Emotions part 2

[Preety_India]

New entry. 

Take stuff from old journals. 

 

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Updates

Update 1 December 23 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Update 2 December 23 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Update 3 December 23 

 

 

 

Edited December 23, 2021 by Preety_India

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Update 2 December 25 

I need to kinda fast track my stuff. Sometimes I feel like time is running out on me. I either do stuff or face consequences. I'm trying so hard to get away from my mom. It's now or never. 

 

Update 3 December 25 

 

 

Update 4  December 25 

 

 

Update 5  December 25 

 

 

 

Edited December 24, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

Update December 25

I'm still feeling a bit drained. It's 5 am now. 

 

 

Edited December 25, 2021 by Preety_India

[Marcel]

4 hours ago, Preety_India said:

 

Update 2 December 25 

I need to kinda fast track my stuff. Sometimes I feel like time is running out on me. I either do stuff or face consequences. I'm trying so hard to get away from my mom. It's now or never. 

 

I am so happy and grateful now that my wonderful gorgoues giggly wiggly birdy goth bride is achieving everything she does effortlessly and has gotten away from her mom without hassle or difficulty. 

*Sends loving prayers, affirmations and encouragement through time and space 

I wish I could do more. I believe you in. You got this. Everything will be okay. I am proud of you. *Kuss. I love you eternally Hannu bun 

[Preety_India]

19 hours ago, Marcel said:

I am so happy and grateful now that my wonderful gorgoues giggly wiggly birdy goth bride is achieving everything she does effortlessly and has gotten away from her mom without hassle or difficulty. 

*Sends loving prayers, affirmations and encouragement through time and space 

I wish I could do more. I believe you in. You got this. Everything will be okay. I am proud of you. *Kuss. I love you eternally Hannu bun 

Kuss kuss. I guess I need all of that. 

*gladly and greedily takes everything she can. 

 

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Update 4 December 26 

 

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[Preety_India]

@Marcel

(made a cute post for you) 

If you don't feed me mango ice-cream, then I'm gonna land an aeroplane on your forehead,because it's that big. Omg. (laughs and giggles). 

 

 

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Edited December 26, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

Update 5 December 26

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[Marcel]

@Preety_India

*Feeds you mango Ice ? cream and prepares my forehead airport lol

[Preety_India]

3 minutes ago, Marcel said:

@Preety_India

*Feeds you mango Ice ? cream and prepares my forehead airport lol

@Marcel Lmao 

Aww. So sweet of you. 

 

 

Hun, your forehead is so beautiful, my wonderful Prince Charming. I wanna lose myself into your deep blue eyes. 

lub lub. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Update 1 December 27

 

How do i feel now? 

 

Edited December 27, 2021 by Preety_India

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Update 2 December 27 

I feel a bit unstable and light headed. 

I'm feeling feverish and chills. 

It's like my brain is not even working. 

 

[Preety_India]

My nose is getting stuffy and runny. I just feel so uncomfortable. 

I haven't slept well. It's like my brain is on steroids. 

Probably because of the high temperature. 

I just feel awful. 

 

[Preety_India]

My mom is feeling better already. 

So this must not be Covid. 

Just regular flu maybe. 

She had a high temperature a few days ago. 

 

[Preety_India]

Right now I don't want to go to the hospital unless it's an emergency. 

The country is looking forward to a second lock down on Omicron fears. 

They say Omicron is mild.

 

Now who knows what. 

 

I just feel so scaredy. 

I don't wanna go anywhere. 

My nose feels something something and then becomes alright and then acts funny again and then acts alright again. 

I feel like the fever rises and then calms down and then rises again and then calm down again. 

I feel a bit dizzy. 

Morning I couldn't smell anything and I couldn't make out the words I was typing. I kept telling myself that a is a and b is b. It felt like short term memory loss. 

Temporary Loss of cognitive function.. 

