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  2. Posted · Edited by yangmilun

     

    I feel like this moment I am yellow, that moment I'm red, green, or orange. What I mean is life is complicated, plus the brain is complicated. then this complication interlocks with that complication will matrix bigger complications. 

    Each situation triggers different level of fear or my positive stuff. I feel lonely, brave, love, evil, or happy, so many different emotions. how do I make sure which stage i am in?

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    For sure, people will start from the beginning of the stage, but have you thought about, anyone in your life is just so different to others? 

    Maybe human A always listen to the rules in his life, compare to human B is not listen to the rules, but jump to stage orange, to do his business without school?

    I feel like all these colors are just in each people's DNA already. people want to grow, fine, go up through the spiral path. 

    but to those people who are locked in their culture and believe, isn't those people just jump to the stage when they born?

  3. Posted

    On 2019/12/26 at 2:32 AM, Matt23 said:

    I'm struggling with this at the moment as well.

    I have long time to not enter this forum to see what people reply to me, like you. Because I am afriad that my question is very kid. 

    everytime I come back with brave and read the answers that I feel people are respect and truely to answer my question.  so I feel release. 

    Coz I want to say Thank you. 

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    On 2019/12/26 at 2:32 AM, Matt23 said:

    1. I'd say it may depend on what's your priority? 

    2. A few good friends is better than many shallow friends.

    3. Don't be afraid to express your true opinions and interests. 

    4. Watch your judgements. 

    5. Listen to yourself. 

    6. Try to find right people.

    Helping others with same problems that I also have, is the best way to help myself.

    This is what I find from you. you have lots ideas and many aspects to answer my problem. 

    The difference is, you have many ideas that I never think about, like, 1, 4, 6. and other opinions are what I afriad to think of. 

  5. Posted

    Introvert, Im not good at talk with stranger, schoomate group and party people.

    and there is quite ego topic that I don't feel that I want to talk about it. 

    plus I think they are not offensive and just make friends.

    good or bad? I make an excuse that I don't want to talk about it becoz it's too ego, actually, that topic is for survival. 

    so what is your way to face collective ego?

  6. Posted

    and I wanna be that thousand people. 

     

    I don't have a happy family. this is why I observe people's emotion for surviving. 

    i have trained a nice ability with different views, different perspective,

    but I don't have power to get rid of my family's evil, in my mind. that is permanent. 

    Sometimes I watch Leo's video only look for magic world, so that I could have a hope, 

    I posted here to talk Leo's topic before, show some smart, get some warm and acceptable. 

    and I see psychologist, she gave me some similar suggestions, "be coucious to observe my emotion."  

    and I realised "evil and angel" is just a choice. 

    I feel enjoy with hateful, but there is an answer that self-love is ultimate true that I blindly believe. 

    I chose angle, I can see weakness. there is no space to show my pure emotions.

    I chose evil, this is a good tool to face this shitty world. 

     

    I respect those people who jump to newer stage in spiral dynamics. this is your game. 

    I don't have more energy to face my game. 

     

    The world teaches me boring rules to live better.  "follow" is the only rules with those different sayings.

    I desire to tell world, how beautiful to be a thousand Hamlets' readers to see the world. 

    this is not an enlightenment, this is just a fightback to those shitty people, hopelessly. 

    because I tried, and evil VS this tried,  this shitty world always wins. 

     

    It's sucks.

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    if im lazy, how to let it go? be busy?

    The mind might say that I need to achieve some goals. 

    but why not let the goal goes and keep lazy?

    if I keep lazy, nothing to achieve, plus goal is nothing, nothing to 'let it go', 

    so what should I do? 

    Then I let this question go, what is next question I should think?

    if I am into this loop and I let this loop go, I feel I am stupid becoz my mind has nothing now. 

  8. Posted

    Can I post just becoz I am happy? that's it. ego happy. hahaha.

    I was talking to my mom and made my mom happy, 

    and I talk to my partner, we argue something small, and then we peace.

    plus I argue with my client, they understand me.

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    I am not sure how "surrender" really works on me. I don't work "let it go" well.

    But I told relevant feeling to each person, not hide it. just go through my ego system.

    I told then how they trigger my ego and how my feel.

    I have not fear to open my weakness to them, becoz I guess it should be ok. 

    I think my path does not go that far, so I begin my ego path first. I wanna be in a simple life.

    I share my happiness here, I hope you guys all good. 

     

  9. Posted

    2 hours ago, LastThursday said:

    Shocked? No. Understanding reality is imagination doesn't change reality. It just changes your thinking about reality.

    If you are shocked, it's because it's a new idea to you. But reality doesn't care if you are shocked, it carries on being imagined.

    The situation is a bit like being told your father had an affair for years. It's very shocking at first, but your father is still your father, he didn't change. All that changed was your perspective. So now, you react to your father differently.

    So maybe what's next is that you treat reality differently?

     

    Thank you

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    17 hours ago, LastThursday said:

    Scientists are confused, because they don't realise that their "absolute reality" is actually constructed or inferred from many different people's accounts of their own personal realities. Their map is not the territory, there is no territory.

    @LastThursday

    Teacher's knowledge is useful for personal and career developing. 

    How to distinguish the difference between:

    • your opinion is what you imagined, not mine. 
    • you have more experience so I listen to you.

  11. Posted

    16 hours ago, LastThursday said:

    So where does each person's reality come from? It is imagined.

    @LastThursday

    Man, What's next when you understand this? 

    When you understand reality come from imagination, are you shocked? 

    I feel that who's reality is true is according to fist, i mean power. Bigger fist, then more "true".

     

    17 hours ago, LastThursday said:

    The real question is: Imagined by what? And an even bigger question: Do you have any control over it?

