Expression of Sincerity

[Sincerity]

The comfort of truth you can always re-verify

Solipsism is the case.* I’ve became conscious of it enough times to know it.

It’s so beautiful when you don’t need to worry about defending a truth. Because you can always start with a beginner’s mind, and when you get to a truth again and again, then you know that you can trust it. It’s such a relief.

„What if I’m deluding myself? How do I know X is true? Oh, wait… I don’t need to be attached to any belief. I can always start from scratch. And whatever will arise from my unprejudiced consciousness, that will be truth. I can relax. I am safe.”

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* But there’s more.

[Sincerity]

Last week I was on a 7-day trip to a coastal city I possibly want to move to starting May.

The trip was a success. I averaged 17K+ steps per day and got to check out all the places I was interested in. There was a lot of beauty and I enjoyed myself.

I have competing visions for what I want my life to be starting May. I’m not sure whether I want to rent just a room (to save more money) or a whole apartment for myself (ideally to go more monk-mode). There’s a lot of factors involved. Ultimately, I will just follow my intuition, but before that the goal has been to intake a lot of information and think things through as much as I can. The whole trip last week was about information intake - checking out the locations, understanding how I feel, imagining how daily life would actually look like for me there, etc.

At times I was thinking about the relationship with my ex. Bad memories were coming up. I still have a love for that woman though.

When I came back, we were fucking like rabbits. Yeah, we still have sex, but the decision to separate is not reversible at this point and we’re both aware of that. Still, the sex is amazing and we both enjoy it.

[Sincerity]

Vibin' to this lately.

I noticed that these days I don't really have "bad days". Yesterday I was laying in bed most of the time, little energy to do anything. But it was okay. I accepted it and let it be. Then, closer to the evening, more energy arose to do things. I shaved, prepared food for the next few days, did my daily practice, cleaned up a bit. And today I was on fire - did my work, went to the gym, read a book, did my practice, talked to my dad over the phone for 40 mins (and it was nice!)...

It's like the love that I am, broadened. I'm slightly more accepting of what arises. It's nice.

I must simply follow energy where it is. Insistence on anything else is futile.

And when energy is difficult to be heard, become silent.

Edited February 23 by Sincerity

[Sincerity]

You should awaken NOW!

Edited February 24 by Sincerity

[Sincerity]

When asking existential questions, turn them on yourself. The answers relate to YOU. Always.

• What is God? -> What am I?
• Why is there something rather than nothing? -> Why do I exist?
• Why is reality the way that it is? -> Why am I this specific way?
• What is love? -> Am I love?
• Etc.

[Sincerity]

I've been playing Mewgenics a lot in the last month. It's a great game.

The OST is out of this world. So many catchy pieces with ridiculous lyrics. I love it.

[Sincerity]

Tangible changes are approaching. Moving elsewhere at the end of April. Will no longer have a daily companion in the form of my ex.

Going on a 1-day trip to another city on Sunday. Rent prices are low there.

I've been expressing my views more on the forum lately. I'm happy with that.

I had a surge of energy in the last days to do things in my life. I did quite a lot. Now I feel lower energy since yesterday evening. I'm fine either way.

[Sincerity]

I sense that the next huge chapter for me energetically is becoming a professional creator.

A professional. A creator. A warrior in expression. A teacher. On a mission. Focused. Resilient. Prepared for resistance. Strategic. Determined. Wanting it with all my heart. For its own sake.

This is a life-long plan. I anticipate it will take a lot of work and time to get started, since I'm far from being that right now. Change is hard. There will be setbacks. Basically, it will be a long process, since it's my whole life we're talking about.

For context, this isn't something I just thought about today. I've been becoming more conscious of this for months now. And I've been vaguely sensing it for years. I simply see that this is where my development lies. What I'm lacking & what I want in my dreams.

I get the feeling that everything in my life so far has been me just catching up. I'm especially thinking about my developments in love. I've discovered love early in my life and it's been guiding me since that time. I've been growing in that love and looking at these results so far, they are absolutely beautiful. I'm not done by any means, I still have a lot of development there to go through, but I feel like it's just happening automatically - again, me just catching up. Just growing in love constantly without trying much.

