RendHeaven

lfg bro

Living in Japan has completely changed my relationship to muscle, aesthetics, and gym goals. Growing up in America as a skinny kid, I always felt inadequate and lesser, and like most men, I got into the gym to pack on more muscle to hopefully one day be enough. My starting stats were 5'10 145lbs (178cm 66kg), and until recently, my idealized goal weight was 170lbs (77kg). (+25lbs pure muscle). That's not an unreasonable natty goal. Very doable... if I were willing to sacrifice a large chunk of my life to the gym and have borderline neurotic discipline lol (extreme hard gainer) Over the years I managed to put on +20lbs by hitting the gym daily and eating a massive caloric surplus (lots of beef and rice!) but eventually I hit a plateau around 165lbs (75kg). Though I gained a lot of muscle and really started to fill out my frame, I also gained a bit of fat around my waist (this is expected on any bulk). Furthermore, that last 5lbs push to 170 is beyond the curve of diminishing returns. To get that last 5lbs I would have to hit the gym like a psychopath and eat like a drill sergeant is screaming down my back. So I was already beginning to doubt to what extent 170 would be worth it. But the punchline to all of this is, I arrived in Japan still chasing this mental ideal benchmark of 170lbs, only to realize that the average man my age here is fucking 135lbs (61kg) lmao. At 160lbs+, I am a TITAN here. I'm taller and wider than 95%+ of native Japanese guys I encounter here, even on the streets of major cities. Visually, it's a total mog. But let me tell you, nothing will sober you up to the folly of your gym goals (and the idiocy of chasing western 'chad' ideals) like doing a cold approach in japan, getting brutally blown out despite your above-average body, and then later watching a 60kg lanky twink pretty boy walking a japanese bombshell into a hotel while she giggle and blushes, and you're standing there side eyeing them from afar with your jaw on the floor but hey at least you have your big muscles and your right hand. The real mindfuck was when I began noticing my urge to SLIM DOWN. Yes, for the first time in my life I began feeling TOO BIG, and I started thinking "If I cut down to 155lbs, THAT would be my final form!" But I quickly realized that this is still the same trap, just in the other direction. In America I wanted 170lbs, in Japan I wanted 155lbs, but in both cases I'm just trying to win validation/affection/admiration/social goodie points, etc. And that's when the whole thing came full circle and imploded. I realized this shit is dumb. I'm being dumb. I now go to the gym truly for myself. I go because I ACTUALLY want to go TODAY (and not for some fantasy of a better future). I go because I like the innate reward of fucking doing something with your body (rather than lounging around + atrophy) Same with food. I don't track calories anymore because I don't really have a goal in either direction (I genuinely don't want to get bigger or smaller anymore). I eat my beef and rice until I'm full, and then I stop. At the moment I find myself naturally hovering around 163lbs (74kg) without trying to be any particular weight. Coincidentally, half way between 170lbs (american "ideal") and 155lbs (japanese "ideal"). I'm also slowly recomping. I notice myself losing fat around my waist without scale weight flux. This comes from a combination of intuitive eating + daily gym + long walks, all done for their own sake. I urge you all to double check whether your body goals are actually your own authentic original desire or not

At the moment, not at all. Every other metric is spotless and and my lived experience somehow only gets better and better each passing day. The notion that I "risk getting heart disease down the line" has the same emotional weight as saying I "risk breaking a bone" while going climbing (technically true, but I'm still going to climb! And if I do break a bone, I'm willing to eat shit and course-correct) I am still young, turning 26 this year. So I am aware that the real stress-test is yet to come. Fundamentally I have come to deep acceptance that I am a living personal experiment. I'm genuinely ok with dying earlier, if it means my time here was more enriching. But also, I don't actually expect to die earlier! That's just a contingency scenario, lol I acknowledge this

I am a lifelong musician and music appreciator as well. Music is one of the few things that make me consistently cry. But that's precisely why I leave it out of my trips. For me, there's a lot of identity/comfort/familiarity/attachment involved with music. Not that that's a bad thing, but that I have the specific goal of transcendence and sovereignty while tripping

https://chatgpt.com/share/683ca340-3b44-800f-926c-271d3668fac5 had to push your GPT just a little bit

