I am tired of this chronic anxiety/worry.

[Giulio Bevilacqua]

I am sick of this shit, I do not know where this patience of going forward is coming from. 
This K energy is breaking me in all ways. 
I feel this massive tension/knot in my lower stomach, it is filled up with worry and anxiety, sometimes it gets very strong pressure. I have tried some many things like microdosing lsd, didn’t felt anything, a Kundalini Healing course with crystals and kind of things. 
I try to be present with the sensation without resisting it or seeing which believes are triggering this shit, feel some relief but there comes a point where it is overwhelmingly strong and loose hope. It’s a loop of worry. Feeling of worry > tension> more tension about the tension>fear that this will not pass>more fear about the tension that is growing and so on. 
 

The body wants to release this trough a whirling movement in a crazy speed. I am just searching for an alternative way but worrying that there is no one and this creates more fear..

I do not know how to get out of this hell 

 

[Gili Trawangan]

Have you tried meditation?

I find that it works wonders for anxiety, the more time you put in the better.