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My dating life!

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I thought that I would stay single... Hmm. 

 

That's awkward that I'm getting feelings again. Ughh. 

 

Yesterday a guy from my local area texted me. He knows me through a friend. I got some butterflies. 

He told me that he wants to meet me.

Im getting scared lol. 

I mean I have seen him before on one occasion. 

I don't know 

It's pandemic and I don't want to go out. 

Maybe I'll tell him to simply chat with me at least till this whole thing is over with. 

 

 


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I have a couple of guys that I'll be dating in the next few months. 

I don't want a relationship so I'll just be dating and going out with them. 

Dinners and everything. 

Of course I like to split the bill, it's a  nice gesture if he pays, but I don't want my stuff to be paid for, so I'll pay for my own orders and things. He can pay his. 

If he takes me out, I'll let him know already that I'll be paying for my own things so I don't want his favors. 

I can be pretty egotistical when it comes to paying money for food or other things. 

I have never taken a single dime from my past boyfriends ever. 

I just don't want to. 

I don't want the whole "boyfriend paying for me" thing. 

I have never done it and will never do it. It goes against my pride. 

But I want to spend good time with guys and their company especially sweet guys. 

And in the past few months after my breakup, some guys approached me who were my old friends. 

One guy approached me at a coffee shop a month ago and he was a stranger and I gave him my number. He called me and texted me and I did not reply. 

I decided to reply yesterday and he instantly responded. 

Looks like he doesn't have a girlfriend. So I can be free to date him. 

I don't want a relationship yet. 

Because I am over it all for good. 

Yet I have still have attraction for men. 

And I would like to go out and spend time with different interested men.

I don't even like to call them men, it sounds archaic, I will call them guys. 

I have an experience of 4 relationships under my belt. 

So i will use this experience to gauge men who are a proper fit with my mentality. 

I'm a sweet person so when it comes to chilling together, I'm no alien.

I like guys a lot. 

I feel intense sexual attraction towards men that is guys. 

 

 


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Posted (edited)

I don't like judgemental type of guys. 

Ew. Gross. 

 

 

.... 

I like this guy. I find him cute and romantic.

 

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I don't why I always feel like someone is always watching me. 

 

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I guess I'm difficult to love 

 

And I think I make it difficult for a guy to love me

 

(the men who love bomb me are the same men who hurt me) 

 

Lets put it that way.... 

 

I guess somehow this is a liberation. Freedom. 

 

Freedom from wanting to be wanted. 

Freedom from "wanting love" 

 

 

 

 

 


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I guess being blinded by love is different from being blindsided by love 

 

I wish I was blinded and not blindsided. 

 


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I've made the decision that I'll only be with men who are sweet to me all the time. 

Only love.. Never anger. 

I only want sweetness flowing through me

 

If I get angry on a date or afterward, I will simply cut off that person. 

 

My anger is good. It's like an indicator button. 

 

And thumb rule to follow - 

Even if there little aggression from the guy making me annoyed, immediately reject. 

No need to put up with male aggression. 

He can find some other girl. 

My self esteem is not his play toy. 

 

 

 

Only true love or nothing. No half heartedness. 

 


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Let's just say I'm a complicated girl. No harm intended 

 

 


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Posted (edited)

Lost a bunch of entries but anyway. 

I have started liking a guy who talks to me occasionally and he looks like this.. 

I call him Shaukat 

 

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I like arrogant punk asshole guys. Yea those types. 

I think this was my last entry in this journal before the forum data fucked up. 

 

 

 


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Then there is Ravi. I didn't talk to him yesterday because I was busy with work. 

But he is sweet and caring. 

Although strict. 

I used to always tell myself that if I fell in love with a guy he should be like a reincarnation of Shiva. 

 

 


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I've been listening to this guy. Lol. Anti feminist apparel. Lolol. 

 


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If I go on a few dates with Shaukat, I would want to visit his family later. 

I don't like guys who hide stuff about their families. 

 


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I remember asking myself this question in this journal. 

Can a man be so powerful that a woman wants nothing except his  dick? 

I don't know the answer. 

 

 

 


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Tumse bichad ke hum kahin nahin jaa sakte. I wanted to say that to Shaukat. 

Shaukat is so funny. 

He keeps me quizzing. 

 


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Posted (edited)

After travelling the whole world, merry go round, I am finally attracted to Indian dude lol. 

 

 

Surprise.. :D

 

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