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@Chives99 Mental illness is a social institution. Mentally ill people are ones that have no way of expressing their worldview that is translatable to other people's experience. Things that are completely normal now would get you killed not as long as 200 years ago. Things that will get you killed now will be perfectly normal in 200 years. Mental illness is a socially regulated way of trimming irregularities among consciousness of different people. Sanity is a limiting factor of your growth. If you become aware enough, you will be able to tell that any personality is a mashup of different people treating you in a certain way in your past. Insanity of people with multiple personalities is not originated in construction of their psyche, but their inability to cope with social norm of being unified. They are insane because they are honest about their experience and expect understanding of dishonest/unaware people. There is a reason why gurus don't talk about their deep experiences on late-night shows on TV. They are sane because they understand that they will not be understood.

So you don't need life, and yet - you still live it. You need enlightenment to live your unnecessary life, fully. Do you really need a girlfriend? Do you really need enlightenment? You don't, as you don't need to live. Some people at this point may ask: but tsuki, are you saying that I should kill myself?! Death is as meaningless as life. You will die regardless of your actions, so why not stick around and watch the fireworks while they last?

@TheSomeBody What do you need life for?

@TheSomeBody What do you need enlightenment for?

@TheSomeBody Looking for utility in life endeavors is a futile exercise. Any chain of reasoning that you carry out long enough will lead you to a non-answer such as: I want to. (Do you really?) I should to. (By which morality?) It is a normal thing to do. (Judging by what standards?) Because I have to live! (No, you don't!) etc You can ask a 'why' question forever only because you do not accept such answers, which are, in fact, correct answers when taken seriously. It is always that you first recognize a need for something, and only then you look for a reason to do it. There is no reason for wanting something, nor there is a reason to live. You simply do. You were brought into this world without any say in the matter and you will depart from it in the same way. Reason is not a domain of existential questions such as pursuit of a relationship. Don't get me wrong - reason is a very useful tool in its domain. I'm a mechanical engineer myself and reason keeps me fed and clothed. I will now say the same thing twice, from two different points of view. The point is, that they are equivalent formulations of the same situation: When you will meet a right person, you will know. When you are ready, any person will do. Sometimes, you just have to get so abysmally sick of your suffering that you will simply grab a solution that you always knew would work, but was too afraid to reach out for. As for the enlightenment part - how do you expect to die, if you have never even fully lived? Having a relationship means that you expose yourself with all of your animal nature to another person while getting the same thing back. And guess what - we are all, simply put, bald apes. It is enough to keep us entertained without silly ideas of becoming a saint.

That is wise as fuck. Thank you for reminding me that.

Will you elaborate? In what sense love is care? Do you love somebody by making them a meal? Or worrying about them?

What I think is that you both need to learn what love is. It is not something that you see in the movies, or it is not something that you learn from your parents. You learn practical knowledge. Love is not practical. Love is not giving up meditation for the other person because she's unhappy. Love is not being truthful to your sister in front of your loved one. Love is not being worried for your loved one's addictions. Love is not care. Love is not a display of affection the the other person can understand. Love is not making the other person feel pleasant feelings. Love is not exclusive with fear, anger, anxiety and sadness. What your girlfriend is looking for is a sign that is categorized as 'normally' signifying love. In other words: she understands love the same way culture understands love. Love is not wanting to be with the other person. Its extents cannot be measured by making the other person quit things they 'love' in order to see whether you are more 'loved' than them. Measuring your worth against the other person's interests is fear confused for love. Most likely fear of loneliness. Love is not a feeling in the same dimension as fear, anger, joy, compassion, or sadness. Love is like beauty. When you experience something immensely beautiful, it disarms you. There is nothing to be done in order to improve something that is beautiful. Doing anything to the beautiful would damage it. Love can be beautiful, but doesn't have to be. Love does not always disarm you. Love is therefore a skill. The more skilled at love you are, the more you let the other person be, what they are. Love is making the other person beautiful by changing the lens through which you see them. Love is an internal movement of soul, rather than external display of affection. There is no way of measuring another person's love, nor there is a way to express your own. You can have sex hatefully and have a divorce lovingly. As for the difficulty of a relationship - there is no right person for you. You love a person by accepting who they are and letting them be. The more hurt you are, the more finely-tailored your loved one has to be in order for you to accept her. By accepting another person you heal your wounds, as you are repulsed by her flaws precisely because she reminds you of parts of yourself that you reject. By accepting her, you accept yourself. Love is a skill of letting be. There is no difference between loving another and loving yourself. When you love, there is no reason not be by yourself. You need another person to learn that.

Agree 100% I think that we all should say no to group thinking!

@Dino D Be sure to notify me. I could take them on here, but I can easily go for pages and I feel bad for derailing threads.

@Dino D post these questions in a separate thread. I would like to grapple with you over them, as they are my points of interest.

Funny how we judge that judgement is bad.

