yangmilun

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  1. I watch his video about 5 years, then I realized there is a huge work I need to improve. The stage where I am on. I think is about video on 2014-2015, now. People on the different stage meanwhile all people catch up his video every sunday. its like I still study 1+1, but I watch the final exam video. then its more confused me. I personally think my problem is very common and everyday stuff. If I have same question as you ask, I would start to do what I have to do right now (I mean boring stuff). Boring? then seek fun, then seek stable, then seek peaceful, then seek nothingness. For me, its process.
  2. "Being" does not mean ego me, right? Consciousness that I exist? Spiritial stuff? "Being" means the inner voice while we feel peaceful. there is something that Spiritial likes to do. Right? something we truely motivate, relax, or can I say we only find "Being" after enlighted?
  3. Well I just learning this right now from Leo's video. So quick note about his content to answer your question. step by step: 1. all meaning is relative, that means meaning are invention, people create that. and people is living what they created. 2. chasing the meaning is chasing nothingness. becoz we create something from nothingness, make live meaningful. 3. people understand that, if that is right, can we say we just sit down and doing nothing? Yes, nihilism. 4. enlightened toward peaceful, to nothingness, to everything is no reason. 5. then what? no desire, no reason, so everyone is zombie or what? Nope, It's being. 6. Being, being include helping people. so no reason, people still help people. still reply you. 7. You wake up so early becoz you really wanna do your own stuff, playful and motivate. Instead of ego job. Here is his video (Just in case something I misleading or misunderstanding.) English question, What is "Being"? It's very hard to get definition of this word within enlightenment. When Leo says "Being", what kind of area he is talking about? What he try to help us? What does he highlight? Be happy? Be yourself? Be what? He says that there is no you, there is infinity. there is "It".
  4. She is lower self-esteem, and lying to others for building a fake better person. When she keep saying that "I will be better person" "I help friend so friend help me" "I cannot out of sad" Then I help her like, "if you tell other you are lying because you have fear to loss, they will still love you" She cannot do it, then I try to convice her, " just tell one person, that you are lying one thing only. " I feel like I am wrong, because I try to prove my way is the only way let her out of ego. Plus she keeps saying "I wanna be better", but "why should I do this?" Then she is saying lots offensive things to me for protecting herself, I was ok. but I am feeling suffer now. So I post this is not because of her, I do think I have my own problem. I was thinking like: 1. I should leave her, because I think she has lower energy that I will be the same. 2. We share happiness to be authentic, to be selfless, actually she doesn't really like to listen about enlightenment that I share to her. 3. I have negative emotion sometimes, when I do really care people gossip behind me, like everytime she hides it but I know. 4. I like to show off my knowledge, to prove that there is only way I can help you. Then i feel im valuable. 5. I think I was lower self-esteem, so I allow her into my life about 5 years. I don't have too many friends, not even my family. 6. I don't think we are friendship, I feel we are using each other. but I feel good when we share life. I do think accept new life is the way to avoid the real me, and I back to old friends to show a happy me, I don't feel happy. Sometimes I show the ego me, Serious, Angry, Selfish, I can feel they like me. they wanna be like me, they think i am strong.
  5. Yes, and would you like to share your consciousness to let me realize how beautiful it is.
  6. I always be pleasure someone could help me with my problem. Thank you sooo much. I do know this is very starter question in this forum, that's why I feel more thankful that you could spend time with this.
  7. I just can't. I dunno what it means. I do feel you guys are sharing the result of what you realized. 1. I feel failure, I do more then I success. But when I feel success, I am lazy then I fail. 2. Orange is always on the table, my thoughts cannot change it unless I use my hand to move it. 3. New things come everyday that I never think it before, new knowledge, new fashion, new ideas.
  8. Thank you for your reply, I respond you so late becoz I feel so stupid and I cannot really face this problem. What have the results been like? Is it working for her? The result is bad, and it's not working. She doesn't accept what I've done. The way she does and all people do as well, I think, are remaining what I did wrong in the past to reuse their fear what they cannot face for protecting themself. "you did other balabala mistake, then why you try to fix me?" So I don't usually be brave to help people becoz once I cannot answer my own problem to them, their fear just still alive, plus I hurt as well. Then I feel more negative, coz I try to focus on my own perfection and also ignore others problem. Upset feeling, I feel selfish, and I do think perfection makes me more uphappy. When am I done? I feel the only way that I should stop is quitting our friendship, or ignore their negative stuff, and let their problems come to me again and again.I don't have any other way better. Both way I think is negative stuff. Why do you believe that you should be rewarded with good behaviour when you do something you perceive as helping? I don't feel I should get reward if I help people. With good behaviour, I wish I will get reward, but I focus on good feeling on process when I have that. Plus I was thinking a long time that what "Help" means.
  9. Such a simple question but I don't really know how to answer Why do I believe what I'm doing is helping? I don't really have any reason for this. Do I believe? Yes, I was. Now I am confused. Am I really helping? Depend on the result, If bad result then I keep helping. What am I doing? I bring her to face the fear. Bring her to face the fear is helping? I dunno. Cos she keeps saying this. then why not let's really doing something to fix it. Do I answer your question? Half, I think you ask me, "why do you think what you did is right to her?" What if she just wants someone to listen without helping? I see the problem, I want to fix it. If I keep listening, she then keeps sad.
