Leo Gura

For just $20,000 you can fly a MIG to the edge of space: I was thinking of doing it for the channel.

The I is absolutely everything and nothing. But it is pretending to be located in the body.

There is no you. That's what you're missing. This stuff happening now is not "your life". Ego is usurping appearances to construct "a life." All appearances ARE the self.

Not at all. Totally different stuff. Oxalate is 99% pure 5-MeO-DMT. Toad venom is less than 50% 5-MeO-DMT. The rest is other junk.

There is nothing but appearances and appearances appear to no one. They exist for themselves. So imagine the color red existing without anyone preceiving it. Red exists for itself.

People react to 5-MeO-DMT very differently. In your case I would suggest trying other psychedelics until you find one which suits you and feels good to you. Psychedelics are not supposed to feel like hell every time. They are supposed to feel wonderful. It's important to find the substance which fits you. Maybe after that you can revisit 5-MeO. Some chemicals just don't sit right with your body. The body metabolizes chemicals in different ways. Don't assume that all people are the same. Yes, many psychics have told me that I'm an old soul. Not sure if this plays a role, but it might.

The venom contains toxins which need to be burned away in the vaping process. Sticking a toxin up your ass isn't wise.

It's a mindfuck for sure.

Wrong kind of high

You are inspiring! Keep up the great attitude. Yes it's harder for you there. But it also makes you all the more rare and special.

You're not gonna be able to earn instant money via biz. Freelancing will earn you much less than you imagine. I would look for a reasonable job and develop skills on the side until such time that your skills can provide genuine value to people.

Redneck version of Elon Musk Rocketry should be left to city slickers.

Infinity means there is no beginning or end. Ends are impossible. If you still distinguish between the beginning and end of a thing, you ain't awake.

A litany of example after example of Blue nationalism:

Sigh... You take my words too literally. Please do 2 weeks of solid research before you ever take a psychedelic.

It was outlawed and demonized precisely because it worked.

Great example of stage Blue. Might want to post a vid of that in the Blue Mega-Thread.

Have you considered that your depression is actually a disconnection from being and consciousness? Your pursuit of sober, practical reality is what makes you depressed, because survival is fundamentally hollow and unsatisfying. You are a hamster in a wheel.

Definitely more philosophical. This is the branch of philosophy known as epistemology. It tries to answer the question: How do we know anything at all? Psychology doesn't go as deep. But also philosophy tends to do a lot of mental masturbation on this topic. Learning to accurately distinguish truth from falsehood is the most challenging endeavor the human mind can undertake because it is the linchpin which holds together reality. If you fully understood it, your entire sense of physical reality would collapse and you would experience "death". So very few people accurate get that far. You are not going to reach Truth via university studies. Truth is far too radical for that.

Of course femininity is a division within yourself that you created, so you could be masculine.

@LoveandPurpose You'll have to discover that for yourself. I don't know you. You can enter "undecided" and sample a bit of the courses from each department.

Some perspectives are deeply false and many are partially true. Few perspectives are all-true. Yes, mostly things are very messy and complex. No, there's no simple one true perspective in capitalism.

See my videos: How To Develop Big Picture Understanding And How To Discover What Is True

Oh, that's easy. By holding many contradictory perspectives at once with an open mind. There is a metaphysics and epistemology section. But you will probably find such books too impractical. It seems you want ready-made answers rather than genuine inquiry.