Insights, Music, And Chicken Poop

[jjer94]

Howdy,

As more and more of the self-structure is sloughed away like some salami on the chopping block, personal insights and anecdotes keep coming up. For the past year and a half, I've been writing all of them for myself. Now I feel the urge to express it to other bodies. 

Above all, these are insights. Insight = a realization gained from direct experience. I encourage you to take everything that is written here with a grain of salt. Don't just blindly believe what I say. It is very easy to stay stuck in thought-story-land with this forum platform. Please, please, please see if you can connect the words to your direct experience. Inward is the only avenue for growth on the pathless path to enlightenment.

Along with some words, I'll be posting some music that I like whose lyrics are related to enlightenment. 

And, of course, there will be some chicken poop as well. Watch your step! Bok bok!

Cheers,

JJ

[jjer94]

I've lost my mind
And come to my senses,
Come to my senses
Escaped the haze that clouded my vision, clouded my vision
My thoughts were steering me off course,
Off course
But I can see clearly once again,
Once again
My fears are melting
Like water from the ice
As the fire from the sun
Burns bright, burns bright
I feel its warmth upon my skin,
Upon my skin
All my doubts, all my worry, all my hope
They don't haze me anymore
They've been burned up by the sun's violent fire
My desires, all my will, all my want
They don't haze me anymore
They've been burned up by the sun, by the sun
All my thirst, my ambition, and my mind
They don't haze me anymore
They've been swallowed by the sun,
They don't haze me anymore
Nothing is left here in my path
I'm free, I'm free, I'm free...

 

Edited August 9, 2016 by jjer94

[jjer94]

So clear, so lovely,
The peace inside,
This space within my mind.

You will never understand,
How a thought could kill a man,
Until you have to try to see,
The truth inside of everything.

All I know?

We'll never know.
We'll never know.
And if I don’t?
That’s fine with me today.

How strong, how costly,
The urge to fight our fate,
To turn back time.

But life is meant to be consumed,
Not preserved to ward off doom.
Oh one can surely die from fear,
Before the end is ever near.

All I know?

We'll never know.
We'll never know.
And if I don’t?
That’s fine with me today.

Stay down,
A common noun, now.

We'll never know.
We'll never know.
And if I don’t?
That’s fine with me today.

 

 

[jjer94]

Ego is like Boo in the Super Mario games. It haunts you and follows you around, but the moment you look for it, it's no where to be found... 

[jjer94]

Sometimes I don't see what's right in front of me
Yet I keep moving faster trying to find the key
You elude me...

 

 

[jjer94]

the Universe, she’s wounded
she’s got bruises on her feet
I sat down like I always did,
and tried to calm her down

I sent her my warmth and my silence
and all she sends me back is rain . . . rain

the Universe, she’s wounded
but she’s still got infinity ahead of her
she’s still got you and me
and everybody says that she’s beautiful...

the Universe, she’s dancing now
they got her lit up, lit up on the moon
they got stars doing cartwheels, all the nebulas on the tune
and the Universe, she’s whispering so softly I can hear all
the croaking insects, all the taxicabs, all the bum’s spent change
all the boys playing ball in the alleyways
they’re just folds in her dress

the Universe, she’s wounded
but she’s still got infinity ahead of her
she’s still got you and me
and everybody says that she’s beautiful...
and everybody says . . .

 

 

[99th_monkey]

On 8/9/2016 at 7:46 PM, jjer94 said:

Ego is like Boo in the Super Mario games. It haunts you and follows you around, but the moment you look for it, it's no where to be found... 

Nice, lol almost had beer come out of my nose when I read this.

[jjer94]

If You Were the Last Man on Earth

What would you do if you were the last man (or woman) on earth? Assume you have all the food and water to survive for the rest of your life. 

Would you go cliff jumping? Write music? Meditate? Travel? Invent a new product? 

Write down at least five things. If you have more, great!

These things are your authentic desires: your desires without the filter of others' opinions on what you should and shouldn't do, without the filter of wanting attention from others. 

Now ask yourself, why can't I do these things right now? 