    I　ＤＯＮ'Ｔ　ＫＮＯＷ．．．．．．．．

    and what is the benefit that we figure out this? Find the source then get the answer?

  12. Posted · Edited by yangmilun

    12 hours ago, Zigzag Idiot said:

    The difference between uncontrolled imagination and creative imagination. The way I understand it, purification of the emotional center is the key between creative imagination in Causal realm manifesting and  magical thinking run amuck in our uncontrolled thoughts and day dreams produced by undisciplined 'monkey mind'.

    W e"re two natured beings. The kedsjan (Astral) and the energy body in which the physical body dominates with its own wants and desires.

     As Terence Mekenna says "We are angels who have a Siamese twin who is a monkey growing out of our chest."

    Purifying the emotional center gives the Astral body the capacity to be able to boss around the physical body with the 3 lower chakras sometimes referred to in the Work as the Automaton.

    I really enjoy to read your spiritual reply. Thx

    I don't really familiar with spiritual system but I understand your words below:

    Random thought first > so purification of the emotional center > then we have creative imagination space>  make better life finally. 

    "imagination is everything" then means change the feedback of our mind and emotion from outside world will get everything we want. am I right? 

  13. Posted

    The brain receives message from outside, child to adult. The reality is limited by what message has been got. ''Everything" then, means limited reality in each ego experience.  So I use my way to understand your answer. 

    I can say both YES and NO that I read your reply. 

    9 hours ago, LastThursday said:

    You can check this by sitting in a courtroom and seeing that the witnesses don't agree at all on reality.

    Yes, I understand your saying. Becoz if the witnesses don't agree at all on reality, then "imagination is everything" means ["everything" is only his "everything"]. Therefore, it indicates that each Ego only alive on its reality, just like a jail or independent dream, "so hey, human, let's relax, there is no common answer, you cannot change me, and me either. becoz we experience different", so that "everything" doesn't mean magic stuff, that doesn't mean you have the power just think a bit and then change the outside world.

    9 hours ago, LastThursday said:

    Because there are two types of imagination.

    No, I don't understand your saying. Big difference here: A people who find a new garden "Hey there is a new garden, let me guide you there" "wow so cool! how did you find this beautiful place?" Instead, Enlightenment people they understand a new level of this, so they share this message with their happiness. "Oh, you know what? imagination is everything! let me guide you there!!" "guide me where? are you insane?" Are they missing something to guide ego people to fully understand those two types of imagination? why people still stuck on daydreaming level?

     

  14. Posted · Edited by yangmilun

    Let me answer this first, God imagins all stuff to experience itself. I can understand this.

    but

    we cannot imagin all stuff to experience myself, becoz my mom gonna call me to do the job if she finds out im wasting time. 

    so

    if ego and enlightenment are two different channels or world or question．why understand this is a growth and people make life better?

  15. Posted

    when you understand "everything is imagination", what do you think others lack of what to understand what you understand?

    There must be a higher level understanding to know "everything is imagination" instead of lower ego explaination of this. 

    Ego explaination: if you say so, we could just do weed thing and imagin all the time. nobody back to everyday life then. 

    I can see people who get this but make life better without fear and evil stuff. So what is the main different? 

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    I cannot wait for Leo new video for answering this. So I decide to ask here.

    I think its both easy and hard. Easy is bocoz we know how ego triggers. Hard is becoz how myself deal with those different egos but keep my mind grows.

    What my understanding about living in 3rd world country is,  "you have to respect my ego and also suffer what my ego suffers, then I give you the benefit." Huge collective ego structured by each single ego. Complicated fear and ego system cause people act like collective ego but they have or hide each single ego needs. Therefore I have to inevitable go through to suffer both YES and NO ideas in my mind.

    So my main question is the topic: How do I self-actualize if I'm living in an under-developed 3rd world country?

    • Are you gonna be lonely to grow urself?
    • If they think you do the things alone, how could you cooperate with 3rd country people if you need them to trust you？
    • Are you gonna absorbing their devil to fixing the problem one by one or any other better way?
    • If you can clear to see what collective ego is, How to play this game better then?
    • For achieving goals and money: Will higher spiral dynamics level trigger lower's fear and devil?
    • Does "you don't care how people think of you" Trigger "you are not mind open"? 

  22. Posted · Edited by yangmilun
    Sorry I dunno how to show videos here.

    Thomas Frank - school stuff, job, working skill, productive, good quality of video. 

     

    Aaron Doughty - Clearly deliver the content that I could understand.

    dakota of earth - 

    Matt D'Avella - Learn how to make video stuff from here.

    Number 1 is Actualized.org 

     

  24. Posted

    • Problem Solution
    • Relationship
    • Talking skill
    • Social Skill
    • Education
    • Emotion
    • The worldview
    • Money stuff
    • .....

     

    They are getting old, and I found bigger world, fresh knowledge, and other happier families. 

    I realized I use my parent way to deal with the problem when I am weak, and get not good result. 

    Sometime I wish I would empty my mind and insert some new functional stuff.

    Sometimes I feel hateful but relax if everything is caused by my parent. 

    I found my brain is strongly structured by my childhood and my parent.  

    How to out of parent negative stuff in my brain?

  25. Posted · Edited by yangmilun

    I desire to focus and feel light while doing things. I feel tired while doing crazy workout and then I am into a state that I feel there is nothing but focus. Too tired so that I cannot think something else.

    Plus sometimes I do psychodelic I can feel this too. So focus and work hard. 

    I dont have this light feeling when I am ok.

    but i dont feel there is something stucks me. And then I guess maybe there is some hidden negative thoughts or pressure that doesnt really come out when I feel ok or normal. Therefore I think its time to find it out. 

    How to be single-minded? be focused?