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It's even weirder than that. Let's say that you are making the distinction in your visual field and label it as a table. This distinction is not arbitrary, you are not having a groundless fantasy, the table is there. It is true. And yet - prior to making that leap, prior to having the experience of a table, the table did not exist. Physically. By making that leap, the table became manifest from, or through, or within nothingness. Nothingness is more fundamental than form. What I was referring to as "form" was, perhaps, the coherence of the experience of the table. As in: the table is a table, regardless of whether you are seeing it or feeling it with your hands. The shape as you touch it is not distinct from its visual appearance. Have you ever wondered why is that? Why don't you pluck your eyes out and "see"? ATM I'm going through covid and lost my sense of smell which is an interesting experience. I do have my nose but air is without quality. The movement of air I'd say comes via the sense of touch, but food is "flat". I can imagine and remember how chicken smells, but I can't actually feel one in front of me. When I'm using the phrase "prior to labeling", I mean without thinking with words, the actual thing. Distinctions are more fundamental than language. I'm perfectly capable of seeing the difference between the stool and the floor without chatting to myself. When it comes to sight itself, it's more tricky, because in order to understand that you are seeing from a particular place (eyes), you need to see in the first place. Yet, that "seeing from a particular place" is a distinction. We make distinctions in various dimensions of consciousness (sight, sound, taste, etc). It's helpful to learn the aggregates as they are described in Buddhism. The order in which they are described is important, but I'm having difficulty expressing why. IME they are progressively closer to nothingness/source. Experience is what really is. It is the truth. You have access to it when you stop fabricating reality with expectations, beliefs and fantasies and look what's really there. It is apparent when you stop thinking about it and actually do it, or be there. I highly suggest reading Peter Ralston's Book of not knowing and experiencing for yourself what is being communicated there.

@Preety_India Awesome! Do you have a friend that will hold your back no matter what? That will not tell you to understand that parasite, to look through his eyes, etc? That person is where you go when you really want to let your anger out. You don't contact that freak to tell him how much of a lowlife he is. You go to your friend and ask to vent. It is a good idea to ask that friend to help you break contact, be your hotline. You go there and smear shit all over his face and enjoy it. Get everything off your chest. If there is no such person in your life, a journal is the second best. That, or a therapist. This is very important. Recognize that you've been hurt and experience it to heal.

@Preety_India Okay, you did what you thought was right, but I need you to promise that you will cut contact with him. Don't respond to his messages and don't post your own. He will not reflect upon his actions and will give you no closure. He will not admit to what he did because he knows that you want him to and this gives him the sense of power over you. Ghost the shit out of him. I know how difficult it is when hate is knocking on your door. The only purpose of hate is to distract you from your feelings of being hurt. The sooner you see this, the sooner you will be able to make progress. That man is not needed for you to heal the wounds that he inflicted. I repeat, he DOES NOT hold the keys to your healing. He is a parasite and needs to be treated as such. Clean cut, and off to the fire.

@Preety_India I'd suggest focusing on getting the anger out of your system before trying to forgive that son of a bitch. When thoughts about wanting to murder that fucker come, change the orientation and focus on yourself, on acknowledging that you've been hurt. Don't judge yourself for wanting to rip his balls off. He deserves it. Focus on you and on your strength that he's been preying on. In case you are ashamed of crying, let me tell you this: the amount of work I've done to get my ability to cry back is just absurd. Crying releases pain and gives you strength to take another step. It is a literal blessing. If I were to choose to keep crying or laughter, I would pick the former. Oh, and DON'T contact him, even to tell him how much of a parasite he is. This is what he wants, validation.

@lmfao Hey man, I'm very sorry that you went through this alone and that you are still experiencing the the consequences. I think that it is admirable that you are fighting for your well-being and are willing to confront the pain head-on. I am also very glad to read that you are clear about the fact that you have not done anything to deserve such treatment. It was bullying and these people deserve to be despised. It is apparent to me that you did heal from these incidents to some degree, but there is still work to do to free yourself from it. Having been through a similar process relating to anger, I will tell you that freedom is possible and that life will be better if you chip away at it. As already been said, expressing the anger is very helpful. Bullies have the purpose of making you angry and punishing you for feeling this way. It is natural for victims of bullying to shut anger away, or transform it into hate. Looking deeply into the nature of anger and why it's an absolutely crucial emotion for happiness will be helpful. It is not possible to truly love yourself and know your worth if you are disconnected from anger. The difference between anger and hate is that anger is about you being hurt and wanting to protect yourself, while hate is about the other person. Anger is how you communicate to yourself what is not okay to do with you. It is similar to fear in this regard, but fear makes you retreat, while anger is active and presses you to take action. Expressing anger has many forms, but you can research physical exercises that are designed for this purpose. TRE method, or things invented by Lowen come to mind. What is also important is to not take the bullies' lack of apology as a sign of something being wrong with you. You are capable of having closure without his permission. Closure in this situation comes from understanding. From understanding the circumstances that led you to keep playing on these servers despite being repeatedly hurt (IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT! YOU WERE A CHILD!) and understanding why people bully. Psychotherapy may be helpful. When it comes to bullies themselves, they are deeply disturbed (even more so than their victims become). All they know is hate. This makes connection impossible. That is why he genuinely can't tell the difference between jokes and cruelty. He can't joke because he has nobody to joke with. He is not targeting you, specifically. A lot of people in his life are like you and he is creating bullies left and right by intimidation and making example of someone they pick. The other players at that server were most likely motivated by fear of the admin, not with hate of their own. It's horrible and nobody deserves this kind of treatment. He didn't even consciously choose you as a victim. It just happened for him. That is why he can't properly hear your heartfelt message. It was never about you for them. I wish you the most happiness you can get because you are worth it and you are a better person now than he will ever become.

