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Limit HU is figured out, not shorthanded. Bots are good at Heads up. Shorthanded is tricky for bots, they don't model how the other players understand each other very well. Heads up has no psychology to it, it''s all about mixing up your game and having a good diversity in your decision making within your range. Shorthanded has huge amount of psychology to it.

I'm going to start a blog after I've sold my apartment and my belongings. I will be almost financial independent after that. I'll probably rent something after that. I was interested in money as a kid, and have talents for drawing financial conclusions and decisions based on information that is not perfect. Like in stock market, in poker, in cryptocurrency market, in sports betting. All those fields include hidden information and false information along with accurate information. I am good at sort things out and take better decisions then most people, hence I am able to make money from those fields. I'm not interested in this like I was as a youngster, which is natural after you start to walking the path of enlightenmnet. I will only be involved in those fields to maintain a good amount of savings, but I will spend as less time as possible, only to have my balance floating and not dropping. Instead I will run a blog, that embrace and explore the solitude life and the search and never-ending findings of the infinite true higher self. I would like it to be a "never ending" occupation, so even if I become 100 years old I will still run it. A nonprofit blog(as i said, I will keep my eran the money I spend from other fields) It's great to have something to answer people when they ask what I do in life, I'll simply answer.."I run this .... blog" But what would be a proper name, a really good name? Would "Never-ending discovery of our true nature" be a good name? What do you think?

Lol, the variance in PLO is huge. I played short handed(3-6 player) limit hold'em professionally for a few years. That variance in limit HE is bigger then in NLHE, but not as big as in PLO. Swings are huge and you can't really tell if you're a winning player or not unless you have 100.000++ hands behind you belt or more. It's a funny game though. The reason I played shorthanded limit was because you have to make marginal decisions and forced to play crappy hands which sort out the good ones from the bad players rather quick. Specially the marginal play at the river is fascinating. I actually bet for value with nothing but 'king high' heads up, against player who occasionally make calls with 'queen high' I've also called river bet HU with '10 high' and won against players who missed their low straight draws and tried to bluff at the river, after semi bluffing the flop and turn.

True, it's not fulfilling, just to have some income. Are you familiar with Hold'em?

@Preetom You forgot to tag me. People don't take my enlightenment seriously, that hurts my ego.

Yes, tantra is basically a good old jerk off!

Sex is a thing of nature, once you have super consciousness you have no desire for sex. Eroticism and sexuality becomes something not physical, something that colouring you whole awareness, and physical sex becomes gross, almost as committing a crime. Like if you destroy the sensitive eroticism that already is integrated in your awareness by having physical sex. This is very important to understand.

People born between 1982-2000, so called millennials, seem to be well educated, they know about the man made climate change, they know that all people are equal no matter what color or religion. They are up to date with the post modern society. They embrace equal rights between men and women by supporting feminism. In short they are politically aware. I try to be up to date with politics as well but I constantly fail and fall for those crazy populist ideas which I now know is totally wrong(I will not do that mistake again). Millennials seem to intuitively understand the world, humans, politics. They are without prejudice and fight for the good. Social justice warriors is a stupid label, because they only strive for a better world for all of us. The SJW-label is just an attempt to discredit the brave millennials for doing the right things. Some of their deeds might be green, but remember, they are still young, plenty of time to get to yellow and turquoise. And green is not bad at all. People born after 2000 or before 1982 might be great as well, but maybe not as great as the brilliant millennials. Are the millennials the pinnacle of all generations? Elaborate.

When I read threads here I see a few members that are truly great, they seem to know everything and have an aura of enlightenment about them. However, it still feels like they are refusing to make the very last step to finally become fully enlightened, like they hold something back. Like they are 99% enlightened and not aim any higher that that. At very rare occasions though, I see members who are all in so to speak, 100% , I often notice when facing those posts already after reading the first sentence. I can't nail what's special about them, they just are. They just feel so incredible transparent, honest and full of integrity. I feel their words digs in to my body and deliver silence and truth. What I notice about these posters is that they are not interesting in socialising or sharing ideas back and forth, they often just post one single post and that's it, then they are gone for good. In a way, all of those "One post wonder"- members had a dark picture of life. But it didn't felt dark at all reading them, rather it felt liberating to read them. A few of them decided to commit suicide, others have chosen to stay but they know there is nothing to gain in doing so. They just let the lucid dream continue, but for no reason really. The reason why I don't feel sad reading those dark posts is because I recognise how they desire REAL enlightenment in a way. And if you want REAL enlightenment, you can't really desire any aspect of worldly life, not even "enlightenment" within a body mind, and that explain the dark nature of their posts(which paradoxically aren't dark at all). They were not satisfied to reach a point were they saw through duality. They wanted more(same as less), they were not satisfied with a lucid dream within an agent lost in maya, they wanted FULL awakening. And think about it, first you don't recognise reality as a dream, you believe it is real, then you recognise it's nothing but a dream(maya). You're having a lucid dream by now, but that's not really to be fully awake. If you have a dream at night, and start realising you're in the middle of a dream, you might find it fascinating to be in a lucid dream for a while, but after that initial bliss and freedom of realising you're in a lucid dream, don't you want to quit the game all together, folding up to ten and become fully awake? I can't see how you can stay within a body mind and be fully enlightened, even if you don't identify at all with the body mind that carries you around. Can you? Also, at my most blissful in moments in life, when I really enjoy life the most, thoughts like "Nothing could be better then to be physical dead" have come to my mind. Those thoughts only come when I really experience great happiness in life, I think that is because the supreme creator know that I can handle the truth at that time. Those kind of thoughts never come me, when life isn't that good, then I think of a new car, a new carrier, a new girlfriend or anything other superficial. Elaborate.

