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  1. Do you sometimes get drawn into the dream of your life again, and realise that there is literally nothing you can do to experience life in that way anymore? I'm occasionally getting these depressed and hopeless episodes, where my mind takes over my realisation and sheds light on all of the things that realisation has shattered. I've lost almost all of my friends, which I think is because we have totally different views on life now. I'm pretty isolated when I get home from work, there's really not much that interest me anymore. My ego has no hope or direction at all anymore, I still seek simple quick pleasures just like before, but now they don't seem to satisfy me. This is just the mindset I can get pulled into, but 1 hours later or 1 sec later I can have a realisation (come into presence) and then there is no problem at all. It's just like, is this what life is supposed to be? Just doing the same stuff day in and day out, even for what you call a dream or illusion? New topic: Another thing is that I'm pretty sure that there are people in power that are contaminating the human consciousness and overall energy system. This seems unimportant to many of you as you just dismiss it as "it's happening in the dream, there is no problem." I agree. BUT, I infinite consciousness am still experiencing different human bodies and perspectives, and some of them (maybe not human) are controlling/manipulating the rest of the human consciousness to be on a level of misery and hopelessness. In my opinion a part of awakening should be awakening on the relative level also, so there is awareness of what is happening in the collective human consciousness and on the physical plane. if you rest in awareness and observe the human interactions and behaviours you can easily notice the insanity. If you research 5G, chemtrails, and so much more there is definetely something sketchy going on, that most people don't even have the awareness to see, they are blinded by their conditioning. I have had sinus problems for over 2 years now, and It has a pretty bad effect on pretty much every single part of my life and also my spiritual growth. 31 million adults are diagnosed with chronic sinusitis in the U.S alone. I'm not saying there is a conspiracy behind this, but there sure could be. Just realise how beautiful this is for the pharma companies and the overall control of the consciousness of millions. This is one example out of thousands. This is two totally different topics in one post, but the second topic isn't usually accepted on this forum, altough I don't know why. So I'm putting it on this post instead, if someone is interested in talking about this.
  2. These are not leo's words or leo's teachings, the teaching does not belong to anyone and everyone is able to access what Conrad is talking about. I myself have had similar awakenings on weed. What work is there to be done? you're already it, you can discover this right now.
  3. I've been watching some of the more "modern" (i don't know what to call them) spiritual channels on youtube lately. Their messages are reassuring and gives a kind of feel good hopeful feeling. But I'm unsure if what they preach is really something they know and if it is true, or if it's just coming from another belief system. Some of the things they say is not what is normally expressed in non duality. For an example in this video: He talks about the ego and the avatar, the illusory 3D world most human being are living in. This is kinda close to the non dual way of seeing, but then he says that "we" are eternal spiritual "beings" who forgot who we are. This is an occuring pattern of expression in many of these kind of videos, not only his. I'm wondering if there could be some truth to this or if it's just another beautiful story. Could we be eternal spiritual "beingS" and still be coming from the same source? Like god divided into innumerable eternal individual beings? There is also a lot of talk about aliens being in our mist for the last many hundred years, looking over us and planning to take over our world. The theory (fact in some eyes) is that we are heavely mentally manipulated to be in a state of confusion and chaos, so these E.T's can take over our world without us even noticing. There is obviously something sketchy going on. Chemtrails, addiction to technology and social media, shitty food, corrupt politics and news and the list goes on. A lot of things that gets the collective consciousness in a low vibration. There are people preaching and reaching out to wake up humanity from this sleep and we can notice the intervention taking place. People like Marshall Summers and David icke. I believe there is truth to some this. But again these people are talking about an individual responsibility and purpose, and are not really talking about the same kind of freedom that typical non dualists are talking about. Some of the things Marshall Summers has written in his books are really new, and kiiiind of contradictory to the non dual approach. for an example: he talks about a big community of races competing in our local universe, and freedom is rare as if it's something you have to fight others to get. A lot of seperation talk basically. Share your thoughts on this, I am interested.
  4. Is that your day to day experience? This is it you might say, this experience right here right now is it. That is true. The dream is very real while your in it, and it has infinitely more to it than what is seen. What if your purpose in this body , as a human form isn't just to gain total liberation and ascend all problems in the world? It likely is the highest purpose, but that still doesn't mean that you ignore problems because you are above them. The normal human consciousness is (likely) manipulated by beings outside of our current state of being, by more evolved species that are also driven by their ego, but are much more advanced. If you do some research there are pretty strong proof of this. This is not seen as a problem from the highest place of being, but relatively if this was the case it would have very negative consequences for the collective consciousness of the human race. I think we are too quick to make conclusions about reality based on a couple of experiences.
  5. This would indicate that the large amount of people on this forum and seekers in general as lost as the ones who are "not" seeking. A bunch of ego's chasing happiness, just like everyone else. Distracting themselves of the reality right in front of them, grasping onto new, more spiritual beliefs. I've been there myself and I got absolutely nowhere. Disconnecting myself even more than I was before from people. It was only when I distanced myself a bit from this new believe system that I felt somewhat connected again, and had a another big epiphany/awakening. We are all watching this charade from our own little ego bubble, unaware of how disconnected we are . I was at work outside and the trance lifted it's veil. I looked up and saw a chemtrail, and I had this feeling/sixth sense that the normal human consciousness is being manipulated by very advanced means to be in a state of disconnectedness and uncertainty.
