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@snowyowl Wow you seem such a nice guy. Thank you for your help. About the reality - I had similar insight as Leo I think - I realised that it is all a dream and I can go on another level (another incarnation), but I chose to stay and continue this dream. I felt guilty as fuck. It was all triggered by my spiritual awakening and shadow integration afterwards. I reached another level of this dream, dark night pushed me into going after material stuff, women, fame, etc. Also about the understanding - I feel like I don't exist anymore, I'm in a flowstate all the time and my sense of self is like everywhere and nowhere all the time. It's pretty strange feeling. Even tho I feel guilty, depressed, I can't resist being lived and moved by lifeforce.

@JonasVE12 I reached flow state some time ago and I think when I'll let go of control (which is basically my state all the time now) the opportunities will arise on their own and process will unfold naturally. Is my logic correct here?

@JonasVE12 Is there any suggestion you can give about pickup in general? I mean cold approach. Not sure if that's correct view on that, but it doesn't seem natural for me, it's forced and feels like desparation. But I'm not sure, maybe that's just my excuse. I have no idea how to get enough courage to approach a girl on a street, that's like undoable for me. Is there anything I can do on my own to get balls to do that, or that's not the way to go? Thank you

@Striving for more If you want to release emotions stored in your body, you can check Elliot Hulse's video about bioenergetics, it's on YouTube

@ilja yeah, and you didn't even see me buffed

@snowyowl About love - I don't think it's nonsense to be in love, quite the contrary - I've never experienced it and this concept fascinates me. I would like to experience that for sure in this lifetime. I am currently working on my life purpose, which is my YouTube channel, I love doing that, it brings me a lot of joy and really improves me in a lot of areas in my life. I'm unhappy because of relationships basically. I don't have any real friend. I had only one girlfriend in my life and it was just a prolonged one night stand in which I stayed for a year and a half, because I triggered a trauma (trauma bond). Breakup got me into self-development in which I am till this day, still lonely, not even sure for how long now - 5, 6 years? She was the only person I had sex with too. What is more, she got all of the positive energy from me in sexual exchange, I got of her negative energy. She started a business, got married, all of the good stuff, I am still alone, working on myself. I was dating this one girl, that turned out to be a hooker, a crazy one (a lot of lying, gaslighting, manipulation and ghosting in the end). I work every second of every day now, without excuses, still, my life is a miserable prison. The amount of trauma healing and work I have already done is unhuman. Don't know anyone who went through so much suffering and pain. My understanding of reality? I think I understand a lot, I'm a knowledge maniac, I watched Leo a lot in the past, still watching a lot of videos, reading, etc. Why do you ask? @WaveInTheOcean Thank you for info, I'll try to contact you if I'll have any time. Thank you

I want to build muscle and train because I fucking love it Don't tell me that's ego, that's just something I fucking love doing

@snowyowl Your response is very positive but I think I'm not able to comprehend your message, I might not be on that level yet, but thank you. @Nahm Gotta rewatch it then, didn't put too much attention to details, thank you for your wisdom. @Max1993 Too methaphoric message for me, that's some Rumi type beat here, I know you're right, but still - I don't get any of that. Thank you tho. @BipolarGrowth Yeah, I got too much into spirituality, which really got me back on track with life and filled me with excitement again, got me back out of shitty life that I put myself into. Getting back to normal and mundane wasn't the easiest thing to do. Not sure about judgmement thing, I'll take a closer look into that, thanks. @WaveInTheOcean Thank you for the support, I might reach ya, if the timezones will match. Where are you from? @Godishere Yeah, that's what happened to me right after awakening. Leo had similar experience - choice - you either die and go to higher level or stay here, in lower density, just to experience more stuff. It's so nihilistic, I just go with the flow and trust life 100%, stay in the present but still, not much sense in all of that, like watching a Netflix show, it's not bad, it's better than nothing, but also it's like.. whatever ;d Ps. C.M. is Connor Murphy right? About psyche - got back to them after like almost 3 years, but this time I'm microdosing, where before it was like heroic doses and shit, just to feel alive for a while, like a hero on a journey (which was childish and dumb af). What do you think about microdosing? Thank you for your answer. @Flowerfaeiry This is where I put 100% of my focus right now. I'm concerned with myself, because my body is still telling me, there is a blockage or something in my root chakra, like what the heck, I can't work on that even more.. Do you know what might be the issue? It might be connected to some kind of sexual trauma or unmet needs I think. Thank you in advance for your tips, if you'll got any.

