WaveInTheOcean

Ever thought about taking 120mg MDMA together with your husband? Just in your home. Let someone take care of the kids for the evening/night.

There is a difference between a desire to know the truth and a desire to become peaceful/free of thoughts/'enlightened'. Realize that you don't know the truth. You have no clue what you really are and what the nature of reality is. Have a desire to find that out, just because it's fascinating to know the truth, not because you want to become 'liberated'/peaceful/'enlightened', etc.

The purpose of your life doesn't lie in the future but it is present right now in this very moment... you're just not aware of it. To strive for becoming peaceful/free of thoughts (i.e. "enlightened") implies that you feel messed up right now. In other words, the MAJOR reason that you're messed up is exactly BECAUSE you're STRIVING for "enlightenment". Your strong desire for becoming "enlightened"/peaceful in the future is the very thing that's causing you to be unpeaceful right now in this very moment ... In other words; your pursuit of "enlightenment" (whatever that fucking actually is) is what is causing you to never become "enlightened" / peaceful. You're not lacking anything. Except awareness. But even awareness you can't be lacking because awareness is everywhere, it's what's always was here and what will always be. What you "lack" is a transparent perspective on reality, a self-less perspective. A perspective not contaminated by the illusory belief that you exist. Cos you don't. That's the brutal truth. It's so fucking brutal that it's also immensely beautiful. And you can't alter the truth or fuck around with it or run rings around it. You can try, hell, we're all unconsciously trying / have tried, but in the end the truth (that you don't exist) will always come back and bite you in the ass. So if you still believe that you exist and act like you actually exist as a separate self/human body/person that by all means should achieve something; that can be hurt; that can die; then you will forever suffer. So you're lacking a transparent perspective on reality. Accordingly, what you want should be a transparant perspective on reality. In other words, truth is what you should want. Watch Leo's videos, watch enlightenment-stuff, read enlightenment-books, go to retreats, do self-inquiry, meditate, do yoga NOT in order to become "enlightened" but in order to build up a transparent perspective on reality -- in order to grasp the absolute truth of reality. The absolute truth can't be communicated. "You don't exist" is a statement that is only relatively true, and hearing it and believing in it doesn't make much of difference. You have to literally experience the Truth, i.e. experience no-self to actually "get it". As a matter of fact, you don't know what the fuck is true about reality or what the fuck is true about who you are. And if you don't have a relatively strong desire to find out what the truth actually is -- whatever it might be -- then my advice would be to immediately stop the "search for enlightenment". Because that would imply that you instead are 'seeking' because you desire "peacefulness" -- or what other juicy adjectives people label enlightenment/Buddah-hood with -- and that will never lead to anything, except maybe some useful insights that can improve your life somewhat..., which I mean is all fine and all, it will just never lead to the actual "thing" that Leo, Jesus, Buddah etc. are talking about. You should desire the Truth only. And the reason you should desire the Truth should be grounded in nothing except the desire itself for the Truth. Let me repeat: Your strong desire for becoming "enlightened"/peaceful in the future is the very thing that's causing you to unpeaceful right now in this very moment. And this is true about everything, not only enlightenment. You have to become present in this moment right now to fully appreciate life. You have to let of your attachment to life in order to fully enjoy life. For example, if you desire a girlfriend, success, or sex, then when you finally get it -- the girlfriend, the success, the sex -- you will for a short amount of time feel happy. But not because you got it, but because the desire for it is now gone... The worrying/anxious thoughts of being afraid of 'never getting it' are now gone; cos you got it; BOOM, desire is gone, and you now feel relieved, and mistake that for actual happiness. But you see, you were so anxious about getting it that you actually never truly got it, you only got the relief of not having to worry anymore. The thing itself you didn't get. Why? Let's start with success, cos that one is easy. You didn't get success for the obvious reason that success as a matter of external "thing" you can achieve to make you happy is an illusion... you can never get it; I mean the happiness through that. *ding dong, you don't exist, remember?* Sure it seems like you can achieve success, and yes you can, but it won't make you happy. What made you happy momentarily was the relief of not having to strive for it anymore, not the success itself. Success is a homo sapiens-, ego-created, cultural-created concept, and most people believe in it as a way to happiness, so of course you do too, because you're programmed to fit in by nature. That's all success is. So when you finally got the success, yes, you will momentarily be happy (because of the relief of not having to worry about it). But soon after, what will happen? Yes you guessed right, the ego will create new things to worry about, and the most obvious ones are: "How do I maintain my success?" "How do I achieve more success?", and now the desire for success will come again, just as intense as before, and thus the hamster-wheel continues forever and ever. With sex it's quite similar. You were so anxious of getting it that when you finally got it... you... Well first of all, you probably destroyed the experience to a large degree by being so anxious about it that you forgot being present and just enjoying the experience and giving your love. This in itself makes you want it again, cos you actually didn't really get it. Secondly, it's the same mechanism as before. Sure, sex is great, but becoming attached to it ensures that you will never fully experience it... Instead you mostly experience the relief of not worrying about getting it anymore... but soon you worry about it again, and thus the hamster-wheel continues. So in order to fully enjoy physical intimacy you have to let go of the attachment to it.. surprise, surprise, paradoxes everywhere. When you finally get the girlfriend, you feel happy. Not because of the person/the girlfriend, but because you don't have to worry about getting one anymore. But the ego will soon create new things to worry about. You will after some time maybe become so afraid of losing her that you will "squeeze" both her and the relationship itself to death with your "love". Nothing is permanent. Everything in life is transient. Thoughts, emotions, happenings, people, relationships.... life!. The ego's strict demand for permanence in every area of our existence is one of the primary causes of human misery. Because there is no such thing as permanence in life at all. And unconsciously demanding illusion and unconsciously running rings around Truth naturally leads to disappointment and suffering. Life is so beautifully ever transient, ever changing. Don't fight it. Let go and accept what is, and you will see how beautiful it all is. The future doesn't actually exist. Just like the past doesn't actually exist. 'Future' and 'past' are mind-created concepts, which help us to navigate in the world and survive and accomplish things ("success"). Future and past are nothing but ideas. All there is is right now.