For a few months(during winter/spring this year) @Leo Gura posted videos on his blog. I loved those videos because they weren't structured, he just spoke for an hour or so whatever came to his mind in the present moment. Kind of 'stream of consciousness' - style. I loved them because they lacked planning and direction, he just put the camera on and spoke for an hour whatever topic that come to his mind. It felt like they were filled with truth because of the spontaneous format. Will he keep shooting blog videos anytime soon again? I miss them. He hasn't shoot any new blog video since his may retreat 3+ months ago.

I see many threads these days where people have complains about the state of the world, that the world is an evil place with low consciousness. One recent example is this thread.. These threads are written by people that project their own poor awareness upon the world. And why do they do that? Because the inner and outer are the same! They create the world out of what's going on in their inner beings. Just as @Leo Gura, rightly so, claims that there are no such thing as brains, it's also true that there are no such things as rape, murder, shootings, psychopathic behaviour, lies, war, corruption, power struggles, greed. Those things don't exists, other then in your own mind, these are nothing but projections. It comes from your own ego. The world is not physical, the materialistic narrative is a superficial idea with no truth to it. As soon as you transcend your ego, it's literary impossible to find anything else but Love, beauty, compassion, peace and perfect order in the world! You see? You and the world not only correlates, they are the very same thing, it's ONENESS! If you get rid of low consciousness yourself, you get rid of all the low consciousness in the world. Low consciousness can literary not exist in the world if you are in an enlightened awareness, since the world and you are one. It's one thing, it's ONENESS! YOU SEE? IT'S SO SIMPLE THAT IT'S ALMOST HARD TO UNDERSTAND! Namaste.

Green is the idealistic stage. It's about love, peace and understanding. Green is appreciation of beauty. Green is about kindness and altruistic behaviour. Green is about giving and sharing. Green is about openness, honesty and transparency. The reason we move upwards towards yellow is because we realise how naive the green worldview is. Ralph Waldo Emerson once said.. “Treat a man as he is, and he will remain as he is. Treat a man as he could be, and he will become what he should be.” The same could be said for the world.. “Treat the world as it is, and it will remain as it is. Treat the world as it could be, and it will become what it should be.” Since green is the idealistic stage, hence we don't see and treat the world as it is, rather we treat the world as it should be. If people don't continue to evolve into the cunning stage of system thinking yellow which is a mind dense stage, and simply decided to stay at green, then green people will soon outnumber people in lower stages and the world will make a transition to stage green as a whole. Governments, courts and media will be based on stage green awareness, hence a much more loving world, less mind, less pointless systems thinking and a much more peaceful and altruistic world. Green is seeing the world as it is minus the evil. We go into yellow because we realise there is evil as well in the world, but if we continue to stay blind to the evil, the world will soon sort itself out from all evil, because if we all become blind to it, it will cease to exist. In seeing evil we let the evil continue to be a part of this world. I'm now doing reverse work to go back from turquoise to the naive stage of green. I have to unlearn the realistic picture of todays world and I have to unlearn about all the evil structures in todays world in order to go back to the naive stage of green again. Naive green will not be naive much longer if we all choose to stay there. Naive green becomes just green as the world and humanity change with our perception of it. And think about it. ALL people that ever changed the world were naive. They didn't see how the world was, they saw what the world could be!

No, you let yourself be naive. Just as you do when you respect a person who doesn't deserve to have your respect, but that person will notice that you respect him and he will start to behave as someone who deserves respect. That way you are only naive to begin with, the outer world will adjust to how you view it, hence you will not be naive any longer. That way it's evil to be a hardcore realist. You see? Yellow and turquoise are slightly cynical, and if we want to end this cynical world we must first stop viewing it as cynical. Dare to refuse Tier two! I been there, I'm on my way back now.

@Mikael89 You posted so interesting contents a while back, lately you seem to be annoyed or somewhat irritated. Are you ok Mikael? I think you are one of the most interesting members to follow when you are calm and collected.

It's anything but boring. You have everything in your consciousness at stage turquoise. Take sex for example, is there anything we guys love more then sex? While in turquoise sex is a sublime part of your consciousness. You ARE sex, among other things. You feel how every single cell in your body are erotic, just as every cell is bathing in peace, love, beauty and intelligence, every cell is bathing in an erotic consciousness. You see? Sex becomes infinitely more erotic and sublime as a mental feature that is constant present in your awareness, the idea of dumbing down sex to something less erotic as a physical act with a another being becomes very one-dimensional and awful. But of course, from your perspective it seem boring, but you don't have access to that infinitely sensitive awareness(yet).

