awake&aware: on dreams and emotions

[Judy2]

this morning, i feel a little better. it won't last, but it's also good to remember that i keep coming back to this state, just as i keep coming back to the unhappiness. 

a few days ago, i started taking my gratitude journal a little more seriously again, and while this can easily be yet another thing that i do only to improve myself, perhaps it's still worth it, and it's a valid way of looking after myself - so i'll keep doing that for the next few months.

a gratitude journal won't make me happy, but not writing down gratitudes will not make me happy, either. so i believe i've got nothing to lose, and it is true that this sort of thing can have an impact on the mind/brain. 

Edited 13 hours ago by Judy2

[Judy2]

i feel dizzy from wearing headphones all the time...but it's not exactly safe when i take them off - not even in my own apartment, not even when i go to sleep, because i hear my neighbour stomping on the ground. when i fall asleep in the evening, i usually wake up again because i hear his steps...despite the fact that i started double-stacking noise cancelling headphones. 

i hate this, it makes me so uncomfortable and i feel so unsafe. 

[Judy2]