I don't think so.:> I think they had a desire for truth. Maybe a desire for liberation can also lead you there, but at some point you have to drop the search anyway, because it's false to believe you're not already 'liberated'. It's like knocking your head against the wall only to realize there is no wall.

Here are two great short 5-min speeches by Watts, Krishnamurti and Terence McKenna: &

yeah don't do pyschedelics if you have just a hint of suicidial thoughts man. that's too risky:)

Listen to some Alan Watts. His wisdom and warm voice may calm you down. It may help you realize that it doesn't actually matter at all whether you kill yourself or not...... it's pointless to kill yourself and it's pointless to keep living,... so if everything is pointless, like i tell you, really, absolutely nothing that happens matters at all *except for those happenings you attach yourself to and apply your own constructed meaning (which by the way right now to a large degree is determined by society/culture/your parents, you're just not aware of it, so technically not your own meaning)* ... then why not just stop doing anything (including killing yourself, inlcuding being upset over your monkey-mind that won't quiet down, just let it do its thing man, don't be so upset over it) ?? I mean litterally... just stop everything you're doing and just watch what happens... when your body gets hungry, naturally the body will do what's nessecary to get food, when your body is tired, naturally it will sleep, when "the person" you think you are, but which is just an illusion, is sad, it will cry, and so on and so on. In other words, if everything is completely pointless and meaningless, including suicide and living, then why the hell not just stick around for a little longer and play the game of life? The tides could change, it could be more fun at some point. Since you're so low right now, it doesn't take much for you to get to a 'high', since a 'high' is only defined in contrast to 'low'. Since you obviously will die eventually (no matter what; either you kill yourself, you die of age, you die in an accident, or you die of a disease) why fear what's going to happen? Why not do something crazy? Don't be afraid to set your mark on the world, don't be afraid to follow your crazy dreams, don't be afraid that other will laugh of you, don't be afraid of failing, cos in the end; you will die, and all you did/didn't will not have mattered anyway, so don't be afraid man... there is litterally nothing to be afraid of. Of course if a tiger comes out of the woods, you will be afraid, but this is a natural reaction. Right now, you're afraid of unnatural, conceptually, ego-created, society-created reasons... throw those reasons away, they're not natural. Read my quote from Alan Watts in my signature, trust what he's saying is right, and then go search alan watts and youtube and begin listening to the old man. doesn't matter which video/speak you start with, everyone are golden.

omfg that is AWESOME man. ty

You have no free will. But there also is no you! Believing you exist combined with believing you haven't free will = emotional disaster ofc. Realizing you don't exist combined with seeing that it doesn't even make sense to talk about free will or no free-will = enlightenment. It's true; from a scientific perspective, of course you cannot have free will. Everything is determined by casual links and quantum randomness; the univerise is a physical machine! In any case, 'you' dont have a free will, cos 'you' dont exist. But You - the real you - decides how to interpret everything in life. So in that sense, you DO have full control; it's just a matter of being aware of it or not. When you play a game, like a board game, that's really interesting and really takes you in, you could also forget that you're playing and believing that the it actually REALLY matters who win the ludo-game. That's what makes it fun. In the same way, the real you is having so much fun right now, pretending it's a poor little sepearte self, Pristinemn, who's sad because it doesn't believe it has free will... haha, what a story!:D with 'real you' i mean God, Awareness, Absolute Infinity, Consciousness, Nothingness, etc etc, in other words: the REAL YOU!=)

