tsuki

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  1. Because growth requires exploration of areas that we do not naturally gravitate towards. It's all Love in the end, but saying it outright gives the wrong impression that it is, in any way, tied with morality and meekness.
  2. That belief is rooted in your intellectual preoccupation. Stop prioritizing abstractions over yourself. There is no difference between you and the experiences you had. "You" could not have had any OTHER experiences. It would not have been "you".
  3. No inner work will ever give you freedom as understood by having happy thoughts, all day every day. Inner work will only ever give you responsibility, as in, an inner space in which experience occurs. Indeed, shadow work will make you feel like an 8 year old, because, in fact, that 8 year old still lives in your psyche. The psyche does not grow in a way that is similar to the body, by gradually transforming into something different, bigger. It grows by creating layers, like an onion, with experience. Shadow work will let you see clearly, the layers that are very old and very powerful. This 8 year old is interconnected with every other layer, and if it feels threatened, it will throw a tantrum. Because you worked to uncover it, you have the opportunity to take ownership of it, and protect it deliberately by creating boundaries in your life. Only conscious boundary creation will give you a way to create a life that is harmonious with you. It will not be airy-fairy-spiritual. It will be brutal, but now you know that this inner child is there and why it feels so hurt.
  4. Came to share recent events in my life with regards to enlightenment and other personal matters. Took a week off work and did some contemplation. I was writing an essay on limitation and contemplating what it is in my direct experience. This has led me to a question "do things that cannot be experienced, exist?" which obliterated me. I made this thread to gain some insight into the matter and all the big boys came to help. I understood that I lost ground in my contemplation and started asking questions about things I have not experience of. In the process of tackling this question, I became conscious of the nature of abstraction and became acutely aware of how it dominates my experience. I understood experientially that every existence is unique and abstractions are a mode of thinking that is ultimately unsatisfying. After some more contemplation, I started reading "the book of not knowing" with hope to gain more insight into limitation. I read it once in the past and gained insight that I am the absolute truth from the first few chapters of the book that outlined the principles of contemplation. With every book, I start by glancing over the index and seeing which topics resonate with me. For the longest time I thought that this particular book is ought to be read from back to back. I mustered the courage and went straight to the last chapter about the true nature of existence because it sparked the connection with the relativity and limitation. With Peter's written guidance, I started contemplating what difference is, and I realized that it is not a thing and it does not exist. Yet, at the same time, I became aware that difference gives existence to "things". I became conscious that the true nature of existence is emptiness. I also became aware that it is impossible to understand it and it makes no sense whatsoever. Whoever claims to know infinity is full of shit. The intellect is entirely relative and it cannot grasp Nothing. Only not-knowing can bring about consciousness of nothingness. I was experiencing a lot of fibro-related pain at the time and I used this opportunity to contemplate what pain is. I quickly became aware that pain is an emotion and that true nature of emotion is survival and that survival is love, which is absolute. Again, only genuine, shocking, not-knowing can bring about this realization. I am Love, I am Existence, I am Nothing, I am Absolute. There is no such thing as a mind. As of yet, I was not able to properly shock myself into seeing the true nature of time. Today, in a dream, I understood that I have a belief that the present moment is beyond and around reality and contains it like a box. I know intellectually that it is a belief, but I am not currently able to access genuine not-knowing in this matter. On a more personal ground, my relationship with my sister rekindled after we spoke about numerology. I offered to show her more about it thanks to the books that were suggested to me by my friend @Zigzag Idiot. For the past two weeks, we've been meeting and I started teaching her I-Ching and showing how to consult the Sage. I am very happy that we are able to connect again and I will not let the ego appropriate this Cosmic Gift.
  5. We're all strangers on the internet, so it's not the same thing.
  6. Also, you don't want a friend. You want a therapist. There is no road from zero rapport to people giving you effort and listening to your pain to help you. Even people that you've been with for years are usually afraid of doing that. Just find a therapist and pay him to do it. It's like a professional friend that will actually support you and mirror your shadows to you consciously.
