Leo Gura

@Paulo Barbosa A) You must contemplate and investigate the precise nature of your fear. What are you fearing and WHY? B) You must face the fear head-on at some point. Psychedelics are great because they can gradually expose you to your greatest fears in a way that's very difficult to accomplish otherwise. You can try small to medium doses of psychedelics for this. One trip is never enough. You must do repeated trips to overcome these deep, existential fears. Taking huge doses of psychedelics is not ideal. You want to gradually work you way through all your emotional baggage using small to medium doses. Then, AFTER you've done that, you can take a large breakthrough dose, and you will be ready to fully surrender. This is a training process. You cannot bench press 400lbs on your first attempt. And there is no shortcut to benching 400lbs. You must gradually work your way up to it.

@vanish A) You are basically correct. Except the problem is, how do you get ordinary people to "get there"? Stating the brutal truth is not the same thing as guiding someone to a realization of it. The vast majority of the people are not able to actualize what you are saying because it's too advanced for them. They need a more gradual path. B) 5-MeO-DMT definitely delivers this mindfuck. I have physically died on it. There is absolutely no difference between life and death, and in fact, all I am is just an idea. I was never even born. C) Death is not the end game. There is more to be conscious of, there is more to life. Your vision of this path is narrow and ultimately incomplete. The Absolute doesn't negate the relative realities of life. Actualized.org is not only about enlightenment. We cover many topics here because people have a wide variety of growth needs. D) Contgrats on your awakening. But don't forget, there's probably deeper to go. There are awakenings, then there are Awakenings, and then there are AWAKENINGS, and then there are HOLY MOTHER OF FUCKING GOD!!!!!!

The Kriya book explains all that in more detail than I ever could in a video.

Sedona Method is good for that. Also, positive visualizations.

I didn't overcome it. I just don't focus on it. BTW, physical pain is a conceptual construct of the mind and can be deconstructed with sufficient mindfulness. Fear is only something that comes up if you are actively thinking about the future. If you are 100% present, there actually cannot be fear. There can be pain, but no fear. Fear is always a conceptualization of the future. You just need to practice surrendering more. Why are you expecting it to happens within a few tries? Just try more. You can also deprogram stories by contemplating why they exist, what purpose are they serving? Apply consciousness to the issue. Why is this such a big deal for you? Really get to the bottom of it. ------- You can also attempt to apply unconditional love to this problem. Love the fear and pain to death. Love yourself enough to allow yourself to take the leap of the faith and fully surrender to God's infinite intelligence. Don't try to use your little ego-mind to figure out the universe. It goes WAY beyond that. You must let the universe wash over you. To do that, you must accept whatever the cost may be.

Yeah... it's gonna be hard to be a fascist on mushrooms, lol. The trick will be getting a fascist to actually try one.

A) Kriya yoga is specifically designed to raise kundalini gradually and safely. B) All spiritual techniques come with risks. You can have a kundalini awakening from self-inquiry, etc. C) I have another book on the book list about kundalini, its dangers, and how to avoid them. Do a ctrl+F search in the book list for for "kundalini". Read that book too if you're gonna do yoga.

@Samuel Garcia That's you resisting reality. You cannot become fully enlightened without surrendering yourself to reality. The notion of "evil" must die. And for that to happen, you (the ego) must die. You haven't gone deeply enough into the truth of No-Self yet. You are unable to love evil because ego is unable to love evil. The only option is surrender that ego, which is what you're still resisting. More trips are necessary to clear this up. Or whatever other spiritual techniques you want to use like self-inquiry/meditation/yoga. But regardless of the method, you (the ego) must die.

You are the one creating these definitions.

Sounds like you care too much what other people think of you. What does it matter what your facial expressions are when you are tripping?? A lot weirder shit is gonna happen than that. You should be focused on contemplating the nature of reality, not how you look.

@Fountainbleu No one can answer that for you. You have a unique situation which is part of your unique spiritual path. There's no reason to assume that becoming more aware of the Truth will harm you physically. Although any serious spiritual path will churn up psychological trauma and emotional baggage, which can be stressful and painful to deal with, regardless of who you are or what your health. If you sustained brain injury, I highly recommend you research and start doing neurofeedback brain training. See the book about brain training in my book list in the Brain category. It might revolutionize your life. Neurofeedback brain training is especially effective for brain injury. I also highly recommend you visit Dr Amen's brain clinics. He's an expert in reversing brain injury. They can do advanced scans of your brain and tell you what the problem areas and how to train to fix them. https://www.amenclinics.com Brain injury is something to take very seriously, and it's worth investing your time and money to fix it. The great thing about the brain is that it can be healed and repaired remarkably well. Neurofeedback brain training can bring a brain out of a coma.

Back to the self-inquiry salt mines!

@completegraph Your dose was too high. Drop it down to 20mg. The point is to become conscious of the truth, not to barely recollect it after the fact.

Nope. There's an odd sensation for about 20 minutes which goes away and seems to be harmless. Certainly less burn than sorting it. Nope

Nothing odd about it at all. It's simple and effective. Medicine is commonly taken up the butt. It's smooth, gentle, and consistent. It's hard to screw it up, compared to vaping or snorting. You'd want some experience with easier psychedelics first, and at low doses. The longer and smoother the trip, the better. The whole point here is understanding, contemplation, and integration. A 5 minute blast into hyperscape is just not going to integrate well. If there was a way to make 5-MeO last 10 hours, that would be the ideal. Also, you want to minimize the potential for bad trips and trauma. Blasting your brain with smoked 5-MeO isn't ideal. Rectal doses are still extremely potent and deep, beyond what most people can handle.

