Comprehending right NOW

[Someone here]

6 minutes ago, Tim R said:

Is reality a puzzle or is your mind creating puzzles where there aren't any?

Of course reality is a puzzle. An infinite one. Unsolvable one. 

You told me it's a mystery. 

[Tim R]

3 minutes ago, Someone here said:

You told me it's a mystery. 

Yes! And it is.

But "mystery" is not the same as "puzzle" or "problem" (at least the way I use these words). "Mystery" means groundlessness. Nothing to grasp, because reality is itself and there's nothing beyond what is apparent. 

All I can say is "this is it." And the only question is whether you understand that there's nothing to "understand". 

To know reality is simply to be reality. And you are it already, so you already know yourself intimately. 

But by all means, go ahead and try if you can solve "now"

[Someone here]

@Tim R I place high value on understanding. Because I don't trust the universe. I don't have faith that I'm protected and "everything will be OK" in the end. So I try to supplement that by more "figuring out". At least now I have understanding. I can't accept that I have neither faith not understanding of reality. 

[Tim R]

@Someone here

6 minutes ago, Someone here said:

I can't accept that I have neither faith not understanding of reality. 

But isn't that what makes you suffer? Mistrust in reality? And the desire to "conquer" it with your mind? That way you only separate yourself from the universe and of course you can't build trust that way. 

[Someone here]

I can let go of my helpless attempts at comprehending an incomprehensible universe if only I can have faith and trust in the universe. Tbh I don't trust the universe at all. And not sure how "to build" that trust