  6. You are still experiencing a human, even if you wake up from the dream. As many non dual teachers say "it's a never ending process, even after you wake up." This means, we can all be coming from the same source, but the relative state is real as long as you experience it and therefore it shouldn't be looked at as something unimportant. Many people are seeking enlightenment, (the ego is seeking it) and it's often coming from a very selfish place.How can you know that this seeking in itself isn't a form of mental manipulation to make you so focused on the path that you ignore everything that is going on in the world?
  7. yeah but does that mean we should just ignore it? Isn't that a kind of spiritual bypass. If there are E.T's lurking in our mists planning to take over the world , shouldn't it be looked at more seriously than just doing the conventional non dual reply "It's all in the dream"? People often assume they know, but do they really?
  8. His website: I would recommend you to check this out, and make up your own mind about it.
  9. I have this problem that I really can't find an answer to in myself. When I was younger I had problems with my appearance. I have 2 underdeveloped jaws. It's not that bad, I don't look abnormal or anything. I went to doctors and got accepted for a double jaw surgery. The last time I was at the doctors was about a year ago, and I will soon go to them again, and soon after that I will get braces on. The point of no return. I have some old trauma and negative thinking patterns around my jaw, and that is the part of me who really wants this surgery. The other part of me is very unsure if this is the right choice for me and if this really is supposed to happen. The reason I am unsure is because of my intentions at the time. I was very depressed and thought my looks was the reason for all of my pain. (I don't even look that bad, I would say.) I have shifted in consciousness since then, and I don't live in that hell state anymore, now I just have the aftertaste hanging around me from that period. I would apprieciate it so much if some of you guys could give me your perspective on this. Is it "wrong" to get a seemingly superficial/materialistic surgery if your think that It'll make it easier for you to love yourself and others?
  10. I saw a video on how to change your programming, and a video came up with Dr Bruce Lipton talking about putting earphones in at night to train your subconscious mind. This sounds interesting, but would it be advisable on a spiritual path to do this? It seems this would just overwrite the shadow part of your mind with something else, more positive. Sounds like the perfect method, but is there a downside?
  11. Yeah but there kind of this bias everytime I try to get an answer, cause I'm kind of pretty long into the process and I can't step away now I feel. I don't even now If I want to step away or keep going. It could also be the fear of the surgery that makes me question it.
  12. Well that's good news
  13. My question is, do you really want total liberation? It seems to indicate total oneness, total non duality. I myself enjoy experience a lot, and I don't know if I would be able to give it up. There is so much beauty in experience. Of course I can not know what the total liberation state might be like, but I've had a taste of some, and while it was liberating there where still a longing and a thirst for experience. This could be my ego though, how can I know.
  14. Pretty refreshing to see a comment that doesn't focus on the all of the negative shit, it doesn't seem to do any good at all. Thank you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
  15. I work in a kindgarten, and there is this shy boy who is very sweet and gentle, he rarely does anything that we get mad about. Today when we we're outside, I was alone with the kid. Suddenly he said: "Once I was as tall as that tree," "what do you mean?" I asked. "In the old days I was as tall as that tree" he then said. I was very interested and asked further about this memory. He said that his name was "Pikant" or something like that and that he was 46 years old. I asked further "How did you die?" Then he said "you don't die, before I was in a big body, now I'm in a small body" Then I asked where he lived, and I'm pretty sure he said "Bordeaux" (remember this kid is danish and is 4 years old, this is almost impossible to make up, and he is not the kind of kid to joke around like that.) I was interested if he remembered how he died and then he said "In our cottage, it was the wall," I tried getting more out of him because I was so interested, but I couldn't keep his attention on it for much longer. After this I asked the table with kids that I was eating with "does anybody remember when they where in a big body?" and a girl said: "yes!" very fast and mentioned something about a circus. She was impossible to get more out of though. I just got home and looked this up on google, and I can see that It isn't that uncommon for kids to remember past lives. I just thought this was so interesting, especially for people in this forum. Kids a usually ignored and misunderstood, but If you really listen to what they are saying then there's a lot of things they know that we don't. That's my belief atleast.
  16. I'm watching this documentary right now, it's about a boy remembering his past life and is visiting the place.
  17. I'm not sure what you mean by "If this were a scene in a movie, how would it impact the rest of what the character will choose". I do see the significance though, it's just very interesting. (or did you mean, that the fact I wrote about it might have significance to my life?)
