The mountain of hope Kedarnath Sanatan Dharma

[Buck Edwards]

Shiva is my name, Shiva is my dharma, Shiva is my pride, Shiva is my soul. Shiva let me come to you in devotion. Let me seek you. You are the lord my god. 

[Buck Edwards]

I can't live without Shiva anymore. 

[Buck Edwards]

I am addicted to Shiva now. 

[Buck Edwards]

A lot of spiritual bypassing 

Stubbornness 

Rounding off 

Egotism 

Preaching 

Zero embodiment 

Stuck in their own ego 

Nihilistic 

Druggie

Neuro divergent 

Pretentiousness 

[Buck Edwards]

I'll never know. 

[Buck Edwards]

At least I learned that in a dysfunctional mental state you end up making dysfunctional decisions or end up inviting dysfunctional people into your life. 

[Buck Edwards]

I fell for a Neuro divergent Druggie. Guess. 

[Buck Edwards]

I'm not a Neuro typical either myself. 

What will I know? 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I don't judge anything as good or bad anymore. It's hard to do anyway. 

 

That's why I'm more interested in occult now. 

I just don't judge it. 

I want to know how it could be used for good things to shape my life. 

[Buck Edwards]

Last night I went out naked to get a glimpse of the moon on the occasion of guru purnima. 

And... No moon. Just nothing. 

Quite upsetting. I was expecting a full moon.

Anyway. 

 

 

[Buck Edwards]

By the way it was too cold and breezy. I immediately and my naked body was freezing. I immediately rushed home. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

On the occasion of the 4th of July, now everyone is gonna have a holiday. I wonder when my sis comes back. Desperate for my family reunion

 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I am not that knowledgeable. It doesn't make me a bad person. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I slept well and hopefully I'll be more focused today. 

[Buck Edwards]

[Buck Edwards]

Shiva is my wife, shiva is my husband. Shiva is everything. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

If you really care about me, then you need to do these things for me - 

1. Pretend that everything is normal 
2. Keep your presence around me without being triggered 
3. Act like everything is going fine in your life, so I don't have to worry excessively. 
4. Always be around so I'm not depressed. 

 

That's all I ask of you. Only then I'm going to heal. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I need money. I'm in deep financial stress. 

 

 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I'm very ill. Don't use anything against me. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

Dude I was drunk and clicking everywhere. Don't mind me.