Hey, no need to get upset. I'm not saying that you are not smart. Nor am I saying that I'm smarter. It is not a dismissal of your view. I agree with it. It is the only consistent model - a model of no models. A paradox that directly expresses the nature of reality. I will even go as far as to say that it is poetic in a sense. It shows how falsity is present in any truth. Sorry for offending you.

This view is truthful in a sense that it says nothing. It cancels itself out without producing a conclusion. What I see it saying is that everything is true until it becomes false. That it is ok to make models as long as they work, but once they stop - you throw them away. Your statement is also a model that breaks down once you start to apply it to itself. Should I still be using it, or did it already wear out?

In my experience, so-called truth and false are a mere outcome of assuming a fixed perspective. The more I contemplate truth and false, the more I'm certain that there always exists a perspective from which mutually exclusive statements are indistinguishable. Any (geometric) point is in this sense infinite(ly small). Spatial perspective is a good metaphor for a logical perspective. Any angle you may assume in observing a physical apple will obstruct its other side. Saying that you see the truth of an apple is like saying that the other side is never experienced. Two people may see an apple from different angles and both claim that they see the truth which is obviously false. Still, they both always experience their own side of an apple and will never experience the other side that they don't see. Even if they move, they will see only the side that they see - the other will be obstructed. In this sense, they both see the truth of an apple and it is obviously true. So yes, two statements can be both exclusive and true at the same time. What prevents one from moving around an apple is the need for stability in life. Once you start to pick your assumptions apart - there is nothing to hold on to. Consistency of truth is an expression of Ego.

@Moreira

Yes and no. No in the sense that you don't get to stop seeing how utterly meaningless everything is. Yes in a sense that there is no other place than the Matrix to be, and any other thing to do. Liberation comes from detachment. It is not that you detach yourself to gain a calm perspective, but the Matrix becomes a game in a certain way. You do not win it by attaining goals, nor do you lose it by dying of starvation. When everything is truly meaningless, death is meaningless as well. It does not mean that life is somehow constantly depressing, or nihilistic. Watching this thing run itself is very captivating and very beautiful. However, it's an acquired taste. You will get used to it. What do you mean by that? You can't talk to people because you gag? You can't be nice to them because who cares? Get your ass back to your life and start playing your role, skeleton!

@Lucas Lousada Experience with my own awakenings tells me that you ask for the very thing that you "lost": meaning in life. Your realization that anything is truly and utterly meaningless is nothing else other than the death of self. This is not a trivial matter and please, do no treat it as such. Death reminds us that whatever we hold on to as dear is just that - holding on to. That whatever we may think we have control over may be taken away with no prior warning. Mourning is not re-living the past that had been lost in hope to prolong it. It is seeing that whatever is left may be taken away and is to be enjoyed while it lasts. The self is always up for death, so please - try to enjoy yourself while you can. As for the meaning of your life - treating yourself as a mean to an end begs the question: whose end is it? The gaping openness of this question is what you seek. Try to not look away with disgust. This is you after all. The you that you try to dress up with all of your meanings.

How is success not a form of gratification? One may try to quench his seeking by turning it towards a goal, but any goal is temporary and contextual. The only ever-present constant in life seems to be the very possibility of seeking. Why not to try to seek the source of seeking? What if it has no source and is simply present? Wouldn't it mean that there is no goal that satisfies it?

Hahaha, the only reason I would call someone sharp is to say that they are being a smartass ? I will watch the movie in the next few days and post back with more ideas.

@molosku You're welcome. I really enjoyed what you wrote. That meme at the end was brilliant!

@MarkusSweden Your response with love is predicated on your liking. So is their response with slaughter. The moment you start to fear the unknown is the moment you created a threat. The moment you start to defend yourself from a threat is the moment you created an enemy. You can love an enemy and you can fight an enemy. They are both a form of defense in hope to conquer him. The enemy is an enemy, as long as you don't walk him back to the unknown.

Well, the problem with your reasoning is solved by applying the "correct" theory for your domain.There is a theory for flipping a coin, which is a discrete occurrence and there is a theory for continuous processes. If you want to calculate a probability that a given device fails during a period of one year - it is not the same as flipping a coin each microsecond for a year and seeing if it lands tails at any given moment. If you would apply the correct theory however, there is no possibility to calculate probability of your existence, as you are not expressible in the language of mathematics. Even if you had a perfect mathematical theory of human being, interpreting yourself in terms of it to produce a numerical description is a creative task that introduces errors with unknown bounds. Not to mention that once you describe what you are, you are free to disregard this description and behave in exactly the opposite manner My point is that probability of your existence is simply that: unknown. By assuming anything about it, you change what you are - your existence. You can say that it is impossible for you to exist and you would be right, as you are a unique human being - unlike any other. You can say that it is normal for you to exist and you would be right, as you are a human being and we have 7 billions of them. Existence with any of the above assumptions would be correct and you are both a miracle and a totally mundane occurrence. I will even risk to say that you treat yourself as both, depending on your mood. Any mundane statement produces a whole, complete, perspective or a worldview. They are thankfully, temporal.