Nice. Appreciate you playing along! Funny enough, there's yet another wrinkle that Jason would add, which is that store bought ghee is usually oxidized (not many people know this), so unless you're making your own ghee from scratch, he would say to also avoid that and just use coconut oil. Yep, Jason also somehow keeps his LDL under 100 despite not even trying to (given that he's a LDL denier lmao) For me, I haven't had bloodwork done in 2 years now, but last I checked I was at 150 mg/dl LDL-C and 1:1 Tris to HDL both sitting at 60 mg/dl. That test didn't come with ApoB though. I'll get a more comprehensive test done later this year

We generally listen to music to be soothed, comforted, or pleased - i.e. feeling good. Even deeper, it becomes an anchor of sorts and keeps you tethered to the familiar I'm not interested in that when peeling back the layers of consciousness. I want to step into spaces where I usually dare not go. besides, there are plenty of ways to feel good without drugs (and plenty of drugs exclusively for feeling good, if you're into that lol) when it comes to psychedelics, we're here for direct confrontation. Of course, that doesn't preclude music - but if you're doing it right, then the music becomes secondary and auxiliary anyway. the same logic applies for trip sitters. they become an umbilical chord and you never discover real freedom and independence: https://www.actualized.org/insights/no-trip-sitters

Complete silence (literally use ear plugs) Always alone. Usually in my room, though lately I've been more adventurous and out in nature

@aurum Good shit. The GPT is being as PC and nonpartisan as possible but already casts doubt on seed oils and admits to oxidized lipoprotein theory and literally tells you that ghee and coconut oil are more ideal than seed oils. None of this is "new info" per se, but you could say the overton window is shifting. Just a few years ago, the consensus was that canola oil is "probably safer" than something like butter ghee or tallow due to saturated fat concerns. Jason's ONLY claim here is to avoid pro oxidants, boost antioxidants, and prioritize saturated fat over polyunsaturated fat. By logical necessity, the action steps that follow are to eat beef and avoid seed oils (which are polyunsaturated by nature + often preoxidized through excessive heating). run these 4 steps through your GPT discussion and it should overwhelmingly agree, though it might take issue with the absolutist tone and argue that not all PUFAs are bad (true - a minimum intake of dietary omega3 DHA and omega6 AA is critical) I necroposted because the GPT now directly bolsters Jason's claims in this thread, to which you and michael were demanding evidence for 1 year ago. What's different is that if you asked these questions to chatGPT in 2024, it would have told you to be wary of saturated fat

don't do local dealers or random people from clubs. online is most safe and hassle-free

wow what a coincidence, me too! we must both be anomaly outliers @integral

@aurum As of May 2025, ChatGPT explicitly names native LDL-C as benign in the context of chronic disease, and spells out that oxidative stress is the core causative mechanism of atherosclerosis, after cross-referencing the entire collective of known human literature and looking for the most self-consistent explanation. It will also point-blank tell you to stop consuming seed oils if you specify that you want to maximize vitality and longevity. It will do this even if you open a fresh account with no preferences in memory, and use no leading questions. You are, of course, free to be skeptical of AI. Food for thought.