@Wyeth Yup, you're 100% right, that's also what I'm doing right now - building discipline, creating a habit of daily creation, and posting on YouTube. Btw - I think I'll start with buying lightning, my laptop camera is not that bad and lightning will make me able to shot whenever I want.

Hi! Some time ago, I started my journey with an YouTube channel, it's something really great, that I truly enjoy! My main struggle right now is the gear, that I'm using at the moment - it's simply built in camera and microphone in my laptop. I would love to change that, but my budget is limited, so these are my options: 1. Buy a phone that would be my camera and microphone for some time - I just don't want to waste any time NOT creating videos and improving my skillset as videomaker. The phone I was thinking about is Google Pixel 4 5G (about 400$ dollars, which is my investing budget per month). 2. Buy a microphone for now (Blue Yeti I think, about 100-150$), and save the rest of investment fund for next month and then buy some high quality camera. I am just not sure, if buying high quality gear (I mean something mobile, that I can use for years) is possible at that cost (about <500$). There are also a lot of investments when it comes to stock subscriptions - Premiere Pro, Audible and one of image stocks). Is there anyone experienced enough with these things to help me out? What kind of strategy would you guys use? Thank you a lot for your kind answers!

“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung

@universe I meant Atrlits.io lol @Manusia Yeah, you might be right, I might look into lightning, etc, I don't know anything about it tbh

@Vignan I'm not shooting on my smartphone (maybe I did in the past, not sure). I'm using my laptop camera, I broke my phone some time ago, so.. @Leo Gura Thank you a lot Leo

Everything is You, You are everything

@Manusia Not sure, why are you laughing, that's the reality of the mechanisms used by abusers.

Answer is pretty easy - they are suffering themselves. They can't find a way to stop their suffering, so by using you, they are showing (in a toxic, ilusionary way) that they are better than you. It's a quick fix, something like masturbating, when you are horny. They decrease your value, to feel better about themselves, but still - I doesn't change the fact, that they are still piece of shit.

Hello folks! I'm sure most of you are already aware of how our parents' relationship affects our adult life and our relationships with women. I realized that in my own life, not that long ago. In my case, the story is that my father was an alcoholic, and my mother left him when I was like 4-5 years old. After that I was raised only by my mother, she wasn't a saint either, more like narcissistic and even psychopathic sometimes. That led to me having extremely low self-esteem, money and relationship problems, and all of that other juicy stuff. I really tried tons of things, but I heard that to fix your problems you gotta fix your relationship with mother, it doesn't really matter if that's personal or if that person is even alive, it's all on an emotional level, it's just biology and it's about fixing that "mother part of yourself", your DNA, whatever you want to call it. Did any of you guys have a problem like that, or deal with something similar in their own life? I'm tired of all of that stuff already and I really want to move on with my life already, meet with women, earn lots of money, travel the world, and stuff, and I somehow feel blocked in that manner (which doesn't mean, that I don't work hard every day to get these things). I know this relationship affects me mostly on the subconscious and emotional level, that's why it would be the approach that I would love to hear from you the most. Every single piece of advice is something really valuable to me and I am really thankful for all of your help. Much love!

@flowboy Ok, so, from what I've seen, I'm doing something similar, it's called emotional catharsis, I did it a lot of times already and it freed a lot of lust and anger from my body. You basically over ventilate yourself (something similar to Wim Hof Breathing) and then just go bananas. Is this somehow similar to primal therapy?

