Rilles

Meditation and Shadow Work

He is a stage Orange rationalist on 50 grams of mushrooms.

Stage Blue remnants... were still in the Dark Ages when it comes to sex nudity and even emotional intimacy

Absolutely! The sad thing is alot of Chinese are so bought into the dictatorship that the whole collective might have to take a leap for a high-consciousness person to become the leader. There is so much fear that noone wants to rock the boat... you might just disappear in the night. Like Falun Gong members...

You probably have... ”Anxious Preoccupied Attachment – Unlike securely attached couples, people with an anxious attachment tend to be desperate to form a fantasy bond. Instead of feeling real love or trust toward their partner, they often feel emotional hunger. They’re frequently looking to their partner to rescue or complete them. Although they’re seeking a sense of safety and security by clinging to their partner, they take actions that push their partner away.”

China has made quite a huge leap in just a 100 years going from being ”slaves” to the Qing dynasty and then ”slaves” to Mao, Its not a perfect society but they are on their way for sure. They were basically peasants just a 100 years ago.

What would make you worthy?

I sense some female worshipping going on here. Do you feel unworthy of women?

That sounds so hot!

This should be featured, holy moly, amazing work!??

Hahaha this is fatalism at its finest, I really hope you can go back someday and laugh at your own posts

Maybe you repel girls because you dont give enough details about yourself?.

We dont like to go into our feelings because theyre uncomfortable, so no, we couldnt ”just” do that.

I can distract myself away from the feeling by thinking up excuses, instead of going into and feeling it.

Hahahahaha im deaaad

Nothing wrong with it, but it can get in the way when youre trying to do something you enjoy. Just being conscious of why you feel uptight is much better than just trying to ”accept” the feeling and ignoring it. Once you really know why you feel a certain way youll be so aware of its sillyness that youll stop naturally. No forcing needed.

Yep, like someone said, there are probably 50 reasons why you get uptight when someone watches you i want them to like what i do i feel embarrased if i mess up i want to look good etc etc etc think about it this way. do you get uptight when your dog watches you? why not? because you dont seek validation from your dog, so why are you seeking it from other people? just something to contemplate

I dont think twin flame is spiritual per say, i think when you really click its because you subconsciously fulfill eachothers lacking needs, if you had a distant father and your new girlfriend is really intimate with you then you might feel like ”oh she really loves me like noone ever has, this must be ordained from above”

watch this... you might relate

i agree with OP, more embodiment and practical material would be nice, although the latest episode on Authority was quite nice Edit: Todays episode on politics is blowing my mind, awesome Leo

thanks for all the replies... seems this question is veeery deep and might take alot of time to grasp

Can you elaborate? To clarify, I can experience my thoughts but not others thoughts so it seems theyre separate from me or in some other dimension.. idk

thats awesome! know that there might be alot of resitance and fear, also alot of clinging from your parents, unless they support you

so you have to work your ass off to get out of there, im 25 in the same situation (although in a more affluent country) you can do it! i believe in you

I locked my Facebook acccount about 6 months ago. Havent missed it at all.