legittt up in herr hahh jokes aside the new logo looks absolutely beautiful

@Leo Gura thanks, since im female i would be interested in the opposite haha i think mushrooms would be a good one whaa hahhaha they are definitley not the same!!!