thanks for sharing your wisdom with us Emerald <3

Being human = having a mind Having a mind does not only include 'having thoughts'. Thoughts are easy to pinpoint and locate in your experience; "that's a thought" etc. It also includes the subtle experience of being a seperate self that by all means has to survive and thrive. The experience of being 'someone' with a name, a body, a job, a girlfriend, an education, a house etc. The thing is, that it is "almost impossible" for a 'human being' to discover that being 'a human being' is in fact just an experience -- just like having a thought or having sex is an experience -- and that it is not who you really are. I say "almost impossible", because it surely is possible to grasp that. The only way it is possible to fully realize this -- i.e. that you in truth are not a human being -- is to fully lose your mind momentarily (ego death), and see that *you* didn't go anywhere, you just had an experience of being nothing/everything. After a full-blown ego-death experience you realize that the ego/self is just a mask you put on and then you play the game of human life. It is not who you really are. So no. Mind is not a constant bystander of Being. Being/you can break free of mind/ego, yes. Question is, how? Only way I know of is serious meditation or psychedelics. It's not something that "you" can do by free will, because you actually believe that you are a self, at least you feel that way, so to break free of mind feels to you to break from yourself, which seems impossible!:) So in meditation you sit for yourself for hours and hours day after day and at some point the mind stops creating the ego-illusion, and you break from the illusion and have an ego death experience. With psychdelics these chemicals go into your brain and just shut-down the whole ego-creating mechanism and then you break free from the mind. With that said, even with psychedelics, you need to be able to let go to get an ego-death experience. If you resist it/fight against the deletion of your mind (which can easily happen, since you probably believe that you are the mind), it's analogous to trying to hold your breath for several minutes, it feels like shit, and you will have a bad trip where you will be stuck in your mind with all kinds of nasty thoughts, like believing that you have gone insane for good. I have tried both:) I can thus only recommend that you during a trip try to let go as much as you can and just go with the flow of the experience, accepting whatever happens. Don't try to hold that breath in, let it go; let "yourself" float away and see that what you thought to be yourself is just a concept, and that the real you in reality are beyond concepts:) Accept the impermanence of reality.

the pineal gland is interesting. but the psedeoscience is high in this video. Lots of claims being made without any scientific evidence.

"Then what is killing, raping " it's killing and raping.=) In reality it's neither good nor bad. If you think it's evil then it's you interpretation of it. Of course you can be aware of the fact that good and evil are mind-made distinctions and still dislike killing and raping and still wanting to lock ppl doing it into jail.=) From a survival point of view it makes perfectly sense that the cultural mass-ego develeoped a concept of evil as being "real" and then equating it with anti-survival-behvaiour such as killing (and to a lesser extent raping i guess lol).

I think it's great to see such a massive celebrity throwing some "breadcrumbs" about "existential truth" out in the mass media. It's not just pearl for the swines. Sure, most people will dismiss Jim as a celebrity gone insane, but surely, someone will be more open and receptive to the message Jim is trying to convey. Everyone has to walk the path themselves, and Jim might initiate someone to start slowly walking the path. I like Jim's style, one one hand he's having fun and trolling around, on the other hand he's just so on point about what he's saying. That fashion show is the most meaningless thing you can find:)

a masterpiece

Saying that reality is a hallucination implies that there exist another reality which isn't a hallucination, which seems unlikely:D OR it implies that reality is both a hallucination and not-a-hallucination ; i.e. real, at the same time ... Because if reality was either strictly "REAL" or "AN HALLUCINATION" that would cause the "substance of reality" to be dualistic, which it isn't... reality appears dualistic, but truly is non-dual, which means that it's neither real or an hallucination (and therefore both); it just is what it is; the works, it's You, the Tao, itself! bla bla bla

If you and I play chess (or any other board game) against each other, what fun would it be (for both of us) if I just trolled around not caring about slaying your king or protecting my own king? The joy lies in playing the game "sincerely", while still knowing it's a game;) The pain lies in playing the game "seriously", not knowing it's an actual game/(hallucination).

Leo will be dead. The Self which were experiencing itSelf through the ego, Leo, (while simultaneously experiencing itSelf through all other egos) isn't death (it was never born in the first place). Also, there might be infinite Leos in infinite parrallel universes, and maybe in one of them the bullet missed, the gun failed, etc, so Leo might go on just fine:D

Ordinary reality, eg. going in the zoo and watching animals, is also an experience created by You, appearing in You, perceived by You. After all, what the fuck could it else be, an actual real physical outside world appearing outside of You? nahh, only if you look at it unconsciously through the illusionary ego-glasses which we naturally tend to do of course When I write 'You' I mean the Ultimate Self / God / Consciousness / Absolute Infinity etc etc etc

The brain of yours is a physical complex structure that is manifesting the illusory self <insert your name>. What you really are is *that* which is experiencing that illusory self; that which believes it is that self. And *whatever that is* can't be explained in words. You already are *it*, always has been and forever will be. *It* is absolutely nothing (and therefore everything). *It* is absolutely infinite (and therefore finite). *It* absolutely conscious (and therefore unconscious). *It* is the works, reality, the universe. *It* is alive and death. You are *it*.

best enjoyed on high volume with decent headphones.