The mountain of hope Kedarnath Sanatan Dharma

[Buck Edwards]

Smbali.. 

I know I did well. Two words appeared to me during contemplations. 

Malaga and Smbali. 

Clock reset 

23 hours - 8. Left - 10.

Reclock - happens in 2 hours. 

12.am

I slept off but  I'm okay with the nature of things. 

I just don't want to pressure myself. It can be anything literally. These days the focus has to be me and finally returning to myself. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

Lmao God gave me permission to follow him. What more do I want? 

It's time for my samadhi too. 

 

I'm just a bit confused. 

 

I have to constantly remind myself about kundalini awakening. 

 

Yea that's where my main focus is 

Yesterday I was reading about Ramana Maharshi. 

I felt the light. 

Everything is defined by hard work and concentration. Almost everything. 

And what's the antidote to hate? 

The answer is indifference and concentration. Just doing what you're good at and praying your survival. You can survive even in the midst of all the sourness and obstacles life brings to you.

 

But still life is damn hard and I want peace 

 

 

 

Just the face of Sadhguru and I feel calm already.. 

 

Potent Sadhguru effects. 

[Buck Edwards]

I wanted to explore Aghori. It's not all bad. But I doubt I will ever meet them on my way to Kedarnath. 

I'm too scared to meet them. 

But I might learn something. 

I think I mentioned Aghori baba in spiritual scholars list. 

I think I was too.scared to include Aghori on the list of spiritual scholars because they carry a questionable reputation. But they exist in my private scholars list. Maybe in the future I will gain something from them. I have practiced occult before but only for good things. And I like the idea of mysticism. 

The Aghori are mainly about death. I find that transition fascinating.

[Buck Edwards]

I wanted to elaborate on a new thing I'm working on. And I call it intrinsic change. Intrinsic change meaning change from within. Not a superficial change where you simply use a temporary solution to fix your worries, but simply changing the fundamental way you think and perceive everything around you and let this change influence your course of action and decision. 

There's nothing that needs to be known, seen or heard.

[Buck Edwards]