@flowboy Can you recommend anything, I can start doing on my own? I'm pretty broke right now and, as I mentioned - it's a vicious circle, until I fix this, there will be money, women, problems occurring still, according to the theory, and I don't want to wait, I'm sick and tired of all of this.. Thank you in advance!

@Origins @Crane Bahnsteik @flowboy @Preety_India Thank you guys, these are all really great answers. What I'm working on right now is to become as independent as possible, I'm making my own decisions, I want to start my own business, all of these are going great. This question came to me because when I asked someone on another forum about some of my body illnesses (like lower-back pain, dandruff, basically root chakra stuff if you dig that approach), I heard that all of these are about "fixing my roots" and it's probably some kind of pattern in my family that is stopping me and is moving back over and over again. Two things, that I've got from there: 1. "Mother is the most important woman in your life. You will ALWAYS look back at her before choosing your life partner. Your mother blockage is blocking you from other women" 2. "Your body is telling you, that you didn't finish the roots. Go back and speak with your parents" (metaphorically of course). I looked everywhere, tried everything and this is what I've got after looking into Total Biology (it seems kinda new-agey, but it makes sense).

@Preety_India I don't, all I'm doing right now is talking to her when I really have to (which thankfully I don't). Just like I said, what I'm looking for is reconciliation with myself and my own emotions.

Hey guys! A friend of mine introduced me to an exercise, that is somehow connected to our subconscious mind and financial goals. It all makes sense, let me introduce the concept briefly: Every day you have to spend 2x more money, you spent the day before, so the first day is: 1000$, the second day: 2000$, third: 4000$... and the last one is 512 000$. The trick is - you have to know EXACTLY what you will spend your money on(f.e: not "a sportscar", but - "Mitsubishi Lancer Evo 6") with the price of each item. Every day you have to also spend the closest amount to what you have to spend each day. The total amount is 1 million bucks spent. I started the exercise really pragmatically, starting from the bottom of Maslov's needs hierarchy (basic stuff, like a new washing machine, painting my old room, etc). Then I invested some money into video recording equipment (my goal is to grow the YouTube business), so the licenses, camera, microphone... I also wanted to invest money into building a home gym and, getting a basic car, and improve my looks, maybe buying a drone later. And then I stopped. Like - blank. I have no idea. 32,000 (złotys, I'm from Poland) spent and I have nothing I think I could buy. Of course, I can invest this money, maybe even buy a property later (but it cost more than the amounts that I have to spend before reaching 512,000). My friend told me, that it should be things that I REALLY want to have, to get as excited as possible (which emotionally also have a strong effect on our subconscious). What should I do with these "higher" amounts? I really gave myself time to find that out, but I am stuck, something just cannot click in my mind. My thinking is that I should invest further, but even then - I have everything I need to grow my channel, what I need is work and knowledge, not spending more money for "stuff". Any advice would be golden and really appreciated. Much love guys!

I posted this exercise and the same question on another forum and I got answered that it's just mental masturbation. And that is absolutely true.

What do you guys think are the best options for investing in 2021 (stockwise)? I was thinking about delivery companies (like FedEx, UPS), resturants (they should grow back in 2021), I was also thinking about investing green energy (which is getting more and more popular, f.e in my country). Would love to hear your thoughts and opinions. Cheers!

Lately, I'm wondering - I had similar mindset as Leo has, to grind hard, work hard, I can't remember when I watched a movie, I started playing some video games lately, but it's like 2 hours for like last 6 months. What I mean is, he ment, that he had to become less obsessed, more chill, laid-back and I'm thinking, if that's a good idea to go back into gaming. What do you guys think? I'm thinking about playing PvP (player versus player) arenas, so it might be really nice thing to improve my cognitive skills. Or am I just deluding myself? I would take different approach, responsibilities first and only then I can allow myself to play. I would also go really serious about it and treat it more like competition then fun, so it really would affect my psychology in a good way. Thank you for your kind responses. Bless!