By results I mean: me becoming much more loving towards other people and myself. Having a love at the center of me that is guiding my actions to a large extent. The breakup with my ex in the last months has been a good test of this - I've been passing this test lovingly. Me fixing relationships with my parents and making them more loving. Me having a good love-based relationship with my best friend. But most importantly, being ever more loving towards myself - letting things happen, loving what is, not forcing things desperately, appreciating life more. Following my highest viable energy in the moment is love-based - the main lesson from my 1-2 year pursuit of understanding the energy domain. I feel a lot more love, joy and peace in life than before. I'm much confident in my actions and things I say when they're love-based. Basically, I'm happier - and again, I'm still not done by any means. There's still more love to discover in myself. But it's being done "automatically".

So the love is quite natural to me. It feels like something I know (and absolutely love). But the professional creator thing is foreign. I don't know it. And so I'm very interested to go in that direction.

The breakup with my ex this year has felt to me like a transition. Starting on this new road now. Venturing into the unknown. Really starting living - no longer just catching up. Discovering new things about myself.

I've been realizing that maybe I don't necessarily want a wife and kids, for example. These lessons of love, commitment, providing yet again. Maybe it's boring to me. Maybe I want a more solitary, autonomous life and being a life-long creator on a divine mission. Maybe I want to sacrifice everything for endless creating and growth of consciousness and understanding.

Feels exciting.

* * * * *

I recommend the books The War of Art and Do The Work by Steven Pressfield. His descriptions of what it takes to be a professional (+ the workings of Resistance and the overall creative process) have inspired me a lot.

Also, for clarity, I've been doing some tangible things already regarding professional creation. But I don't want to share now. The gist is: I already have a sense of what I want to be doing. I've been experimenting quite a bit in the last months and more. All it takes now is do the work, be the professional I want to be.

It's just difficult as fuck!  But it's alright. I'll get there eventually.

Edited March 28 by Sincerity

[Sincerity]

On 3/28/2026 at 5:32 PM, Sincerity said:

The breakup with my ex in the last months has been a good test of this - I've been passing this test lovingly.

Just kidding. The last 3 weeks have been like:

I jinxed it. Fuck me. 🥲

Desperation, paranoia, delusion, hysteria. I don't want to go into detail now but it's been ugly. A lot has happened and I'm slowly recovering.

[Sincerity]

You blew it.

[Sincerity]

I'm proud to finally share something I've been working on for a while now... My own website/blog! 😃 Here it is: https://www.adamwhy.com/

Adam Why is a pen name that came to me over a year ago. It doesn't have any deeper meaning.

There's 68 posts on the blog right now, one for each day starting April. I'm mostly covering topics such as Steerage, the energetic domain, love, masculinity and living with a sense of lightness, excitement, compassion, hope - all that good stuff. Here are my top 5 favourite posts:

• Enter the State You Want to Be In Now
• Accept Reality and It Might Change
• Have a Genuine Interest in Reality
• There Is Always a Third Way
• Energies Are False Idols

It's a passion project and a step towards being a professional creator, for its own sake:

On 3/28/2026 at 5:32 PM, Sincerity said:

I sense that the next huge chapter for me energetically is becoming a professional creator.

A professional. A creator. A warrior in expression. A teacher. On a mission. Focused. Resilient. Prepared for resistance. Strategic. Determined. Wanting it with all my heart. For its own sake.

This is a life-long plan. I anticipate it will take a lot of work and time to get started, since I'm far from being that right now. Change is hard. There will be setbacks. Basically, it will be a long process, since it's my whole life we're talking about.

For context, this isn't something I just thought about today. I've been becoming more conscious of this for months now. And I've been vaguely sensing it for years. I simply see that this is where my development lies. What I'm lacking & what I want in my dreams.

I don't expect anything from it. It's a fucking internet blog in 2026.  Again, I'm just starting on the path of being a creator in life. I want to live out this energy and a personal blog is a first step towards that in my eyes. I want to have a solid base before I proceed to something more ambitious in the future.

