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I believe in Angels - Closer to my Death

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I believe that Angels exist. 

Angels. 

I don't think I can take it any longer. 

Maybe some angel can take me with them and liberate me from my pain. 

It is difficult. Life is difficult. 

I can't take anymore. And I don't have the courage to commit suicide. 

I feel helpless and trapped. I wish my soul could be set free from this terrible world I was born into. 

I don't find peace. My soul wants to be done with this world for good. 

My soul cannot take the strain of life. 

I wish I could die right now but I can't because I don't know how to off myself. 

I have no way of living in this world of demons and vampires and people who look trustworthy but are actually cunning and manipulative and fake. 

Nobody wants to do shit. 

CALLING ME A DRAMA QUEEN DOESN'T HELP ME. 

CALLING ME ANYTHING DOESN'T HELP ME. 

I'M FED UP WITH FAKE FRIENDS.

I'M FED UP WITH FAKE LOVERS AND FAKE BOYFRIENDS WHO ONLY WANT TO USE ME. 

I'M FED UP WITH FAKE FAMILY MEMBERS. 

I'M FED UP WITH THE DEVIL WHO DESPERATELY WANTS ME DEAD BECAUSE I FEEL HIS PRESENCE LAUGHING AT MY PAIN ALL THE TIME 

 

I'M TIRED OF LIFE.... TIRED OF ALL THE ABUSE. 

 

 

 

 


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I can't buy anymore time. 

 


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39 minutes ago, egoeimai said:

Giiiiirl. I've been Mia lately what's up with you? It'll get better please don't give up ❤️

Yes,,, stay strong and keep positive whatever you can,,,


About Angels,, Concerning Temperance #14 Tarot

Meditations on the Tarot Page 379;

There is what is called in Christian Hermeticism the “freeing of the guardian angel”. The guardian Angel is freed – often in order to be able to acquit new missions—when the soul has acquired the disposition of its part of “likeness” in order to experience the Divine more intimately and more immediately, which corresponds to another hierarchical degree. Then it is an Archangel who replaces the freed guardian Angel. Human beings whose guardian is an Archangel have not only new experiences of the Divine in their inner life, but also, through this very fact, receive a new and objective vocation.


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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Thanks to the people who offer compassion and support. 

 


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I wish I had a golden gate bridge. Because I'm suicidal as well. 

But there is no bridge close to my place. I've been thinking about a bridge for the last 3 years now.. 

All I want to say to you is that hang in there as long as you can 

I can't give much hope because I'm suicidal myself. 

But if my suicidal condition makes you feel less alone in the world, then here I am. 

It might be a consolation to know that you're not alone in this boat. 

 


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Compassion. This is a strange word 

Because there's hardly any. 

 


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The mainstay of my spiritual work now is going to focus on certain aspects 

  1. Channeling 
  2. . Psychic Energy Channel Sign language and communication 
  3. Shadow work 
  4. . Communication and Connection 
  5. . Dear Sacred Angel Letters
  6. . Cosmic Support Chain and Divine network.

 

 


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Should I really believe In the end times 

I feel it's true 

 

Is global suffering on the rise? 

Yes. 

But why.. 

I think because of a lack of godliness. 

Where God ceases to exist there bad karma will abound. 

What about Christianity? 

I haven't yet made a decision on Christianity.. 


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I'm again facing a religious hurdle in 2021 and it's in regard to Christianity. 

 


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You don't realize this. It's not so much about the end time philosophies. 

Your suffering looks miniscule if everyone is suffering. In fact it's another trick that the devil plays. 

Whether the world moves to a better future or not,doesnt matter because the devil is always working in the background to absorb silent victims 

Would it be better if u suffered and the world was moving to a better future? That means I'm simply devaluing and eliminating myself. 

Would it be better if the world was moving to doom and I was suffering? Maybe I'm looking for confirmation bias. 

In each scenario it's not a good place whether it's successful or not if it doesn't accomodate you. How silly of me to think that I should invalidate myself just because I don't fit in. This is what social pressure is all about. Trying to fit in. 

This argument is like if I were to live in palace of the Monarchy and suffering behind golden walls and then asking myself - "am the only one? Isn't the monarchy doing better even without me? “ it doesn't matter if everyone else is celebrating with or without me. What matters is that if I suffer, they shouldn't exclude me and people like me but accomodate people like me so I don't have to suffer. 

Now that's a truly caring supportive and successful system and not a system that only works for conformists and slaves. 

Got it! 

 


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Your suffering is taken more seriously if no one else is suffering unless the people are heartless who don't pay attention to you. And take you for granted for being a minority. 

Only a narcissist would do that right? 

The thing is when nobody suffers, everyone does better both collectively and individually. But this should not mean to take for granted that one person who does suffer. That would be narcissistic and cold. 

But when a lot of people suffer, nobody wins. Can't cherry pick examples of successful people. 

 

It's the count of victims that matters. 

 

 

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The bottom line is - nobody deserves to be discarded and everyone needs to be accomodated. 

But of course you know the Devil and his machinations!!!!! 

 


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Does God care if the victims are 1 or 100. 

For God, every angel is precious. Numbers don't matter. 

Also when it comes to society, some people relate to your suffering whereas others don't. This will always be the case. 

People relating or not relating should not downplay your suffering.

When this sort of a situation occurs, you get two opposing camps. 

A camp of successful people and another camp of sufferers. Both tend to blame each other. Reminds me of the classic battle between liberals and conservatives. 

The camp of victims who generally get shamed. 

And the camp of predators. 

 

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You don't deserve suffering. You don't deserve to be discarded or eliminated. Darwin is a wrong. 

Survival of the fittest is against morality. 

Nobody deserves suffering. 

In fact special care should be extended to those who cannot conform because the goal should be that everyone should be happy and nobody should be left out. 

Right now we are living in a cult. Work or else. 


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The part where we go wrong is where we don't show care. 

We don't make a person feel cared.. 

Now this is what I really wanna say..... 

Whatever be the status quo of the system, regardless of whatever a person should have to feel cared for  and there is no excuse in the whole universe why a person should not have to feel cared for.. 

This should be my signature. 

 

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You forgot about life system preety and tarot cards

 

So we tell a person (when many are suffering) that "you're not the only one. Stop doing drama. There are others worse off than you" and when a person is exclusive in their suffering and is a rare case then we tell the person "oh, it's okay, it's just your own problem. Others don't have this issue.. Society can't equip you in this." 

So we bloody selfish people don't even acknowledge a person's suffering. Rather deny it in whatever form.. 

 

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The above is an excellent example of a Narcissist who plays a double blind mind trick in which the Narcissist neither gives you the option to laugh nor the option to cry. 

We trap the person in both ways. 

Narcissism double blind trap 

 

 


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