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I broke myself out of my dream. Right when it was progressing to a nightmare I snapped. I will have to develop the intuitive skill to snap during the nightmare in order to stop the panic attacks. I cannot go to a therapist now. So I'm stuck. I will have to find my own solutions to this problem.

In a few days I'm going to discuss the problem of consent. I see consent being widely abused and a very misunderstood word that is being thrown around liberally to defend any form of criminal behavior. I think it's time that the guidelines for consent are changed so that people with bad intentions are not allowed to misuse them anymore. Right now Poppy(thatpoppy) is just a politically correct character in my book.

I'm thinking about beautiful creatures - imaginary Like Elves, Dwarfs, Angels, goblins, Fairies /Faes, Nymphs and Gods and Goddesses.

I actually like the idea of the war nymph created by grimes. Interesting. It's like your very survival has been a war all along. If you look closely at your life then you will see that Almost everything has been you fighting for something You had to fight so many diseases as a child to survive You try to survive at your job You compete for a career You struggle against time during exams You struggle to fill the needs of your family You struggle against time and age You struggle to keep your body healthy You fight against bullies in the classroom Your struggle with broken friendships You struggle and fight to get a good partner or relationship You fight to keep the relationship alive You fight to keep your kids healthy You fight or struggle to keep your marriage alive You fight to save enough money You fight to prevent the toxicity of the world You literally struggle for every single thing every day. You have to work hard to secure it. If you look at life, it's a war like state of being all along. Everything in your life has been a fight for something, a fight to survive and live despite all the odds. You are a warrior anyway, whether you like it or not. You are a war nymph.

New technique I will call it "questioning relevance" technique. This is a questionnaire based technique. You need to ask the question, "if this is relevant to me, what things are actually relevant to my future?“ An example. Let's say you are a successful trader at Wall Street. Just imagine. You have tons of money in your bank account. You don't need anymore. You don't need to chase money anymore. So now when you look at the map of your future you want to narrow your focus to something more important You can use this technique in this manner by asking questions like ? Can more money make my life any better? ?So right now what element can dramatically alter the quality of my life - is it money or relationships? ? Whats lacking in my life? ? Is this going to serve my purpose?

Project 1 - mini exercises Project 2 - Emotional love and healing Project 3 - spiritual love and universal love Project 4 - sexual love and romantic love Project 5 - building self esteem and confidence

Only if I looked at the whole reality as a major art scene. Then whatever happens to the self wouldn't matter because it's a part of the play baby, even the violence as a part of the art. This is humanity, this is shit, this is damnation!! Sometimes you just shouldn't trust artists for a good reason. A lot of the art can be a rip off. Pay 1000 dollars for some shit art. So much for art.

Andrew called me today. He is so loving.. He will be meeting up with me as soon as this coronavirus thing gets dealt with. Yay I'm excited. Something good finally. I have begun to fall in love with Andrew. He is bright, smart and awesome.

A Sci fi futuristic room What if we decided to clone humans in a laboratory Jurassic Park style. Imagining myself on a surgery table in a sci-fi room Flanked by doctors and nurses. What do they want? Maybe they want my flesh for research But they all look super cool. Very friendly.

I have realized one big thing today during my morning meditation. And this is the realization. Trust is a wonderful beautiful space of emotion. You can always forgive a person. You can always forget the scars. You can forget what they did to you. But you can't get back that trust again. You can never trust that person again like you did before. Trust once broken is broken forever. Trust is like a mirror. Broken then you can't mend it. Like a flower that wilted. You can't get it back. Like the milk that went sour. You can't undo it. I think this applies to all relationships.. Romantic or not. This brings me to another realization. That trustworthiness is the greatest aspect or trait in the universe. Because we can undo grudge and forgive and forget and love again and do good again but we can't trust again.

New healing technique

Oh wow. Didn't know about this. Awesome. Will include this in my journal.

@gswva I'm already aware of it. I won't give up meat even though I know there's torture. My health comes first. So no compromises there. Humanity needs to find better solutions than Guilting people for eating meat. It's kinda lame..

Self love project series Project 1 - preliminary. Mini exercises Project 2 - Emotional love Project 3 - Project 4 -

Pending posts Journey of the heart Wisdom of life. Dealing with the devil Self love project 1. Self love project 2 Power of the positive spirit Beast mode strategies Self love project 3 and 4 Wisdom of the Himalayas Living Naturally, Part1, Part 2,Part 3.

A very important post. Thanks for sharing I need more ayahuasca for my retreats and experiences.

