Poetry - God, Existence, Reality, Spirituality, Love

[Highest]

Full circle.

From bad to good boy.

From human to spirit and back to human.

From theist to agnostic, to full consciousness of God.

They say, "Change yourself."

I say, "This is how God created me."

They say, "How do you know God exists."

I say, "I have meet Him."

They say, "Hahahaha."

I say, "Laugh to your very last breath. ?"

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Satan came to me in a dream once and said, "Why don't you go back to your old bad boy days, just enjoy life fully? Take on some black leather jacket, buy some drugs and hookers. "

I said, "I have a soul now."

I have a soul now.

 

I said, I have gone full circle.

 

Full circle.

[Highest]

I remember, when I meet God.

My face turned away.

I couldn’t look.

So Supreme He is.

Breathed His Divine Love into me.

And I wonder now?

Why me? After all the sins I have done?

But I know, I know there are no sins in God's eyes.

And I know, His Love is Absolute.

For I am His very Creation.

I am His child.

 

I am His child.

[Highest]

Praise be to The One.

The Almighty.

The Supreme.

The Good.

The Pure.

The God.

Saviour of my very soul.

When I was in darkness and despair.

None but You, O God, saved my very soul.

When You breathed your Love into me.

And I knew, I fuckings knew, I am loved.

I am loved.

By the Supreme Himself.

I am loved.

 

 

I am loved.

 

 

All glory and praise be to God!

 

The saviour of souls!

[Highest]

I remember, in my darkest of darkest days...

How I, in despair, was ready to jump...

But somehow, in that very moment, my soul told me..."You better jump now or find your way out."

And my spirit couldn't jump.

Nay, my spirit couldn't jump.

I had my loved ones to live for...

I had my loved ones to live for...

Then I meet you, my God.

And You gave me some of Your Supreme Absolute Unconditional Love...

And from that day, I know, Oh I know...

 

It was the very reason I couldn’t jump.

 

It was for that very reason.

[Highest]

It was my very father, the hell he brought to me...

To the point of hating him.

He made me feel unworthy, unloved.

My soul, veiled by darkness.

By darkness.

Drugs, hookers... The only way I could run away, forget...

Then I couldn’t take it anymore...

Looking 100 feet down, I was ready to jump and end it all.

End it all.

But no, my soul couldn't jump...

I thought about my precious mother, how she always have been there for me..

No, I couldn’t jump.

I couldn’t do that to her...

I couldn’t do that to her...

I had to live...

For her.

 

 

For her.

 

And the Supreme, He showed me that I need not my fathers love.

 

Ay, I need nothing now.

For His Love.

His Love annihilated all.

 

His Love annihilated all.

[Highest]

Praise be to God.

They say He doesn't come down to us.

I say, He came to me.

He came to me.

His Love is still living in me.

Changed me.

Transformed me.

The One who formed me in my precious mothers womb... With care and love.

I say, believe whatever the fuck you want...

The living Supreme came to me.

I remember it vividly.

Thinking about it... I cannot help but cry.

For He showed me what I am worth.

I am worth His very fuckings love.

He showed me that I am loved.

Not by any man.

Nay, by GOD HIMSELF!

 

My soul is in rest.

 

 

My soul is in rest.

 

 

 

[Highest]

The Supreme.

For all I have done.

For all that which has happened.

I was not worthy of His presence.

But Ay, Surely He came to me.

The most Good. The most Pure.

By Him I was created.

By Him my soul recieved it's breath.

By Him, my soul recieved His Love.

And it told me, "All is good my child. I know everything you have gone through."

It told me, "I am your God, I am your Creator..."

"And I love you. I have always loved you."

"I love you."

All Good He is. His Love...

 

Put my very soul to rest, forever...

 

 

Forever.

[Highest]

I have gone through it all.

All.

The dark night of the soul has nothing he could do to me.

Child's play.

Now, I see.

It's evolution.

From this to that, to that and to this.

I say, fellow devils, I have gone through what you all have gone trough.