By asking yourself this question, you're essentially uncovering all the limiting bullshit thought-stories in your head. These stories are the lifeblood of the fear-based ego. There's no need to change the bullshit; that's just piling on more bullshit. All you have to do is illuminate it. Shine the light of awareness on bullshit. It will dissolve with enough persistence and prime the body to pursue the things that it feels authentically inclined to do. 

Cheers.

[jjer94]

The Fireworks Effect

The Fireworks Effect = Mistaking the possible side effects of a spiritual awakening (bliss, joy, kundalini, extreme constipation, butterflies in the stomach, spontaneous combustion, etc.) for the awakening itself.

Awakening to your true nature or an aspect of it is just a simple recognition. Nothing has changed in your experience; you have only discovered something which is already the case. Your reaction to that simple recognition is unique for every individual. That is why all of the spiritual teachers' stories about their awakenings are so diverse. 

Beware of the Fireworks Effect. Be careful not to waste your time looking for a fleeting experience, expecting that that is the awakening. Many people fall into this trap and use meditation to waste decades of their life trying to relive brief moments of fireworks.

Your true nature is not a fleeting experience. It is that which knows all fleeting experience. And that is about as subtle as it gets. 

Cheers!

[jjer94]

Too blind to know your best
Hurrying through the forks without regrets
Different now, every step feels like a mile
All the lights seem to flash and pass you by

So how's it gonna be
When it all comes down, cycling trivialities

But don't know which way to turn
Every trifle becoming big concerns
All this time you were chasing dreams
Without knowing what you wanted them to mean

So how's it gonna be
When it all comes down, cycling trivialities
So how's it gonna be
When it all comes down, cycling trivialities

Who cares in a hundred years from now
All your small steps, all your shitty clouds
Who cares in a hundred years from now
Who'll remember all the players
Who'll remember all the clowns

So how's it gonna be
When it all comes down, cycling trivialities
So what does this really mean
When it all comes down, cycling trivialities

Cycling trivialities...

 

 

[99th_monkey]

Nice thread :). 

After reading your last post I felt the urge to share, seems to be coming up a lot. 

I am guilty of searching this fleeting experience. I have been expecting fireworks and never got any, had some cool tingly experiences while laying in bed, and when meditating, but that's it, no lights, no out of body experiences, no nothing lol.

But a serious understanding like a fundamental understanding just feels like its been downloaded. Or unlocked, or whatever. 

Its a beautiful thing, 

The mental though process has switched, has aligned with and produces... Different stuff ill call it. 

But dropping the idea of having an experience similar to someone else's disnt produce anything, but an allowing was able to happen, like an entertaining of something was allowed

Cheers bro.

(Sorry for the thread jack)

[jjer94]

@99th_monkey Thanks for sharing! No need to be sorry.

You're on to something... If I could make one suggestion for you? Contemplate the ideas of "outside" and "inside" in your direct experience. What makes your thoughts any more "inside" than the birds chirping outside your window? 

Cheers!

[99th_monkey]

Thanks man, there's seemingly so much to work on, 

 

Good morning, and in case I don't see ya: Good afternoon, good evening, and good night!

 

Edited August 15, 2016 by 99th_monkey
Truman show quote

[jjer94]

Send your dreams
Where nobody hides
Give your tears
To the tide
No time
No time
There's no end
There is no goodbye
Disappear
With the night
No time
No time
No time
No time
No time

 

 

[jjer94]

The Vampire's Code

You know how in the movies, vampires cannot enter into your house without first being invited inside? 

Be like a vampire when it comes to discussing nonduality. Avoid talking about this stuff with friends and family unless they specifically ask you about it. There are lots of sleepwalkers out there that are simply not ready to hear this stuff. It may cause them to lash out in a somnambulistic rage, or in a perverted way, make the "principles" of nonduality somehow fit in their own egoic belief system(s). 

If you do preach nonduality to friends and family, you may want to dig below the surface and experientially grasp why you do it. If you're honest, you may find that you yourself have twisted these teachings into your own belief system, and this is your new way of defining yourself as a separate self. There's nothing wrong with that, if that's the case. Just become aware of it. If you have the urge to talk about nonduality, that's what this forum is for. 