@LaucherJunge I'm not going to deny anything you say because obviously I know you are right about several things that you wrote. But I cannot shake away from my experience. When I eat fruits and vegetables I do feel like I am nourishing my body. I mean all the vitamins and proteins and minerals. I'm not sure about your diet and what you eat. But whenever I eat animal food I see a distinct difference in the way I feel. The nutrition I get from eating a plant fruit based diet is very different from the nutrition I get from eating animal meat. I can easily feel and tell the difference. The plants give me a rich source of vitamins. Meanwhile the animal meat makes me feel energized and strong. The animal protein is distinctly different from the plant protein. I can tell that much. Just being honest. I know there is some judgement associated with eating animals but I was just explaining the mechanics of it. We try to deny animal food only because of the animal cruelty and the environmental aspect or wastage aspect associated with it. If for a second, just forget all the damage it can do to environment and all the cruelty, you actually wouldn't say no to animal food. So the problem does not lie with its benefits but with the damage it's consumption causes . This is more like you're using an important product like wood or cotton which is good for your health or using steel for cooking instead of corrosive metals but at the same time knowing that extracting these metals can cause depletion or damage. Now if scientists are somehow able to find a way to minimize the damage to the environment by animal raising and consumption and also find ways to consume animals without cruelty, that would be great as long as all the nutritional aspect of the meat remains totally intact and natural. I don't think we need to be vegan to save the environment. If we can invent ways to use animals ethically and minimize damage and wastage we will be doing a great job. Sadly we don't have the technology or invention to solve this problem. So we resort to just giving up on animal food. Hopefully in the future we find a way to carefully balance and navigate this issue and we won't have to worry about the problems of meat consumption. It does look impossible and idealistic now but maybe there's a solution to it.. To me the Vegan lifestyle just doesn't seem healthy no matter how much ever you convince me about its nutritional value. I can't agree that we get all the nutrients from the plant sources. Because I have seen a huge difference in my own health by switching between plant based and animal based diet. It's not the same. Also a perfectly healthy person would not be able to tell the difference so there's no point in using him as a Guinea pig. I'm relatively unhealthy. So my sensitivity to nutrients is very strong. I can easily see even a small difference in my nutritional pattern when I switch diets. So after a lot of experimenting with food, I finally realized that I also need animal source in my diet. Those who can sustain and maintain better health with just plant based food must have much better health (genetically) to begin with. I'm not proud of eating animal foods. I do have my guilty moments too. But I have also accepted that we need animal food in our diet.

Wonder what it would look like in 4D animation.

@LaucherJunge I don't see it as suffering as long as I see it as food for survival I believe that Nature has a food chain and we are all a part of this food chain and man /human is the super predator on this food chain. By controlling our own population we can solve the food problem and we would not need to kill animals in large numbers. We can have enough food.. Animals should not be killed by poaching or in excessive numbers because that will deplete nature But raising and killing animals enough for consumption of a very small balanced human population looks fine in my opinion. Animal products like dairy and meat is important for human health. So I can't be a vegan. I eat animal food, I mean meat and other products and I don't feel guilty for that. I find moralizing people over animal food as taking things too far. Man was born as a hunter gatherer, not because he didn't know better, but that was his most natural form of living. Also humans at the time of hunting gathering were much healthier than the humans today. So overall I have a positive approach towards the whole humans eating animal products thing. I just cannot underestimate the nutritional aspects of animal food. <one question that I wanted to raise is that if morality is what stops a person from eating animals then wouldn't the same problem arise with eating insects because at the end of the day, even insects are animals too>

@Eren Eeager I don't see a problem with the killing of animals for food? Even animals kill other animals in the wild? How do you justify a carnivorous animal like a lion eating a deer?

@DLH Those are some good book recommendations. I will read those.

@Soulbass That looks like a version of you and Leo combined. Face of Leo with your eyes lol

@fridjonk I think people can have the ability to transcend ego even at different stages. But the Ego is more explicit at the lower stages in my opinion and the ego is either implicit or diminished as we grow through the stages. Just my opinion. I wouldn't know because I haven't transcended much.

Higher forms of consciousness will always appear that way. All the rays of the sun will meet at one point. There can be only one point in consciousness. It wouldn't make sense otherwise. Just think

Your post as well as the title suggest along those lines as though he is not going to explore any further. Of course he will explore more with time and experiment on his own. But geez can he have his own freedom without being told what to do or what not to do all the time by others. Sorry but I felt like the post was a bit condescending. Just appeared that way. You could have preferred to title it as a feedback.