  10. Roughly can feel what it means, but I want to make sure how this world works. But still, there are some stupid questions sometimes I don't really know. Sorry about one more time: 1. After you couciousness, all things will come to you? 2. Time doesn't exist, but you need to spend time to get what you want? 3. When people say time doesn't exist, what do they really try to help us or highlight? 4. Infinity means everything, as well as including Harry Potter stuff? 5. Why do I need to walk into bathroom to get my water but not using my mind? People talk about shit stuff ruin their life, and we tend to create an Utopia world like Harry Potter. What if there is a real Harry Potter world in another universe, which we don't need to pay the rent?
  11. Tiny particals form the body of me, and the brain with thinking system. I can use my hand to touch things. I can use my brain to control my hand. control my eyes, to see the things, my mom, another particals stuff, just particals, just dot, balls, form this world. and moving in present moment, there is nothing about past and future, because...emm.. the past partical shapes has recorded into my mind, through my eyes, touch, feel, and finally brain. It is just and sand, the different shape of sand, include me. I am the sand with human shape. Maybe I need to quit smoking, to take care of this sand. and typing.. typing is black font on the screen. right now, I didn't send it then you cannot see it now. I feel a bit happy? all concepts, all past are just in my mind, I am not thinking of it, then it does not exist. I am thinking of it, it happens. The real thing is those particals floating...or sticky somewhere. Be humble? because I am not sure what the particals of my mom gonna moving right now. and this is just concept, yes, because my mom just moves what she wanna do in real. all stuff just happens in my mind. lonely? Nah. Silence? Yes. voice is just the air goes faster and run through in my ear, the partical ears. Present moment, wtf? wtf? present moment is scared. Leo is talking in Youtube, it just a destop plays the voice, showing on the screen. And what are you doing now? Soonhei and Shin, particals stuff just move what it moves. I am communicating with your pinky brain neuron.
  12. Nah, definely definely not. Outside just my phone, computer, and desk.
  13. Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? emm...I don't understand this question now. Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? em..What do you try to ask? Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? Where?? the location? Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? Linear stuff maybe, past to present, present to future. Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? illustion? Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? The past and future are occuring in my mind. Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? I am thinking your question now, and I am answering your question now. Where is the past and future occuring for you now ? I am thinking about the past and future in my mind now.
  14. The ultimate observer watches the life as movie whaver the moment are paused it likes? I was wondering that maybe all my life are already made a moive for observer to watch. and, movie, or DVD (of my life), is just putting in his bathroom or somewhere he can watch later. or maybe there is a million viewers can watch my life online, again and again. So the character in this movie knows you are watching him in this moive and he can know the pass and future, that is a bit mind fuck. And maybe this is the point I cannot jump to see my movie ending? Cause movie is movie, it cannot has conciousness to feel you are watching it.
  15. Yes, that is easy to understand. So pass, present, and the future are all exist and happening right now.
  16. I don't actually know about this deeply. I guess: To know or not to know, it just like we use "knowing" to prove our life, and allow the "not knowing" to keep us humble. In short opinion: people chase knowledge is beause to fullfil the desire of wonder, and some of desire is from our monkey mind, so we firm the thing as a name or a process, which to run successfully in our monkey mind. 1. Why he doesnt love me, I wanna know. 2. This machine is so professional, how does it work? So "Not knowing", for me, is a method to make sure I am knowing the things on the right track, and not knowing the things without conciousness. eg. I want to be a good student, then I should learn about schools things. But I met that girl in the class, I should not know about she likes me or not.
  17. You can see their ego, you can feel their problem, and maybe you know how to solve similar things when it happened to you. But what about them, the people you care? 1. When they try to educate you something what they stuck in it, what you gonna do? 2. Will you feel lonely that everyone grows up slower than you with enlightenment, and you have no one to share? 3. They think you are talking about bullshit, but on the same time, they share with you about their personal problems? 4. What if they cannot accept you is because they had been enlightenment, but you are naive? 5.Will you "be yourself"? or pretend like a "group normal people"? For getting rich or have a better relationship? I think you have a better way to merge into collective but keep your own happiness, right? Please Tell me how you think, Thank you.
  18. I think (without Psychedelics helping): 1. read books and do the sport to create more aha moment. (no bullshit, it really works) 2. record all your aha moment in the note, so you can get more. 3. read your note, and find more relevant knowledge. 4. repeat 123 above. What I think Psychedelics doesn't work is because mind only run the knowledge you have, so even you do Psychedelics, then your brain only think and feel faster within your limited experience. Read more books and get more ideas and feel more others experiences are the way that could motivate you to be a better you. Sport is a method that create a lot aha moments while the lazy you come out from your body. The people change their life doesn't need Psychedelics, but Psychedelics does tell people that you act different then you could get a different life. Please collect all your aha moments, because the moment just stay in a sec, but if you take action to write note, it means that you conscious on the direction that you want to get more and deeper aha moments.