@aurum Ok that was hyperbolic lol, I was echoing Ed's words from 0:26 Practically, I had unholy bloating, farting, IBS, chronic brain fog, fatigue (literally couldn't get out of bed in the morning), acne, eczema (scaly patches of dried, flaky, inflamed, itchy skin on my FACE), became skinnyfat despite attempting an active lifestyle ('attempting' because often I was too much of a zombie to even leave my room), and had to constantly battle cravings for salt and fat And once again - yes I was doing everything 'right': such as varied colorful organic fresh fruit and veggie salad bowls + whole grain oats and rice + tofu and avocado + nuts, nut milks, nut butters + extensive supplementation (B12, iron, pea protein, omega 3 algae, nutritional yeast, blah blah) and many more minor optimizations i'm forgetting. And I tried so hard to always accept responsibility as things were getting worse and worse - I was the first one to consider that I must surely be doing this "wrong." I gaslit myself into thinking that surely veganism works, I'm just not being earnest enough, I just have to make even more adjustments and optimizations. Until one day I said "this is bullshit I want to go back to how I used to feel" and then I ate a fish (desperate attempt to preserve my ethical halo by resorting to pescatarian rather than "regressing" back to selfish full blown meat eater because "fish rank lower in sentience" (wow what an arbitrary judgement)) and immediately half my negative symptoms were gone. That day I learned that I am not a saint. I am a selfish devil and I choose me. But I still wasn't fully myself so I reintroduced eggs. That got me 80% back to original power, but that last 20% was still like a thorn in my side. Eventually I bury veganism/vegetarianism for good and reintroduce chicken and pretty much made a full recovery back to 100%. But then, beyond that, I discovered through @Jason Actualization that I can just stop eating greens and switch chicken to beef and I went up to 200%+ and beyond! (I had a lot of resistance to this at first, for months I grilled him on his reasoning process and lived experience. I grew up with a massive plant-based bias as my Japanese mom raised me on a Mediterranean greens + fish diet (which, all things considered, is blessed)) After 3 years of ditching all greens (+ seed oils!) and eating beef every meal every day: perfect flat stomach never fart, ever perfect gut health & bowel movements mentally the sharpest I've ever been energy in spades. 0 stimulants, perfect sleep perfect skin perfect shredded v-taper physique (yes, training did contribute to this. but there was a 0% chance of this result while I was vegan/vegetarian, given my genetics) ZERO cravings. Literally cheat meal NEVER. (effortlessly!) this cannot be explained by placebo alone. even before going vegan, I was never this aligned. note: this is not necessarily a diet endorsement or prescription for other people. I am NOT shilling for carnivore (I still eat fruit and rice). I'm just sharing how my unique story flies in the face of Ed's propaganda video above.

life is cruel 😂

Yes, but I actually devoutly followed a whole foods balanced veganism by autistically logging all my plant foods on cronometer and making sure all the bars were green. And it still nearly killed me. And eating a primarily meat-based diet not only reversed the damage, but has elevated my health to levels I never believed were possible. So Ed has a point, but also he's in denial of actual anecdotes. "You didn't do real veganism" is a deflection from looking at the hard truth, which is that veganism only works for some people. And furthermore, red meat DOES have genuine benefits. It is NOT a "health fad"

@Leo Gura I see. Still, you must admit there are less epistemic temptations and sirens on 5meo than LSD or NNDMT

Yes, but that doesn't negate, deny, or invalidate Absolute Oneness. You seem to have a bone to pick with an individuated fragment trying to claim solipsism. I agree, that would be wrong. But when the actual Whole claims solipsism, you don't have much room to complain because it is what it is. The problem is, whenever a human reports solipsism, to you it looks like an individuated fragment is talking. So yes, don't believe humans. But also, don't dismiss the possibility of you personally merging with the Whole so thoroughly that you actually fully become it. Maybe that is possible.

Naked And Transparent is seriously impressive. Got more tunes to share? That's my home. Hmu.

For now.

But only because a Solipsistic Singularity renounced its Infinitude and condensed into a handicapped ignorant limited being - you.

Not quite. That's a very appropriate metaphor for the actual process by which observable reality is configured into being. willing into being by imbuing the unreal with realness not ideas yes, that's a natural limit of communication between humans

understandable he could, if you enhance presentation + feminine glow + put yourself out there If he's momentarily real to you, no matter how fleeting, that counts. Stop trying to make him eternally concrete. Fleeting things are the most beautiful. This is somewhat accurate. But the yang could frankly be any guy with the right energy signature (thousands of candidates). He's not special You don't have God's POV right now. Also somewhat accurate. Stop trying to "find your other half." Date for the thrill of polarity and mutual sharing of self expression. Enough with chasing completion. It doesn't sound like you need more Infinity. Embrace the limited, flawed, fleeting, and human. There is real love to be found here.

@decentralized don't want to derail this thread too much so I'll answer in your other thread

Ket is a dissociative that chemically numbs and isolates you. Don't put too much stock into it. Though 'solipsism' is true, it doesn't preclude genuine togetherness and communion amongst humans. You're here to love and share, and that's real while you're here.

there is not even an observer. there's just INFINITY which is CONSCIOUS of itself, not by using "eyes," but by virtue of existing. Insofar as Infinite Consciousness holds together the solidity of this delicate plane of life, individual agents do have their own real experience, yes. But Infinite Consciousness can always liquefy all of this. That's what you call death. When you die, the whole known universe will evaporate with you. But while you're alive, we're real. Our transience gives us beauty and meaning. Try to see the positives of this. I know.