The site isn't very complex. I didn't care to create an About page yet, for example. My main goal was to start creating ASAP - while also juggling other things in my life at the same time. I'll be adding more to the site in the future.

If you have any feedback, you can definitely let me know.  Oh, and AI was never used in the making of these posts. So dumb that I even have to point it out lol.

[Yimpa]

@Sincerity Congratulations! I love the font and simplicity 

[Sincerity]

14 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

@Sincerity Congratulations! I love the font and simplicity 

Thank you!  Yes, simplicity was one of the main goals. I really like blogs like this.

[UnbornTao]

@Sincerity Looking good!

[Sincerity]

Life update.

Focusing on 4 things in life right now:

1. Working out. Going to the gym like ~3x/week, cycling, etc.. I've been seeing gains, which is nice!
2. Upskilling. I'm learning new things for data science (the field I'm working in), which actually interests me quite a bit. I'm reading my causal inference book regularly.
3. Working on my blog. Writing new posts, rewriting old ones, occasionally working on the site. Advancing the energy of being a creator.
4. Talking to girls. This one's been tricky, lol. But I'm making progress. I want to go on some dates and meet a new long-term partner eventually. 

Besides this, I'm of course working at my day job. And all the time I'm processing the shit that arises from within me. The last 3 months have been really, really difficult. Prolly the most difficult in my life so far - which isn't much, I deem, but still...

I'm living in a new place since May. Renting a room in a flat with 2 other roommates, living in Warsaw still. I can't lie, my room is fucking awesome. I got very lucky - it's in a really good price, it's very big (16m^2) and tastefully furnished. The place is in a great location, the kitchen and bathroom are also fine, my roommates are cool... what to complain about?! Luckiest man in the world, haha.

I'm quite content with what I'm doing in life right now. I've been making good progress on many fronts. I'm really happy with the energies that are developing.

I find that I can't be bothered to spare time on some things. Like, in an alternate world I'd love to play some Mewgenics which I haven't done in a loooong time. Or I'd love to argue with you about whether this place is a cult or not. But when the fuck do I find the time? Like, I'd have to sacrifice some of my 4 points of focus above (for multiple hours at least) in favour of this shit energy of arguing on the internet or being engrossed in a video game. I wish I had access to a pocket dimension where time doesn't pass - maybe then I'd actually go for these. But yeah, I can't. (Thinking over and writing out multiple responses to posts from that one thread would seriously take hours (at least for me). Like honestly, I'd have to be fucking insane to engage in it lol. I admit, at some point I really wanted to, but I stopped myself haha. How do YOU find the time?!)

I got closer to my sister in these last months. She's been supporting me in this time at many points, which I really appreciate. The truth is that a fair bit of my attention and intent for closeness was freed up once I stopped having a gf, and so as a result more emotional closeness ensued in the relationship with my sister. I have no doubt that when I get a new gf, I'll be a bit less close with my sister again. It's like my tank for energy of closeness is capped. But it's nothing unusual, right? When she gets herself a bf, I'm sure the same will happen from her side. You only have so much attention.

I love my sister. I have no doubt she'll be my #1 relationship (or #2 with the exception of wife) overall in life. I'm grateful to have her. With relationships like these, you gotta take care of them. Being her older brother I've always done that of course, it's just that when I'm in a romantic relationship there's less attention on it. But she's still important to me, and always has been.

My parents have been supportive as well. I go visit my family once per week on average (sister still lives with them). It's nice.

@UnbornTao Thanks!!

Edited 3 hours ago by Sincerity

[zurew]

@Sincerity We see certain things differently and we disagree on things.

I  saw that you gave some warning points to Thoughtart for the way he responded to me.

I dont think that was necessary (but my opinion doesnt matter on that), what matters is that my read on you and on your character wasnt accurate. (it seems to be the case, that even though we had a relatively bad last interaction, given your ethics surrounding moderation -  you managed to stay consistent with that and you moderated the way you felt necessary).

Good luck with your goals!

[Sincerity]

@zurew Thanks man. Good luck to you with your goals too.