When people pressure governments to change, they usually have experienced the insight personally. Take women's rights for example.

Your idea of perception, subjectivity and experience seem to be conflated which is causing your problems. Experience is what is. When you start adding concepts on top of it, you get perception which is entangled with "I". When you get lost in perception and lose sight of experience, you get the "subjective world". Then, you have to invent the "objective world" as a social consensus and indirect investigation. When you are seeing, you are making distinctions, but these distinctions are not arbitrary. They are grounded in form, which is easily demonstrable by investigating their shape with touch and "seeing" that these two dimensions of experience match. The thought story is affecting your sight only conceptually, as having expectations of what eyes are capable of and potentially skimming over things that defy your expectations. The eyes themselves, prior to labeling, are a prerequisite to exploring the dimension of consciousness we call sight.

You are throwing the baby out with the bathwater. Suffering is what you do and it is irrespective of desire. By taking away desire, you are denying love.

@Leo Gura Exploitation at its finest. The way you describe game is the polar opposite of a quality relationship. I wonder it it's even possible to attract a healthy woman this way.

The audacity to dream and actualize your potential is how enlightenment is manifest.

@Kimasxi I'm afraid that you will have to move this opinion aside because it obstructs your view of yourself. You opened up to him, got rejected, and are now trying to act as if nothing happened. It happened and you are hurt. You are withdrawing and avoiding to protect yourself. You are trying to get the relationship back to the point it was before the confession to avoid losing a friend that you need. Rejections are scary and painful. There is no shame in taking a step back to take care of yourself. You are worth it. Have a wonderful day.

Welcome back!

Hahahahahaha! Awesome!

Been seek for the past few days. Yesterday, to my wife's horror, I discovered that I lost the sense of smell and taste ?. It's probably covid. Sigh.

Problems with open-mindedness arise only if aren't grounded in your direct experience.

Thank you ?

The path is not about finding something that is hidden from you, but about finding you yourself. You were always the case and will always continue to be. When you get it, you simply know, experientially, what "I" means. As for the possibility of losing it, the person's part of seeking is a skill that is learned. When you master the piano, you can give better or worse performances, but these are dependent on circumstances (like having arms, for example). Some things fall off by themselves, after an awakening, but some have to be worked on until you make the change. Enlightenment gives you a good vantage point for that.

Because it is easier to keep chatting when you have things to chat about .

@electroBeam Forgetting is not an accurate word. While it certainly feels like remembering something when you are awakening, a better word would be a contraction, or a stitch. Illusion works by stitching things together so that you don't notice what's in between. You can notice the seams around concepts and put awareness on them and they reveal what's hidden. If you do that with the I-concept, you will "remember", or "open up". You don't feel like you forgot something because you, the false mind, ARE THE CONTRACTION. Open the I up, and experience what it symbolizes, directly. Such a mindfuck!

Nothing. Not in the absolute sense. It is simply a contracted way of being that has the potential to expand. People that commit these acts get progressively more lost, while people that evolve out of it are happier. This is where "particulars" come into the picture - you, particularly, shouldn't commit these acts for your own sake. Feelings are the only viable compass for growth because they are non-symbolic and you can't get lost within them like you can in thoughts. While we're certainly capable of talking about things we have no clue about, we are always feeling about ourselves, so to speak.

Good, connect to that experience and contemplate: what is it? What is love, really?

What you call "disuinification" happens through birth. As you live your life, you become more and more conscious, and more and more happy until you die and merge with Absolute Truth. But then, you are overwhelmed with love and you give birth to yourself. Love gives rise to consciousness the same way death does. I don't know how to say this, but the fact that you are limited, "disunified" actually maximizes consciousness instead of diminishing it. It makes no rational sense whatsoever, but it is the case and I hope that your trip will reveal this to you. It's an infinite strangeloop. God is BOTH infinitely conscious AND limited AND able to expand through this very limitation. You, as a person, will die and will not reincarnate into anything else. It is not a matter of your personal choice. The knack is that you, beyond personhood, as infinite consciousness, already are Jeffrey Epstein and the reason is precisely love.

Beginner reporting in. Had to stop recently because of a knee injury that I got from falling off a bike lol. Super helpful with back muscle pain, quality of sleep and overall wellbeing.

The point is to experience love for yourself, instead of explaining it. The experience itself will answer your questions about fullness and the purpose of God. Words won't do it justice. Have a nice day.

We give labels to ideas, but ideas point towards experience. There is an experience behind the concept we call love. What is it? Drop this belief, it does not facilitate your awakening.