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@Nahm That's pure love, thank you. Not intended for Traveler, but your words are of deep wisdom. I appreciate you man.

The nothing matters model does not seem to work here. What about trying the this is no-thing model? The word nothing doesn't quite do it for me, no-thing might resonate more.

Because there is no one here. If there is no one here, then I see no one there, Love.

@Consilience Thank you, I really appreciate your advice. You're right about the psychological pull from others, I feel that too when I'm on weed. I guess I'll just wait till the day comes and see what I'm feeling. It looks like meaninglesness and nothing from "the outside." But when your consumed by it, it seemingly reveals its everytingness and love.

This was a great read. Reminds me of realisations I've had. I have a mushroom trip planned next week with my friends. 6 of them. I'm a little skeptic about doing it, because I'm not too comfortable being around people who have no spiritual grounding(I guess you could call it) when tripping. It can get trippy and dark real quickly when in a room with 6 people tripping. Always a possibility for light, not leaving that out. For people who are susceptible to deep awakening experiences, would a trip with 6 of my non spiritual friends be a good idea? I might just be resisting it, but yea I dont know. I'm 99% sure I'll have an awakening if I touch any psychedelic, as I cant even smoke weed anymore without reality cracking. Also to comment on what you wrote in your post: I've seen pretty far into how deep this goes, and I know that these experiences can be hard to integrate/handle. Would you agree that the hardest thing to "do" is to surrender to death? It's not even the hardest thing to "do" it seems absolutely impossible. It's like reality as you know it is holding on by a thread of hair. You know the only way out is in, but surrendering to the void is letting go of your security blanket: knowing.

I've experienced hell a couple of times, but never have my consciousness been trapped there. I've had the same kind of awakenings before, where the plane of "others and me" have been seen clearly to be a trap and a hellish loop. I haven't had reactions like hers to it though. Thought it would be interesting if we came up with some recommendation for her and people who are in the same state/space. I would say she needs to slow down, her mind has obviously trapped itself in a higher/lower state. Almost like a continous bad-trip. Her insights seem to have been corrupted or misinterpreted as evil. I don't have a lot of recommendations, just slow down, breath and seek out help. Also it seems like she has a big story about what awakening and enlightenment is. She thought there was a divine purpose for her and so on, then she awakened and found out her whole story was a dream/illusion.

Haha, I've seen that. Hopefully no one talks like that in normal conversations.

Yes for no one, right? No one owns this, it just is this already right? All descriptions of it makes it real and knowable, it then loses it's "epicness and miraculousness."

does ? mean ego? and does ❤️ mean love/truth?

There no right or wrong way. Every teaching, message, dogma held on to is not it and can never be it. It just isn't, you're looking at the finger pointing to the moon. No one is more right or wrong, no one I closer or farther away. Stories. If there's no story at all, TOTAL unknowingness, What is left?

Let's all be honest and say it together: I DONT KNOW! I PRETEND I DO, BUT I ACTUALLY DONT.

Look at the comments, many people seem to be resonating with this message. Many people seem to feel great love when hearing this message. You don't and that is okay, but your resistance to the message might be interesting to inspect. Tony Parsons, and I bet Andreas too have used "absolute unconditional love" multiple times before. What I find is every "teacher" is basically saying the exact same thing, there's infinite ways of expressing it. Isn't that really what this is, not two expressed in many? Is there a right teaching and a wrong teaching? That is seperation, duality.

This filled me with gratefulness, peace and love. I want everyone to take a break from worrying and seeking and just Be with this beautiful music

Because you are reflected in them, and you are scared of who you really are. You resist and hate them, because it protects your ego from dying.

Pretty sure it's new age spirituality stuff. I see number synchronisities often but I don't have a story about how that is angels and beings communicating with me. Her experience is real for her, the density might be enhanced by her spiritual conditioning. She seems to want it to stop so bad and know WHY it's happening to HER. It could be seen as a gift to force her into surrender, a fierce grace. I can only imagine the pain and confusion she went through.

@Nahm yes right on. Thanks. I dont know her, I found the video when looking up third eye on youtube. There is probably some way of tracking her down, dont know if its necessary though as the video was released 2018.

Good to hear. If you want to, maybe watch this video by Matt Kahn, I always feel love when watching him.

thanks. It's not the original video, so i don't know how she's doing and how to contact her. Hopefully she has got some relief of some kind. That is some caotic energy that song. How is it going for you? edit: also the energy from that song captures what my hell experiences has felt like on the nail. Pure chaos, infinite hopelessness, meaninglessness and loneliness

I dont feel great physically. I have a lot of pressure in my head every day. I can't have a good sleep, and I cant breathe through my nose because of sinus pressure. All in all I'm pretty disoriented, hopeless and confused. Also fear, as my normal state of consciousness wants to expand. I dont know what that entails, if I let go into total unknowing.

Don't forget that it's all pointing to the same "thing", more like no-thing. Let's not get lost in knowing. There is no one here, no one is reading this. ITS THIS. Thiiiiiis, this ... this... this.... also this... this too.. this?... no this.. might be this.. this maybe?... surely it's this right? This this this this this this this. Has the meaning disappeared from this yet? This.

He do be vibin doe

There's is no right or wrong. If it feels right then continue, if not then take a break. There are lots of traps you can fall into, and you will probably fall into a bunch of them, that's what happened here at least. One thing I would recommend to my younger self is to take it easy, don't be so obsessed with the search for enlightenment that it consumes every experience you have. When I was first getting seriously into this stuff I was constantly questioning what was happening, and if "I" was in the "right" consciousness or awareness, sort of arguing with reality. This was a deep trap for me. I could never just let things be as they were. The search enhanced my conflicting ego to a point were I was ungrounded and disconnected from my surroundings. Also take it easy with the psychedelics imo. They can be life changing, but that's because they can be life destroying. Trips and mystical experiences can be mind-blowing and blissful, but they can leave you searching endlessly for that same experience, which is a trap. The ego can create a story about the mystical "state" and that will make anything that is not that "state" feel even more unfulfilling. Story: I had an awakening once where it was very clear that this was it and has always been it, there is nothing wrong because there is no one here for anything to be wrong. One of the main insights was; even if my ego returned it wouldn't matter, because I am whole already, there is nothing that can makes this be other than it is, it can only appear as such. I was certain that this insight wouldn't be forgotten, it was crystal clear. Then 30 minutes later the ego "came back" and said I don't want this, I want whatever that other state was, the THIS this. The thoughts were believed and then I took the train back to egoland, where the insights "this is it" "there is no one and no problem" means nada.

Uuuuuuh. That is very accurate. Thank you. Btw the 2 pictures to the right seem quite negative, is there more messages in there you can scoop out for me ?

This is right on. 100% agree/resonate with this. The thing you said with dimensions upon dimension and stuff in your post seems more to be possibilities inside of this, experiences one can have, or the natural progression of light. (I might have to read it over again). Awakening as I understand it doesn't have anything to do with the contents, it is waking up to the untouched nothingness in which the "contents" arises. Thoughts on this? There is a freshness to your insights that I really resonate with, keep them coming.

Fear of discomfort is on point. Fear of losing money isn't. I have no relationship with money, I throw them away at stupid stuff, I have no job, I live in my parents basement eating hot cheetos whilst playing minecraft, every day. I might go up there one day, they seem like nice people. Thank you for the recommendations, it definitely rings true. My biggest fear is to surrender fully to what is, it is the death of me. The gateless gate shows itself occasionally and I have to leave my ego at the doorstep to enter. Sort of giving up your security blanket to the bodyguard before entering.