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I'm bisexual and I can relate to your struggles @Hansu I think that the whole notion of polar sexuality on a singular scale is so underdeveloped that it does more harm than good. First of all, we have masculine or feminine body with accompanying organs. Then, these bodies create both feminine and masculine energies in varying proportions. Then, we express either of them when it feels appropriate to do so. Some people can express them to same biological sex, some can only express these energies to the opposite sex. Some don't have such filters. WHY WOULD IT BE SUCH A BIG DEAL FOR SOCIETY WHO I FUCK WITH?!

I am perplexed by these responses Why would you joke about such matters, and why would I not tell my wife that she is the most valuable thing that has ever happened to me?

Building one atm. Ups and downs aplenty. I told her two days ago that she is the best and most valuable thing that has ever happened to me.

Go watch "Into the Wild".

Flexibility > excellence Fundamentals > trends

I am so sorry ? Facebook just showed me this cover ?

Ok, party is over. I'm sorry. Lama Tsultrim Allione has awesome books. I found her path very inspiring. Especially Women of wisdom and Feeding your demons. Dr Nicole Lepera is also important to me as a teacher.

God is my safe word.

Hmm, I'm so nondual that I'm hardly resisting.

Pfft! That's dirty!

Uh oh, quick, some mod is gonna get embarrassed pretty soon. Let's talk about non-duality. The cake is a lie.

Ahem.

pffft

@Preety_India Just a beautiful nerd . Instant crush

@Preety_India You're beautiful! Instant wife material

Arro-shaba-dooba-gance.

Life is not governed by automatic rules that put an equals sign between the capacity to do something and having the desired outcome. There are external factors at play. While I find it unlikely, I can picture a person born in a third world country that struggles with life, while being in a construct-aware stage. There is also a possibility of spiritual bypassing, where a person resides in a higher stage and uses this understanding to reject and demonize lower stages. It's the so-called Green disease. Are you looking for external assessment of your spiritual growth? If so, I would put "need for validation" on your "emotional stuff" list. Welcome to the club . No worries, this will come around when you go deeply enough. Your values are not aligned with the companies that you are applying for. Your body is telling you that. The recipe for balancing spirituality and survival is much simpler than people care to admit. First, you are alive, then you do spirituality. Go build your life to the point where you are out of debt, have a home, food, clothes and free time, then you go meditate. Don't be proud of what you look like, be proud of the extent to which you are able to real-ize your true nature. By that, I mean: find your uniqueness, your true potential, and express it, make it real. This is spirituality. Don't use detachment for being above it all, for feeling superior than the mundane tasks of life. Don't substitute material pleasure for knowing who you are and being centered within yourself. Express what you are relentlessly after you know it by heart. Before you do, try different things and feel what suits you. Keep digging. The bulk of this work lies in freeing yourself from "emotional stuff" that is grounded in beliefs that don't work for you. This is the main blockage that obstructs your view of what is already true.

Outstanding mind. Reading his books always leaves me inspired and speechless.

How dare we dirty males be interested in her looks she's put so much effort into maintaining . She's much prettier than Leo though .

Having a broad spectrum of interests is not just about cutting the learning time. It's more about having the mental capacity to develop new ways of thinking and quickly exploring uncharted territory. That is a domain of mastery in of itself. The problem is that in order to actually make an impact, you have to have experience with concrete examples, having done enough work in a specific field. Learning how to learn and learning to ask the right questions may eventually lead you to understand how to model domains effectively, but does not equal mastery of these domains. I do agree though, that it is much more important nowadays to adapt to the environment quickly. The rate in which technology replaces human work will only accelerate and job security isn't really there anymore. Even creative fields are at risk.

I think I understand now why Tenet made it into this week's highlights. It taught me what determinism feels like, how it's like to actually experience it.

I did not expect the impact of seeing a person that is cherished for things that I was rejected for. I can see clearly that analytical intuition is extremely rare and should not be cast before the swine. This is one of the gifts that I bring to this planet.

This week was packed full of emotions and I think that I need to start to recognize that this will never be any other way. First of all, I my recent fascination with bushcraft has triggered taumas regarding my father and I was mourning after the childhood I never had. It was especially difficult and confusing because I think that this was the first time I was able to consciously recognize these emotions and linked them back to my childhood. I did not know what I was looking at, but kept staring into nothing until it came to me. This staring into nothing has been something that I've been doing every time I'm contemplating something I don't understand and given enough time, I always seem to uncover and map the territory that is being revealed. This ties the week with its second major feature that was happening at work - we were trained in domain driven development. This is a wonderful paradigm for programming that comes with great tools for domain discovery and mapping. Its applications are huge, way beyond mere programming. It is actually a tool for extracting knowledge out of experts for the purpose of clean modeling. This is the process that will help me contemplate in the future. I hope to re-purpose it for self-discovery, to map the programming that I've been conditioned with so that I can free myself easier from it. The course was particularly touching because I was able to connect more easily with some of my teammates, as well as find like-minded, stage yellow thinkers. I was able to bond with the teacher and felt inspired to present the modeling, thinking part of me with no restraints. It was very touching to be accepted as I am, because I consider it the core feature of my mind. I was pretty amazing, having conversations with like-minded people without restraint. These were good programmers with a lot of experience and I am hopeful because I believe that my potential stood up for the test. I feel confident in myself because I was able to follow pretty effortlessly and was the biggest source of questions from the audience. I sometimes even felt like the course was done specifically for me and even become self-conscious a few times. It was especially difficult to distinguish when childhood grief was coming up during the course. I my abandonment wounds got triggered too, when the teacher got tired of my deep questions the third day, but I managed somehow. Today was the most exhausting because the whole course was so cerebral that I was completely spent. I observed at some points that my mind simply started tuning out and filtering the talk out. The third most important feature is that I watched Nolan's Tenet. Very good movie, it bent my mind pretty well. Good supplement to the rest of the things. Actually got a mini ego death out of it today, when I rewatched it on top of the exhaustion from the course, and neglected, boiling emotions that were spilling after an intellectual week. I will have to spend a good chunk of time tomorrow on emotional self-care. I don't know whether I will be able to go to the forest, but if I do, I will drive some of the path. I decided that I should go deeper and I don't feel confident in my physical strength just yet. My wife helped me with modifying my gear so that I can use my poncho with the liner as a winter coat. It's gotten warmer, but I'm sure that it will come in handy during camping. Exciting weekend to come. I also have some insights about sexual perversions, masturbation and emotional regulation, but they will have to cook for some time before I will be able to formulate them clearly.

I think I get it. I was completely oblivious to the causes of these difficult emotions because this is new. I'm mourning because bushcraft is something I could have done with my father. This is the childhood I never had.

@Zigzag Idiot What do you think is the essential quality of being a redneck?