And more.

But God, the Supreme, in which no man in flesh is Him...

He created a soul, a spirit which he Breathed into me...

He then breathed His Love into it...

That's why I went through everything...

And here I still am.

What an adventure it was.

Full circle.

And here I am.

Stronger than never before.

 

Stronger than never before.

 

 

 

What an adventure.

[Highest]

She turned into a 6-year old girl.

Right in front of me.

She said, with a very light voice, "Hey, my name is Ingrid."

I thought, I had to keep it cool until she returned.

I said, "Hey Ingrid."

She said, "Do you want to play with me."

My body, I feel it now as I'm writing this.

Scary shit.

I said, "Okay Ingrid, what do you want to play?"

She went and got some play cars.

We pushed them back and forth to each other.

I said, sensing that she was harmless, "Do you like it, Ingrid?"

She said with a smile, "Yes."

I said, "Good."

I almost couldn't look her in the eyes.

I said, "How old are you Ingrid?"

She said, "I'm 6-year old."

She then asked me, "How old are you?

I said," I'm 22."

And about an hour went by.

I saw it, she came back now.

She said, "Sorry, I know what happened, but I couldn’t control it."

I said, "It's all fine, it's all fine."

 

It's all fine.

 

 

Edited December 27, 2019 by Highest

[Highest]

Being back, I said "Do you want to smoke weed?"

She said, "Yes."

So we smoked. Talked.

Then she said, "I have about 30 personalities."

I said, "Tell me about them."

Ready to get fuck out of there.

But she didn't mention any pshycopath, fortunately...

But she did mention...

A war veteran.

So I smoked the joint...

I said, "I have to go now."

She said, "But we haven't done it."

I said, "I don't like doing it the first time. Next time probably."

 

I never saw her again.

 

It's was fascinating due...

Magical...

Extraordinary...

 

Scary.

 

 

Just the way I like it.

[Highest]

I remember, my bad girl ex.

I said, "You can't do it. It's too big."

She said, "I accept your challenge."

She did it, effortlessly.

She said, "Why are you shivering, is it your first time?"

I just laughed.

I said, "We don't have money. My friends and I need you to help us with a dealer target."

She said, "What do I need to do?"

I said, "Just act like you are buying from him. We will take him when time comes."

She did, effortlessly.

Now we had it all, weed and powder.

We sniffed, smoked, had sex - repeat.

For the whole week.

This dealer had more than enough...

 

This dealer had more than enough. ?

Edited December 27, 2019 by Highest

[Ananta]

13 minutes ago, Highest said:

This dealer had more than enough. ?

Are you implying or insinuating something here? 

[Highest]

1 minute ago, Anna1 said:

Are you implying or insinuating something here? 

What do you mean?

[Ananta]

Just now, Highest said:

What do you mean?

Are you a dealer?

[Highest]

3 minutes ago, Anna1 said:

Are you a dealer?

Hahahaha.

Nope.

[Ananta]

Just now, Highest said:

Hahahaha.

Nope.

You talk about weed all the time like you are advertising it. Like a dealer would. Just saying that's how it looks. 

[Highest]

Just now, Anna1 said:

You talk about weed all the time like you are advertising it. Like a dealer would. Just saying that's how it looks. 

And you look beautiful ??

Now, was it anything more?

[Ananta]

4 minutes ago, Highest said:

And you look beautiful ??

Thank you

5 minutes ago, Highest said:

Now, was it anything more?

No. 

On a side note, I like your Jack and Rose picture/avatar.❤

 

[Highest]

2 minutes ago, Anna1 said:

Thank you

No. 

On a side note, I like your Jack and Rose picture/avatar.❤

 

No worries. ?

And tnx, it's my favorite movie.❤️

[Ananta]

19 minutes ago, Highest said:

tnx, it's my favorite movie.❤️

Yeah, it's good stuff. I think I've seen it 4 or 5 times myself.

"I'll never let go Jack", hehe.