Speaking of Huxley, this is one of my favourite quotes of him, do you like this one as well? “The real hopeless victims of mental illness are to be found among those who appear to be most normal. "Many of them are normal because they are so well adjusted to our mode of existence, because their human voice has been silenced so early in their lives, that they do not even struggle or suffer or develop symptoms as the neurotic does." They are normal not in what may be called the absolute sense of the word; they are normal only in relation to a profoundly abnormal society. Their perfect adjustment to that abnormal society is a measure of their mental sickness. These millions of abnormally normal people, living without fuss in a society to which, if they were fully human beings, they ought not to be adjusted.” ― Aldous Huxley, Brave New World Revisited

@Outer I believe practise is necessary also. Have you blocked me, if you don't answer you have! Haha. I almost miss our fights. Everything is so calm between us these days.

@Outer Thanks! Haven't you blocked me btw?

Maybe I see it, maybe I'm blind to it. I just want to break free from my old life with old friends and family I come from. I like think my idea of "who" I am remains as long as they are in my life. I can die to that persona, but not as long as these people are around me, because they project that persona upon me. I feel like my "persona" is like a prison, and if I break free from that prison I no longer have any desire to be attached to them, they become just as random people. In order to keep in touch with them I need to stay in that prison if feels, you see?

I have that subtle form of attachment you think?

Haha, lovely, enjoy your pastime! You expressed it even better than me, you nailed it. It's tricky, I've literary thought through miljons of strategies to plant my perspective inside their perspective. But every action I might take to explain would just make me look more crazy from their perspective. It's like trying to correct a painting, whatever you do, it becomes worse then before you start trying to correct it. Hehe, the best solution for me is to just disappear, they will think I'm crazy, and they will be known to the society they live in as the family who raised a boy that become crazy, lol. It's almost funny how limiting language is, you can't reach out to anyone regarding these stuff unless you're not at the same frequency to begin with. Also it's painful to see how all people suffering from their struggle for comfort, for respect, for approval, for success. They think they suffer because they lack some of those attributes, when the real reason is that they suffer is because they are trying to run away from the fact that the person, the ego is not a real entity. But they notice the emptiness inside nevertheless, but they never embrace it, hence the fear. They run because they notice that they suffer, but they run in a 180 degrees wrong direction, only accumulating more suffering. Hehe, it's a crazy world, I'll tell you. And the only sane one is the one that is labeled crazy. The irony in that..

Fint! I always felt you have the right attitude. And you are brave as well, because that what you need to be when one got the right attitude and wants to live it. And your positivity is always felt on this forum. Kram

@Jack River Haha, language is funny, you see how we refer to absolut opposite things when we use the word "dead" That's how stupid languages are when trying to speak about profound things. A word can have the meaning 'black' for one person and the meaning 'white' for another.

Yes, I mean dead, as in being absorbed in the now. Not knowing your past. Well, you do know your past if you think about it, but you never do, you are so alive in the present moment that it's fair to say you are dead in regards to being an ego or a person. But you are highly alive of course, but it's an aliveness that is impersonal, you see? Ah, I understand, I was hoping you meant being dead as in being nothing. Like Osho describe in this video, you see what I mean?

Very interesting! May I ask you how you handle relationships, because to me that holds me back from being dead. They refer to me as a person, as Markus. Although they love me very much I have no desire to keep them in my live, although I love them as well of course, but they hinder me from being fully in the 'NOW', they hinder me to be dead. I can't explain that to them, they won't understand. To them it's natural to build and strengthen the persona and the carrier, the material, economical status and safety. I have to be "my" persona in order to relate to them, I can't relate as dead. Or rather I could if they don't view me as someone they know, some persona that I didn't identify myself with. That way I find it easy to deal with people who don't know 'me' because then I can be dead. You see what I'm saying. I had this HUGE HUGE intuition to 'disappear' from all people I know, family and such. I didn't even wanted to write a letter and explain why I choose to disappear, because even that letter would be written be the persona. The only true and honest thing I could do was to disappear without a trace. But I know how much suffering that would bring to my relatives, my mother especially. So I couldn't pulled it of because of empathy towards them. Now 3-4 years later I still feel the same pull to leave it all behind. This is a trap, because leaving would give my huge bad conscience and family and friends will suffer not knowing what has happened to me. Are you familiar with this, I just long so badly to be the dead one I know I can be. In fact I've been dead for a many years prior wanted to leave my relatives behind, I just couldn't understand why I was suffering when meeting them back then, now I know it was because of the suffering thing of being a person when intreating with them. When meeting strangers I just respond whatever I like not thinking about who I am or what others think I am. Because in every relationship we project upon each other an idea who the other is. Do you understand anything of this, or do you see it as nonsense? Did you face this problems in your first years as dead?