Practice the vampire's code starting today, and save yourself a lot of trouble. 

[jjer94]

Everybody wants to be someone else
Everybody needs to be somewhere else
To fit right in, to be ordinary but not the same
To fit right in, to be ordinary and never change

Everybody started so helpless
Everybody couldn't even, couldn't take what they needed
Whether they know it, whether they don't mind not knowing at all
Whether they know and forgot it, whether they don't mind not knowing at all

Everybody wants to be someone else
And everybody needs to be somewhere else
It's the way you look, the way you talk about things, the way you are
The way you look, the way you talk about things, the way you are

You've got a baby in your belly, baby kill it with fire
In our kingdom of convenience where we sing in the choir
This a conference of our failures, a union of regret
Where we bow beneath the worry for what hasn't happened yet
And all of this will come crashing down

To fit right in, to be ordinary but not the same
To fit right in, to be ordinary and never change

 

 

 

[askdfjnak]

12 hours ago, jjer94 said:

The Vampire's Code

You know how in the movies, vampires cannot enter into your house without first being invited inside? 

Be like a vampire when it comes to discussing nonduality. Avoid talking about this stuff with friends and family unless they specifically ask you about it. There are lots of sleepwalkers out there that are simply not ready to hear this stuff. It may cause them to lash out in a somnambulistic rage, or in a perverted way, make the "principles" of nonduality somehow fit in their own egoic belief system(s). 

If you do preach nonduality to friends and family, you may want to dig below the surface and experientially grasp why you do it. If you're honest, you may find that you yourself have twisted these teachings into your own belief system, and this is your new way of defining yourself as a separate self. There's nothing wrong with that, if that's the case. Just become aware of it. If you have the urge to talk about nonduality, that's what this forum is for. 

Practice the vampire's code starting today, and save yourself a lot of trouble. 

I've developed a similar philosophy, it's a little different but it ties in well with this. I call it "pulling a Stevo".
I'm also passive-aggressively asserting my countries athletic superiority, given the Olympics is now sweeping the globe.

Pulling a Stevo means you basically just letting people do whatever until the flaws of ego start to break down naturally. When that happens be there to plant seeds and provide support passively.

I don't discuss non-duality/spirituality with anyone, but recently I've felt the strong urge to just go out and try to "fix" everybody. 
(obviously still got some work to do )
I've realised that nobody needs to be fixed. They will break down on their own because the ego is fundamentally flawed. I just need to be there to help pick up the pieces if it's needed.
 

 

[jjer94]

@Marc Schinkel Very well said, and that's exactly the case. People will begin to ask you about it precisely when their ego is on the brink!

[jjer94]

There is no outside. There is no inside. You are headless.

There is no here. There is no there. You are boundless.

There is no subject. There is no object. There is only awareness.

There is no something. There is no nothing. There is only what is.

[jjer94]

Walt Grace, desperately hating his old place
Dreamed to discover a new space and buried himself alive
Inside his basement
The tongue on the side of his face meant
He's working away on displacement
And what it would take to survive

'Cause when you're done with this world
You know the next is up to you

And his wife told his kids he was crazy
And his friends said he'd fail if he tried
But with the will to work hard and a library card
He took a homemade, fan blade, one-man submarine ride

That morning the sea was mad and I mean it
Waves as big as he'd seen it deep in his dreams at home
From dry land, he rolled it over to wet sand
Closed the hatch up with one hand
And pedaled off alone

'Cause when you're done with this world
You know the next is up to you

And for once in his life, it was quiet
As he learned how to turn in the tide
And the sky was aflare when he came up for air
In his homemade, fan blade, one-man submarine ride

One evening, when weeks had passed since his leaving
The call she planned on receiving finally made it home
She accepted the news she never expected
The operator connected the call from Tokyo
'Cause when you're done with this world
You know the next is up to you

Now his friends bring him up when they're drinking
At the bar with his name on the side
And they smile when they can, as they speak of the man
Who took a homemade, fan blade, one-man submarine ride