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[Soul Flight]

You could subscribe to the view that there is only 1 consciousness or awareness. Reduce all dualities to a unity. It is god or love or the universe or whatever. All matter and all of everything is the 1 awareness. There is no good or evil. There is no torture. It is all the yin yang symbol of the two black and white fishes which is the duality which can be reduced to a unity. So you are god and  you are the unity and we will all be together in the unity. You are correct. There is infinite time and infinite torture. But just like yin and yang, there is infinite love and infinite healing. Accept your dharma and enjoy your life. Life is a joke which is meant to be laughed at. 

It is not your dharma to be horrified. So eat healthy, drink water, exercise, sleep, take a break from drugs, get off the internet, avoid deep thoughts and avoid these types of forums, and be grateful to be here. The glass can be half empty or half full. You are choosing to see it as half empty.