I couldn't recollect where I was walking or what I was doing. Everything felt like a blurr and a bit disorienting. 

It could be a seasonal cold or flu. 

If it's Covid, I pray God take me, because this life ain't worth it anyway. 

If not Covid, then damn heal me please right now because I wanna jump jump jump and eat a cake for the New Years. 

I'm so excited for the new year. 

I feel maybe good things are on the way. 

 

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I told my mom about Omicron. 

She doesn't want to get vaccinated. She keeps coming up with excuses to not get vaccinated. 

And if I persist (since she is elderly), she throws a tantrum and says she has high sugar and she can't take a vaccine. 

I'm like - oki. 

Now she acts like Covid doesn't exist. She doesn't wear a mask. 

She goes out and talks to people who have had Covid. 

An elderly couple in my apartment have had Covid. They were vaccinated before (laughing inside, to be very frank the people who I heard getting Covid are all vaccinated people lol),.... 

I'm like -" mom, WTF, how can you talk to people who had Covid, that too, without a mask on?" 

She gives me a very dumby reply - 

"Oh no problem, they had Covid, they recovered from it, now they don't have it." 

Then I had to explain her that they're still carriers of the virus and they can transmit it even if they are healed and recovered. 

She still doesn't give a shit. She is like a Trump follower. 

She will be like - muh freedom, muh freedom. 

You simply can't put sense into such people. They are a special kind. They just don't understand basic sense at all. 

Well. I really don't know what to do. 

I'm waiting for this stupid flu to pass. 

 

If it's Covid I'm gonna freak out so bad, I'll start screaming lol. 

If it's Covid and if I recover, then I will feel like the most powerful person in the world, omg natural immunity against a notorious virus. 

 

 

 

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Even right now I feel like eating mango ice cream despite the flu. 

I now this sounds so childish. 

 

But I can hardly resist. 

I feel like eating a lot of sweet stuff. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is the best. 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited December 27, 2021 by Preety_India

[Marcel]

@Preety_India

*Feeds you Cookies and Mango ice cream 

[Marcel]

@Preety_India

6 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I told my mom about Omicron. 

She doesn't want to get vaccinated. She keeps coming up with excuses to not get vaccinated. 

And if I persist (since she is elderly), she throws a tantrum and says she has high sugar and she can't take a vaccine. 

I'm like - oki. 

Now she acts like Covid doesn't exist. She doesn't wear a mask. 

She goes out and talks to people who have had Covid. 

An elderly couple in my apartment have had Covid. They were vaccinated before (laughing inside, to be very frank the people who I heard getting Covid are all vaccinated people lol),.... 

I'm like -" mom, WTF, how can you talk to people who had Covid, that too, without a mask on?" 

She gives me a very dumby reply - 

"Oh no problem, they had Covid, they recovered from it, now they don't have it." 

Then I had to explain her that they're still carriers of the virus and they can transmit it even if they are healed and recovered. 

She still doesn't give a shit. She is like a Trump follower. 

She will be like - muh freedom, muh freedom. 

You simply can't put sense into such people. They are a special kind. They just don't understand basic sense at all. 

Well. I really don't know what to do. 

I'm waiting for this stupid flu to pass. 

 

If it's Covid I'm gonna freak out so bad, I'll start screaming lol. 

If it's Covid and if I recover, then I will feel like the most powerful person in the world, omg natural immunity against a notorious virus. 

 

 

I swear I don’t know whether I should laugh or be terrified by the way your mom “thinks”  sometimes lol 

I still sometimes can’t believe she actually acts this way, but since I know her it’s undeniable hehe 

I guess you can’t really do anything hun 

I saw some German news articles about Covid Patients that landed in the intensiv care unit and still deny that Covid exists.

So good luck ? 

The mind can be fascinatingly stubborn in its views. I wish I had any good advice on how to deal with a person like that. I wish I could just say “well let them do whatever they want”, but of course it’s not so simple with the whole pandemic and Covid ?