@Vladimir You are misunderstanding enlightenment. All fear is illusion. You will realize this after you die. You are still clinging to "not suffering". But there can only be suffering so long as you're a you. It's like you're shooting yourself in the foot. A great relief comes when you realize you never existed as a human. Maybe use a psychedelic to get this fear out of your system. Psychedelics are great at pushing you into ego-death. The only way to conquer this fear of death is to face it head-on and actually die (without harming your body). There can be on enlightenment without conquering the fear of death. That is literally what enlightenment is. So start facing up to it as soon as possible. And while you're at it, surrender yourself to the fact that you -- as God -- may indeed experienced every bit of suffering in the entire universe. Along with all the joy. And be okay with that. That is maturity. Let that humble you. You cannot be enlightened while fearing suffering/pain and only wanting joy -- that would be unenlightenment/ the survival paradigm.

@Sukhpaal What if, what if... and what if you get run over by a bus tomorrow? So what? There are no guarantees in life. You just do the best you can. If you care about it so much, put your money where your mouth is and make it happen. And it will happen. Sounds like what you're more afraid of is doing the actual work, thus all this distraction. What you're really afraid of is not unenlightenment, but enlightenment!

Only an unenlightened person would write what Nietzsche wrote. It's quite obvious once you experience a deep enlightenment.

@grrmz Maybe part of your path is to burn through some karma with this love interest? Get it out of your system and learn your lesson. Craving and temptation will arise over and over again on any spiritual path.

Labeling does not enforce any hierarchy. Every sensation stands on its own. All that labeling does is help you discriminate between different kinds of sensations. The labels don't even have an "inner" or "outer" component. Because of course inner/outer is a false duality. When we say inner sights vs outer sights, that's just for convenience, to help you focus on certain domain of sensations like those comprising your mind vs those comprising the "external world". Of course all these dualities will ultimately collapse. The labels are just a pragmatic aid for mindfulness practice. Don't confuse them with being a metaphysical description of reality.

Not even close.

I would like to make a correction. I found out yesterday that my scale was weighing the 5-MeO-DMT wrong. An effective rectal dose isn't 10mg, but more like 20mg. 20mg gives me a pretty deep trip. 24mg is Absolute Infinity for me. Also I learned that 5-MeO-DMT is apparently legal to purchase in Canada. Hooray for Canada! There is also an analogue called 5-MeO-MET which is supposed to be very similar to 5-MeO-DMT, although I have not verified this yet myself. There is also 5-MeO-DALT, which I know even less about, but might be an interesting alternative. My current experience says that 5-MeO-DMT is hands down the best psychedelic for nonduality work. It just blows everything else out of the water. If you can access it, it's really the only one you need. Its clarity is unrivaled. Other psychedelics can be profound and interesting, but 5-MeO-DMT is pure awakening. I have experienced levels of awakening on it so deep that I seriously doubt most enlightenment teachers have accessed such levels of awakening. At these levels, you just become God itself to the point where you cannot even understand how you ever believed you were a human being or that you were even born into the 21th century. I awoken so deep on it I forgot I was born. I forgot there was a past or future. Rectal method is by far the best way to take 5-MeO-DMT. And the sad part is, almost nobody knows about it.

A) You're free to date whoever you want, however you want. How you relate to people is almost entirely dependent on your level of consciousness. B) Stage Green is a certain level of consciousness. You will have to surrender some ego to move into Stage Green. Then you will realize Green is a step above Orange but still has limitations. So you will have to surrender some more ego to move into Yellow. And so on. If you're demonizing any of the stages, you're missing the point, and you certainly will have to drop those demonizations and judgments to evolve to higher stages. Watch out about getting tribal or ideological about all these groups: men, women, academics, postmodernists, feminists, PUAs, liberal, conservative, etc. All of those groups are trap. C) Be careful with over-identifying with Stage Green as you might see it on TV, etc. The key is to read the level's description in the Spiral Dynamics diagrams, and then ask yourself, "Okay, what do I need to do to embody that?" Moving up Spiral Dynamics is not about joining a group or a movement. It's about becoming personally more conscious. Whatever other people are doing, just ignore it and focus on setting your own consciousness straight.

What your ego interprets as anti-male and anti-free speech is really just compassion and concern for beings and perspectives beyond your own. Which to you looks anti-male because the only way you know how to be a male is by grabbing at things in a crude way. Start noticing that your perspective is just one perspective, and that your male agenda is just one agenda. How would you interact with the opposite sex if you actually cared about her well-being? If she wasn't just a means to an end for you? Rather than looking at the world through the lens of: How do I evolve MYSELF? How do I get my male agenda satisfied? Try looking at the world through the lens of: We're all one community, how do I participate in this community in a caring manner? How can I authentically love all people more? How would I act if I didn't see males/females at all, but just people? See, the problem with the pickup paradigm is that it's too much about getting YOUR needs met. That's because people get into pickup for that reason: they are very NEEDY, regardless of how successful or confident they appear on the surface. The most successful PUAs are still extremely needy. Their entire life revolves around getting their needs satisfied. And there's nothing wrong with that, but it's a low level of consciousness. If you are needy, that's okay. That's where you're at. Be honest about your neediness. Don't try to sugarcoat it with stories of consciousness and evolution and being alpha.