  18. I have really enjoyed watching Mooji in the past, but I stopped a while back because it stopped feeling the same. I am extremely sensitive to energies, and there is definitely something that has changed in Mooji. His talks doesn't feel authentic anymore, when he speaks it is very cluttered and unclear, it feels like the words are just a repetition from all of his other talks with no power behind them. When you look in his eyes, there is really no light, they seem dead and dark. I'm not trying to spread rumors or any of that sort of thing, I'm just interested in knowing if I'm the only one noticing this. I have some examples: This interview is just weird. He looks uncomfortable, unable to connect with the other guy. No light at all in his eyes. He has a very noticable nervous twitch at 2:35. This is a long video, but I only watched the first 10 minutes, from the 3 minute mark to 10 minute mark. His words are incredibly entangled and unclear. He allows no space for his words to simmer. He seems very unsure of everything he is saying. REMEMBER - This is not to spread hate about mooji. - I KNOW that you shouldn't rely on guru's and all of that, I know there will be comments about that. But many people are relying on them, and when someone with such a big following is so obviously (obvious to me atleast) not abiding in peace, there is definitely something troubling about that.
  19. This is pretty interesting
  20. very possible Are you one of them? And have you spoken with them? He looks self conscious to me
  21. My most profound awakening was listening to a mooji meditation on youtube. There is no doubt that he has been very authentic. The reason I made this post is because of how little he's resonating with me now. It's easy to talk the talk, but without any grace or power behind it, it is just that, talk. I made this post because of what my intuition told me. No view is the correct view though, and if he's resonating with you, then there's really no reason to listen to other peoples opinion.
  22. I have dealt with this. You come to a place where not many people have come, and as you might have noticed this place can't be translated to people through words. When I first had a big awakening I was pretty scared, because it was like I had teleported into a whole other dimension. When I tried to explain what had happened to my sister she got very worried and she thought that I was going crazy just like you. I had a very hard time having no one to talk to about this to. I felt loneliness times infinity, because I realized that no one really exists, I couldn't eat the whole week. But no need to worry, I thought I was gonna be in this hell for eternity, and that wasn't the case. I learned to accept the loneliness to an extent and I now don't feel it the same way. Since then there has been a lot of growth on my part, and a lot of clearing, there is still sometimes some loneliness in the background but I don't let my mind run away with that feeling. We are essentially alone and we will be alone forever, it can be an unsettling message for the ego but if it is embraced it can bring more intimacy than you have ever experienced.
  23. It's hard to say if I've had the exact same experience, because they different for everyone I think. But it kinda felt like I'd been pushed into a whole other dimension with was very scary at the time. I have a hard time recalling what I was exactly experiencing at the time. I remember just suddenly knowing that I was everything and everybody, and I was all alone in the universe. I thought that I had woken up, but that I wasn't supposed to wake up and that I would be stuck in the felling of extreme detachment forever. That wasn't the case though, I have days where I'm more open and vibrant than ever (and of course I still have bad days) and I have much more appreciation for creativity and love now.
  24. No problem man, I was also desperate for help when this first happened. I'd be happy to chat. If you think that a mental health therapist will be a help to you, then do it! But I think it has a possibility of making in worse. There are different mental health "disorders" that a therapist might say you have as an experience like this could have some of the traits of (as an example) Depersonalization disorder. I thought that I had something like that when it first happened to me, but by labeling your experience you only solidify it even more. People struggle with depersonalization disorder for many years and have a hard time getting back to "normal." If you label it as that you'll only see what you experiencing through the frightened mind. Of course this is one possible outcome if you go to a therapist, it might be very good for you, how should I know? haha. Just a tip: don't believe in labels, that people might put you on. Because no one knows what you're going through except yourself.
  25. My biggest awakening experience I've had was when I was smoking weed alone on a bench in nature. I smoked it and my heart began beating really really fast. Suddenly it felt like my ego was glitching and I probably looked like an insane person as my reality began to shatter before my eyes. (Enlightenment was something I had pursued for a while, so It wasn't totally out of the blue.) I decided to lay down on the bench, and above me was a tree. I was listening to a guided meditation by mooji, and as I was laying there with my heart beating out of my chest, I felt like I was going to die. I emerged with the tree above me and the only way I can describe it is that it became infinite ongoing fractals and I was one with that. Suddenly mooji wasn't just a spiritual teacher in my ear telling me to relax and let go, but his voice became the voice of god talking to me, while I was "downloading" an insane amount of knowledge. I was very aware of my personal identity in this state though, and while being in total bliss and amazement, I was still aware of my ego saying stuff like: "so this is it?" accommodated with a feeling that all of my entire life had lead up to this exact moment, and I had in some way finally completed the game. It was a balance between total amazement and bliss with all of the out of this world knowledge I got, and a difficulty accepting this knowledge with an unfulfilling, and maybe a slightly panicked feeling. I have since been able to have glimpses of myself emerging with consciousness like this, I actually had an experience like that yesterday. But there is a fear of opening myself up to all of that love and energy, to totally leave all of my safety behind and emerge into this unknown thing. I guess you could say it's a fear of dying. But it seems to be the only thing holding me back. A question that has been on my mind for a while is that if teachers of non duality are emerged with this state, I can't see how they can ground themselves in this dual reality. If one is truly emerged in a non-dual state, then how come you can function like a totally normal person? This state seems to portray no sense of direction at all.