  7. Absolute gold mine. Been following his channel for a while.
  8. This is also a big one. There is no love without freedom. If you don't want to give things to her, don't. But the relationship ain't gonna fly this way. If you want your relationship to be smooth, you want to give her things she wants. You must realize this. Relationships are an exchange of value. They are about survival. We're pretty freakin' smart animals. Give your relationship 99% instead of 100% and she will know immediately. You will know if she's not committed as well. Just 1% is enough to make you know.
  9. Yep. But dude, surprise her. And don't be stingy. Get 30 roses out of the blue. Chicks love extremes. Go watch a romantic comedy to see what they want. They LITERALLY want THAT. Get it? Your smelly feet aren't a shit-test. They just smell like shit . Take care of them dude. Nothing sexier than a well-groomed man.
  10. Oh, that's a big one. Can't wait to hear the gurus speak. I'm in my 6th year and I recently discovered that there is an absolute ton of things that I know that she deeply desires and that I was afraid of doing. There is no better aphrodisiac for my woman than to promise, or give her exactly what she wants. And I know exactly what she wants. So do you. All of the unnecessary thoughts about being a beta, or being taken advantage of: poof, gone. It is all a matter of choosing to be happy instead of being right.
  11. I don't know how old are you, but I'm guessing pretty young, so don't beat yourself up too much. The teenage struggle is the same for everybody. We're just learning to be authentic, while still clinging to our parents and school circles. Extremes are necessary so that we can learn the toxic excesses of each stage. It's a dynamic. You still got plenty of time. Oh, that's interesting, never thought of that. Thank you.
  12. The question about reason of existence in general was answered by @mandyjw. Non-existence does not exist. Poof, here we are. As for why you exist as this particular human on Earth in this particular time - this is a relative question regarding your life purpose and it can only be answered for yourself.
  13. This is not a matter of ego co-opting anything. The setup where the ego is somehow opposed to consciousness is a delusion. This discussion is ENTIRELY a matter of being the top of the spiritual pecking order. Entirely a human, relative activity. What is funny and foolish is that you pretend otherwise because you think that survival is somehow opposed to love and pretend to be free of it. That there is no self to be found in there. This is spiritual ego and it isn't going anywhere. Go ahead, argue me and prove my point.
  14. Insufferable fools, ARGUING about who is more enlightened, by EXPLAINING that nothing exists. How is this not a self-survival activity? I dare you to explain. Tell me that you don't exist. I dare you to open your mouth and say it with honesty and integrity. Go ahead, let's see if anyone can.
  15. From what I've gathered, the only thing that it accounts for is HRV-based stress measurement, and (probably) workout activity. It does not take calorie intake into account, but it will detect HRV-related changes due to caffeine, etc. I find it actually pretty smart, as it may detect battery drop when I'm feeling unwell, etc. I actually own two such devices and lent one to a friend to compare results. It was pretty interesting tbh. If you have like 60% after a full day, then I'm very impressed. I usually start at around 80-90% if I stick to my sleep schedule and end the day with around 20%. I use it to track my fibromyalgia-related issues.
  16. From what I've read on their website, the device uses more accurate readings and claim to be in accord with medical equipment 99.*%. Also, the ring seems to read temperature which is not available in the smartband. How do you find vivosmart's BodyBattery feature? Do you find it accurate? What are your energy and stress levels throughout the day?
  17. dude, lol. Yes, you are the highest in the spiritual pecking order. You won. You even got a green nickname. Please don't beat us anymore
  18. I'm using garmin vivosmart 4 to track my stress, sleep quality and energy levels. Does anyone have a hands-on experience with the ring? I'm interested in how it compares.
  19. So why the death-talk? It's just a bunch of beliefs. The self will die, but I am existence itself. It is not possible for me to not exist because I don't.
  20. It is clear to me, that whatever you claim to have become, it is definitely not what the OP is referring to as death. (See the first point about beliefs).
  21. The only obstacle to enlightenment is: social conditioning and half-truths that you've taken for granted enlightenment is not conducive to survival, so the intellect will be blind to it Enlightenment is not anti-survival. It does not require you to die in a horrible way. This is a delusion. The difficulty lies in the fact that conditioning is entirely relative and nobody knows what you believe. There are no sign-posts on your road because there will be no other human that will ever travel it.